sulking away

yeah...deepavali...hari raya... holidays.... free time....woohoo!!!

wats missing?
frens i guess... 

since the gruesome murder of my beloved moto E398... i'm cut out from the outside world... definite...
it kinda sad...as i kinda found out tat my LIFE...n my WORLD revovles around a very very very limited small circle... theres the :cartoonfrenz:...a little small froup of 5 girls whom were very close frens... theres the dharma class buddies.... grew apart since i left the temple in form 4... theres family...which is like 95% of my life...n theres TZ... pathetic huh? i think so too...

every year chinese new year... my parents would ask the same question... "y ur frens never come visit u wan a??" yunno wat? i wonder too...mayb its perhaps my family is nt the psyco type...their strict n solemm..thus mayb = no fun....and also... i have loads of frens in skool...but the close wans? there was only me... sk... mp... sometimes ws.... n... ... recently kc...after that? no more...

when we were in high school... i had a clique which i most probably spend 99% of school time with... we were close n we were to last "4eva"... of course there was the myths that "friends 4eva" was bogus...it'll split no matter what...so we came up wit a little idea... on 0909 every year..we would meet up... no matter wat shit there is...we would leave that day empty... jus to meet up...  but every time when its that time already....
          "i'm bz la"
          "i have smthg on la"
          "goin out la"
          "..... ... ....."
n frankly..i'm getting sick of this....
at 1st i jus let it slide...den in coll...i happen to hav a fren tat organise a get together dinner party EVERY MONTH! n theres like 10 of em...  now this i feel pathetic... wtf?
ppl meet up every month...dinner on their own effort...
i jus wanna see u guys once a year!! sumore i n mp must plan... brain juice habis tension... den ppl say.."gt smthg on"...b4 tat ask... "anything la...up to u..."


*urgh!!!