Tuesday, March 31


planned by Uncle Kiong @ ara damansara.

# dinner at 7.30pm
# all dining stops at 8.30pm
# be given a candle before 8.30pm
# first, we appreciated darkness, this signify that even if life is without the necessity, we are still alive and kicking and we can still appreciate nature and life
# then, one candle is lighted. This signify ONE life. Look at power of one life. If one is alone, what can one do. How pathetic. How lonely
# soon, that one candle light another candle. Then we have two candles. And two candles light two other candles. Look at the power of sharing. Sharing of love, sharing of care and sharing of LIFE.
# at 9pm, scented candles will be lighted. This adds joy into life.
# At 9.30pm – tv switch on, computer switch on, lights switch on, air cond switch on

ahahha, after that... we had vodka...tea from china is served. loads more food came after that. :)

The living room.
at 8.15pm.
after 8.30.
*Y still so bright??*
neighbour tak tutup lampu!
potong stim.
we went outside and purposely talk LOUD LOUD about earth hour.
ahahah. den the lights went off.
after 15-20minutes.
the 1st candle was lighted.and the light was pass on to others.after that the scented candles were lighted too!
it's suppose to add joy to life!
my sis & broinlaw.
sis terkena wax!
candlelight dinner for those who came late!!

more pictures...

loves, ryn

how did your earth hour go?

生病。 sick a!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
























i hate the fact that i am weak.

i hate the fact tat i am sick.

i've tried... despite a week long of on & off fever n running nose.

tday it finally broke.

my nose is running, my head feels like its craching by the minute, my throat is sore, my tonsils are swollen...

everything is wrong.

i hate this.

whenever my asthma feels like its coming back.

the difficulty to even catch my breath.

it makes me feel like shit.

i feel so hopeless. so.... weak.


emo a!

balrdy ssshhhiiiiiiiccccckkkk!

Wednesday, March 25

Kuala Lumpur---- mahal...

Call me “old fashion”, “kolot”, “kiamsiap” or “aunty”.
Which ever la…

But *ding dong! * crap I miss RM0.80 barli ais! And RM 1.00 kopi-o ler…
This short exposure in KL… omigosh…
When iced-barli costs around RM 1.30…haiyoh seijor…
And no one is complaining about it wo.

KL hor… $$$$
My $$$$ oso running out man…

: (



On a lighter note,
Caryn in kl very kelian wan…
Coz she wakes up and goes to work at 6 ish, 7ish am…
Den sometimes she will go back around 6ish, 7ish , 8ish or 9ish lo…

But gt la ppl sayang me here!
*thank kiuuuuu*

Ken brought me to makan famous beef noodle that day for dinner…. yummmm…..
Caroline n the geng bawa me go makan chicken rice this afternoon around that area too…. Once again… *chicken rice~ DROOLZZZ~ *
Tarquin is gonna pao me for dinner too later.

; )
Yes… I may be broke. But I am well fed.


Tuesday, March 24

Dear Alicia

Dear Alicia,
I don't really know how to tell you this, your nostrils are insulting. I think I realized it when you put cuffs on me when we skinny dipped in the bathtub and I saw you put whipped cream on my boyfriend. I'm sure you're cowardly enough to understand I’m allergic to your earlobes. I'm returning your nose hair clippers to you, but I'll keep your photo with the moustache drawn on it as a memory. You should also know that I told my psychiatrist about the bruises and I’m off to lead a new life as a lemon.

Please don’t hurt me,

when i read it the 1st time...
my mata popped!!
"put cuffs on me when we skinny dipped in the bathtub!!!"
"whipped cream my boyfriend"

*rolls on the floor*

***Here's how you do it:

Dear (someone you recently talked to),I don't really know how to tell you this,(1). I think I realized it (2)(3) andI saw you (4)(5). I'm sure you're (6) enough to understand (7).I'm returning your (8) to you, but I'll keep (9) as a memory.You should also know that I (10) and (11).(12),Name

1) What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - I'm in love with your cat
Red - Our affair is over
White - I’m joining the Convent
Black -Our romance is over
Green- Our socks don't match
Grey - You're a leprechaun
Yellow - I'm selling myself for candy
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - Purple hedgehogs want to destroy you
Other -I dislike your eyelashes

2) Which is your birth month?
January - That night you picked your nose
February -When I quoted Forrest Gump
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on peanut butter
May - When I threw up in your sock drawer
June - When you put cuffs on me
July – When I saw the purple monkey
August - When you smacked my ass
September - Last year when you peed your pants
October - When we skinny dipped in the bathtub
November - When your dog humped my leg
December - When I finally changed my underwear

3) Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - When we skinny dipped in the bathtub
Chicken- In your carPasta - Outside of your office
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad – As you were eating Kraft Dinner
Lasagna - In your closet
Kebab - With Jean Chrétien
Fish - In a clown suit
Sandwiches - At the Elton John concert
Pizza - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a street light
Annat- With George Bush and Stephen Harper

4) What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Ignore
Red - Put whipped cream on
Black - Hit on
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - bit of
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the pants off of
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive over

5) What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My boyfriend
White - My father
Grey – The Catholic Priest
Brown – The Montreal Canadian’s goalie
Purple - My corned beef hash
Red – My knee caps
Blue - My salt-beef bucket
Yellow - My illegitimate child in Ghana
Orange - My Blink 182 cd
Pink – My ‘My Little Pony’ collection
Other --The elephant in the corner

6) What do you prefer to watch on TV?
One Tree Hill - Senile
Heroes- Frostbitten
Lost - High
Simpsons- Cowardly
The news - Scarred
American Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Open
Top Model - Bitchy
Annat -shamed

7) Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful you are
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That I get turned on only by garbage men
Angry - That your smell makes me vomit
Depressed – That we’re related
Excited - That I may pee my pants
Nervous - The middle-east is planning their revenge on you
Worried - That your Ford sucks
Apathetic - That you need a sex-change
Silly - That I'm allergic to your earlobes
Cuddly - That Santa doesn't exist
Ashamed - That there is no solution to you being a dumb kid
Other - That your driving sucks

8) What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your toe ringYellow - Your love letters to me
Red - The pictures from Vegas
Black - Your pet rock
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - Your car
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your nose hair clippers
Grey - Our matching snoopy underwear
Purple - Your old New Kids on the Block blanket
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your Hannah Montana underwear

9) The first letter of your first name?
A/B - My virginity
C/D - Your photo with the moustache drawn on it
E/F - Your neighbors dog
G/H - The oil tank from your car
I/J - Your left ear
K/L - The results of that blood-sample
M/N - Your glass eye
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X – Your sucide note
Y/Z - Your credit cards

10) The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Love your sweet, sweet ass
C/D - Always will remember the pep talks
E/F -Never will forget that night
G/H – Will not tell the authorites that you stole the whale from the backyard.
I/J – Mocked you behind your back constantly
K/L - Hate your cooking
M/N - Told in my confession today about the moose poaching
O/P - Told my psychiatrist about the bruises
Q/R - Always wanted to break your legs
S/T - Get sick when I think of your feet
U/V - Will try to forget that you broke my heart
W/X - Haven’t showered in a month
Y/Z – am better off without you

11) What do you prefer to drink?
Wine- Our friendship is ruined
Soft drink – I’m off to lead a new life as a lemon
Soda – I will haunt you when I’m reincarnated as an Eskimo
Milk - The apartment building is on fire
Water – I'm scratching my butt as you read this
Cider– I have a passionate interest for mice
Juice – You ruined my attempts at another world war
Mineral/Vitamin water – You should get that embarrassing rash checked
Hot chocolate – Your Cucumber-fetishism is weird
Whiskey - I love Oprah Winfrey
Beer – Thanks for the Cocaine
Other – you should stop picking your nose

12) To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand – Warm tingly sensations
Australia - Best of luck on the sex change
France - Love always
Spain - With tears of sadness
China – You make me sick
Germany – Please don’t hurt me
Japan - Go milk a cow
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
USA - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt – Kiss my butt
England - Go drown yourself.

Monday, March 23


  • my graduation showcase is done!!!
  • i'm officially graduated...!! i tink... waahahah.
  • my results are out!!! nt too chabby... they arent straight A's... but nt too shabby either. :) i've learnt that they dun matter tat much anymore. i've learnt so much and met so many people in these years....
20.03.09 - 22.03.09

-my corner-
title: "coke" the musuem.
model credits to Lydia Kwan! & Tzer.
notice the colourful note pads?
they're from the family, frens and people that came to the event.
their comments and love!
yes yes... caryn feels very loved rite now.
to the people that came to support.
to the people that accompanied and helped.
to those people to hugged and send gifts.
to people to stayed up till 7am to help with setup.
to people who din shave nor sleep to rush our stuff.
to the sms messages and cards and flowers.
to people to volunteered and helped.
to meeting back old friends and getting messages to family members.

  • i'm currently doing a short term job again. at an agency in the heart of kl. the job is fun. the poeple are interesting. the experience so far-great! trying to soak up as much as i can. place is freezing cold tho! hahaha. nonetheless. :)

  • a random shot from pretty long ago. courtesy of tarq!
  • the hat wasnt even mine. lolz. i tink its john's.
  • andy/john/aizat's house party.


Thursday, March 19

feeling the lost.

It seems just yesterday when we would hang around siewkuan’s place after school,
just chilling, watching 8tv and hogging the couch.

It seems just yesterday when her grandma would cook us lunch, of vege, soup, chicken wings and such, on special occasions we would also have a tasty homemade red bean ice cream treat!

“Amah!” we would call her fondly because after so many years, we were all very close. We would all sit down in the hall’s red couch and talk to her sometimes, we’d talk about family, school, food and whatever not’s.

When my grandma passed away I took the blow hard. And in time I soon grew even closer to her as she was ever always comforting and patient.

Even though she spent most of her time alone at home, she had her kids her grandkids, she was contented I would say. As time passed, especially after we finished high school, we grew older, and unfortunately she too grew older and weaker.

There were times when we visited her, she would wobble around with her walking aid and her legs could not carry her very well. She would sigh as people around the house grew lesser and lesser; we all went to college and university.

She was lonely, that we knew. And her health conditions are not giving her a good time. She would talk about her aching knees and her troubling stomach, how she couldn’t eat rice and it makes her stomach upset. How she no longer could cook their meals as her legs couldn’t stand for too long. And in the end, she was missing her late husband a lot.

Just yesterday, we received the news. That she passed away. As hard as it was for us, I bet it’s even worst for siewkuan. Perhaps she is in a better place now. A place with less suffering and less pain. We still feel the lost. Everything happens for a reason. And this time, it is for the better.

Amah, you will be deeply missed.

Friday, March 13


Bumped into Ruben the other day.
OMG i haven’t seen him since…………. 5 years ago!
Not since that low budget trip we took and met him.


Ruben is this foreign friend we met while we where camping there. That time, don’t know why we only had 1 camera among us, and that camera K.O.ed. jatuh lantai.

Ahahah. But coz we met Ruben there and he was also traveling around.
We MERGED…. (and also PAO-ed him digital camera la!!)
Ngeh ngeh ngeh.

I couldn’t recognize him coz we only met for like… 5 days.
But he yelled after me at the kl train station the other day!!
He went like (in heavy Indian slang) “YOU!!! That girl! I still have u in my camera!”

Neways, we exchanged emails.
WOOTS! I want dem photos back!!!!!

Thursday, March 12


because the night before i was rushing somw work with the college campaign....
din sleep mer...
i finish work....rush to borrow CS3 installer....
den rush back....
uninstall my ancient CS....
install CS3....
den started work... until 5.30am!!!

yday hor.... yeeeeer... i reach home around 9.
ate and den....
slept! until the next morning.
i woke up tday stil in my work clothes!
quickly bath n went to work again...

yeeeerrrr.... even i'm disgusted.

my phone went cuckoo coz yday kena rain on the way back...
my messages all messed up liao.
some come..some dont.
some half...

Wednesday, March 11


才刚交完了最后一个“final assignment”,休息了一会儿。




没料到。。。 我等到了1100,她还没到。。。。


所以,才第一天。。。 那位印尼师姐一来,就连忙教我这个那个的。。。

我呀。。。。 今天,8.30才有的回呢!!!

我真得不懂啦。。。 这么好的机会,难道就这么放手?





get to know myself better.

tagged by layhoon which she linked this particular quiz over for me to try.




Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Saturday, March 7


caryn feels like biting people's kepala off!


angry a... dissapointment a.... TIRED WEIII!!!

its a miracle i havent start labelling and calling people "bitch" or "bastards" .... yet...
wahahha. however, UNFORTUNATELY the word "fuck" has a become a very used term within these few weeks. oh boy... theres goes my karma. *shy*

oh dear god. holy moly the amount of things and people i have to cope with!! LOLZ! i noe i sound like sum bratty pampered biatch for saying that. i also noe that sum people are having worst days den mine. no worries. caryn hasnt gone all cuckoo yet.

i spent last night rushing wallpapers, realizing i cant finish. panicked!! starts calling people whom i hope i can bet my entire life upon! crying in the middle of the night. emo and starts wondering around aimlessly. OMG. nt healthy. stared at the clock, 7am. slept for 1hour and half. den when college. SOO MUN THYE ffk me. say wanna meet me at coll at 10 to help me with wallpaper. until 12 i keep calling him!!! TATS Y HIS NAME BOLD OK?) wahahah. den i finally get to call him. he jus woke up. =.=" when i finally saw him in college. i swear i could jus kick him! but i manage to control my anger and jus ended up whacking the daylights outof him from the 7th floor to 6 floor. and continue to torture him the whole effing day. wahahahaha.

i saw ansif tday at the video editting room too. ansif is this really hot and talented indian dude tats studying Dip in Video Animation.
thats it man. he is like Bollywood Brad Pitt! ahahah. still hot. *drools*

wahahah. all of the sudden, i miss my high school frens. i went back tday and emo la... den i saw my sis which i poured out all my "woes me" and "why me??" and " OMG" to her. she went all analytical on me..... again. and AGAIN, i'm the dumb wan la. conclusion is to nt let things which i dun hav control over bug me and eat me alive. LOLZ. like i din noe. but it did make me miss my friends desperately.

someone please bring me out and sayang me la...
emo a~!!

Monday, March 2

holidays but stil.....

when is the "fun" part gonna start?

theres...showcase commitments...
holy moly its.... suffocating.
from contractors to sponsorship hunt to chasing after money to... designing wallpapers.
interesting buthen... haih...
memeningkan .

then theres the prefect camp/kcba thingy.
eventho i still have no idea wat will be my duties,
i can predict more long nights of planning and discussions and meetings.

i feel like digging a hole and HIDEEEE!

Sunday, March 1

letting go

i noe that if i do not let go.
there will be no chance of us ever being the friends that we were.
theres jus so much memories and history.

i hav no idea how to "let go" of it.

i noe it will be better.
i noe it will be easier.
perhaps all i need is time.

i hope thats the case.

busy bee

tday has been a havoc.
a mess!

soooo much to do!
contractor meet ups.
driving in the middle of damansara's tiny weeney roads is simply impossible.
getting lost! and the only sign towards the main road is "temple" n "rubbish dump".
KEN!!!! ooo... tqtqtq! for tolerating my panic attacks. to temaning me ans representing me coz my cantonis TAK BOLEH PAKAI.

redrawing the event plans.
acting like sum kiam siap auntie.
remeasuring all that.
urgent call for henry my ever ready archi-kawan.
OOOOO my superman!!!
1 call... i noe i can count on u...
immediately he came to rescue me...
seijor... i was gonna jus sit by the road side n cry man.
but he was nice enough to count, measure, draw and analyze for me.

i was really looking forward for this movie.
thousand apologies to mandy for dragging and making her wait.
and all the things that happened tday.
really sorry to mandy n wishan.
i've really been busy. and everything is like UP TO MY NECK.
can choke n die now.
really soweeeeeeee.

Love Matters” is a movie revolves around three main protagonists –

52 year old Tan Bo Seng, 17 year old Benny his teenage son and 36 year old Jeremy, Bo Seng’s ‘adopted’ brother – and their accidental journey in seeking and keeping love and happiness.

Bo Seng (Henry Thia) leads a routine life. Attempts to revive the passion with his wife Jia Li (Yeo Yann Yann) cannot improve their stale love life. Henry Thia's Bo Seng and Yeo Yann Yann's Jia Li are husband and wife of many years, and they experience marital woes of not being appreciated and witnessing their sex life evaporate. Throw in some male ego-centric anxieties, and that sums up the first arc, a subject matter that Jack had tackled with That One No Enough

Jeremy (Jack Lim) lives a colourful life, colourful in reference to his long list of girlfriends. “Never to commit” is his motto for love.

Benny (Alex Leong) has just school life, his only vice is anything to do with the computer, his only distraction is his crush, Jennifer (Natalli), his classmate’s girl.

Bo Seng & Jia Li the old fashion couple has more misses than hits in the love department and a series of madness spin off one night …

Jeremy meets Benny’s teacher, Ms Wong (Cheryl Lee) - a lady, unlike the wild things he has had. His charm wins him her heart, but his Casanova means refuse to take a back seat, a new lady friend threatens to change his life …

Benny starts to see hope in relationships, when Jennifer notices him and invites him over to her place. Over the visit, Jennifer’s friendly attention, takes a turn into something that Benny wish he has not been…

“Love Matters” is a humorous and entertaining look at love, happiness and issues concerning our straight laced society. It is full of trade-mark Jack Neo’s laugh-a-minute jokes and situations yet combined with a sensitive look at how we deal with issues concerning matters of the heart.

Interestingly enough. I did not noe that this is a show done in Malaysia KL. LOLZ.
i tot its a singapore show. hoho.

i heard that it is a far cry for jack neo's great works as alot of parts were pretty badly executed.
lame jokes. weird kiddo actors, especially the "teenager" parts.

but the reason y "love matters" interested me was the message it was trying to send.
1. i tink it is one of the very few ( if nt first few) sex related movie in Malaysia.
2. i tink the most sentimental part of the movie are done by the veterans la. the husband and wife. one of the main message was that after being married for so long, " i do not know if u still love me" idea came up. its seriously true in the sense that alot of couples fall apart after being married for so many years. and after 20, 30 years later they find themselves wondering if their partner still loves them like they use to. given that they have both aged and so occupied with their family. there oso the "jus because we dont have sex anymore doesnt mean that i dont love u anymore", the whole marriage concept has been put up to the challenge in this show.

it may be a little bit over dramatise, it maybe a little bit too theatrical. it may not be Jack Neo's best work. but heck, it shud still be a watchable show laaaa...

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