Showing posts with label ::dharmma::. Show all posts

Thursday, November 25

Thursday, November 18

its interesting how fate comes at you.
its interesting how things happen.
:)

few days right after i came back from hobbitland, i received teacher's calls/sms/msn messages.
its really rare to see her online anyway. (must be smthg super duper urgent)
Loving Tree was having a story telling event. and they required an English MC.

now knowing me (being all anal, routined , well planned, and painfully boring) I'd squirm at these last minute requests. I'd go why cant it be planned earlier? why can things be more well thought through? why cant it be more well prepared?

i would. i really would.

but through the years (yes, years. Teacher has been with me since my high school days)
this was not my 1st last minute gig.
but through the years, i'll never say no to smthg like this.
reason is simple. I felt the purpose for it.

It wasnt like some commercial gig where i get paid for an event.
it was smthg that meant smthg to me.
smtg close to my heart.
I had nthg to lose. (ok, maybe a few hours of sleep). but i could sleep those hours away anytime any public holiday.

It's been months since i "did not work".
I've been busy working for months.
What i did last sat & sun did not feel like work. :)
i was tired as hell. but it doesnt feel like shit.

"happy-tired" someone told me.
True.
I'd agree.

I came a full circle on 14th Nov.
I started 1 1st story telling competition on Sept 6, 1996 in SJK(c) Perempuan Klang.
I came back and took the stage again as MC on Nov 14, 2010 in SJK(c) Perempuan Klang.

Amazing

Friday, September 3

songs that struck me nowadays.

转变
changes

These days, some songs brings me into perspective.
They calm me and sooth me.
*breathe*

Just sharing some good tunes.

词曲：黄康淇
主唱：黄康淇小提琴：Lim Hui
制作/编曲/配唱/混音：三明治
OP: Pigeon House Production

我曾经悲伤见到美好一天落幕
I was sadden, seeing some so beautiful come to an end.
我还会犹豫好与坏如何看清楚
I still doubt, if i cant differentiate the difference between the good and the bad.
原来这些都像云一般会飘过
But actually all these will float by just like the flying clouds.
转眼化成了雨回归了大地
In a blink of an eye, they will become rain, coming back full circle to the ground.

我曾经失落当梦想变成了泡沫
I was depressed, when dreams became nothing but mere fantasies.
我还会疑惑快乐后又回到落寞
I still struggle with the transitions from happiness to emptiness
原来这些就像春天盛开的花
But all these are like flowers blooming in spring time
转眼在冬天化成了雪反照了内心
In a blink of an eye, winter comes and so does snow, reflecting your thoughts and your heart.

~~~~

我在生活中明白许多还不够
In my life, i understand a lot of things are "never enough"
生命会有起落欢乐后又悲伤
There will always be ups and downs ; happiness & sadness.
当我开始学习看开从大地学会自在
When I learn to take a step back and let go, I start to feel freedom.
明白了终究在两个极端中找不到自己
Understand that, we can't find our self in between 2 extremes.
可是我在生活中明白这些还不够
But in my life, i understand all these are "never enough"
生命会有巨浪将我再一次沉没
Life will always have huge waves, attempting to drown and sink me in.
但我相信人生是有原因开始在呼吸间寻找
But I'll believe that all these challenges in life will serve a purpose,
breathe...and you will find them.
生命在手心间伸展出翅膀学习去飞翔
Life, in your hands, will stretch its wings...
and learn to fly.

~~~~

紧握是执著，放开是自在，
Holding on too tightly, by letting go you'll find comfort,
转换心念则转变人生，视透人生的悲欢起落，
A change of perspective and mindset will change your life, looking through life in all its changes,
我听到自在的生命在声声呼唤
I can hear peace & freedom call me.

Monday, August 30

择

择
decisions/choices

词曲：黄康淇

主唱：阿顺

吉他：Jamie Wilson 贝斯：Khoon

鼓：Martin Ngim 和声：阿顺

制作/编曲/配唱/混音：三明治
OP: Pigeon House Production

在这午夜时分依然合不着眼的我
its late at night, and you still can't close your eyes to rest.
唯有眼睁睁地让时针转动
staring blankly at the clock on the wall ticking away.
心中的忧虑和心中的困惑
all the worries and doubts you had,
也该轻轻地搁在一个角落
are put aside to a little corner
过去的烦恼和如今的难题
frustrations in the past, and issues faced today...
也该随着时针悄悄地逝去
should also go as the clock ticks away.
我们的情怀和我们的命运
our emotions, and our destiny,
就让今夜的心做决定
let your heart tonight make the decision.
~~~~

告诉自己什么最重要
tell yourself, what is most important now?
什么该放手什么该不屈不挠
somethings we need to let go, some we need to strive.

告诉自己什么最重要
tell yourself, what is more important now?

什么该让因缘来观照
and the rest, lets let fate bring us along.
告诉自己什么最重要
tell yourself, whats more important to you?
什么该潇洒什么该用心得到
sometimes we need to be casual and let things go, somethings we need to really put effort to achieve.
告诉自己什么最重要
tell yourself, whats more important now.
什么该让悲智来觉照
somethings, why not just let love & compassion take the lead?

~~~~

***
人生时刻处在选择的十字路口，
什么时候该做什么、该要什么，
什么时候不做什么、不要什么，
意志与心念，历练我做抉择。
In our journey, we are always stopping at crossroads.
Right now, what should we do? what should we desire?
Right now, what shouldn't be done? what we should let go?
experience, determination & mindful state of mind, will teach you how to make a decision.
***

Saturday, November 28

wahahahahahahah

how fun.

Saturday, June 20

v

i read this post from v's blog.

maybe i perasan la...
but i tink she blogged about me...

sometime i'm jealous.
she has this really great personal blog.
where she jus blogs bout every little thing that happens in her life.
from going out to meet friends, to buying new shoes, even .... a haircut!
:)
and so many ppl would actually drop by and support her.
probably cause she's really active in online forums.
hence she has alot of great online friends.
:)

but v in person.
is really really shy.
she has this really small voice, and she always lowers her head whenever she talks to people.
I use to always have this urge, this instant feeling like "i have to protect her".
cause she seems to soft & demure.
but as I got to know her.
she aint as weak as she thinks.
she mayb soft spoken, sum might think she's naive.
but we're actually alot the same.

we just prefer to think the best of a person , not the worst.
even if we get hurt, it doesnt mean that the whole world is evil.
I gav up on believing in people a long time ago.
but v .... she is very determine.

she always calls herself "angel".
at some point, it feels like she is my angel.

she's very caring, and very observant.
she may not speak alot.
but thats just her.

at the end of the day, arent we all jus simple people?
everyone just wants to be accepted.
for who they really are.

:)

Sunday, June 7

vivian & tzer

promised vivian dearest that we'd go yumcha one day.

after so many cancelations & problems.
we finally decided tat we're gonna go yumcha ANYWAY!
just the 2 of us!

hahah.
tzer was invited by chance since viv saw him on9 tat day.
so the 3 of us went to civitas for a dinner-supper-yumcha session.

:)

settled my policy issues with tzer. after a while he had to go for bu-si-ness purposes.

so us 2 gals sat down n chat.
its really nice talking to vivian.
she was always a very quiet person.

but yesterday night i think we talked for so long.
form ex boyfriends to friends.
to our group friends to everything.

she is a very warm n caring person.
such a sweet & delightful person.

she always thinks that she isnt good enough.
when sumtimes she just dun realize that, she is just great!

believe me girl, its his lost & his immaturity for the events that happened.
its jus timing.

she's my angel.
<3

Sunday, August 17

Taman Pertanian 170808

hahha..after some long period of stress...
me interning..... my frens with their exam...work....
wahahha...we decided to go on a fun trip to taman pertanian...
to jus chill and relax.

!$%!~!!!!!!!!@#$!@#$ they rented bikes...which...i have no idea how to ride...O.O
i was soooooo dead!
pic 1: teacher lim

pic 2 : chai shing, dennis (behind)

pic 3: new member! wahahah... wan ming/celine

pic 4: her butterfly pants!!!!!!! i kept staring at her butt!!! got butterfly ma!

the journey started soon after that....
we (they) started to cycle la......
1st pit stop was this really cool obstacle course!
pic 5: chilling..rest!

pic 6: the obstacle course

i love taman pertanian...mayb not be like really "jungle" jungle...but its still very nice...view n tress are alwasy good.
pic 7: up there!

pic 8: my driver.... kesian... it was uphill n down hill n uphill n down hill again...

pic 9: see? notice the mayat in orange shirt? sudah mati liao....

went to this tower...ooo...nice.....
the view was great...
pic 10: the small small ppl n bicycle are our geng lo!

pic 11: the river/tasik side view.

the dumdums...we just got lazy and started throwing stones in the lake...
bigger n bigger stones....
then it soon became rocks! and bricks!!! scary...
after that...
sumone threw smthg...n den it float...
we were like "EH!!!! ur stone float ka? "
hehehe...stupid fella thre wood.
=.="
pic 12: us.

pic 13: more scenery.

last stop was the 4 season house..
its not winter there now....but late summer/early autumm... boohoo...
luckily it is still colder than outside.
GOD we were sweating like pigs!!!
pic 14:drying our sweat....shit damn hot outside.

pic 15-16 : inside the 4 season house

wanted to balik straight d...
den we passed by "taman haiwan"...we all rushed in...
any excuse to stay longer...
wahahahaha....
pic 17: saw this fella there...

more photos: http://carynyeo4.multiply.com/photos/album/28/Taman_Pertanian170808

guess that was sunday la...
damn effing tiring...
yet fun...
havent done it in years....

:)

Sunday, August 3

i miss them... so f*cking much.

its nostalgic.

was talking to my teacher tat day...
updating me on how everyone was doing...
realizing i was out of the loop for so long and that so much has happened!
:(

felt like crying.

we were such a close knitted group.
spent most of our highschool days together.
nicole has started work.
huihuan has gone to kajang.
the bunch of form6-ers-have gone to uni...
henry, ning, qin chao the mao to aussie.

haihs..
yongkang called teacher that day and i was with her!
so i tumpang the line and we chatted for a while.
it was nice hearing from him..all the way from sabah.
i wish more of them would call me more.
*sobs*

if any of u bunch of siao sot funky ppl actually read my blog...
do take care.
keep me updated!
i'm serious...
before i get all emo again...

:(

Friday, July 4

vivian at NZX

she's the most adorable chick ever~
everything she ask oso she damn paiseh wan...!
anyhoo..... she asked me tat day directions to taman mayang...
so i told her lo....coz she had to attend a metting...

luckily thank buddha i asked what time is her meeting...
OMFG its at 7.30 pm -10 pm....!!!
and thissssssss lady here intended to WALK from the lrt station!
=.="

coz she paiseh mafan ppl....

haih....
vivian hor..... she's really nice.....
but you must learn to jaga urself ma!!!!
dun scared mafan ppl la dear~
when ppl volunteer....den dun care d!!!

ok bo...?
haih...u hor...make me worry sumtimes....
:(

anyways.....
i picked her up la....taman mayang is like belakang my rumah...
NO MAFAN ok dear?
den we went makan makan after her meeting sumore! woots!!!

yay!!! FOOD~~~

wahahahah......
i soooo tam chiak...
the whole table i ordered so much!
she makan roti n 100 plus only.....

=.="
i feel like a damn babi wey....

*vivian*