Monday, May 28

finally.

its proven.
blogger hates me.
the world hates me. *yessss, its the emo-me talking shits!*

i cant access stupid blogger for the past week!
i hate it when i'm pms-ing n emo n stressed up n tension giler.... AND I CANT BLOG!!!
*smacks head and fall*
the stupid page cant load!

the way i'm blogging right now.
its so lame i dont even want to elaborate further.
try n guess.
its just too depressing n pathetic to even share.

its been like hell.
i got use to having the blog to rant n vent out my emotions.
this past week.

WHOA...
i felt constipated.
like i havent pangsai for weeks!
its like u gotta shit! but toilet door cant open!
yea... that frustrated. i named it PHEK CHEK!!
my brain status for the past week seems like the drain outside my house.
BLOCKED!!

and to add to the frustration.
presentationskills finals is in wait... let me count THREE weeks!!! THREE!
copywriting finals presentation is in FOUR weeks!!!!
artdirection finals presentation is ONE DAY after copywriting!!
and my moral exam is the week after that!!!

copywriting photos belum buat! the body copy lagi i belum!!
my brain LAGGGGIIINNNGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!
BERKARAT liao.....
artdirection lagi the shits! i have no idea wat the fuck is the new marking system!!
moral exam pretty shitty too.
i have no idea wat the crap is the syllabus. the freak arse text book is double form5 sejarah text book! and the BM in that book is like !!#$$!%^!^!$##!$!!!! CRAP!! twisted BM is so not my language...

i thought i could handle it.
i thought i could stand the heat.
seems to me that i've over estimated myself.
i aint ALL THAT.
i am not wat i thought i could be.

i thought i was matured enough to create a balance.
i thought i can handle a relationship n family n college n friends all at the same time.
i cant
i found out today, i crack wit pressure.
i cant stand being the useless one.
i cant stand being the incompetent one.

i see my friends handling their lives fine.
allie even can handle two guys, working for open day, her college work, a besties bday and her friends.
betty seemed pretty well that she's coping wit her died-ed laptop, staying far from home, moving to a new hostel, old hse being haunted, pweird psychotic relationships and her school work.
why the heck cant i?

at this point.
i feel darn useless.
its like the whole world is turning. and i'm not.

so in conclusion.
IT SUCKS REAL BAD right now.
REAL real real BAD....

and so now....
i'm done.
no more constipated brain.

lets get into the geek-bitch-exam freak mode....
back-to-work

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

PHEK CHEK! least you did something for AD. i'm emo. depressed. we cannot be pessimistic lah! we together gether motivate each other! have faith. do our best.

babe, trust me. you're doing well with your rship, fships, coll. dont emo. please lah. the allie part is so not true. coll work sucks, working was !@#$%^&* (shant curse. *oops), sending fish, whining & complaining isnt bagus, then, my friends... say i'm a nerd. the guys... pathetic. i feel messy.

*huuugs. look on the bright side. we're seniors in our second year. we'll make it happen. we always do. *smiles.

Anonymous said...

since u choose to lepaskan ur geram thru ur blog..i guess u kinda manage ur emotion well..
u know..if i'm in d same situation as u..i will definitely bang the wall and even yell at everyone who appears in front of me.
i'm tat kind of emo person..
yell & bang..yell & bang..
at least u don't huh?...

hey...college life is lidat 1 la..
better look more on d bright side..
i can understand how suck it is when u having constipated mind..
it's like u would rather take a sword and chop it off and die on d spot!!..

ha..cheers girl~~~~..
*muakz~~~~~~~*
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