Friday, July 31

Bahasa Melayu Aku.

Answer only in MALAY!

Macam sangat seronok saje.

1. Bekas kekasih saya adalah :
jejaka jejaka yang baik dan tulus. :)

2. Saya sedang mendengar :
bunyi papan kekunci komputer rakan kerja aku yang berbunyi "tik tik tak tak tik tek tak !"

3. Mungkin saya patut:
berhenti tabiat buruk aku yang suka sangat minum Coke.

4. Saya suka :
pergi hutan trekking. betapa lama sudah takde peluang untuk saya menikmati kecantikan & kehijauan bumi ini. :(

5.Sahabat-sahabat baik saya :
awek awek yang umur sudah tua tapi perangai masih tak matang! namun sebab itulah saya tersangat sayang pada mereka.

6.Saya tak paham :
loghat rakan kerja aku yang dari Siam & India.

7.Saya kehilangan :
ukuran pinggang aku yang 24inchi ketika umur 17 tahun!

8.Ramai yang berkata :
Aku ni pendiam sangat. akakakakkaak. ade ke?

9.Makna nama saya :
terlalu murni dan telus sampai aku pun dah tak ingat. :)

10.Cinta itu adalah :
kombinasi perasaan hormat, sayang, kekaguman tambahan dengan kehormatan dan penjagaan yang tak terhingga? (allerr... ape ni)

11.Di suatu tempat, seseorang sedang :
mengorek hidungnya. EEEKKK!!!

13.Ayat SELAMANYA membawa maksud :
ayat selamanya adalah suate ayat yang sangat panjang dan bosan.

14.Telefon bimbit saya :
telahpun diberi pakej "makeover" perubahan penampilan kot?

15.Bila saya terjaga dari tidur :
saya tertidur balik la! letih tao? sial...

16.Saya paling meluat apabila :
tertengok orang tu mengorek hidungnya!!

17.Pesta/Parti adalah :
benda yang tak same lah. Pesta ade badut yang menakutkan dan makanan dan permainan dan banyak lampu. Perti tu, ada banyak orang juga dan makanan juga... tapi kebanyakan orangan mabuk :)

18.Haiwan yang paling comel yang saya pernah temui ialah :
anjing kecil. Bibi aku yang baru datang 6 tahun lalu.

19.Peringkat umur yang paling menyeronokkan bagi saya ialah :
zaman persekolahan saya. aaahhh... rindunye...

20.Hari ini :
hari yang sangat malang sebab KTMB menghampakan saye sekali lagi.

21.Malam ini saya akan :
cuba meluangkan masa untuk tengok wayang.

22.Esok pula saya akan :
bawa anak saudara saya pergi berenang!

23.Saya betul-betul inginkan :
perlancongan yang menakjubkan di luar negara eropah

24.Ketika anda lihat wajah anda di hadapan cermin pagi ini :
allah.... buruknye muka saye hari ni. apasal pucat? rambut kusut macam penyapu lagi.

25.Pusat membeli-belah atau arked permainan :
tak nak. nak bilik saye. katil saye. bantal saye.

26.Makanan Barat atau Jepun :
barat... sebab ade daging. (macamana nak kurus macam ni?)

27.Bilik yang terang atau gelap :
gelap dengan lampu lampu malap. che waahhh... romantis nye...

28.Makanan segera adalah :
makan yang diidamkan oleh saya sekian lama.

29.Ayat terakhir yang anda katakan pada seseorang?
tolong la... pukul 3! deadline siut.

30.Siapa yang anda nak Tag?
siapa siapa yang berbahasa melayu karat!

wahahahha. tengok. bahasa aku fasih jugak? :)

Thursday, July 30

one last time.

The office is organizing a ceremony in memory of the late Yasmin Ahmad & to send prayers for her today after work.
It’s been almost a week now since we lost her, yet the emptiness still lingers.
In her untouched room, the emails we received in comfort, urging us to no longer mourn but to remember & celebrate her, sms and tributes, newspaper clippings.
It’s getting settled now as we grasp reality.

It’s been difficult although I’ve only knew her for less that half a year.
Yet she has nonetheless impacted all of us.
I realized I speak of Yasmin more as a fan & an acquaintance rather than her being my boss.
Its odd ain’t it? I’ve loved her ads, her movies.
And having to be here right now, there’s just such a shame to not have known her better, but then again it’s been such an honour to have known her at all.

It’s been very heavy and solemn in the office.
HR has posted emails, write ups, photos, newspapers clippings and quotes of her at our walkways.
Usually we post up ads or reminders there for ads that we strive for.
Now it’s a reminder to us of what Yasmin has taught us so far.

Anyways, so back to the ceremony, it’s actually a Muslim ceremony they called Tahlil.
A holy occasion as fellow Muslim Leo Burnetters pay their last respect & send their prayers.
Guess it’s kind of like a “closure” for all of us. That we should all…. Move on.

Although it’s a Muslim ceremony, we were all kindly informed of this ceremony.
In respect & to remember her, us non-muslim wore baju kurung today.
Just for the fun of it! Yasmin always wore baju kurung.
I heard they’re gonna make a more “general” tribute session for her soon.
For Yasmin’s signature “Muhibah” idealogy, we were trilled!

I have only left 1 set of baju kurung, and its awful pink.
Knowing me, I didn’t like the set.
But yesterday night as I took the set out of my closet, I smiled.
All of the sudden, it didn’t look THAT bad. Maybe coz now it has a purpose.

Striding in my pink outfit today in the office,
I spotted a few more of my colleagues too dressed in our national costume.
:) Malays non Malays alike.

There’s this warm fuzzy feeling today despite the still empty feeling of lost.

Guess the storyteller’s story did come true.
It’s just rather sad that it had to wait till she went away to finally realized it.

Sunday, July 26

hujan rahmat.

it rained this morning.
couldn't sleep much yday.

so i stayed up while my phone vibrates away.
i cleaned my room.
tidied my closet.
then i went online...

one by one i searched through the web for her work.
petronas. spca. air asia. trailers from her movies. even the Singapore ones.
as i watched, the sudden feeling that she is gone hurt so bad.

occasionally i'll dose off into the night.
only to wake up few minutes later wondering if it was just a nightmare.
unfortunately, it was true.

around 6, i got up. bathed. took my scarf and headed off to Yasmin's house to pay our last respect.
it was a cold & wet morning.
sniffles & sobs here n there.
a friend of mine said hujan rahmat. God loves her so much.
another one said God is crying with us.
whichever one is true. rindu kat dia.

from her house. to the mosque. to the cemetery.
at the end, it felt really exhausting.
physically & mentally.
we sat there and we talked. some about seeing her right before she collapsed.
some remember her jokes. the toilet talks and all sorts of joke she'd crack up.
some of us reminisced her work.
"remember this school? (pointed at Lik Hung) this is the one she shot the How to spell Dinosaur TVC"
"remember the Tan Hong Ming? that wan was in D'mansara"
"remember the funeral one she did lately? about loving ones inperfections?" *tears*

however, theres a tiny little sense of closure.
she's in a better place now.
with no one to judge her, so she can be who she wants to be.

The StoryTeller.

yasmin ahmad. gone too soon.

She was the critically-acclaimed multi-award winning film director, writer & scriptwriter.
Her television commercials and films are well-known in Malaysia for their humour, heart and love that crosses cross-cultural barriers.

she's gone.
too soon.

she's a real talented person.
unbiased & clear.
witty & humorous.
truly missed.


omg. tell me it aint true.

26/07 Award winning ..........died at 1125pm at ........after collapsing from a stroke....../STAR

oh dear god, pls tell me it aint true!
call me ignorant. I'm not gonna believe the sms.

Friday, July 24

tagged. and i'm in the mood. *meow*

tanwishan tagged me.


1.Besides your lips , where is the favourite spot to get kissed ?mmmMMmmm... my neck.
2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning ? groggy. sick.

3. Who was the last person / people you took a photo with ? a cup or cuppocino.
4. Would you consider yourself spoiled? hell no!
5. Will you ever donate blood? wanted to, but i chicken-ed.
6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex ? yes. i have more guy frens than gals.
7. Do you want someone to be dead ? how badly do i want them dead you mean? eheheh. naaah~
8. What does your last text message say ? "how do you want it?" ngeh! wahhaha
9. What are you thinking right now? wtf this tag is gonna sound sooooo wrong.
10. Do you want someone to be with you right now? yes. warm & fuzzy pls.
11. What was the time you went to bed last night? i don't know. I was in bed. and before i knew it the sun came up.
12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now? did i say i was wearing one? *rolls*
13. Is someone on your mind right now ? hmmm... i can picture a hot tub, bubble bath (gosh I'm so tired). the SOMEONE is just gonna be me la! unless someone wants to scrub my back. teehee!
14. Who was the last person who text you ? client from work.

TEN Lucky Person to do this quiz.
1 wishan
2 christopher
3 mun pui
4 siew kuan
5 john
6 puay shyuan
7 ben
8 vivian
9 henry
10 ken

15. Who is no.2 having a relationship with? er... i have no idea. is he single?
16. Is no.3 a male or a female? chick la. teehee
17. If no.7 and no.1 get together , would it be a good? wahahhah. i tink.... gosh i dont even wanna think about it!
18. What is no.1 studying about ? business accounting??
19. When was the last time you chatted with them ? eh byk. yang mane?
20.Is no.4 single ? i think so. unless theres smthg she aint telling.
21. Say something about no.2. pandas. wwf. jundle. babi hutan. :)
22. What do you think about no.3 & no.6 being together. ooo... interesting~
23. Describe no.9. matured, steady. altho kinda lost now.
24. What will you do if no.6 and no.7 fight ? hehehhe. ps would've kicked butt. wahahha. hands down.
25. Do you like 8 ? of course!. =)


was reading my cousin's blog.
nope. not the elder one in nz.
the younger one in SU.

i refrain myself from smiling & laughing while reading her stuff.
its interesting how high school was.
so innocent.
so sweet.
so lovey.

and ofcourse so full of drama.
there seem to be ppl actually free enough to start a blog on gossips.
like "rumour has it..... so and so are together..."
or "so and so are lesbos..."

i was liek ...fuuuu~uuh.
bitchi-ness jus got high tech.

i miss high school.

having someone with you during highschool.
its a secret.
yet you're waiting to tell the whole world.

i miss it.

life just isnt that fun anymore.

siape jason?


i just realized who is Jason in sepet.

LOLs. when i knew i wanted to kick myself.

BODOH NYE budak ni.

after almost 4 months of working in this agency.
it finally (not so obviously) struck me.
That familiar face.

i always wonder why i thought he looks so familiar.

------- for the ppl who dun even noe what I'm talking bout.
u all boleh bang wall jor.
ngeh ngeh.

as all my frens said, caryn ni suke sangat local "melayu" movie.
sepet. gubra. mukhsin. talentime. muallaf. alallalal.

not all melayu movie.
just that I'm not so strictly a chine-english movie person.

movies as the above always moves me to tears.
ok la. i oso very hampao i noe.

anyhooo... aku suke la.... the movies that i watch.
just that i just realized who the real life cast of Jason from sepet was.
when i was watching another recent ad from petronas.

my mata wanted to fall right out.
i was like
"no wonder la.... that guy looked so familiar!!!"

Friday, July 17

Johnny Depp. *swoonss~

I saw the public enemies poster today...
poster only...
oso i happie...
johnny deep.
i like a....
just indulge in my hiao-ness for a moment while i burry myself in fantasy.

Wednesday, July 15

Flash Floods, A H1N1, SunSun & a whole lot of randomness.

It rained kuching & anjing this morning.
I hate going to work in weathers like these.
Especially when the workplace is smack in the middle of Kuala Lumpur.

Flash Flood warning everywhere.
Then when I was going to park in the building, my parking card got terminated!!
Some crappy mistake. Urgh.

Happy Belated Birthday to Sun! Yik Sun.
This really dear friend of mine has been there for quite some difficult moments.
His sensitive nature and sentiments have been cramping our laughing bones for so long.
He’s like this big brother (I know I seem to have a lot, I’m simply blessed this way!) who always have my back.
Whenever I see him, the 1st thing he asked “Zui Jing Zen Yang Le a?” (so how are you lately), I’ll simply smile. There’s this compulsive urge to want to spill everything to him every time! LOL, I think I can save him that trouble. :)

Ken offered to fetch me yesterday too. So nice of him. But I have to endure kena ngam by him the whole way back la… Anyhoo, beats taking the train anytime anyway. *evil grin*

Was talking to Xuan the other day, pretty much randomness. Realized it has been 5 years since we dated. Ohmygosh. Scary. Ahahah. Guess we all became better huh? :p he’s doing pretty well in Aussie, still a chick when it comes to sales & shopping. WAHAAHHA. Read his blog the other day about a sale at Guess. Teehee. Couldn’t stop grinning. “CHAR BOH” betul budak ni. Didn’t know he took up an English name tho. O.O Jack Loh. Hmmmm… Mr CinaMan no longer so Cina eh?

There’s this AH1N1 scare in our office recently. One of our colleague confirm has it. But our office is still working as normal because only close contact people need to self quarantine. She was from a different team. Even so, it’s created a pretty huge havoc in the office. All of the sudden people are sanitizing their hands (again), wearing maskSSS (again). Here’s the new one, temperature check at the receptionists desk.

I really hope these crappy stuff will end.

Friday, July 10

Genting part 2

some people never change....much.
which is why i lurve them of so muchie~
-ms. chiichaak! allthetime-
-ms. hyper finally got tired-
-ms. sleeping beauty anytime anywhere-
-ms. rihanna of the night-
*inside story*
after we went to the temple.
we lepak in the room.
the the night came...
O-Town Kopitiam
the official bracelet
middle of the night.
the countless times we went up n down n up n down the escalator to snap this.
even later into the night.
group pictures in the room.
bertingkat tingkat siut. kesian budak kat bawah tu.
:: habis ::
next morning before we left.
-side effects of kimchoon's drinking game-
jump shots!!
we wanted to try it out...
first there was one...
then the second one joined.
then the third wan came in.
the fourth one quickly followed.
then after countless tries...
everyone jumped!

byebye genting
till next time.....
bring it on!

Thursday, July 9

genting part 1

2 weeks ago.
friends and i went to genting.
pretty impulsive.
-not so la-
planned quite long oso ma.
at the mid hill station.
whoa. cable car byk orang...
lining up....
saw sum interesting clowns there.
and even cuter lil boy!
at the cable car.
my arm still sakit coz wishan GRABBED us in fear.
nt so pain la.
cable car~
our hotel...
our organizer.
i like this one.
eventho its blurred.
stilll..... love it!
our view
siewkuan's sandwhich...
extra activities
stuff me do...
wishan had a HUGEEEE p****e.
pergi temple.
siewkuan & siti tan
i couldn't resist!!!
then it rained...
we had our own fun nonetheless.

yay! boleh keluar!
reasons why i tersesat from everyone so often.
we monkey-ed around abit.
den i tersesat again...
then the night came....
coming soon.

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