Tuesday, March 11

too much to handle


t.m.t.h
too.much.to.handle.

sorry. nt a fan of danny from american idol but... tat phrase is catchy.


dun u see my point of view?
stop trying to control... YOU try being me for 1 day~
saw tat from a friend's situation tday.
sometimes.
coping is hard.
espeacially when everything is upside down at this moment.
work lagging.
people...frustrating.
irresponsible people..... simple mind boggling... nt to mention annoying.
sometimes, it works trying to be neutral.
jus chill.
clear ur mind.
take a step back n try to see the bigger pic.
i know....easier said than done.
but that's how it should be...
IDEALLY....
ish...
you care too much...
y must everything be your prob?
y must every other thing be so important?
sometimes, you should jus LEARN TO LET GO...
screw "consequences"...
i realised i'm jus too good of a person for my own good.
people step on me again and again and again.
and the stupid thing is... I LET THEM BE!!
and I NEVER LEARNT...
people are selfish.
thats a fact i'll never learn to accept.
quote mandy.
they care about nothing else except for themsleves.
then...? wat bout me?
where do i come in?
i'm sick of being manipulated and used.
i'm sick of being cheated and conned.
i'm sick of being the-ever ready-standby-girl.
i'm always the sick pathetic loser that ends up doing last minute unfinished business..
and they arent even MY business...!!!
i was never an optimistic person.
i'm never the one wearing the yellow hat.
i'm more of a black or red hat person...
black as in i'll always be troubleshooting EVERYTHING... i worry too much.
red as in i'll get really emotional and then i wouldn't be rational or sane anymore.
i dun tink ...
smoking or drinking or clubbing or shisha-ing will help keep me in line...
so the question is:
how can you continue hoping for the better when every other people are jus plain evil, manipulative and mean?
how can you keep being optimistic when all u can see is darkness?
how can you continue believing that mayb someday...things will change?
will it?
or will u turn to be as sour, as selfish as the world is now?
simply because "they forced you into it"?
where do u find your direction....
i refuse to be the evil people.
yet this world....
its excruciating to bear with.
i feel like drilling through their thick skulls and peek into their brain...
wondering...
how in the world do they operate?!!!

how am i to keep myself sane?
insanity mayb the best choice...
-3niGma-

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