well fed.

my short weeks in kl so far....
ahahha. 1st dinner out.
KEN brought me to eat beef noodles at this road side stall nearby....
yummmms.....
good food. relatively affordable price la.... (KL maaaaa)
but it was nice...
:)

we had noodles and sugar cane drinks i tink.
sugar cane drinks is RM1.50.... i tink.... i'm being auntie again... O.O"
oopps!
but the food was good. KEN was nice enough to pao me home tooooo!
ahahaha. :)

few days after that. tarquin bawa me to makan... that day emo la...
long day at work. and I"M BROKE!!!
lolz.
so tarquin belanja-ed me food.
gooooooood food.

being the angmo tat he is....=.="
he brought me to one of his fav spots.
Finnegans. one of KL's oldest irish pub/restaurant.
One of the first Irish pubs in town, Finnegan's, with its authentic-looking wood panelling and furniture, is one of the most popular drinking holes in town. The menu consists of mainly traditional English and Irish favourites.

we had pies and mussels....mmmmmmm...cheesy mussels....
ahahah.
and a wholelot of COKE.

ahhahaha.
yes yes people. i can never run away from having coca-cola's.

to sum tat outing up. the food was sinfully delicious. the company was simply great.
we just chilled la... talked bout our shitty stories. wahahah.
i havent seen him for so long.
and i dint noe he stayed so near.
(nor the fact tat i'm working so near KL Tower...)
but thats another one of those caryn-kl-jakun-stories.
not food-related. ahahahah

the next day, colleagues bawa me for some good chicken rice.
its right opposite where i ate dem beef noodles.
ahahha.
i'm a fan of chicken rice.
so.... its ALL SO GOOD to me....

chicken rice...beef noodles....chessy mussels....
yes...
as i've told u all...
caryn maybe broke.... but she is well fed.

:)

james recently called me too!
he nooes the inside n outside of KL...
wahahah. more glorious food awaits.

:)

ryn

free planner!!!

hello people!!!
you busy busy people with your busy busy life.
ahahah.

all that juggling and time managing can be alot of work sumtimes.
if u are a fan of dem planners... den this will sure be a good tool for u!!

:)

Dutch Lady recently introduced the only 0% fat drinking yoghurt with Green Tea extract, a blend of active life culture and real fruit juice that helps you balance your diet daily and stay in shape.

Choose from five Shine flavours:

• Strawberry/ Raspberry
• Orange Mango
• Lemon Lime
• Apple Aloe Vera
• Peach Passion

and for this particular drink, they've launch this diary/planner widget!

www.itstartsinme.com

when at this site. just click on the more info about SHINE Stay-In-Shape Diary.
and the frame below will pop out!
kindly sign up by registering your name and email and password.
when that is done sign in to the site and you will be able to download the diary widget!!!

you have to make sure that your pop-up blocker is temporarily disabled kays?

a zipped file will be saved and you just have to extract & install it.

its pretty fun. its this small green diary on your desktop.
(to move it around you just have to right-click&drag)


other than the diary. it also has a diet / calorie tracker and lots more!

i actually find the widget adorable. but if u think its occupying too much of your space you can always minimize it. and it will be tucked away in a bag on your desktop!
try it!

EarthHour.09

planned by Uncle Kiong @ ara damansara.

# dinner at 7.30pm
# all dining stops at 8.30pm
# be given a candle before 8.30pm
# first, we appreciated darkness, this signify that even if life is without the necessity, we are still alive and kicking and we can still appreciate nature and life
# then, one candle is lighted. This signify ONE life. Look at power of one life. If one is alone, what can one do. How pathetic. How lonely
# soon, that one candle light another candle. Then we have two candles. And two candles light two other candles. Look at the power of sharing. Sharing of love, sharing of care and sharing of LIFE.
# at 9pm, scented candles will be lighted. This adds joy into life.
# At 9.30pm – tv switch on, computer switch on, lights switch on, air cond switch on

ahahha, after that... we had vodka...tea from china is served. loads more food came after that. :)

The living room.
at 8.15pm.

after 8.30.
*Y still so bright??*
neighbour tak tutup lampu!
=.="
potong stim.

we went outside and purposely talk LOUD LOUD about earth hour.
ahahah. den the lights went off.
LOLX

after 15-20minutes.
the 1st candle was lighted.and the light was pass on to others.after that the scented candles were lighted too!
it's suppose to add joy to life!

my sis & broinlaw.
sis terkena wax!

candlelight dinner for those who came late!!

more pictures...

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loves, ryn

how did your earth hour go?

生病。 sick a!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

讨厌。

每当自己身体开始出现症状。

糟了。

要病了。

很不开心。

最近身体一直烧着退着烧着退着。

我坚持了这么久，挣扎了这么久。。。

拼命喝水，吃水果，吃蔬菜，维他命！！

但是挣扎了一个星期。。。

我真的病了！！

我怎么可以病！！！

不行啊！还有大把事情忙着的！

不能病倒啊！！！

气死我了！

生气自己为什么要病倒！

生气自己为什么这么弱！

怎么酱容易就倒了？！！

生病的感觉很辛苦。。。

尤其是当气喘又要来的时候。

呼吸困难。

整个人软了下来。

好象废人般。

讨厌！！！！

i hate the fact that i am weak.

i hate the fact tat i am sick.

i've tried... despite a week long of on & off fever n running nose.

tday it finally broke.

my nose is running, my head feels like its craching by the minute, my throat is sore, my tonsils are swollen...

everything is wrong.

i hate this.

whenever my asthma feels like its coming back.

the difficulty to even catch my breath.

it makes me feel like shit.

i feel so hopeless. so.... weak.

yuck.

emo a!

balrdy ssshhhiiiiiiiccccckkkk!

Kuala Lumpur---- mahal...

Call me “old fashion”, “kolot”, “kiamsiap” or “aunty”.
Which ever la…

But *ding dong! * crap I miss RM0.80 barli ais! And RM 1.00 kopi-o ler…
This short exposure in KL… omigosh…
When iced-barli costs around RM 1.30…haiyoh seijor…
And no one is complaining about it wo.

KL hor… $$$$
My $$$$ oso running out man…

: (

Sobs

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On a lighter note,
Caryn in kl very kelian wan…
Coz she wakes up and goes to work at 6 ish, 7ish am…
Den sometimes she will go back around 6ish, 7ish , 8ish or 9ish lo…
Wahaah.

But gt la ppl sayang me here!
*thank kiuuuuu*

Ken brought me to makan famous beef noodle that day for dinner…. yummmm…..
Caroline n the geng bawa me go makan chicken rice this afternoon around that area too…. Once again… *chicken rice~ DROOLZZZ~ *
Tarquin is gonna pao me for dinner too later.

; )
Yes… I may be broke. But I am well fed.

Ahahaha.
Loves,
Caryn

Dear Alicia

Dear Alicia,
I don't really know how to tell you this, your nostrils are insulting. I think I realized it when you put cuffs on me when we skinny dipped in the bathtub and I saw you put whipped cream on my boyfriend. I'm sure you're cowardly enough to understand I’m allergic to your earlobes. I'm returning your nose hair clippers to you, but I'll keep your photo with the moustache drawn on it as a memory. You should also know that I told my psychiatrist about the bruises and I’m off to lead a new life as a lemon.

Please don’t hurt me,
Caryn

waaahahahaahhahahahhahahahahahhahahahaha...
when i read it the 1st time...
my mata popped!!
LOLZ!
"put cuffs on me when we skinny dipped in the bathtub!!!"
"whipped cream my boyfriend"

wahahahahah
*rolls on the floor*

***Here's how you do it:

Dear (someone you recently talked to),I don't really know how to tell you this,(1). I think I realized it (2)(3) andI saw you (4)(5). I'm sure you're (6) enough to understand (7).I'm returning your (8) to you, but I'll keep (9) as a memory.You should also know that I (10) and (11).(12),Name



1) What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - I'm in love with your cat
Red - Our affair is over
White - I’m joining the Convent
Black -Our romance is over
Green- Our socks don't match
Grey - You're a leprechaun
Yellow - I'm selling myself for candy
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - Purple hedgehogs want to destroy you
Other -I dislike your eyelashes


2) Which is your birth month?
January - That night you picked your nose
February -When I quoted Forrest Gump
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on peanut butter
May - When I threw up in your sock drawer
June - When you put cuffs on me
July – When I saw the purple monkey
August - When you smacked my ass
September - Last year when you peed your pants
October - When we skinny dipped in the bathtub
November - When your dog humped my leg
December - When I finally changed my underwear


3) Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - When we skinny dipped in the bathtub
Chicken- In your carPasta - Outside of your office
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad – As you were eating Kraft Dinner
Lasagna - In your closet
Kebab - With Jean Chrétien
Fish - In a clown suit
Sandwiches - At the Elton John concert
Pizza - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a street light
Annat- With George Bush and Stephen Harper


4) What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Ignore
Red - Put whipped cream on
Black - Hit on
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - bit of
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the pants off of
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive over


5) What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My boyfriend
White - My father
Grey – The Catholic Priest
Brown – The Montreal Canadian’s goalie
Purple - My corned beef hash
Red – My knee caps
Blue - My salt-beef bucket
Yellow - My illegitimate child in Ghana
Orange - My Blink 182 cd
Pink – My ‘My Little Pony’ collection
Other --The elephant in the corner


6) What do you prefer to watch on TV?
One Tree Hill - Senile
Heroes- Frostbitten
Lost - High
Simpsons- Cowardly
The news - Scarred
American Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Open
Top Model - Bitchy
Annat -shamed


7) Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful you are
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That I get turned on only by garbage men
Angry - That your smell makes me vomit
Depressed – That we’re related
Excited - That I may pee my pants
Nervous - The middle-east is planning their revenge on you
Worried - That your Ford sucks
Apathetic - That you need a sex-change
Silly - That I'm allergic to your earlobes
Cuddly - That Santa doesn't exist
Ashamed - That there is no solution to you being a dumb kid
Other - That your driving sucks


8) What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your toe ringYellow - Your love letters to me
Red - The pictures from Vegas
Black - Your pet rock
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - Your car
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your nose hair clippers
Grey - Our matching snoopy underwear
Purple - Your old New Kids on the Block blanket
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your Hannah Montana underwear

9) The first letter of your first name?
A/B - My virginity
C/D - Your photo with the moustache drawn on it
E/F - Your neighbors dog
G/H - The oil tank from your car
I/J - Your left ear
K/L - The results of that blood-sample
M/N - Your glass eye
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X – Your sucide note
Y/Z - Your credit cards

10) The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Love your sweet, sweet ass
C/D - Always will remember the pep talks
E/F -Never will forget that night
G/H – Will not tell the authorites that you stole the whale from the backyard.
I/J – Mocked you behind your back constantly
K/L - Hate your cooking
M/N - Told in my confession today about the moose poaching
O/P - Told my psychiatrist about the bruises
Q/R - Always wanted to break your legs
S/T - Get sick when I think of your feet
U/V - Will try to forget that you broke my heart
W/X - Haven’t showered in a month
Y/Z – am better off without you

11) What do you prefer to drink?
Wine- Our friendship is ruined
Soft drink – I’m off to lead a new life as a lemon
Soda – I will haunt you when I’m reincarnated as an Eskimo
Milk - The apartment building is on fire
Water – I'm scratching my butt as you read this
Cider– I have a passionate interest for mice
Juice – You ruined my attempts at another world war
Mineral/Vitamin water – You should get that embarrassing rash checked
Hot chocolate – Your Cucumber-fetishism is weird
Whiskey - I love Oprah Winfrey
Beer – Thanks for the Cocaine
Other – you should stop picking your nose

12) To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand – Warm tingly sensations
Australia - Best of luck on the sex change
France - Love always
Spain - With tears of sadness
China – You make me sick
Germany – Please don’t hurt me
Japan - Go milk a cow
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
USA - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt – Kiss my butt
England - Go drown yourself.

:)

• my graduation showcase is done!!!
• i'm officially graduated...!! i tink... waahahah.
• my results are out!!! nt too chabby... they arent straight A's... but nt too shabby either. :) i've learnt that they dun matter tat much anymore. i've learnt so much and met so many people in these years....

OLD SCHOOL GRADUATION SHOWCASE 2009
20.03.09 - 22.03.09

-my corner-
title: "coke" the musuem.
model credits to Lydia Kwan! & Tzer.

notice the colourful note pads?
:)
they're from the family, frens and people that came to the event.
their comments and love!

yes yes... caryn feels very loved rite now.
to the people that came to support.
to the people that accompanied and helped.
to those people to hugged and send gifts.
to people to stayed up till 7am to help with setup.
to people who din shave nor sleep to rush our stuff.
to the sms messages and cards and flowers.
to people to volunteered and helped.
to meeting back old friends and getting messages to family members.
-happyfamilycreatedbytecklimkitfong-
-cartoonfrenz-
-prison.of.art-
-friends-
-companions-

:)

• i'm currently doing a short term job again. at an agency in the heart of kl. the job is fun. the poeple are interesting. the experience so far-great! trying to soak up as much as i can. place is freezing cold tho! hahaha. nonetheless. :)
  

• a random shot from pretty long ago. courtesy of tarq!
• the hat wasnt even mine. lolz. i tink its john's.
• andy/john/aizat's house party.
  

iamnotdrunklook.

:)

feeling the lost.

It seems just yesterday when we would hang around siewkuan’s place after school,
just chilling, watching 8tv and hogging the couch.

It seems just yesterday when her grandma would cook us lunch, of vege, soup, chicken wings and such, on special occasions we would also have a tasty homemade red bean ice cream treat!

“Amah!” we would call her fondly because after so many years, we were all very close. We would all sit down in the hall’s red couch and talk to her sometimes, we’d talk about family, school, food and whatever not’s.

When my grandma passed away I took the blow hard. And in time I soon grew even closer to her as she was ever always comforting and patient.

Even though she spent most of her time alone at home, she had her kids her grandkids, she was contented I would say. As time passed, especially after we finished high school, we grew older, and unfortunately she too grew older and weaker.

There were times when we visited her, she would wobble around with her walking aid and her legs could not carry her very well. She would sigh as people around the house grew lesser and lesser; we all went to college and university.

She was lonely, that we knew. And her health conditions are not giving her a good time. She would talk about her aching knees and her troubling stomach, how she couldn’t eat rice and it makes her stomach upset. How she no longer could cook their meals as her legs couldn’t stand for too long. And in the end, she was missing her late husband a lot.

Just yesterday, we received the news. That she passed away. As hard as it was for us, I bet it’s even worst for siewkuan. Perhaps she is in a better place now. A place with less suffering and less pain. We still feel the lost. Everything happens for a reason. And this time, it is for the better.

Amah, you will be deeply missed.

RRRRRrrrrrrRRRRuben!!!

Bumped into Ruben the other day.
OMG i haven’t seen him since…………. 5 years ago!
Not since that low budget trip we took and met him.

Ahahaahah.

Ruben is this foreign friend we met while we where camping there. That time, don’t know why we only had 1 camera among us, and that camera K.O.ed. jatuh lantai.
=.=”

Ahahah. But coz we met Ruben there and he was also traveling around.
We MERGED…. (and also PAO-ed him digital camera la!!)
Ngeh ngeh ngeh.

I couldn’t recognize him coz we only met for like… 5 days.
J
But he yelled after me at the kl train station the other day!!
He went like (in heavy Indian slang) “YOU!!! That girl! I still have u in my camera!”

Wahahahah.
Neways, we exchanged emails.
WOOTS! I want dem photos back!!!!!

yeeer.dirty~

because the night before i was rushing somw work with the college campaign....
din sleep mer...
i finish work....rush to borrow CS3 installer....
den rush back....
uninstall my ancient CS....
install CS3....
den started work... until 5.30am!!!

yday hor.... yeeeeer... i reach home around 9.
ate and den....
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
slept! until the next morning.
i woke up tday stil in my work clothes!
quickly bath n went to work again...


yeeeerrrr.... even i'm disgusted.

AND..........
my phone went cuckoo coz yday kena rain on the way back...
sobs.
my messages all messed up liao.
some come..some dont.
some half...
:(

开工了。

嗨朋友们！我又开工了。
才刚交完了最后一个“final assignment”，休息了一会儿。
那天电话就响了！

实在是又惊又喜。有间大公司达赖要找实习。
我的第一个反应，“实习？”我毕业了咧！还实习啊？
=.="
考虑了很久很久。
它是一件大跨国公司。而且还是全亚洲第3咧。
实在是犹豫不决。

最后怎样？
我就是又怕死又怕输咯。。。
结果？





。。。
。。。。
。。。。。
。。。。。。

今天去了吉隆坡开工了。
他叫我9。30早上到。
我9.40才赶到，恨死鬼赛车啊！！！
没料到。。。 我等到了1100，她还没到。。。。
=.="

也没得怪啦。
搞广告这行的。。。时间都乱完了的。

我的岗位是要代替一个这个礼拜就要辞职了的“师姐”。
所以，才第一天。。。 那位印尼师姐一来，就连忙教我这个那个的。。。
午餐，上师带了我去楼下3楼的foodcourt。
公司那栋楼很奇怪，穿来穿去，密密麻麻。假如不是上师带我去，我就真得不可能懂竟然里面躲了一个foodcourt!!
。。。食物。。。不会很贵。当然KL也不会便宜到哪里去。
总算饿肚子还有杂饭吃咯！但也不要一直吃，实习学生赚不多咧！！

人家第一天，轻轻松松就可以回的。
我呀。。。。 今天，8.30才有的回呢！！！
但是学了这么多。。。总算获益不少啊！
所以呢，心里满足感还蛮高的！
haha
:)

但是呢。。。今天学院伙伴“甲”一直给我很多问题。。。
不懂是她不爽我还是什么。
一只打来怨我们学院的project。。。
什么小事都要打来，有点难做啊！
人家做工怎么可以一直接电话的！?
过后她还一直骂我，怨我做么要现在开工。
她说我很自私。。。。
：（
我真得不懂啦。。。 这么好的机会，难道就这么放手？
我又不是丢掉了整个project不做。
我还每个礼拜请假回来update和做啊。。。
而且，我是在整个project已经plan了七七八八了才放心接受了这分工。
难道还有什么事没负责任到了吗？

实在是的。。。
搞到我内疚到。。。。。。
到完工了整10点到家，又要干那个project的东西给她。。。。
因为今天教授看了，有东西要改。
她又用“不是我的份内事”硬塞要我赶完。。。

有时蛮滚的咧。。。。
好像一直被踩着酱。。。
“喂！你平时都会自私，我都坑了啊！现在给我自四点，就不行啦？”

燕。

抱歉，我今天只是纯粹要发泄下。

get to know myself better.

tagged by layhoon which she linked this particular quiz over for me to try.

its ....INTERESTING.

lol

QUIZ!!

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

GGRR

caryn feels like biting people's kepala off!

GGRR.

angry a... dissapointment a.... TIRED WEIII!!!

its a miracle i havent start labelling and calling people "bitch" or "bastards" .... yet...
wahahha. however, UNFORTUNATELY the word "fuck" has a become a very used term within these few weeks. oh boy... theres goes my karma. *shy*

oh dear god. holy moly the amount of things and people i have to cope with!! LOLZ! i noe i sound like sum bratty pampered biatch for saying that. i also noe that sum people are having worst days den mine. no worries. caryn hasnt gone all cuckoo yet.


i spent last night rushing wallpapers, realizing i cant finish. panicked!! starts calling people whom i hope i can bet my entire life upon! crying in the middle of the night. emo and starts wondering around aimlessly. OMG. nt healthy. stared at the clock, 7am. slept for 1hour and half. den when college. SOO MUN THYE ffk me. say wanna meet me at coll at 10 to help me with wallpaper. until 12 i keep calling him!!! TATS Y HIS NAME BOLD OK?) wahahah. den i finally get to call him. he jus woke up. =.=" when i finally saw him in college. i swear i could jus kick him! but i manage to control my anger and jus ended up whacking the daylights outof him from the 7th floor to 6 floor. and continue to torture him the whole effing day. wahahahaha.

i saw ansif tday at the video editting room too. ansif is this really hot and talented indian dude tats studying Dip in Video Animation.
thats it man. he is like Bollywood Brad Pitt! ahahah. still hot. *drools*

wahahah. all of the sudden, i miss my high school frens. i went back tday and emo la... den i saw my sis which i poured out all my "woes me" and "why me??" and " OMG" to her. she went all analytical on me..... again. and AGAIN, i'm the dumb wan la. conclusion is to nt let things which i dun hav control over bug me and eat me alive. LOLZ. like i din noe. but it did make me miss my friends desperately.

someone please bring me out and sayang me la...
emo a~!!

holidays but stil.....

when is the "fun" part gonna start?

theres...showcase commitments...
holy moly its.... suffocating.
from contractors to sponsorship hunt to chasing after money to... designing wallpapers.
lols
interesting buthen... haih...
memeningkan .

then theres the prefect camp/kcba thingy.
lols.
eventho i still have no idea wat will be my duties,
i can predict more long nights of planning and discussions and meetings.
help...

i feel like digging a hole and HIDEEEE!
ryn

letting go

i noe that if i do not let go.
there will be no chance of us ever being the friends that we were.
theres jus so much memories and history.

honestly.

i hav no idea how to "let go" of it.

i noe it will be better.
i noe it will be easier.
perhaps all i need is time.

yes.
i hope thats the case.

busy bee

tday has been a havoc.
a mess!

soooo much to do!
contractor meet ups.
driving in the middle of damansara's tiny weeney roads is simply impossible.
getting lost! and the only sign towards the main road is "temple" n "rubbish dump".
lolz
KEN!!!! ooo... tqtqtq! for tolerating my panic attacks. to temaning me ans representing me coz my cantonis TAK BOLEH PAKAI.
:)

redrawing the event plans.
acting like sum kiam siap auntie.
"jimat"
"WHICH WAN CHEAPER???"
"I WAN CHEAPEST!!!! " BUT KENOT FALL DOWN!!!
lols
remeasuring all that.
urgent call for henry my ever ready archi-kawan.
OOOOO my superman!!!
1 call... i noe i can count on u...
:)
immediately he came to rescue me...
LOLZ.
seijor... i was gonna jus sit by the road side n cry man.
sobs.
but he was nice enough to count, measure, draw and analyze for me.
wahahah.
I WILL BELANJA HIM MCD ANYTIME MAN!!!!

lastly, LOVE MATTERS.
i was really looking forward for this movie.
thousand apologies to mandy for dragging and making her wait.
and all the things that happened tday.
really sorry to mandy n wishan.
i've really been busy. and everything is like UP TO MY NECK.
can choke n die now.
really soweeeeeeee.

“Love Matters” is a movie revolves around three main protagonists –

52 year old Tan Bo Seng, 17 year old Benny his teenage son and 36 year old Jeremy, Bo Seng’s ‘adopted’ brother – and their accidental journey in seeking and keeping love and happiness.

Bo Seng (Henry Thia) leads a routine life. Attempts to revive the passion with his wife Jia Li (Yeo Yann Yann) cannot improve their stale love life. Henry Thia's Bo Seng and Yeo Yann Yann's Jia Li are husband and wife of many years, and they experience marital woes of not being appreciated and witnessing their sex life evaporate. Throw in some male ego-centric anxieties, and that sums up the first arc, a subject matter that Jack had tackled with That One No Enough

Jeremy (Jack Lim) lives a colourful life, colourful in reference to his long list of girlfriends. “Never to commit” is his motto for love.

Benny (Alex Leong) has just school life, his only vice is anything to do with the computer, his only distraction is his crush, Jennifer (Natalli), his classmate’s girl.

Bo Seng & Jia Li the old fashion couple has more misses than hits in the love department and a series of madness spin off one night …

Jeremy meets Benny’s teacher, Ms Wong (Cheryl Lee) - a lady, unlike the wild things he has had. His charm wins him her heart, but his Casanova means refuse to take a back seat, a new lady friend threatens to change his life …

Benny starts to see hope in relationships, when Jennifer notices him and invites him over to her place. Over the visit, Jennifer’s friendly attention, takes a turn into something that Benny wish he has not been…

“Love Matters” is a humorous and entertaining look at love, happiness and issues concerning our straight laced society. It is full of trade-mark Jack Neo’s laugh-a-minute jokes and situations yet combined with a sensitive look at how we deal with issues concerning matters of the heart.

Interestingly enough. I did not noe that this is a show done in Malaysia KL. LOLZ.
i tot its a singapore show. hoho.

i heard that it is a far cry for jack neo's great works as alot of parts were pretty badly executed.
lame jokes. weird kiddo actors, especially the "teenager" parts.

but the reason y "love matters" interested me was the message it was trying to send.
1. i tink it is one of the very few ( if nt first few) sex related movie in Malaysia.
2. i tink the most sentimental part of the movie are done by the veterans la. the husband and wife. one of the main message was that after being married for so long, " i do not know if u still love me" idea came up. its seriously true in the sense that alot of couples fall apart after being married for so many years. and after 20, 30 years later they find themselves wondering if their partner still loves them like they use to. given that they have both aged and so occupied with their family. there oso the "jus because we dont have sex anymore doesnt mean that i dont love u anymore", the whole marriage concept has been put up to the challenge in this show.

it may be a little bit over dramatise, it maybe a little bit too theatrical. it may not be Jack Neo's best work. but heck, it shud still be a watchable show laaaa...

woots!

random posts:

• i lost weight. 3 kgs to be exact. dunno lari go where but i seriously dun care.
• i've got back a new memory cards. YAY more candid phone photos!!!! my old memory card died. kesian i have to survive without camera memory.
• i need to go ikea to buy..... frames and boards/racks. GOT SALE!!!
• my room is now 3/8 painted. i chosed brown red n yellow in the end. :)
• i'm broke. like pokai jor. money still at negative now coz my finals claims. dun dare to show parents. LOL. wahahah. seijor.
• i'm hooked on to McD's now. thansk to ah soo. die lo. gonna go fat again.
• i've recently contacted back alot of OLD OLD frens.
  
• i'm currently hooked on to a bunch of malay/indon songs. and thanks to eunice, bro-chris, mr andy! and THANES! i'm now overdosed wit indon songs!!!! damn fengtao man some. :)
  -changcuters
  -ungu
  -kerispatih
  -dewi
  -dellon
  -andra
  -d masiv
  
• lalalal.

ryn

pack up.

my finals are done people!
*yay!!!*

*jumps around*

rested 1 full day of pure ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ...
syok nye.

i havet touched my room since we broke up.
all his stuff/our stuff still there.
mayb i'm nt ready yet. i dunno.
i just kenot tahan la...

den tday my mom opened my room door.
thats the end la.
she went into "cleanup" mode.

i'm forced to face it abit earlier den expected.
i seriously dun get her la.
i keep telling her that i will clean em up.
jus not now.
i keep telling her "i will settle it".
give me sum time.
i keep telling her DONT TOUCH DEM 1ST LA... i'll do it!!
y in the world couldnt my mom understand???
ish.
she yelled back.
"TAKE ALL THESE RUBBISH AND THROW LA"
"NO BIG DEAL WAN... I DUN UNDERSTAND Y U WANNA KEEP ALL THESE"
"U HOR!!!!"

...
...
...
...
..

i wanted to like explode "U NEVER SAT LUEN BEFORE IZZIT???" "NEVER BREAK UP EMO BEFORE MEH?"

ish.
anyways.
i had to pack em up
i din not want to.
it still sakit la~~
bangang betul.

as i went through the photos... the notes... the letters... the little gifts... the flowers... the presents...
i wailed and cried like sum fountain la...

its like everytime i placed sumthing into the box...
i tell myself.
"it over"

ouch.

sakit a~~~~~~~~~~~~~

my eyeballs now...
like "seeeeee hammmm"...
bengkak la!

ahahahah.

random note:

• my hse is wifi friendly again thanks to my bro-in-law.
• i feel like repainting my room... either dark red+light light yellow... or dark dirty green with light light green... any suggestions???
• i wan to go ikea... anyone wanna bring me there?

rain.

i love rain.
i like the feeling as the raindrops fall on me.
which is y i find sitting in the tub under the shower very very calming.

it rained today.
it poured heavily.

it felt so saddening.
yet at the same time, i'm holding on to every drop and every moment of it.

i pick myself up everytime.
it still hurts when i fall.

:)

these two days have been great.
great people.
beautiful help.
wonderful free lunches and dinners.

i honestly feel blessed.
from tahpao-ed supper at 2 am.
to McD late dinner at 9.30pm.
so much.

caryn feels so loved.

more to update soon.

:)

day 10.

ten days have passed.
i've learnt to let go.
i couldnt say that its a success.
but i can say.
i'm alright now.

i really am.
i may not have "let go" 100% ... yet.
but i'm moving on.
and i'm learning fast.

:)

for the people who have enfured my tears and my wails.
for those whose ears couldnt have fallen off jus hearing me mumble.
thanks you.
for those who have their shirts wets from my tears.
thanks.

:)

day 9

photographs are always something i love.
i can spend my days wandering around snapping away.
it brings me peace. it calms me.
they are not always the best shots.

but it brings out my emotions.
it signifies... ME.

i took a walk today.
too frustrated with work.

something to share:
this is how it feels like. breaking up wit my best friend.
the rain brings out even more than i expected.
its day 9 now.
and i tink i'm doing well.

missing him is.... inevitable.
i still miss him tremendously.
but its tolerable now.

and i'm now on submerge in my assignment.
so its still ok.

i still get emotional occasionally.
but everytime i cry, it gets better.
i'm slowly letting go.
progress is going quite ok.

i dont go on and on and on and on with sadness bout breaking up la.
LOLZ.

emoness gets lesser and lesser from time to time.
sadness tones down as well.
i'm moving on pretty fine i reckon.

its been alrite.
no. no.
i'm alrite.

:)
today i give myself a 75%.

ryn

day 8.

habit.
i hav this weird habit whereby i think things differently.
and its not in a good way.

i'm considered a realist, where i always have to plan ahead. i always have a backup plan and i always think too much. i'm always anticipating a problem/crisis.
when in reality i am in fact a pessimist.
when its smthg related to me.
i'll relate it to the negatives before i see the positive.
after denying it for so long.

i'm ..... wrong.
shit. after all these years.
he is right. :/
=.="

你说分手后，第二天就马上就去买了一个闹钟。
这。。是你要告诉我你不再需要我了吗？

想了想，发觉是真的。
这两年多他说的是正确的。
我想东西真得很奇怪。
很多时候我想事情会一直针对自己去转。
我好像对我自己很有偏见列。

明明他是说，他在学习着怎样照顾自己。
“当已经没有人帮你做这样事情，就要学习自己做咯。”
他嬉皮笑脸地说。

实在是的，我也在笑我自己傻。

today...busy busy busy bee.
i went out to with mandy tday.
ahaha. it was fun...
tho i still cant believe we spent nearly the whole day there.
:)

mayb coz i had mandy.
and maybe coz i was out tday.
also maybe coz i was so busy.

i din emo much tday.
:)

70% it is la for tday.
：）

day 7

我用我的心，感受你的痛。
with my heart, i try to feel your pain.
我用我的爱，聆听你内心。
with my love, i listen to your heart.
我用我的生命，照亮你的生命。
if i can, i'll use my life to shine on yours.
我不期望你成为什么。
i do not expect you to be someone else.
只要你内心欢喜。
as long as deep down u are happy.
因为我爱你。
because i love u.

我和你在心中，一直默默的承诺。
in our hearts, we solemnly promise.
不管多远心依然会靠近。
no matter how far the distance, it wouldnt effect us.
我和你风雨中，虽然偶尔会失落。
in all this rain and storm, its inevitable that we will get lost and wary.
但在黑夜灯会亮，心会开。
but when darkness comes, so will the light to shine on our hearts.
让爱回家。
to bring us all home.

its interesting how the brain work.
yesterday when i 1st heard this song, because i was thinking of him.
i thought of him.
and the words in this song became so emotional.
today when i hear this song again,
its different.

this is a song about love,
this is a song about hope,
this is a song about companionship.
honestly, this is a song about family.
its so subjective, how we think.

interesting how our emotions affect the way we look at things.

temple was fun today. it was tiring yet it was pretty great.
running around, being 1/3 of the designated photographer.
taking part in the performances.
helping the new MC.
tzer din come today.
actually i kinda anticipated hi nt coming.
coz we were up yesterday night till 4am.
=.="

DONT WORRY PEOPLE!
nthg dramatic happened.
it was jus a friendly "so how are u now"talk.
bout valentines.
bout his plans for valentines.
poor boy actually booked a table and roses.
so in the end, he ate a lavish valentines dinner with one of his hengtai-buddy.
and i have no idea wat happened to the roses.
den they went chick hunting in clubs.
but nevermind that.

after a fun morning-afternoon with the kcba ppl.
i actually went to find tzer.
to give him back sum of his stuff.
today was the 1st time i saw him and talk to him after we broke up.
we sat in the car and talked.
for almost 2 more hours.

我握着他的手臂，心一阵阵的痛。
也许还没完全放下吧。
但是握久了，也感觉到没那么痛了。
他永远都会是那么熟悉，亲切。
真得就做回“好朋友”那么简单？
得确，我们不会是“好朋友”那么简单。

不过即使我们没在一起，我们还是保持了朋友的关系。
no matter wat was the reason , we still remained friends.

但是心底清楚，对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心。
deep down both of you knew, that you cared more than just friends, just a little bit more.

即使不能跟他名正言顺的牵着手逛街，你们还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。
eventho you all didn't succeed as a couple, you all are still as close as ever.

经过了这么多风雨，彼此在对方的心中，是特别的。

永远都会是。

todays results a???
hmmm....
60% la...

day 6.

grades tday ---- 50%.

i noe my results getting worst and worst.
haih.

its valentines day.
fine.... blame me for missing him still.

i went back to the temple tday to help.
so much memories.

the hall, the corridors...
doin all these activities together.
everything reminded me of him.
we have so much history, and so much of them are within the temple walls.
i didnt participate in this particular song they were rehearsing.
in fear that i might breakdown and cry on stage tml. O.O

today....
still, a few tears here and there.
people in the temple are the nicest.
they really are.
caryn feels loved.

talked to the teacher for quite abit.
it wasnt as bad as i thought it'll be.
after 6 days.
i'm pretty rational now.
so its still good.

tml....
i'm nt sure if tz will come.
kinda "gelabah".
if he comes.... would it make things worst?
he still isnt picking up my calls.
he jus messages me...
sumehow, part of my emoness now is because i dun think this whole "best frens" thing is gonna work...
i still wanna be frens... i thought he wanted too.
now... i'm nt sure...

on a different note。。。
caryn says:
up to this point i've never regretted doing wat i did for tz
caryn says:
nor would i say i wish it never happen
allie says:
thats good
caryn says:
even if i'll fall for another diff guy
caryn says:
doesnt mean i'll take tz as a "lesson learnt" kinda thing
allie says:
it means u truly cherished it le...
caryn says:
i'll prolly give even more coz of wat i learnt
caryn says:
look
caryn says:
problems like this.
caryn says:
is between u n the bf
caryn says:
and the whole world isnt important
caryn says:
i say fuck the world world for judging. they are nt the one dealing with it
caryn says:
its between u n him. it shud always be.

allie says:
today day 6 pass also ma (:
allie says:
i add 5% for ur sensible talk just now
allie says:
55%

final score 55%。
：）

Valentines.

Happy Valentines Day.

day 6.

TQ

TQ*
name nt fully disclosed in fear that his girlfren will kill me.
lolz.

but he is yet anothe one of my by far surprisingly sweet and nice frens.
he is painfully sarcastic.
and painfully straightforward.
he always threatens to slap me to my senses or whack the shits out of me.

yet.
if i had a prob, he will call me up straightaway.
he will talk me through 3 hours of crap.
he will listen and still try to stuff sum sense into me.
thats him.

:)
TQ, you fat chubby bear.
orea mcflurry on me!
hugs.

day 5.

interestingly.
today wasnt half bad.

altho i admit i'm still nt up to the point where i can jump up and say "HEY! I'M SO OVER HIM LA."
coz i'm not... over it yet.
i'll admit that.

but days get easier easier to go by since i got the closure that i needed.
emoness when down alot. i still stone abit abit.
but its still alright.

i still misses him tho.
but that too is at a tolerable level la...
:)

i spent my today.
with a whole lotta frens... a whole lotta guy frens whom i havent seen in ages.
from college - sun, soo, sam and ken.
to high school - karkiat, yincheng, wenhsien, liruey, ben. chick frens too- shyuan, chiawoon.

sun and synced seems to be one of those "unexpected" frens...
whom from time to time remind me that it's ok to feel the pain... i'll get over it... in time.
its interesting how at times like these...
these few new-er frens seems to surprise me more and more.

when the clock stroke 12am....
i msg-ed him tday.
wished him valentines day.

we chatted for a while.
seems to be alright.

today---- my grades ---- i'll give myself a 60%.
i have a feeling its gonna be this way for a stagnant period of time.

lols

刘力扬 - 眼泪笑了

比想象中更痛 你真的没回头
我命令眼泪不许失控
回忆不跟你走 都挤在我心中
我就有责任让它值得被珍重

谢谢你曾让我难过
谢谢我没有想太多
当爱情左盼右顾的时候

我眼泪都笑了 谁还想哭呢
再勇敢的站着 找回光和热
面对你的时候 我不会舍不得
因为你已是过客 因为路有些曲折
是美的

心碎成了沙漠 就快开凿绿洲
我没有时间不知所措
你温柔的双手 本就不属于我
又何必在乎它以后属于谁呢

谢谢你曾让我难过
谢谢我没有想太多
当爱情左盼右顾的时候

我眼泪都笑了 谁还想哭呢
再勇敢的站着 找回光和热
面对你的时候 我不会舍不得
因为你已是过客 因为路有些曲折
是美的

你眼泪都笑了 谁还会哭呢
来不及完美的 就唱首骊歌
想起你的时候 我不是卑微的
反而我没有遗憾 因为我已爱过你
深深的

day 4 aint that bad! :)

tho it was indeed an emo night.
however, talking to a bunch of frens really did help.
alot.
some of dem i never taught would be so nice, sweet n caring.
thanks ya... to the bunch of unexpected ppl who sayangs me.
yunno who u are *winks*

sorry people.
i noe i made u guys worry.
perhaps its withdrawals la...
after being with a person for so long, i kinda got use to it.
it felt like a sudden emptiness, hilang tempat bergantung. *lalalala.

after 4 days, things sort of grew into perspective.
altho i still get the sudden urge of wondering wat in the world is he doing.
but i've made peace with myself.
i noe it was gonna happen.
i noe why it happen.
and infact it wasnt a ugly breakup.

everything happens for a reason, regretfully things din work out between us.
but at least it din get any worst.
:)

i'm proud to say. "i've thought it through." :)
things didn't work out between us. i get it. we've tried.
we're still frens. i'm blessed its still like that.
breaking up doesnt mean that we've stop caring. we'll do fine. we've gt each other.
:)
maybe....just maybe we might sumhow work things out again as a pair.
but it isnt now nor would it be in the very near future.

lets just give it a rest.
let it be.
for me to focus more on my family and my studies and of course my life.
and for him to work out his work, his career and his directions.
its a good decision. now looking at it with a clear mind.

now its time to pick myself up and continue walking.
to try accepting him again as my best friend. (nt very hard wert!)

i'm proud to grade myself today wit a 70%!
:)

*breath * *breath deep*
in time... it will be better.
in time... it will be fine.

:)

看样子，第四天应该也是吃零鸡蛋了。

12/02/2009 4点早上

Synced - Window7 says:
你应该早点休息。。

caryn says:
i still gt so much assignment nt yet do
caryn says:
plus
caryn says:
我不想酱早睡
caryn says:
一个人躺在床上，只会胡思乱想

Synced - Window7 says:
一样de。熬夜做不到好东西。

caryn says:
跟他这么多年了，我整个房里都是他送的东西。都是以前的回忆。

Synced - Window7 says:
想就想啦。。应该好好想一想de
Synced - Window7 says:
才第三天。。

caryn says:
我不要。很辛苦列。。。

Synced - Window7 says:
不想才后悔。
Synced - Window7 says:
一样的。。不想就不辛苦ma？

caryn says:
什么“要做回好朋友“的。。。
caryn says:
都放不下，叫我怎么可以又嘻嘻哈哈的去见他，做回以前的朋友啊？
caryn says:
想。。。 只会让我更辛苦。
caryn says:
因为我们不是因为不爱而分手。
caryn says:
依然是爱。。。但是却无法相处。两个极端不一样世界的人。我们太多的冲突了。连我们都解决不到。
caryn says:
所以呢。。。 我其实很不甘心。更是心疼。

Synced - Window7 says:
我不是你所以不知道问题在哪。。 如果是我，我不会放手de。。爱对方应该有方法ba。。

caryn says:
要快三年了。我们一直在试，一直在撑。
caryn says:
有问题就谈。。。谈不好就让。。。
caryn says:
结果到最后，彼此因为“让”而接受了一些完全自己不认同的事。
caryn says:
结果到最后，他辛苦。我也辛苦。
caryn says:
我认识他快10年了啊。。。 以前就是朋友， 当初决定要在一起是彼此都觉得“跟自己最好的朋友在一起”是多么幸运，更是多么美好。。。。
我们一直都没有放弃，也是因为这点。。。。
caryn says:
但是当走到最后，看到事实。很心疼啊。。。
真的心疼。
caryn says:
决定放手，是因为我们不想要这段感情走下去到最后我们连彼此这个好朋友都失去了。

Synced - Window7 says:
不可能再回头吗? 没得鞔 ？

caryn says:
兜了这么久。“分手”这个选择。。。我们一直都没有去看它是因为，我们坚信“是可以绕的。”“是不可能没得救的”
caryn says:
所以我们一直都不去看它。我们到那晚选择了放手，也是谈了很久很久了。
caryn says:
他。。。。 真的累了。还要烦工作。还要烦我的事。他真得很累了。

Synced - Window7 says:
既然肯定了。。惟有接受事实。。 这需要时间a。。

既然肯定了。。惟有接受事实。。 这需要时间a。。

这句话。刺的我很深。
也许是我一直在挣扎。
是我的执著，我因为不肯放手而搞到我这么痛苦。

老实说，真的很不想放。
能的话，我宁愿咬着不放。

我啊。。。其实心里面，更是有百万的“不想",还有后悔当初为何提出分手。*白痴*

能的话，我好想把话吞回。

但既然已成事实。以肯定了。 我唯有接受。

day 3 --- FAILED.

想念你。
我昨晚尽然因为枕头嗅不到你的味道而大哭了起来。
傻吧。
我都在笑我自己傻。。。

i cried last night.
in fact it wasnt the "a tear or two" kinda cry...

gosh i missed him.
for being such a sweet person for nearly three years.
theres so much memories.

i sat there staring at gazillion zillions of photos last night.
shits.

before i went to college today.
i took off my ring.
i forgotten that it was still there.
i've been wearing it for so long.
looking at my finger now.
theres just this white space.

empty.

as you can see people.
today my results. FAIL!

thanks god the bottom half of my day was FULLY occupied.
i get to rish around and do my work.
and NOT sit alone emoooo.
:) i need to be busy for a while la.
guess thats the better way.

i told myself i wasnt gonna cry.
ish. *smacks head*
GET OVER IT LAAAA!!!

well, tomorrows another day.
lets just hope it'll be better.

day 2.

i tink today went pretty well.

i cant say : "HEY I'M OKAY! SINGLEHOOD HERE I COME BABEH!!!"
but... i din cry so much today.
*claps for me!*

well, i noe i'm only suppose to cry yday.
and be sum strong iron woman today forward.
*lowers head*
i did curi curi illegally drop a tear or two la...
macam "tersebak sebak" la...
eye red-red tat type lo...

but heck.
another day another hurdle.
least it nt as much as yday maaaa.
:)

i went to the post office tday.
to collect a parcel.
interesting enough i went to collect tzer's valentines present.
ironic aint it?
i actually bought it a few weeks ago not knowing that we would've broken up even before it came!

i stared at it for a while....
gt pretty emotional.
i din noe wat i can do wit it!!!!
LOLZ.
i decide to give it to him anyway.
probably this sunday coz we will both go to the cny event in the temple.
*breath deeeeep*

daddy was nice enough to fetch me to pick the stuff up from the post office.
in the car... this song was playing from litefm.

Break it to me gently, let me down the easy way
Make me feel that you still love me, if its just, if its just for one more day.
Break it to me gently, so my tears, my tears wont fall too fast.

If you must go, then go slowly.
Let me love you 'till then.

The love we shared, for oh so long is such a big part of me.
If you must take your love a way, take it gradually.

Break it, break it to me gently.
Give me time, oh give me a little time to ease the pain.
Love me just a little longer, 'cause I'll never ever love again.

emooooooo a!!! i noe the "i will never love again thingy is soooooo dramaqueen la!"
but the rest jus melted me la....
i was sooooo gonna cry.
like stoned-stared at blank space-start breathing reeeeeaaally deeply-den i can feel my eyes heat up.

ooooo shit!
den daddy started to sing~

my dad is soooo sweet.
:)
and he noes that i noe why he started to sing.
i managed to stop the water works just when the first 2 tears fell.
melts. i'll always be daddy's girl.

"the love we shared for oh so long was such a big part of me~~~~~"
dad n i sang the break up song together gether.

mayb it is habit.
i still think of him alot.
like what is he doing.... did he wake up...
we were so close last time i would noe everything he did.

at some point i have to shake the thoughts out.
DO WORK LA!!!! DUUUUUUUN THINK LIAO!!!!

=.="
all around....
i guess it wasnt a very successfull day....
i tink "pass" la...

day2- i give myself 50%.
hope tomorrow will be better.

now.... back to work.

day 1.

given the fact that i still have my finals to rush, my graduation showcase to do and more work,
there wasnt much time for me to mop around and so-call "grieve". hahhaha bagi la saye emo-emo sekejap.

anyways, i've put myself in a 10day programme to sort my life out.
eventho it was a friendly mutual break up.
eventho he shall still be my best friend.
its still nonetheless SAKIT HATI ma~
after nearly 3 yrs, everything i touch now has a memory.
:/
given myself 1day 24 hours to cry my mata-bola out after the breakup.
and that was all i did today.

i needed to get it out of my system la.
so yaaaaa....
i cried my mata bola(s) out today.
cry until my eyes now look like Doraemon's fav burger.
anyways, thats today.
i took a looooooooooong warm bath.
cried all my saki baki out.

and starting from now.
i shall continue with my finals.
:)

i have a mock assesment on feb 20th.
and my finals presentation is on feb 21st.


caryn

我们

after 2yrs and 7months,
935 days.
ｗｅ＇ｖｅ　ｂｒｏｋｅ　ｕｐ．

some might find it sudden,
some find it a waste,
people who know me closely would've known why it happened.

to us,
we've been struggling for a pretty while.
we still care about each other tremendously,
just that being "an item" isnt as easy as it seems.

we tried our best.
we really did.
for a very very long time, we weren't giving up.
we're just tired now.
tired.

perhaps,
its timing, if we were to meet each other 4 years later, things might have worked.
perhaps,
its our character, if i would stop being emotional or if he was more stabilize, it would've work too.
or perhaps,
its just us, we couldnt give each other what they needed, we couldn't make each other happy anymore.

whatever the reason was,
we talked,
and we decided to just take a step back and be frens again.
right now, at this point,
it would be the best option we have.

its 6.00am,
i need to stop crying.
dont worry,
i'm alrite.

just gimme some time.
thanks.

２年７个月，
９３５天后．．．．

我们分手了。
也许你会觉得奇怪，
有些会觉得可惜。

其实对我们来说，
是一件我们挣扎了很久的事。
我们依然彼此相爱，
却无法一起相处。

真的尽力了。
我们都努力了很久。
累了。

也许。。。
时机问题，假如我们４年后在一起，结果或许不一样。
也许。。。
性格问题，假如我可以理智一些，还是他可以稳重些，结果或许又不一样了。
也许。。。
不适合，我们给不到彼此所需要的条件。

无论是怎样，
我们选择了做会朋友。
现在，目前，
这是一个我们都觉得最好的办法。
现在６．００早上了
我到时候停止哭泣了

别再问了，我没事．．．
只需要一点时间．
谢谢．

sorry. no comments on this page.
just give me some time.

OUCH.

fuck man.
i was stunned. din noe shit like this still happens....

DBKL animal cruelty on "360 degrees" documentary TV3

KL mayor to investigate TV3 report on inhumane killing of dogs and cats
By WANI MUTHIAH

Members of the public are crying foul over the way stray dogs and cats are allegedly killed at the the Kuala Lumpur City Hall (DBKL) animal pound in Setapak.

This is in reaction to the visuals shown over a TV3 programme 360° on Wednesday night.

The visuals which were captured with a hidden camera showed a pound worker dragging a dying dog with a loop around its neck.

To make matters worse, the “execution” was watched by another terrified dog waiting in line for its turn to be killed.

In the programme two people, who had brought the matter to the attention of the television station, said the dogs’ necks were fractured and cats were drowned or clobbered to death at the pound.

Independent animal rescuer Leigh Chen said her family had watched the programme after being alerted about it by a friend.

“My mother was in tears when she saw what was being done to the dog. She couldn’t believe that such methods were allowed at a government pound,’’ added a distraught Chen.

Clarance C. R. Chua, of the Malaysian Dogs Deserve Better project, said he failed to understand why the workers had resorted to such barbaric methods.

“The only reason I can think off is that they must have done so to save cost from having to buy the drugs and apparatus needed to euthanise these animals,’’ he added.

He said it was shameful that Malaysians could stoop so low to subjugate defenseless animals to such torture.

(The Malaysian Dogs Deserve Better project is a canine welfare initiative launched by non-profit and non-governmental organisation Community Development and Integration Initiative.)

Meanwhile, when contacted Kuala Lumpur mayor Datuk Ahmad Fuad Ismail said he would not condone such cruelty.

“I will talk to my officers and ask them to investigate the matter.

“And if I catch the people who had allegedly killed the cats and dog at the pound so cruelly, I will duly deal with them,’’ said an enraged Ahmad Fuad.

He said the right procedure was to euthanise stray cats and dogs intravenously as opposed to wringing or breaking their necks.

“If the pound had run out of the drugs needed for euthanasia, they should keep the dogs and feed them until the drugs arrive,’’ added Ahmad Fuad.

Meanwhile, Deputy Federal Territories Minister Datuk M. Saravanan said he was shocked with the revelation and added that the alleged culprits were not DBKL workers.

“The job to round up the strays have been outsourced to the DBKL’s appointed agents,’’ said Saravanan.

He said the allegations were serious and urged concerned members of the public and eye witnesses to lodge official complaints with his ministry.

“We will definitely deal with the matter accordingly as we will not tolerate such cruelty,’’ he added

http://thestar.com.my/metro/story.asp?file=/2009/2/6/central/3204204&sec=central

pondering

interesting.

how things kinda just started, and how they just "kinda just ended"?

LOLz.

sometimes, we cant control they way things work around us.
and being the control freak that i was.
it took me such a long hard time to actually accept it.
it was hard for me.
to kinda just let thing flow and turn out how they were gonna....

i'll always be like "but.. but... its suppose to......." or "but but... why couldnt it...."
fact is, i hate not being able to have control over my life.

and i still cant figure why.

:(

on a totally random note:

"longer one easier to suck on ma!"
random famous quote.
we were refering to mamak teh-o-limao-ais straws ya....
squirt

<3 caryn

chinese new year posts.

the chinese new year.
nt much of writing now.
sorry.
had been relly busy with assignments and dramaaaa~

anyhoo.
knowing me... some photos to entertain you all.
:)


one day, i'm gonna buy myself a dslr la!
ish
one day.

oren ngan mercun

cny deco

GOLD~

fatt choi!

:)

7 things

i happen to bump into this when i was online tat day.
interesting....

sick...
but soooo true.


enjoy

random

photography and me

them.

sometimes, just having them around.
makes everything seems better.

for that reason itself.
our friendship is one of the most precious thing i'm blessed to have with me now.

:)
eventho it was a short gathering.
but just seeing them.
makes all the shit that i'm going thru seem ok...


:)