Tuesday, August 31


Just saw this site from Karen's blog.
It tells you what happened the year you were born.

I was born on 1988.
When I was born, Tom Cruise was in the most famous movie then.
And when I was 15, Tom Cruise was again in the most famous show them.

When i was 15, I was in love with this prefect.
He was artistic & caring. He got me into loving art.
Abit too protective, but damn kao macho.

When I was 15, it wasnt This is The Night by Clay Aiken.
The song was If You're not the one By Daniel Bedingfield.
Hahahahha. because I think Clay Aiken was a Softie. HAH!

Interesting read. :) Give it a try!

Monday, August 30




吉他:Jamie Wilson 贝斯:Khoon

鼓:Martin Ngim 和声:阿顺


OP: Pigeon House Production

在这午夜时分 依然合不着眼的我
its late at night, and you still can't close your eyes to rest.
staring blankly at the clock on the wall ticking away.
心中的忧虑 和心中的困惑
all the worries and doubts you had,
are put aside to a little corner
frustrations in the past, and issues faced today...
should also go as the clock ticks away.
我们的情怀 和我们的命运
our emotions, and our destiny,
let your heart tonight make the decision.

告诉自己 什么最重要
tell yourself, what is most important now?
什么该放手 什么该不屈不挠
somethings we need to let go, some we need to strive.
告诉自己 什么最重要
tell yourself, what is more important now?
and the rest, lets let fate bring us along.
告诉自己 什么最重要
tell yourself, whats more important to you?
sometimes we need to be casual and let things go, somethings we need to really put effort to achieve.
告诉自己 什么最重要
tell yourself, whats more important now.
somethings, why not just let love & compassion take the lead?

In our journey, we are always stopping at crossroads.
Right now, what should we do? what should we desire?
Right now, what shouldn't be done? what we should let go?
experience, determination & mindful state of mind, will teach you how to make a decision.


Sunday, August 29


this is what i want.

Friday, August 27

孫燕姿 - 我不難過

PD marilah~

PD is coming oh so near.
I'm excited.

finally a break!

Pray for You - Jaron and The Long Road to Love :: Official Video

Worst break up song ever.
So much HIDDEN anger & spite.

and ppl say WOMEN are the worst to handle a breakup!??

"I pray your brakes go out
Running down a hill
I pray and flower pot falls
From a window sill
And knocks you in the head like Id like to
I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls
I pray your flying high when your engine stalls
I pray all your dreams never come true
Just know wherever you are
Honey, I pray for you"

Nightmares bugging me

Woi. i need to sleep.
quite bugging me.
let me sleep!!


woke up at 6 am this morn. urgh...
feels like crap.
felt like i can jus lie in my bed and rot.

sometimes it does feels like my bed can & will eat me alive.
(or the balance of "life" i have).

let this be over.
watever happened to the days when u can jus wake up and smile?
roll in under the covers as u rub ur feet together?


Wednesday, August 25


today is going to be a good day.
as long as i believe it, it will be.

come what may, i'll be alright.

btw, i love playgrounds.
i love lying on the padang as i watched the clouds fly by.
i love sitting in the swing with breeze in my hair.
i love jus chilling there with a bottle of coke, under a tree during a breezy evening.

maybe i'll go to the playground today.
any takers?

Tuesday, August 24

loves Superman

Joe Brooks - Superman.

Not my normal usual Macho man.
But his voice is very nice.

good lyrics too. :)

"If I could be your superman,
I'd fly you to the stars and back again.
'cause everytime you touched my hand,
You feel my powers running through your veins.
But I can only write this song,
And tell you that I'm not that strong.
'Cause I'm no superman, I hope you like me as I am".

Monday, August 23

one day

you'll find peace and serenity.
you will.
don't worry.


chemical burns.


Saturday, August 21


there will be hope.
you just need to believe it.
and u will find it.

Friday, August 20

set me free....

ever wondered how long would it take.
to finally be set free?

here's the ironic part.
no one in hold on but u!

sometimes we get so caught up in every lil emotion and feeling.
and we refuse to let it go.
but to let it dwell and continue fueling - now tats disastrous.

we'd always complain...
why wouldn't u let me go?
why wouldn't you cut me some slack?
why wouldn't you give me a break?

* breathe*
take a step back.
whose giving who a hard time?


70/30 my boss said.
when u tink u've tried ur best, let it go.
no need to push u self till ur against the wall.
why put urself thru such misery, especially over things that u cant control??!!
everything is impermanent.

The only one that can make you happy, truly happy.
is YOURSELF and how u see this world.
NOT how others see u.

Wednesday, August 18

we just need to survive

remind yourself daily that you're a fighter.

Tuesday, August 17

take me away

PD dun fail me now.
take me away.
sun on my head.
wind in my face.
salt in my hair.
sand in my underwear.

Please happen!

Monday, August 16

Wednesday, August 4

The man that cooks.

bro's been cooking these days.

ngo hou fang fuk a!!
he has this ridiculus liking to UBER SUPER SPICY food all the time.
can dieeeee....
still nice la! i jus need to drink alot alot alot alot alot alot of water.

there's smthg ridiculously awesome about a man that can cook. :)

went out with mandy n phoebe ages ago. we went to watch "despicable me".

They went to toilet for like 10 mins and I got myself some cute flats!
see??? *whack!*

so not me right?
xpe xpe... comfy shoes... even its so cute i NEED courage to wear it.
its comfy.


Monday, August 2

MirrorMask (2005)

I remember watching this in college.
Awesome nonetheless. The graphics... how surreal fantasy blends in with reality...

"Onwards and Upwards!"


Tuesdays with Morrie

Old book... I know.
In fact it's not even mine. :)
but i thank the person who passed me the book.
a teacher indeed.

ever had someone who connected with you from the very start?
no need to be related, no need to be even "besties".
but you'd click instantly. :)
a teacher, a parent, a grandparent or just a friend.
Someone older, patient and wise, who understood you when you were young and searching, helped you see the world as a more profound place, gave you sound advice to help you make your way through it.

As the world got colder, and everything seems so busy. We'd go on and on with our lives chasing things which we think are important. then we get tired.... Wouldn't you like to see that person again, ask the bigger questions that still haunt you, receive wisdom for your busy life today the way you once did when you were younger?

Mitch Albom had that second chance. Months before his death, he met Morrie again. Knowing he was dying, Morrie sees with Mitch in his study every Tuesday, just as they used to back in college. Their rekindled relationship turned into one final "class": lessons in how to live.

A few quotes which hit me right at the spot. i love them indeed.

On Getting Meaning into Life:

"So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they're busy doing things they think are important. This is because they're chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning." (p.43)

On Culture:

"People are only mean when they're threatened, and that's what our culture does...And when you get threatened, you start looking out only for yourself. You start making money a god. It is all part of this culture." (p.42)
"The culture we have does not make people feel good about themselves. And you have to be strong enough to say if the culture doesn't work, don't buy it." (p.42)

Status and Showing Off:

"...if you're trying to show off for people at the top, forget it. They will look down on you anyhow. And if you're trying to show off for people at the bottom, forget it. They will only envy you. Status will get you nowhere. Only an open heart will allow you to float equally between everyone." (p.127)

Being Number Two:

"What's wrong with being number two?" (p.159)

On Material Things:

"Don't cling to things, because everything is impermanent." (p.103)
* * *
"You can't substitute material things for love or for gentleness or for tenderness or for a sense of comradeship." (p.125)

On Family:

"The fact is, there is no foundation, no secure ground, upon which people may stand today if it isn't the family." (p.91)
* * *
"If you don't have the support and love and caring and concern that you get from a family, you don't have much at all. Love is so supremely important." (p.91)

On Emotions:

"If you hold back on the emotions--if you don't allow yourself to go all the way through them--you can never get to being detached, you're too busy being afraid." (p.104)

On Love:

"Love wins. Love always wins." (p.40)
* * *
"Love each other or die." (p.163)

On Relationships:

"There is no formula to relationships. They have to be negotiated in loving ways, with room for both parties, what they want and what they need, what they can do and what their life is like." (p.177,178)

On Forgiveness:

"Forgive yourself before you die. Then forgive others." (p.164)
* * *
"We...need to forgive ourselves...For all the things we didn't do. All the things we should have done. You can't get stuck on the regrets of what should have happened." (p.166)

On Most Important Thing in Life:

"The most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love, and to let it come in." (p.52)

On Trust:

"...if you are ever going to have other people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them, too--even when you're in the dark." (p.61)

On Friendship:

"...we've had thirty-five years of friendship. You don't need speech or hearing to feel that." (p.71)

On Dying and Living:

"Don't let go too soon but, but don't hang on too long." (p.162)

On Aging:

"You have to find what's good and true and beautiful in your life as it is now. Looking back makes you competitive. And, age is not a competitive issue." (p.120)

On Immortality:

"...love is how you stay alive, even after you are gone." (p.133)

On Marriage:

"...there are a few rules I know to be true about love and marriage: If you don't respect the other person, you're gonna have a lot of trouble. If you don't know how to compromise, you're gonna have a lot of trouble. If you can't talk openly about what goes on between you, you're gonna have a lot of trouble. And if you don't have a common set of values in life, you're gonna have a lot of trouble. Your values must be alike." (p.149)
* * *
"I think marriage is a very important thing to do, and you're missing a hell of a lot if you don't try it." (p.149)

On Death :

"Death ends a life, not a relationship." (p.174)

-Mitch Albom

Sunday, August 1


as changes moves in...
you'd start to tink.
as changes moves in...
you' start to squirm.

nthg is permanent.
tats a fact.
everything is ever changing.
"wu" - nothingness is constantly being reminded.
why do we hold on relentlessly to every little thing?
material, success, accomplishment, status, relationship, people.

so what do we really hold on to for sanity?
set aside these frustrations.
set aside these distractions.
set aside these expectations.
set aside these emotions.
what do you really want?
who are you ... really?
where's your passion?

then hopefully, everything is clear.

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