“代替品”不好做。

full circle

its interesting how fate comes at you.
its interesting how things happen.
:)

few days right after i came back from hobbitland, i received teacher's calls/sms/msn messages.
its really rare to see her online anyway. (must be smthg super duper urgent)
Loving Tree was having a story telling event. and they required an English MC.

now knowing me (being all anal, routined , well planned, and painfully boring) I'd squirm at these last minute requests. I'd go why cant it be planned earlier? why can things be more well thought through? why cant it be more well prepared?

i would. i really would.

but through the years (yes, years. Teacher has been with me since my high school days)
this was not my 1st last minute gig.
but through the years, i'll never say no to smthg like this.
reason is simple. I felt the purpose for it.

It wasnt like some commercial gig where i get paid for an event.
it was smthg that meant smthg to me.
smtg close to my heart.
I had nthg to lose. (ok, maybe a few hours of sleep). but i could sleep those hours away anytime any public holiday.

It's been months since i "did not work".
I've been busy working for months.
What i did last sat & sun did not feel like work. :)
i was tired as hell. but it doesnt feel like shit.

"happy-tired" someone told me.
True.
I'd agree.

I came a full circle on 14th Nov.
I started 1 1st story telling competition on Sept 6, 1996 in SJK(c) Perempuan Klang.
I came back and took the stage again as MC on Nov 14, 2010 in SJK(c) Perempuan Klang.

Amazing

Xie Xie Ni De Ai ( 謝謝你的愛 ) - Li Xin Jie

assumptions.

we always judge people.

no matter how much we say we dont.

we do.

its a norm we do.

LV bag - oooh.... high class.

charles & keith - hmmm... stylish practical.

jimmy choo - diva?

happy energetic not bad looking dude - gotta have a gf, else he's gay.

some single apek in the cyber cafe - adult friend finders? O.o

=.=

you see a bubbly chirpy guy who loves colors, he's gay?

you see a uncle with a chinese girl eating dinner, she's a gold digger?

you see a auntie with a young lad shopping, she's cradle snatcher?

lawyers - drunken indians (i'm nt racist)

pharmacist - nice chinese girls

accountants - CINAAA.

designers - sloppy dude, with no routine and an attitude.

interior designers (guy) - gay

advertising?

they're either labeled - wild, slutty, social, drunks, philanderer, sleep around, have parties, alcoholics.

i dun get it.

not everyone's like that.

the work is already difficult enough.

as though the stress isnt already unbearable.

now this?

i'm sick of my friends and family asking,

eh don't go clubbing la.

eh u drink alot a?

dun drink la.

do u smoke?

why u so wild one?

and it pisses me off so bad.

2 yrs of work.

i've been in a club 3 or 4 times.

i do not smoke.

i dun get piss drunk.

i dun fool around.

i kept track of my spendings.

i try to have friends.

i try to be friendly.

i go yumcha, not clubbing.

i dont buy designer labels.

i'm already dead broke as it is.

i've been effing rational!

i've done less that what some normal college kids do every week.

i see ppl getting piss drunk every day.

i still see clubs filled with 20 yr olds.

when i finish work early in the morning, i jam home with a bunch of drunk kids.

i dun mind strangers having that assumption.

i really dun giv a fuck.

but if u still claim u know me, and love me.

then please. don't make assumptions which are as hurtful.

the most hurtful words come from ppl who u care the most.

those sting like a steel knife cutting down your throat.

i dont even wanna explain.

if u understand me, thank you. you have no idea how much that means to me.

if you dont, i'm sorry i've wasted your time.

i'm sorry i've been a failure to you.

as a colleague, as a friend, as a bestie, as your sister, as your daughter.

没关系

吴克群-没关系




作詞：吳克群
作曲：吳克群

你離開的時候沒有一句
沒有一句對不起 對不起是我太執迷
你離開的時候沒有一句
沒有一句話說清 說清楚離開的原因

也許他可靠 他實際 他不一樣
他能夠給你安全感 不只夢想
誰還在乎一起傻傻說過的那些話

沒關係 我們分了沒關係
這不是你的問題 是我沒那個福氣
沒福氣卻又愛上你
就算哭了沒關係 這不是你的問題
痛痛快快給我一槍 我沒關係 沒關係 沒關係

你離開的時候沒有一句
沒有一句對不起 對不起是我太執迷
你離開的時候沒有一句
沒有一句話說清 說清楚你離開的原因

也許他可靠 他實際 他不一樣
他能夠給你安全感 不只夢想
誰還在乎一起傻傻說過的那些話

沒關係 我們分了沒關係
這不是你的問題 是我沒那個福氣
沒福氣卻又愛上你
就算哭了沒關係 這不是你的問題
痛痛快快給我一槍 我沒關係

愛情裡面總有一個比較傻 怪就怪我放不下 NO~~
痛苦給我幸福留給你和他 沒關係 沒關係 沒關係

沒關係 我們分了沒關係
這不是你的問題 是我沒那個福氣
沒福氣卻又愛上你
就算哭了沒關係 這不是你的問題
痛痛快快給我一槍 我沒關係 沒關係 沒關係

i'm the king of the world

sometimes i wished the world revolves around me.

i do.

i wish i have that power to control the how the world feels.

i wish i can dictate if you're gonna be happy or not today.

i really do wish.

but in reality. we're so small that it never matters how i feel.

honestly.

u really think the world is gonna stop coz ur hurting?

really?

honestly, u think everyone would be miserable when u had a rough day?

i'm sure everyone knows that life goes on.

unfortunately not alot of people understand it.

i find it delusional to think that way.

so u had a bad day. ok.

take a breathe, talk to some one.

cry urself out.

den take another breathe,

pick urself up.

the world is still moving.

why must others wait on you?

ideal right?

thats how i life my life.

i have bad days.

i have good days.

but i still do wish everyone would have good days, even when i'm having a bad day.

wouldn't u like to see smiles on other ppl's faces?

i would.

if i could make 1 person's day better, that would make my bad day a lil better too.

no?

or am i the delusional one?

i came to see (bang wall smack in my face kinda obvious) that there are mean & selfish ppl around.

those that wouldn't give a fuck about how ur doing.

all they know is they should be the center of the universe.

and all us pathetic fools are merely there to entertain them.

it feels like cold water pouring down on you, dampen any existence of happiness & hope u still have.

criticizing every lil detail and issue.

over what? i still do not know.

coz they're unhappy i guess...

selfish ppl are everywhere.

and there'll never be a cure to make them better, or to make them less bitter.

so how now?

so you're not happy.

i wanna be happy.

i'm desperate.

dont rain on me please.

me?

双子座

代表人物：《银魂》 善后屋猿飞小莎 还有整篇作者本人

双子的孤独无药可医，他们的单纯使他们经常把很多事放在感性的放大镜下观看，虽然表面上理性。

所 有的一切都被虚化被美化，他们的内心认为朋友就是在危难时刻拔刀相助不计后果的，爱情就是简简单单没有伤害的，但事实并不是这样，现实的很多碰壁很多失望 令他们手足无措，原来世界并不是他们想象中的那样，而他们追求完美的天性和孤傲的本质令他们与孤独就此结缘，那种痛彻骨髓的冷，无处可诉的悲凉，看着自己 亲手毁掉曾经美好的梦想。

有人说孤独每个人都有，太自恋了吧。但双子的孤独只有双子自己知 道，那是没有可能治好的绝症。因为双子天生就是两个心，两颗脑，他们的感受，他们的所思所想都是双倍的。但他们却只有一个躯体，一个世界。 这是一个天生残缺的星座，天生在找寻能与自己契合的另一个人，但谁能找到一个相同的自己？？所以，他们注定这样孤独而劳碌的用一个人的身体承受着两个人的 快乐与伤悲，还有永远的孤独。

双子不想孤傲，不愿独来独往，（其实大多数双子表面呼朋唤友， 内心却从来没有依靠，孤独无依）但他们的敏感和天生的优越感使他们无法妥协。双子，有很多人羡慕他，很多人嫉妒他，很多人厌恶他，几乎没有一个星座能有这 样大的争议性。我想说，双子的孩子们，他们的眼泪永远多于笑容，那些在阳光下微笑，却用眼泪洗涤如水凉夜的孩子，那些从不愿别人失望但自己却因此精疲力尽 的孩子，他们的名字是双子。如果你的爱人是双子，那么请你好好爱他，因为他真的不会自己寻找快乐。 如果你是双子座，你就要听清楚了—— 你的一生都注定你要去寻找你的另一半。 为了找到你的另一半，你会尝试着和各种不同的人相处、相恋。 在众人的眼里，双子都是花心的，你们花心却不会一脚踏两船，而是经常换船。 然而没有人知道你们这是为了找寻真爱阿！ 只要找到了你的另一半，双子就不会再换了，双子的痴情与专一只会给一个人。

双子的痴情是让人 惊讶的，就像他们的花心一样让人吃惊。 然而双子又是可悲的，因为那另一半并不是每个双子都能找到的，因此双子总在茫茫人海中寻寻觅觅，找寻真正的爱情。 同时在无意之中伤害了身旁的追随者。 然而事实却是，与双子座的人谈一场恋爱是会让人永生难忘的，这段爱情绝对充满了惊喜与快乐。 所以，喜欢经常换船的双子总能轻易的找到另一条船来换。 爱上双子的人们啊，你享受到了多少快乐？那就不要在乎双子将会带给你多少无情的伤害了。除非你有信心让双子相信你就是他的另一半。 这是真正的双子！ 很多人都说双子的不是，心不在焉，花心，等等，在大多人眼里双子似乎一无是处。其实双子是很脆弱的。双子害怕伤害，既不愿意伤害任何人，也不愿任何人伤害 他们，并且不信任任何人，所以即便是很要好的一群朋友在一起，有些时候他们也会表现得非常沉默，因为双子的心灵总是孤独的。 他们不愿意被人理解，也不屑被人理解，很多时候，即便跟你观点有分歧，他们也不会跟你争吵，他们不屑争吵，只有在偶尔无法忍耐的时候才会弄得面红耳赤；不 过对于性情温和的人，他们则极尽他们的口才以达到说服的目的，他们不愿意发生争吵. 双子的朋友基本都是泛泛之辈，感情深厚的朋友实在少的可怜。因此寂寞或是不开心时，他们通常也是一个人躲起来一言不发，不去理睬任何人，并且不希望被其他 人打扰。大家平时看到的他们并不是真正的他们，他们总是在掩饰自己，自己也不明白这到底是有意还是无意的。 他们的心事通常不会跟任何人讲，即便你刨根问底也徒劳无功，只有当他们愿意倾诉的时候，他们才会告诉他们知心的朋友，通常这种机会很少。他们对大多的人、 事、物都不怎么在乎，好象是以冷眼观世的态度活在这世上的，即便当他们非常在意某人某事的时候，他们也不会在他人面前轻易表现出来。 许多人蔑视双子，那是因为他们不了解双子，双子的真诚与执著我个人认为是其他人都望尘莫及的，双子想要做一件事不在乎其他人的感觉，双子对待别人虽然不甚 亲切，然而即便厌恶你的时候也不轻易表露，他们的承受能力惊人的大，可是又有谁会明白他们心中的苦闷。正如有些人说的，生活真的很不容易，又何必再给他人 增加烦恼。 如果哪位达人理解双子的话，那他会明白双子其实在寻找一个孤寂的世界，把自己一个人埋没于此，不让任何人知道，因为双子不愿意看到有人为自己伤心，他们的 苦他们愿意一个人承担。

天下理解双子的人请善待双子。

KiaOra!

Sorry for the lack of updates and alot of random blabblings.
YES I AM BACK!!

fyi, i went to GoldCoast Aussie & NZ.
indeed it was a great break.
it was awesome.

I've always been astounded by the miracles of mother nature.
NZ jus blew me away.
At so many levels, i'd jus feel humble by the amazing scenery, friendly people and the wonderful culture over there.

I could just open my window in the morning at 7am and see this:
:)
whats not to love?

Being a geek by nature, anything worth studying - I love & remember.
Simply by the 1st few posters I saw at the airport, I was so intrigued by the Maori Culture.
No, not just because the have nice body and walk around half naked
(though i wouldn't mind as they do look awesome) :P
ahahahha.

I am completely hooked on Maori symbol. These symbols are commonly carved into pendants from bone or stone sometimes attached to their cords with authentic, traditional bindings & knots.

Not only are these carved pendants very well crafted, highly detailed pieces of art. They also resemble various Maori symbols which in their turn represent Maori culture, history, and spiritual beliefs. Their function is to commemorate ancestors and honor mythological beings and their stories.

Hei Matau or Maori fish hook necklace
My personal favorite.
In short the Hei-Matau (fish hook) represents strength, determination and good health, as well as providing safety.



Koru (spiral)
The Koru depicts new beginnings, growth and harmony, taken from the symbolism of a unfurled silver fern leaf. The Twist
The Maori symbols or meaning for The single twist represents the path of life, it is the eternity symbol. The single figure eight represents the joining together of two people, and although people move away, their journey of life will have their paths cross again.

The triple and double twist represents the joining together of two people, or two cultures for eternity and even though they may experience life's ups and downs they remain bonded by friendship and loyalty for life. more photos will follow through with the journey.
now too busy with work d. LOL

dreamers.

remember how we were young (well, younger than now) and we use to dream?

remember when you get good results, and people would ask in interviews.
"what would you wanna do in the future?"
I'd always answer,
"i dunno what i'm gonna be yet. But i wanna do smthg that would make a difference."

I'd believe that people are nice.
I'd believe that good things happens to good people.
That everything happens for a reason.
I used to believe that dreams will come true.

as days goes by, i realized how i stopped hoping.
how i'd always plan for the worst to happen.
i'd hope for smthg bad NOT to happen rather than hope for smthg good.
how i'd always think that things are never the way they seem.
how i've come to realize good things do not always happen to good people.
being nice may not bring back nice returns.
how i hate feeling so vulnerable.

when i met aM3 in coll, i saw how she always hung her motto by her.
"making a difference" she said.
I'd scoff. "tough luck"
yet she still is optimistic.
she is so hyper sometimes i swear i wanna smack her.
she's like a tickle-me-elmo which i can never turn off.
:)
guess that how we clicked.
she's a dreamer, i wish i was too.

i rmb us slaving thru coll. and the satisfaction of finish a design course when we were nerds & geeks from science.
guess we did kick ass. least we felt that way. :)

i remember telling myself, i din not wanna work for work. i was determined to do smthg that i'd love. i do not wanna work 10-30 yrs over a routine that i soon learn to hate. i do not wanna be working simply coz i needed the money.

and i'm here.

wondering, why am i doing this?
is this what i wanna do?
where would i be 5 yrs from now?

working in LB is insane indeed.
but working in LB also keeps me sane.
contradicting right?

its insane because its crazeeeeeeee work.
yet its insane somehow i still smile occasionally thinking "thank god i'm nt a pharmacist/engineer".
how when a campaign ended, i'd stare at the event photos and go "whoa, its done. not bad."
how u'd secretly smirk when a client says "good job"

but then again, by the end of the day.
i find myself struggling to keep myself driven.
i find myself so tired and my life have become nthg but a routine.
a routine of waking up- going to work- get all frustrated - and going home.
only to start the routine all over again.
is this really what i wan my life to be?

what happened to the girl who wanted to work and travel?
what happened to the girl who wanted to station in cambodia for 6 months for the sake of it?
what happened to the girl who was passionate about nature and hikes?
what happened to the girl who would part time for Paws & SPCA?
what happened to the girl who give bread to the strays outside & get yelled at by mom later and still be happy?
what happened to the girl who'd give things a try eventhough she's not sure what lies ahead?

i was a dreamer, till i became a realist.
now i wanna dream again.
tell me how?

happy birthday to you.

happy birthday.
thats all i can say.

happy birthday.

i wish you well.
i wish you health.

i wish peace & hope your days will be better.
i wish u'd stay safe and sail through the weather.

i wish u'd have less nighmares.
i wish u'd have better dreams.

i wish u all the best in work.
i wish u everything in life.

i wish u'd heal better.
i wish u'd hurt lesser.

i wish u love.
i wish u bliss.

i wish u everything with her.
i hope u will find happiness.

:) may she was the one all along?

happy birthday tzer.
after so many years, i sincerely wish u'd take care.

12星不可触碰的感情雷区

pantang weh!!!
dun mess with my privacy!

双子座

爱情忌讳：不能一成不变，不能没有主张，不要当闷葫芦，不要考验耐性。

感情地雷：不可以刺探隐私。

喜 欢不断变化的双子座，是不喜欢每天都做同样一件事情的。如果平淡的生活没有一点创意，一点激情，你是拴不住他们的心哦。而且双子座的人是没什么耐心的，跟 他们比，吃亏的永远都是你。虽然双子平时风趣幽默、大方得很，但是他们要有自己私密的小空间，那里自由，神圣且不可侵犯，一旦你去探听双子座的情人不愿说 的事情，他们会觉得你很讨人厌喔。和双子座的情人在一起，也许会让你觉得有点累哦。

so trueeee~
:P

-------------------

白羊座

爱情忌讳：不能泼他冷水，不能拖拖拉拉，不要唠唠叨叨，不要闷不吭声。

感情地雷：不可以挑战权威。

没 有一个星座比白羊座更要面子的了，如果你伤到了他的自尊，小心他她会翻脸不认人，让你后悔莫及哦。白羊座的人都是心直口快，性急好斗嘴，做人没什麽心机 的，脾气过了也就算了，一般不会把事情闹到不可收拾的地步。但是你不要拐弯抹角、指桑骂槐，更不要叫他们“好好反省”，因为在白羊座情人的字典中，是没有 “认错”和“反省”这类字眼的。不能以诚相待，小心他她会让你们的爱情列车靠站喔。

金牛座

爱情忌讳：不能没有耐心，不能华而不实，不要对他她忽视，不要铺张浪费。

感情地雷：不可以和他她谈钱。

如 果你太过猴急，缺乏耐性，牛牛们会认为你另有图谋，不值得他她守候。什么幻想，什么将来……一切不实际的东西对他们来说都要OUT！还有就是他们的占有欲 很强，他她可不希望和别人一起分享自己喜欢的人，就算是朋友都不可以哦，所以不要和异性表现得太暧昧喔。另外，金牛座的情人是没钱就没安全感的人(或许他 们不会承认)，不管感情多好，也不要在他她面前念及钱字，会招来他们的反感哦。

双子座

爱情忌讳：不能一成不变，不能没有主张，不要当闷葫芦，不要考验耐性。

感情地雷：不可以刺探隐私。

喜 欢不断变化的双子座，是不喜欢每天都做同样一件事情的。如果平淡的生活没有一点创意，一点激情，你是拴不住他们的心哦。而且双子座的人是没什么耐心的，跟 他们比，吃亏的永远都是你。虽然双子平时风趣幽默、大方得很，但是他们要有自己私密的小空间，那里自由，神圣且不可侵犯，一旦你去探听双子座的情人不愿说 的事情，他们会觉得你很讨人厌喔。和双子座的情人在一起，也许会让你觉得有点累哦。

巨蟹座

爱情忌讳：不能漠不关心，不能急功近利，不要过于外向，不要纠缠不休。

感情地雷：不可以伤害家人。

巨 蟹座的人情绪多变，你要用不变的关怀来应对万变的事情。他她喜欢相互的关心，语言的体贴，所以你要温柔的对待他们，切不可对他们呼呼喝喝。传统的巨蟹喜欢 待在家里，和家人共享天伦，太外向的性格可以吸引他们，但是恋情不会长久。他们讨厌吵架，不喜欢正面冲突，出了问题千万不要一直缠着他们哦，他们需要静一 静。对于他们来说，家人朋友是最重要的，你可以说他的不是，但千万不要批评他的家人和朋友。

狮子座

爱情忌讳：不能泼他冷水，不能冷嘲热讽，不要对他说教，不要胡乱插话。

感情地雷：不可以不公不正。

狮 子座的人可是大哥大、大姐大哦，对他们所做的事情，你可以睁只眼闭只眼，但是不要东说西语，讲些不中听的话，会损坏他们“王者尊严”的哦。对他们多说大道 理，只会让他们对你反感，如果你再老是打断她正在说的话，那你就完蛋了！和狮子座的人谈恋爱，一切都要讲求公平、遵循原则，无理取闹和出尔反尔，就是存心 和他们过不去。对于他们来说，有理可以恩爱一生、无理则是寸步难行。

处女座

爱情忌讳：不能无理取闹，不能口不择言，不要光说空话，不要轻言分手。

感情地雷：不可以破坏原则。

对 于处女座的人来说，爱情永远都是排在第二位的，你要是不依不饶地勉强他们，他们可不会理你哦。满口胡说八道，做事轻率的人，他们更会敬而远之。对他们许下 的诺言，最好可以有十足的把握去实现，不能做的事情就不要逞能，因为对他们来说，空头支票的杀伤力实十分大的哦。你要是随随便便就说分手，他们可是真的相 信的。其实并不是每一个处女座的情人都天生有洁癖，重点是他们相当坚持原则。

天秤座

爱情忌讳：不能过多批评，不能逼他决定，不要过分干涉，不要发火动怒。

感情地雷：不可以痴黏纠缠。

无 关美丑，天秤座的人个个都是很擅长自我陶醉的。他们自恋程度之高，已经不容外界否定和怀疑。所以对于他们的建议和忠告，还是愈迂回委婉愈好，否则天秤座情 人敏感脆弱的心很少能承受得起。他们不喜欢感情被牵绊，逼他只会让他们想逃。他们博爱滥情的天性是你无法阻止的，跟他争执他们更会逃之夭夭。学会轻描淡写 和包容，多拓展自己的社交圈、让天秤座情人吃醋会是更好的办法哦。

天蝎座

爱情忌讳：不能学他猜疑，不能失去理智，不要敷衍了事，不要逢场作戏。

感情地雷：不可以隐瞒背叛。

害 怕情人的背叛和出轨，是天蝎座男女挥之不去的爱情恐惧，所以在恋情开始的时候他们都小心翼翼，步步为营，你要是学他一路刺探，只会让你折寿几年。对他的猜 疑最好理性面对，否则就算哭到天崩地裂也无济于事。他们的感情浓烈，醋劲更是一流，不正面回答问题而左顾言他，到时候惹得他们妒火中烧，可就难收拾残局 了。受了刺激的天蠍若是失去控制，可是什麼事情都做的出來。聪明的话，还是安分守己些。

射手座

爱情忌讳：不能愁眉不展，不能成天烦他，不要说人坏话，不要哭哭闹闹。

感情地雷：不可以亦步亦趋。

射 手座的人天性乐观，无论做什么事情都不用担心，所以你每天都杞人忧天，那他会觉得很烦，如果还喋喋不休,那他恐怕逃都来不及。另外，尊重朋友的射手，部喜 欢听到关于朋友的坏话，说坏话的人对于他们来说，是个小肚鸡肠的人喔！射手座的情人很奇怪，他们讨厌没有自由的空间，但是如果你不理他，他反会过来黏你 哦；不过当你关心起他的一切时，他就会对你的感觉转淡，愈追的紧，他跑的愈快！

魔羯座

爱情忌讳：不能自以为是，不能巧言伶色，不要不切实际，不要行事过快。

感情地雷：不可以故弄玄虚。

严 肃认真的魔羯座最讨厌自以为是，脑袋空空的人，没有一定的内涵他们绝不会多看你一眼，而巧言伶色的人更是他们害怕的典型。行事踏实，步步为营的性格又让他 们拒绝幻想，希望每一步都在他们的预料之内，不喜欢有所谓的惊喜或动荡。他们精打细算，当然越清楚越好，省得麻烦。让魔羯座情人最受不了的是满肚子草包游 喜欢故做神秘，不懂装懂的人，就算你是俊男美女也不能吸引他们喔，所以赶紧去学习吧。

水瓶座

爱情忌讳：不能过于依赖，不能千篇一律，不要耍大牌，不要不按牌理出牌。

感情地雷：不可以按照模式。

内 心及行为有时像极了一个顽皮的小孩子的水瓶，他们永远不懂得责任两个字是怎么写的，只会去爱那些干练、独立的女生，这样他们才不会有负担。不喜歡和別人一 样，所以最好多些变化，频频的惊喜才能引起他们的注意。他们讨厌无理智的哭闹，更讨厌别人装混，所以无论如何都别把自己的无知当可爱。水瓶座的情人，十分 讨厌制式化的交往模式，固定的进程规划只会令他们寒毛直竖，没多久肯定转向去他另一条船哟。

双鱼座

爱情忌讳：不能不够浪漫，不能太讲道理，不要给他压力，不要嘲笑他的梦。

感情地雷：不可以死缠烂打。

双 鱼座喜欢一切充满诗意的东西，如果你不够标准，那就OUT！硬性的条律太过于死板，也是他们讨厌的东西。双鱼座的人，向来不喜欢压力，尤其是感情的束缚， 因此你要是以感情相逼，他们绝不买账！另外爱做梦是双鱼座情人的通病，浇他们冷水，小心他把你丢到太平洋哦。另外，双鱼座的三不政策会让你很头痛。不拒 绝、不负责、不主动，和他们一起谈恋爱就得耗，如果死缠烂打，保证小鱼儿会一溜不见了。

finding ways

never ask "how".
if you want it enough, you'll find a way.

new challenges are put forth every day.
and everyday we find ways ...
we find ways to survive...
we find ways to excuse ourselves...
we find ways to ignore...
we find ways to resent...
we find ways to hate....
also
we'll find ways to grow...
we'll find ways to solve..
we'll find ways to move forward...
we'll find ways to accept...
we'll find ways to push ourselves further...
we'll find ways to enjoy what we're doing...
we'll find ways to love.

:)

what i like about my life?
secretly, i think i like it because it's unfair.
secretly, i like it because it's unpredictable.
secretly, i like it because it's constantly changing.
secretly, i like it because it's last minute.
secretly, i like advertising.

oh boi... so screwed up.

The Cracked pot

Love this - I hope you do too.

An elderly Chinese woman had two large pots, each hung on the ends of a pole which she carried across her neck.

One of the pots had a crack in it while the other pot was perfect and always delivered a full portion of water.At the end of the long walks from the stream to the house, the cracked pot arrived only half full..

For a full two years this went on daily, with the woman bringing home only one and a half pots of water..

Of course, the perfect pot was proud of its accomplishments. But the poor cracked pot was ashamed of its own imperfection, and miserable that it could only do ha lf of what it had been made to do.

After two years of what it perceived to be bitter failure, it spoke to the woman one day by the stream. 'I am ashamed of myself, because this crack in my side causes water to leak out all the way back to your house.'

The old woman smiled, 'Did you notice that there are flowers on your side of the path, but not on the other pot's side?' 'That's because I have always known about your flaw, so I planted flower seeds on your side of the path, and every day while we walk back, you water them.'

For two years I have been able to pick these beautiful flowers to decorate the table.Without you being just the way you are, there would not be this beauty to grace the house.'

Each of us has our own unique flaw. But it's the cracks and flaws we each have that make our lives together so very interesting and rewarding. You've just got to take each person for what they are and look for the good in them.

SO, to all of my cracked pot friends, have a great day and remember to smell the flowers on your side of the path!

十二星座女孩谁挑男人最不准

eheheheeh. Gemini #1 when is comes to selecting the wrong guys.
daimmmmeeee~

XD

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第一名：双子女

双子女看男人绝对是以貌取人，而且除此之外对方聪明有趣也是必要条件，也因此符合双子女条件的对象如果有意要欺骗她， 双子女绝对会被骗的团团转，另外好强又犯贱的双子女对于越难搞越难追的对象越有兴趣，因此从种种迹象显示到最后都是双子女在宠爱男人为男人付出，可是好面 子的她在外却往往宣称自己幸福的不得了.

第二名：狮子女

狮子女希望自己被宠爱呵护，所以只要对方能做到这点她就以为自己找到真爱了，以貌取人的狮子女往往以对方外在的行头就断定对方的身家，而芳心暗许的狮子女即使后来发现对方的身家不如预期，她也会心甘情愿的把钱掏出来替另一半撑场面，最后往往是赔了夫人又折兵。

第三名：天蝎女

天蝎女讲究感觉，她挑选对象时一定是用自己主观意识来面对，即使朋友反对她都会声嘶力竭的为另一半辩解，到最后大家都不会跟她讲真话，唯有在感情遭受到挫败时才会清醒过来。

people come and people go

its amazing how people connect.
as hectic as job can be.

十二星座：最容易被谁骗感情

no i'm nt trying to say anything.
in fact i dun really believe in horoscopes.
but the matches are interesting.

牡羊座容易被魔羯座骗感情

：魔羯座没有牡羊座想象中的那麽重感情，魔羯座在跟对方好的时候会会对对方非常的好，而牡羊座是一股脑儿 的，比较傻瓜式，当他认定对方是自己的伙伴就认定了，可是魔羯座的认定不一定是把对方当朋友，他可能只是认为以后做事情会蛮方便的，但是如果出了麻烦或者 是利害关係有变化时，魔羯就会冷静下来。

金牛座容易被双鱼座骗感情

：双鱼座很喜欢搞暧昧，很喜欢把情境弄得好像真的一样，说梦话和实事求是的人在一起很容易出麻烦，金牛座会把双鱼座说的每一句话都当真，可是双鱼座说完了话或者是情境过去就没了，对于金牛座就很难接受。

双子座容易被天蝎座骗感情

： 一开始看起来是双子座很机灵会闪躲，而天蝎座一旦喜欢就会全部投入，可是双方感情进度是不一样的，当天蝎发现双子对自己其实没那麽有兴趣或者缺点之后就会 慢慢的给双子扣分，可是双子却在相处之后发现对方优点越来越多就会慢慢给对方加分，因此当双子座热起来时天蝎座已经冷掉了，双子座就会觉得为什麽天蝎前面 这麽热情可是后面却这样冷澹，难免就会有一种被骗的感觉。

巨蟹座容易被水瓶座骗感情

：水瓶座很热心，他热心的帮忙，甚至可以很热心的接送对方回家…等等，他是纯粹只是热心而已，可是巨蟹座是一个很感性的星座，他很容易被人家的热心给打动，尤其当他脆弱的时候，当热心过度的水瓶座出现时巨蟹座很容易就误会。

狮子座容易被天秤座骗感情：天秤座的人满口都会答应，什麽事情都OK而狮子座的人听到承诺之后就会记在心裡，虽然他不好意思提醒，但是会等天秤座来实现他的承诺，可是天秤座认为如果有一些事情发生之后他没有办法做到，对方也应该会体谅，双方的价值观在这方面有所冲突。

处女座容易被狮子座骗感情

：处女座的人会百般的讨好对方，有时候不免显的轻浮又没有原则，而狮子座是属于很严格很有原则，因此处女座的这种没有原则的个性狮子座会很看不过去，而常常对处女座翻脸，让处女座很受伤。

天秤座容易被牡羊座骗感情

：天秤座的人是有名的犹豫王子或犹豫公主，当他遇上牡羊座时就会好像非常欣赏牡羊座的果决和豪爽，可是一旦进入一段认真的关係时，反而天秤座是比较义无反顾，但是反而牡羊座会摇摆不定。

天蝎座容易被射手座骗感情

： 射手座表现非常热情大方直率，而且他投入感情的义无反顾看起来不输给天蝎，天蝎刚开始投入时外表还会表现有点冷澹，故意不理对方，而射手座好像可以卑恭屈 膝，连尊严都不要的爱对方，可是射手座翻脸的时候却也是完全翻脸无情的，反而天蝎座是比较放不下，而射手座的无情会让天蝎座吓一跳。

射手座容易被巨蟹座骗感情

：巨蟹座属于老谋深算型，看起来非常的老实好欺负，但是射手座遇到巨蟹座时绝对想不到巨蟹座是扮猪吃老虎，样样看起来就像个弱者，凡事都需要射手座的照顾，可是最后会发现巨蟹什麽都会，祇是没有看到而已。

魔羯座容易被双子座骗感情

：魔羯座的人对于越简单的人就越容易洞悉对方控制对方，可是于到双子座这样複杂的人，一下子冷一下子热，下子很活泼，一下子又很孤傲，这时魔羯座就会因为看不清楚状况而被双子座吃的死死的。

水瓶座容易被金牛座骗感情

： 金牛座表现出的样子非常安定，这会让水瓶座非常安心，可是金牛座属于安定之后就不会对对方像以前那麽热情，可能会开始去发展自己的人际关係和事业，可是水 瓶座会为了另一半改变自己的交友圈和整个环境，这时候他就会觉得金牛座对自己的爱情和真心怎麽跟自己不一样，而从而觉得金牛座看起来很老实其实满肚子歪主 义。

双鱼座容易被处女座骗感情

：处女座的人如果对方越不理会自己他就会越想去讨好对方，可是双鱼座会宠爱对方，他一宠处女座就会开始拿翘了，这时候处女座感觉上就会变的很坏，有可能说变就变，反而去追逐自己追不上的对象。

changes

everything is impermanent.
nthg will ever stay the same.

we're humans, adapting is how we survived.

十二星座的眼泪

Tears, :)

双子座——冰淇淋

双子座是乐天派，即使在掉眼泪，宣泄悲伤的时候，也会让人感受到眼泪之中的甜腻。他们的眼泪就像冰淇淋，无论涂上任何忧郁的色彩，尝一口仍然是无限的好心情。这也许就是双子座大哭一场后马上展开笑颜的小秘密吧。

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白羊座——汗水

白羊座很少会因为伤心难过而掉眼泪，他们的眼泪多半是由于自己的努力获得了预想的成果，喜极而泣。白羊座的泪水通常是一份成功的证明，所以他们的泪水绝对不是悲伤的液体，而是辛勤耕耘的汗水。

金牛座——湖水

金牛座掉眼泪的样子楚楚动人，双眸犹如一汪湖水，清澈透明，晶莹玲珑。而他们的泪水也如同湖水幽静婉转，让在一旁看见的人儿无不心动。金牛座掉眼泪的时候也是他们最沉静，美丽的瞬间，那些令人沉醉的眼泪，就像湖水，掉落下来，映照着他们的灵魂。

双子座——冰淇淋

双子座是乐天派，即使在掉眼泪，宣泄悲伤的时候，也会让人感受到眼泪之中的甜腻。他们的眼泪就像冰淇淋，无论涂上任何忧郁的色彩，尝一口仍然是无限的好心情。这也许就是双子座大哭一场后马上展开笑颜的小秘密吧。

巨蟹座——雪水

巨蟹座的感情是缓慢的，沉静的，也是深刻的。遇见危难时，也许其它星座会为了各种目的奔前程，却只有巨蟹座默默的仍在做着无私奉献。然而，巨蟹座也会伤心，而当他们伤心掉眼泪时，他们的心也就彻底冰冷了，就像痛彻心肺的雪水。

狮子座——岩浆

狮子座是具有个人英雄主义的典范，而豪杰的标准就是无休止的坚强，即使在落泪的瞬间也要大气豪迈，不可阴柔婉转。所以，狮子座的眼泪绝不是流出来的，而是喷射出来的，带着雄浑的温度，在伤心时分仍宣泄着无穷无尽的热情，就像炽烈的岩浆。

处女座——雨水

处女座的细腻，让眼泪就像掉落的雨点，时而稀疏，时而紧密，让眼泪为心情操控，点点滴滴，四月的黄梅雨，七月的暴风雨，有时一个人月下独自伤悲，有时拉一个人的肩膀当枕头睡。而眼泪，绝对是，从秋到冬，春流到夏。

天秤座——泉水

天秤座无时无刻不在追求心灵中的美感，眼泪便是最好的装饰物，像泉水一般幽静纯粹，沉默中夹杂着欢腾，喜悦中带着忧伤。天秤座喜欢有艺术感的眼泪，有时他们流眼泪，不是因为悲伤，而是为了给平淡生活增加鲜活的动感美，没准儿那时的天秤座脑中想的就是油画《泉》。

天蝎座——硫酸

天蝎座不喜欢掉眼泪，也不轻易掉眼泪，他们更多的时候是想隐藏自己的情绪。然而当有一天他们流下了眼泪，必定是天崩地裂，非同小可，这时的眼泪完全是天蝎座愤怒和悲痛的混合液，杀伤力犹如一瓶浓硫酸。

射手座——污水

射手座流眼泪很少是因为悲伤，多半是为了排泄，把对现实的焦虑和不安的情绪当做污水一样，通过眼泪的形式排出体外。排泄完毕，射手座就拥有了好心情和再次出发的动力，射手座因此也是十二星座中最会调节自己情绪的群体。

魔羯座——铁水

魔羯座的眼泪不会因为痴男怨女的爱恨情仇，而必定是对自己在现实中表现的失望，当他们流下眼泪时，顺带着也下定了决心，泪落之后，便成了不变的座右铭。就像铁水，一旦凝固，就如同魔羯座的信念，决不改变。

水瓶座——海水

水瓶座是十二星座里最喜欢掉眼泪的一个群体，因为他们的心意，理念总无法让周围的人彻底理解，或者情感错位，或者怀才不遇，终究全化成了泪水。他们的眼泪咸涩，难懂，却如同海水一般，流不完，不知天涯何处是尽头。

双鱼座——珍珠

双 鱼座的心思纯净美好，就像童话中的人鱼公主，鱼儿的眼泪也多半为了真挚的情感和美丽的爱情，因此，他们的眼泪晶莹剔透，凝聚着人间最超越世俗的想象。掉落 下来，簌簌的，就像一粒粒珍珠，纯粹得让人无法触碰，美好得让一点点的俗念立刻烟消云散。如果一个双鱼座的人把眼泪送给你，请小心收在心里。

I Would Trade - Clarensau

Indra shared with me this song.
I love his song selection, from the 1st time i met him

till now, his 1st play list to me is still my fav.
As the rhythm of the acoustic guitar strum in my ears, i cant help but feel for this indie song.
Feelings so raw, affection so endearing.

The most beautiful thing about a song?
Is the fact that songs can bring back visuals & memories.
How a song connects to you... thats how good a song can be.

Everyone lost someone special before, or almost lost someone you loved.
This song brought me back to the cold hospital rooms, beeping of machines.
The hopefull yet hopeless sense of wishing, praying, hoping that everything would be fine.
How we frantically search for signs of the next step.
What should we do?
What can we do?

This song brought me back to the moments before she left.
This songs brought me back to the last few moments of her life with us.

I miss you amah.

I Would Trade - Clarensau

Another night in the waiting room
You’re fifty feet from me but I still miss you
Your body sleeps in that scary room
Unaware of the doctors that trying to save you

What can I do but wait
What can I do but pray

And I would trade all of my days to take the pain away
I would trade all of my days to take the pain away

Another night of restless sleep
When I wake will you still be here with me?
I’m looking for a sign of life
You squeeze my hand and maybe open your eyes

What can I do but wait
What can I do but pray

And I would trade all of my days to take the pain away
I would trade all of my days to take the pain away (Repeat till fade)

活得好更多

如果分手沒痛楚　我怕你　到永遠　也會等我
如果今天起憎我　仇恨我　歧視我　明日你會更易再愛人
平伏這個美麗心魔　餘生可以好好過
如果忍不住痛楚　當我錯　當我錯　會更好過
如果必須想起我　仇恨我　歧視我　懷念過去快樂太折磨
無謂美化昨日戀歌　拿報復者的決心　活得好更多