life.

i seriously hate it when i'm alone with my dhamma teacher.
like ALONE.
she's a counsellor u see.
for troubled teens and troubled everything.
and when i'm with her.
she'll always "so, how u've been?"
then she'll psycho analyse me and everything.
after like a while,
you'll tend to blurt out everything.
IN THE END, you always end up crying buckets la...
-.-"

issues.
self values.
life itself.

yeaa... i'm starting to feel like my life is sooooo messed up right now.
doin things i shouldnt be doin...
like watching csi.
not doin things i should be doin...
HOME WORK!!!

staring at 4 walls...
emo-ing...
busying...
but nt wit homework!
wtf?!
ish...

quote
its time you cared more of urself then others.
how can other people love u.
when u cant even appreciate and love urself?
its never a sin to give yourself a pat on the back once in a while.
espeacially when u deserve it.
unquote

i realised I cant be selfish.
i'm a nice person.
a little bit too nice.
almost seem fake.
naive or stupid.
i dunno.
but i seem to be bumping into too many walls recently.
it hurts...
badly.

listening to this new addition to my playlist recently...
other than simple plan and sum41.
i'm a huge fan btw.
wounded
by good charlotte.
its a good song.
not a new song.
but timeless la.
good charlottes song.

anyHOOOoo...
it seems like everytime i feel lost..
or starting to feel lost..
i'll always turn back to the temple.
start goin back for classes.
doin more dhamma work.
i dunno.
adds in the workload. :/
but..
it does give me some balance.
"life" wise...

soo...
CAMP 015.
its from24th may to 28thmay...
for TEENS from 15-20years old...mind u.
and you gotta tao bahasa cina ya sayang.
i'll post up the poster soon.

it'll be fun.
too bad i cant join.
coz i'll be having my internship.
WHICH i belum dapat cari...
mati looooo...

yehyeh nt feeling well after goin to singapore to see my cousins and his great grandson.
haih.
should be fine.
will see him soon.


pretty random tday.
realised my life is pretty packed.
of work and work and more work.
hmm..
i see less of my friends and everyone else.
:(

so...
if ur feeling exxxtra generous and feel like cheering someone up.
CALL ME!!!!

wahahah..
tooodles.