hmmmmm... holidays....

woooooooo...... holidays.... waaaaaa... how fun.....
*blueks!*
this proves that i have no life at all...
blergh!!
lazing around the whole freaking day....

yesterdays movie cinta emofy me.... the quotes keep coming back to me... emofied.... 
         adik jangan takut tutup mata, kerana kakak ada di sini berjaga
                                                         its worth it if you've found the right one
  kalau boleh sehari dengan orang yang kita sayang,
           betapa susah pun, lebih baik daripada sepanjang hidup tanpa dia

i'n so getting the ori dvd when it comes out... so...if anyone out there is thinking wat pressie to get me in the future... heres a hint : cinta!!!

jus made plans wit aM3 for pyramid this thurs... finally catching 007... hmmm...

gah!!! nthg much edi... bored to death!!!!

i used to dun care. i used to dun give a damn. i used to be carefree. not the pantyliner. now. its diff. i feel weak. i feel vulnerable. y does it feel so "exposed"? almost naked.its hard. its very hard. to learn to trust. to learn to love. at this point. i dowanna learn anymore. i dowana sink even deeper den i already have. sometimes, you've been hurt so much n so many times that u'll learn to be numb. i rather be numb. i WAS numb. and it worked pretty well for a time. there were flings n flirts. nthg special. until YOU came along. until u came along wit the whole love, faith, hope, comitment shit. loads of crap. i hate em. i dont believe em! i dowan believe em! i am not falling into this crap again. but ironically, if i am so firm n sure of myself, y am i struggling now?

am i really goin thru wit this? i wanna see u. i cant be falling into tis. i wanna be wit you. why me?  i love u. wat is love? he said he loves me. how true is tat? i wish i could do more for u. stop sacrificing, u'll get hurt. i miss u. i have a life. ur hugs are so warm. i'm not changing my lifestyle for him. u call that a life? i like my life! flirts n fling aint a life. at 
least u dont get hurt. wat if it is him? theres no such thing as "the one". wat if there is? no, never.
jus being there means alot. wat if it doesnt last? warm hands. 
he was a player, he was born to be smooth. he isnt now, not anymore. how sure are u? melting eyes. looker dun last! i wish this would be forever. if only it would.

complicated ey?
dun worry if u dun understand...
its ok...
i'm weird..
nvr did say i was normal.

-3niGma-