Saturday, November 18

: finding myself :

i was walking tday... had nthg to do... FYI..i'm one of the psycho peeps that like to walk in the rain...
i noe... weird... but i like...with umbrella of course!

i walked passed this kindergarden... i saw this little chinese gurl fell down right on the pavement... 
but b4 i could go to get her...this little indian boy came running her...(btw the rain was HEAVY! there wasnt any raindrops..its more like BUCKETS n BUCKETS of water pouring down...!!) the little indian boy was dry under the porch n he jus dashed out... apparently the little chinese gurl punya shoelace tertanggal... den the little indian boy stayed under the rain to tie her shoelace!! so the comel!! kesian oso la... i went there with my umbrella n helped dem la...

i went to pick up my fren's younger sis that day from hinhua...i use to do that everyday when i was in highschool...i would walk up to her school i wait at her front gate...den i'll walk her to the opposite busstop where we would take the same bus home... when i saw her i was surprised at how fluent her chinese was! she's malay btw... but surprisingly, her frens were theminority in schools...yunno...the malay n indian that enrolled in the chinese prinary school... and ALL of them comunicate in chinese!


when i was in secondary school... i mix wit the chinese... not only JUS chinese... i only mix wit my kind... CHINESE... science stream... shit like that...even tho i use to play wit the indian boys in my neighbourhood... even tho i use tobe pretty close to malays during form3... till the end... its jus chinese...


that day my dad was driving n this lunatic driver cut my dad's path with merely 1inch left in between them... my mom immeadiatly said... "must be indian driver la! siao wan!" i jus stared blankly at em... why must be indian? i doubt there any difference between em n us chinese despide the color la...recently some houses in my neighbourhood got robbed... n when asked wat happen... the aunties will start the " raya lio ma!! sure the malays la!"....

i seriously dun understand why...when we were young we din care wat color u were...or wat language u spoke... my dad use to play basketball wit malays when he was a lad... my indian neighbour use to be able to speak hokkien coz she mix wit chinese when she was schooling... but when we are out in the society, we tend to categories ppl... n we tend to be biased... we only see wat we choose to see n believe wat we choose to believe... some say its better this way..i tink not... ppl say that as we grow up...we'll learn to see more.. i tink as we grow up, we choose to see less.... last time it was "the boy seems nice, he laughs alot, mayb we can be frens"...now its "that man, wow...look at his car... ew! bad hair la!...but he's rich wert! n he's popular too..." ... somtimes jus looking at children..it does make me ponder: whose teaching n whose shud be learning? mayb we shud learn from toddlers like them...their innocence n naive is overwhelming... they help ppl because the want to...we help ppl its always the "wats the catch?" dilemma.... y is it so hard? y must we make things so complicated? isnt it time for us to look back into ourself? to find who we truly are? back to the very basic...the very core...

during my sleepless nights... i took a journey myself... boxes... tapes... photos... everything..
i went thru my past... times when i din care wat other ppl think... i like wat i liked...even tho ppl thinks its weird.. n nt my age....
my top three fav shows?

woman on top...



this isnt a  porn k? as horny n pornographic the title may seem..its a absolutely normal show...
its a show about love... even better its a show about TRUE love... the ones that isnt controlled by spells n curses... love that isnt defined by status and race...

sex and the city...



this is a show bout frenship... n sex... different lives... different partners... different situations... different personality... n yet they stood by each other...
so what if its also revovling about sex? its nt the core of the story... 
the finale season was emofying.... but it doesnt proves the the storyline...
tat frens stick to each other... mayb shows like this was poissoning my mind... 
mayb thats why i put so much pressure in my own highschool clique... i wanted that...
mayb its jus bogus!

ally mcbeal...



this is the ultimate... flame to dust... lovers to frens... why must all good things come to an end?
ally mcbeal is gooooood... love, lost, frens, lovers, faith, hope.... the whole emo package!

::3niGma::


2 comments:

nasH said...

maybe we shud try to see wat sepet,gubra n s'kali trying to convey....i guess deep down some malaysian r still racist just that they are not bold enough to admit it......kids on the other hand they r still pure in the sense that they dont care bout skin colour n stuffs...haha perhaps we can change the society in our very own way...who knows ey?

-3niGma- said...

ngeh ngeh ngeh!! i watched s'kali too!! i likeeee!!! akakakka... i finally linked u up bro!

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