"RIIIIIiiiiiiiiNNNNNNNNNnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnngggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg!!"
"urgh" he hates sundays... why the hell must he wake up anyways?! it not like he's gonna
listen n be productive someday?! yeah rite...hell i am... daddy's yelling at him downstairs...
fine... yet another reason to hate sundays... well, at least he can gooff off later.... scott's dad is
the head council of his church... which makes life even worst for him as he's EXPECTED to be the
golden boy being all well behaved n polite and as he calls it "shits like that"....
"walaueh! siao kia... tday so late?! wanna die a?" and jake-his partner in crime was already
waiting for him at the front door of the hall... well, at least he turned up... ditched me last week... blardy asshole... scott jus grabbed his bag n they were off to the hall... "wey,
paiseh aa.... last week gt problem sikit a... so last week fun a?" jake teased sarcastically...
paiseh?!! tiu!! left me to rot in this dead place.... rite... jake brought his pokemons tat day...
(wat?! during that time it was the IN thing okay? almost like our PSP now...) well, at least
there was entertainment....
well, as you've guessed it... scott wasnt a goodie two shoes, nor was he a golden boy... in
fact he tried in every way to go against everyone's expectation... he was a jerk, a rebel, a very
violent person... nothing more... at least till den...
"hey, scott rite? i'm callie."
jake stared blankly at the girl standing behind scott.... "shit, what did i do now?!!" he
turned and he recognised the face... "aaaaaa.... the short one... yea... i'm scott... wats it wit u?"
this gurl is smthg alright.... she is SOMETHING... "nothing... jus wanted to giv you
back somthing..." she said plainly... as she started to fumbled in her super large black bag...
wats it now? wonder what she got me? wats in TAT bag?! a dead body? she's weird...
"wat u wanna giv me wo? u din owe me anything oso?! i wouldn't mind is it was a kiss tho...
but knowing you... i doubt u can reach my lips..." scott taunted... n jake bursted out laughing
like mad... she frowned... n continued to fumble in her HUGE bag... she is something... but
what? she aint pretty... thats one thing... but she is something... jus couldnt work it out...
scott stared at the gurl standing in front of him... she had short hair... neatly tucked behind
her ears.. all the same lenght... kinda look like a mushroom... she wore glasses... PINK glasses...
comfirmed amah!! she was loud... hell yea... tested THAT last week... and she carried the lord of the rings around EVERYWHERE... comfirmed nerd!!!
"wat is it gurl? ur not only short... ur slow too...!!" scott bend down to take a peek into
her ever super HUGE black bag!... "wat do you keep in there? a dead corpse or smthg? huh?
whoa... so many....OW!!!!!" the "weird" gurl tugged his hair n pulled him all thw way down to
the floor! shit! bad move!! "THATS for whacking my head!" she stomps at scotts feet. "and
TATS for making me chase after you all over the place!!!" "HHMMPPHHH!!!" she strots off....
"whoa... what the hell was that??" jake asked... trying to hide his amusement... the mighty scott, bullied by a nerd... "dunno... new gurl...scary..." hehe...yet i am not mad... this is new...
jake waited for scott's reply... "eh? not angry a? the last time a gurl did anything close to that... u slapped her!"
"naah...i pissed her off 1st... gosh wasnt she something...." i mean it...
"uh huh... pretty hot headed if u asked me.... who is she?! "jake looked puzzled... so scott
took the liberty of explaining the arival of their new class mate... short n annoying... with
her white trackspants n a pure grey shirt... her blue sandals... pure nerd.. how she brought
her LOTR book everywhere n how she fiddles wit her pencil... even how her pink frameless
specs would always slide down her flat nose...
"whoa...dude!! u rmb that?! she aint pretty yunno... debbie looks better... waaaaay better..."
debbie was the leader of "scott's fan club"...along side with cheerleader rebbeca n steph n
lonnie n may n looooaaaddddsss more of other miss hot-sexy-brainless-prefect... so what was
this gurl? she is somthing... she aint pretty...(shit i said tat so many times! she's gonna kill me!)
she aint hot... like *droolz hot*... she is definately annoying... she's... she's....
"wats her name again?" scott asked? "dunno...connie? carrie? something like that.." jake carelessly answered... "callie..." she looks like a carrot... hahah... carrot it is!
"CARROT!!!!"
"whaaaa.... its callie u dumb arse!!"
"hahaha... i like carrot more....cuter wert!" she looks pretty cute when she's mad...
"its CALLIE!!! urgh!!! dumb guys!!"
"watever carrot.... i call em as i see em..." i tink her face is turning purple...
"uuurrgghhHH!!! I DO NOT LOOK LIKE A CARROT K?!!!!"
and off she goes...chasing after scott... and sometimes... scott will run a little slower...jus so
that callie could catch up...
~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.
it was a typical day in school... scott was getting sick of class... so he walked out of it...(yes,
the teacher is still there) scotts get to do shits like that... and he always gets aways with it....
so yea... he was standing by the corridor of the 2nd floor of the tall private school he goes to....
thinking wat to do tnite... PS? naah...bored... mayb i'll follow tai lou go settle some stuff... yes,
he's actively in the mafia... hmm... wat else..? i could go over n sleep over at jakes hse...
debbie's hse aint bad... but... that comes wit a price... den he spotted someone from across
the street... who else but callie, walking along the road... in her school uniform... "so she studies here...all this while... right behind my school...."
since den... for the nex three years... scott would always be day dreaming outside the
window... staring rite at the road she always walks to n from school... from the blue student uniform...to her green librarian uniform... all the way till her red prefects uniform... how
predictable...a prefect... he watched her every chance he got... its a wonder how he does that...
he jus feels all uncomfortable n "weird"... he turns around n there she will be...
there were times when scott wished he din noticed her... when he saw her surrounded by
guys... bugging her n annoying her... thats MY job okay?! especially when there would be water fights or if its raining... callie would be the girl to pick on... with her full white blouse... he would
be so angry n pissed... but he never showed his anger towards her or anywhere near her..
he din wan her to know wat his background was... he din wanna involve her... nor endanger
her in any way ... never...
there was no place in callie's life to accept scott and his colourfull past... so he din even try...
part iii coming up... like it? post a comment!
Friday, December 22
Thursday, December 21
::was it meant to be? :: part 1 :: how callie met scott
"no!! he is so totally hot! i'm telling you, i saw him play basketball jus now!FYI... topless!!"
"really? that hot...? hmmm...not bad... you actually KNOW him? no way!"
"uh huh...yes way! he was from my primary school! we're goin out nex weekend... wanna join?i could... intro u guys....."
"ohmygosh...really?! gawd i love you!! but i cant this weekend... i hav smthg on... a youth camp..."
"youth camp?"
"yea..... from this church i go to..."
callie was a typical girl next door with great results.... so she gets to transfer to the school she wanted to... but she went there alone... she practically ditched her primary school life, to
start abrand new one here.... and yes, as you've guessed it.. the boy crazy one is callie.... and
the gurl she's talking to is her first friend in the new school-amy....
and THAT was how callie came across the church's sunday class... because amy was there...
that sunday, callie put on the "decent clothes?" and went to the church... hoping to mayb
find a friend or two... unfortunately amy forgotten to tell her that the classes wit seperated into chinese n english... and since she was from a chinese school... she was enrolled into the chinese section...-away from amy and friends-
"beautiful... alone again!!" she thought as she stepped into the class... unfimiliar faces.. she
felt all alone again... "at least theres still boys.." being as boy crazy as she was... she quickly scanned the room... and her eyes landed upon a boy sitting at the end of the class... "hey, he
aint bad.... kinda cute..." she blushes n sat down...
"hey, you're short!! haha... shortie!!!!"
callie jumped off her chair, not knowing what hit her... she turned around only to find the
boy she was eye-ing staring at her.... she blushed... "shit! now what?!" she walked up to him... gosh, he's cute! "what?!you think you very tall a? ur not much taller den i am!!" look at those eyes...my gosh, he's hot! she blushed even more....he inched closer to her, lean right up to her.... callie paniked!! she could practically smell him!!! and he smelled good... ohmygosh ohmygish
ohmygish ohmygosh!! her heart was thumping.. hormones were raging!! whats he gonna do?!
suddenly, he reached out. and with one big whack, he oushed her head down... AND HE RAN AWAY!!!! "whhhhhaaaaatttttt?????!!!" callie quickly got up and started to chas the annoying boy which her likings are growing thinner by the seconds... "you!!!! STEEEEEEWWWWPPPIIIDDD!!!! idiotic!!! dumbo!!!!! YOUUUUUUU!!! dun you run!!!!! come here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" anyone could hear her screaming as she ran after the boy..... "when i get my hands on you!!! you're sooooooo dead!!!"she ran till she was out of breath.... she was good at memorizing, she was great with books! but running?! ehehhe... even a baby could've crawled faster...
"dumb *pants*....dumb...... *pants* idiot..... call... me....*pants* short.... stew*pants* pid.... idiot!!" she couldn't run anymore... sitting by the sidewalk, screetching for breath...
"so..... i guessed you met our class rebel-scott..."
"scott?!" she turned around and there the teacher was... he passed her a tissue...and he
walked away grinning from eye to eye at his bunch of hyperactive monkeys... "so he has a
name... scott..."
next: hey, scott right? i'm callie...
"really? that hot...? hmmm...not bad... you actually KNOW him? no way!"
"uh huh...yes way! he was from my primary school! we're goin out nex weekend... wanna join?i could... intro u guys....."
"ohmygosh...really?! gawd i love you!! but i cant this weekend... i hav smthg on... a youth camp..."
"youth camp?"
"yea..... from this church i go to..."
callie was a typical girl next door with great results.... so she gets to transfer to the school she wanted to... but she went there alone... she practically ditched her primary school life, to
start abrand new one here.... and yes, as you've guessed it.. the boy crazy one is callie.... and
the gurl she's talking to is her first friend in the new school-amy....
and THAT was how callie came across the church's sunday class... because amy was there...
that sunday, callie put on the "decent clothes?" and went to the church... hoping to mayb
find a friend or two... unfortunately amy forgotten to tell her that the classes wit seperated into chinese n english... and since she was from a chinese school... she was enrolled into the chinese section...-away from amy and friends-
"beautiful... alone again!!" she thought as she stepped into the class... unfimiliar faces.. she
felt all alone again... "at least theres still boys.." being as boy crazy as she was... she quickly scanned the room... and her eyes landed upon a boy sitting at the end of the class... "hey, he
aint bad.... kinda cute..." she blushes n sat down...
"hey, you're short!! haha... shortie!!!!"
callie jumped off her chair, not knowing what hit her... she turned around only to find the
boy she was eye-ing staring at her.... she blushed... "shit! now what?!" she walked up to him... gosh, he's cute! "what?!you think you very tall a? ur not much taller den i am!!" look at those eyes...my gosh, he's hot! she blushed even more....he inched closer to her, lean right up to her.... callie paniked!! she could practically smell him!!! and he smelled good... ohmygosh ohmygish
ohmygish ohmygosh!! her heart was thumping.. hormones were raging!! whats he gonna do?!
suddenly, he reached out. and with one big whack, he oushed her head down... AND HE RAN AWAY!!!! "whhhhhaaaaatttttt?????!!!" callie quickly got up and started to chas the annoying boy which her likings are growing thinner by the seconds... "you!!!! STEEEEEEWWWWPPPIIIDDD!!!! idiotic!!! dumbo!!!!! YOUUUUUUU!!! dun you run!!!!! come here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" anyone could hear her screaming as she ran after the boy..... "when i get my hands on you!!! you're sooooooo dead!!!"she ran till she was out of breath.... she was good at memorizing, she was great with books! but running?! ehehhe... even a baby could've crawled faster...
"dumb *pants*....dumb...... *pants* idiot..... call... me....*pants* short.... stew*pants* pid.... idiot!!" she couldn't run anymore... sitting by the sidewalk, screetching for breath...
"so..... i guessed you met our class rebel-scott..."
"scott?!" she turned around and there the teacher was... he passed her a tissue...and he
walked away grinning from eye to eye at his bunch of hyperactive monkeys... "so he has a
name... scott..."
next: hey, scott right? i'm callie...
announcement
heyho... getting tired of the day in day out blogging diary....
so heres smthg to spice things up...
i like the name scott, n i ike the name callie....
so heres a story about em...
so heres smthg to spice things up...
i like the name scott, n i ike the name callie....
so heres a story about em...
Tuesday, December 19
:: pieces ::
on a weird mood these days... its 3.47am... n i'm awake... i've jus finished randoms article...
gettin dried up isnt a gud idea... TZ isnt home yet... i'm tired... yet...i feel troubled...i dunno y...
its disturbing, its confusing, its dont right emofying!
being in the holiday mode means i'm stil lazy... yet at the back of my brains i can think of a 101 reason i shud start work! i have the list of undone homework and its freaking me off!! so... wat do i do these days? i sleep till the sun shines on my arse...den i roll downstairs...eat... n plant my arse in the sofa... n watch cartoons all day... its making me sick... yet... I HAVE NTHG ELSE TO DO! i hate feeling unproductive!!
before that mummy was sick n i was stuck wit looads of hse chores.... mop the floor, sweep the floor, wash the bed sheets, wash the toilet, change the sofa covers, wash the cars... FYI, avanza is a killer!!! super tall for a shortie like me! sprained my shoulder trying to wipe the top... by the end of 1st week in dec, i was as wasted and fragile as glass... every inch of my body aches n squeeked!! thankfully i still hav tz to massage me! *pampered*
but tat was 2 weeks ago... i havent seen tz much these days... he's been so freaking bz... i almost forgot i had a bf! christmas is here n i'm broke... spending new years n christmas alone isnt helping either.... i wanna rant n i wanna whine! i miss him!! unfortunately i havent even heard from him... even if he called.... it was jus short calls because he is tired....
since i forgot i was taken... hormones kicked in!!!
did i mention i was/ am atill a die hard fan of RON NG?!!! omg!! i went ga-ga over him!!! i tink he's totally hot!!! of course... sum ppl disagree (aM3)... but i still adore him!!! he's hot!!
and the Brylcreem 2 in1 facial wash n shaving cream advertisement guy!!! check it out!!! theres a very very very very husky sexy stud there!!! really!!!
AND... do you know that allan wu is also did the ferrero roche ad?! he was the groom in the wedding advertisement where the brides bouquet was a bunch of ferrero roche!!! he's still ever sooooo hot!!!!
i was hyped up last sun... went over to mp's hse to help her wit her assigment.. we had loads of fun... laughing n yapping... whacking oreos n vitagens!!! screaming at the passing cars!! hunting for turtles!!! it was fun gurl!! i miss you sooooo much... den we jus lay in bed after a looooong day.... den the emo part cam along... mp's taking advertising too... its weird... ppl like us... we dun have a specific "dream job"...like those ppl that aspired to be a journalist or a doctor or a pilot... we r one of those that fits in a little of everything... yet none of everything tooo.... there isnt a clear route on what to take.. so we jus end up wherever the wind blows n hope for the best... kinda pathetic aint it? but thats wat we think...
mp n me... we're close... every since the whole "i like the guy who likes you" issue...
we were closer then ever! no guy would ever stand between us... n thats a fact...
i was always the hard headed wan... the one with the temper... n she was the rational type...
being together, it kept a balance.... she told me that day "u have no idea how lucky u r to find sum1 like aM3, because its hard to find someone that really gets us".... yea... mayb u r right...
but one thing is for sure... looking back at the pix n photos, i was pretty lucky back den too! i had ever reliable SK as my right hand gurl, i had you my my side as my guardian angel... i had WS to reming me that i'm actually a gurl... eheheh... so what if we arent alike... we're diff but that wat made the cartoons unique! a fierce tomboy, a pretty n loud gurl, a sensitive n blur gurl, and a squeeky math genius! we were the weirdest batch! who knew 2 chinese ed gurls would've been besties wit 2 bananas for nearly 6 years!! i love u all....
gettin dried up isnt a gud idea... TZ isnt home yet... i'm tired... yet...i feel troubled...i dunno y...
its disturbing, its confusing, its dont right emofying!
being in the holiday mode means i'm stil lazy... yet at the back of my brains i can think of a 101 reason i shud start work! i have the list of undone homework and its freaking me off!! so... wat do i do these days? i sleep till the sun shines on my arse...den i roll downstairs...eat... n plant my arse in the sofa... n watch cartoons all day... its making me sick... yet... I HAVE NTHG ELSE TO DO! i hate feeling unproductive!!
before that mummy was sick n i was stuck wit looads of hse chores.... mop the floor, sweep the floor, wash the bed sheets, wash the toilet, change the sofa covers, wash the cars... FYI, avanza is a killer!!! super tall for a shortie like me! sprained my shoulder trying to wipe the top... by the end of 1st week in dec, i was as wasted and fragile as glass... every inch of my body aches n squeeked!! thankfully i still hav tz to massage me! *pampered*
but tat was 2 weeks ago... i havent seen tz much these days... he's been so freaking bz... i almost forgot i had a bf! christmas is here n i'm broke... spending new years n christmas alone isnt helping either.... i wanna rant n i wanna whine!
since i forgot i was taken... hormones kicked in!!!
did i mention i was/ am atill a die hard fan of RON NG?!!! omg!! i went ga-ga over him!!! i tink he's totally hot!!! of course... sum ppl disagree (aM3)... but i still adore him!!! he's hot!!
and the Brylcreem 2 in1 facial wash n shaving cream advertisement guy!!! check it out!!! theres a very very very very husky sexy stud there!!! really!!!
AND... do you know that allan wu is also did the ferrero roche ad?! he was the groom in the wedding advertisement where the brides bouquet was a bunch of ferrero roche!!! he's still ever sooooo hot!!!!
i was hyped up last sun... went over to mp's hse to help her wit her assigment.. we had loads of fun... laughing n yapping... whacking oreos n vitagens!!! screaming at the passing cars!! hunting for turtles!!! it was fun gurl!! i miss you sooooo much... den we jus lay in bed after a looooong day.... den the emo part cam along... mp's taking advertising too... its weird... ppl like us... we dun have a specific "dream job"...like those ppl that aspired to be a journalist or a doctor or a pilot... we r one of those that fits in a little of everything... yet none of everything tooo.... there isnt a clear route on what to take.. so we jus end up wherever the wind blows n hope for the best... kinda pathetic aint it? but thats wat we think...
mp n me... we're close... every since the whole "i like the guy who likes you" issue...
we were closer then ever! no guy would ever stand between us... n thats a fact...
i was always the hard headed wan... the one with the temper... n she was the rational type...
being together, it kept a balance.... she told me that day "u have no idea how lucky u r to find sum1 like aM3, because its hard to find someone that really gets us".... yea... mayb u r right...
but one thing is for sure... looking back at the pix n photos, i was pretty lucky back den too! i had ever reliable SK as my right hand gurl, i had you my my side as my guardian angel... i had WS to reming me that i'm actually a gurl... eheheh... so what if we arent alike... we're diff but that wat made the cartoons unique! a fierce tomboy, a pretty n loud gurl, a sensitive n blur gurl, and a squeeky math genius! we were the weirdest batch! who knew 2 chinese ed gurls would've been besties wit 2 bananas for nearly 6 years!! i love u all....
Thursday, December 14
chritmas
yunno wat really melts me at christmas?
kenny loggins voice.....
i love his voice!!!
*melts!*
heck, i'm into old dudes wit macho voices!!!
kenny loggins voice.....
i love his voice!!!
*melts!*
heck, i'm into old dudes wit macho voices!!!
Wednesday, December 13
:: have faith ::
this post was mnt for some one.... so... if u dun get it.. its okay... i'm pretty sure the one it was meant for understands it... *hugs*
-clicked-
it weird... how me met... i went home wailing to my dad about this blurrest bumbum girl i met in the lift; n u met home crying bout the snobbish brat u met in the lift... who would've knew that in mere months we've became closer den ever! the hyper days... the emo days... the tired sleepless days especially... there was always YOU to accompany me!
nerd n geeks trying to make our way thru in a world the society will never think we'd fit in... evidently, we did! thru the loud days n psycho days... u n BT n me... our laughter can be heard thru the whole block...
and above all
we get each other... i dunno y... its almost like a long lost sister type.. we "get" each other... n its good! cuz i was getting tired of explaining simple stuff to blurred zoned out peeps!
-rainbows-
ironically.... we could be so alike in soooooooooo many ways... n yet we can be totally different...
our views especially.... on this whole wide world.... i was a pesimist.... numb to this world... perhaps i chosed to turn numb.... coz i was hurt, again n again... as time flew by, i learn the beautiful technic of "staying on the surface".... emotinally detached... but u were different... u see the world in a whole new angel... somehow u see this world in ur own frequency n ur own colors... u were hurt too... but theres a diff... u were strong... u stood back up...
u always kept ur hopes n dreams... believing tat all this happened for a reason...
so u sucked it up... n u went on... creating your rainbow... making a diffefence in this world...
wat i lack was courage n tat was wat i learned from u... u made me believe in the best of ppl... not the worst...
-believing-
i stopped believing in true love long ago... but u din... u believed in "meant to be"s and "happily ever after"s... i would've called u naive... but i couldn't deny... i wished i believed in dem too...
"have faith" u told me that... n with tat priceless quote... i took my first step n the bold-est
move ever... hoping n praying hard that ur correct... it was meant to be... n it was! i'm happy...
guess you could say i found where i belonged... :)
-faith-
"have faith" was wat i told u this morn too... when we were comtemplating if it was "IT"...
its funny how these quotes come back to u... n how they grow on each other...
i found my bliss, n now so have you.... altho i'm not sure if it would change anything we have...
coz sumtimes it does happen the other way.... i'm happy that ur happy!! *hugs!*
heck.. if we click so well, i doubt that i would hate him if u like him tat much!!!!
-hope-
words u taught me :
love ; emo ; faith ; funky! ; trust ; different ; fugly! ; rainbow ; hyper ; toodles ; bestie
-dotsandstripes-
once in a lifetime,
you find someone
who touches not only your heart,
but also yours soul.
once in a lifetime,
your discover someone
who stands beside u, not over you.
you find someone
who loves you for who you are,
and not for who you could be.
once in a lifetime,
if your're lucky,
you'll find some one.....
as i've found you.
-3niGma-
-clicked-
it weird... how me met... i went home wailing to my dad about this blurrest bumbum girl i met in the lift; n u met home crying bout the snobbish brat u met in the lift... who would've knew that in mere months we've became closer den ever! the hyper days... the emo days... the tired sleepless days especially... there was always YOU to accompany me!
nerd n geeks trying to make our way thru in a world the society will never think we'd fit in... evidently, we did! thru the loud days n psycho days... u n BT n me... our laughter can be heard thru the whole block...
and above all
we get each other... i dunno y... its almost like a long lost sister type.. we "get" each other... n its good! cuz i was getting tired of explaining simple stuff to blurred zoned out peeps!
-rainbows-
ironically.... we could be so alike in soooooooooo many ways... n yet we can be totally different...
our views especially.... on this whole wide world.... i was a pesimist.... numb to this world... perhaps i chosed to turn numb.... coz i was hurt, again n again... as time flew by, i learn the beautiful technic of "staying on the surface".... emotinally detached... but u were different... u see the world in a whole new angel... somehow u see this world in ur own frequency n ur own colors... u were hurt too... but theres a diff... u were strong... u stood back up...
u always kept ur hopes n dreams... believing tat all this happened for a reason...
so u sucked it up... n u went on... creating your rainbow... making a diffefence in this world...
wat i lack was courage n tat was wat i learned from u... u made me believe in the best of ppl... not the worst...
-believing-
i stopped believing in true love long ago... but u din... u believed in "meant to be"s and "happily ever after"s... i would've called u naive... but i couldn't deny... i wished i believed in dem too...
"have faith" u told me that... n with tat priceless quote... i took my first step n the bold-est
move ever... hoping n praying hard that ur correct... it was meant to be... n it was! i'm happy...
guess you could say i found where i belonged... :)
-faith-
"have faith" was wat i told u this morn too... when we were comtemplating if it was "IT"...
its funny how these quotes come back to u... n how they grow on each other...
i found my bliss, n now so have you.... altho i'm not sure if it would change anything we have...
coz sumtimes it does happen the other way.... i'm happy that ur happy!! *hugs!*
heck.. if we click so well, i doubt that i would hate him if u like him tat much!!!!
-hope-
words u taught me :
love ; emo ; faith ; funky! ; trust ; different ; fugly! ; rainbow ; hyper ; toodles ; bestie
-dotsandstripes-
once in a lifetime,
you find someone
who touches not only your heart,
but also yours soul.
once in a lifetime,
your discover someone
who stands beside u, not over you.
you find someone
who loves you for who you are,
and not for who you could be.
once in a lifetime,
if your're lucky,
you'll find some one.....
as i've found you.
-3niGma-
Tuesday, December 12
updates!!
1st ly....
N is soooooooo gonna pay!!! he asked me to go for motorola gila10 tat night!! i was in johor!!!!! ish!!!... *bleks!* and to top it all of...he was rubbing it in my nose the very next day!!! blergh!! i'm sooooooooooooo keeping ur pressie!! not giving it to u!!! sumore wanted to GOTCHA me n aM3 on christmas!! uuuuu....uuuu... ish! *whack!*
2nd ly...
yea...i jus came back from johor... usual johor trip... 1st thing we ate once we reached was LAKSA!!! and MUAR CHUI KUEY!! den the last thing we ate b4 we left was MUAR LUNTONG...
wahaha... a few more trips back there n i'll look like a hippo! yummies.....*droolz!!*
3rd ly...
TZ bought me beanies!!! melts!!
yunno wat..i gotta go... bak kut teh!!!
i havent ate yet!!
toodles!!
N is soooooooo gonna pay!!! he asked me to go for motorola gila10 tat night!! i was in johor!!!!! ish!!!... *bleks!* and to top it all of...he was rubbing it in my nose the very next day!!! blergh!! i'm sooooooooooooo keeping ur pressie!! not giving it to u!!! sumore wanted to GOTCHA me n aM3 on christmas!! uuuuu....uuuu... ish! *whack!*
2nd ly...
yea...i jus came back from johor... usual johor trip... 1st thing we ate once we reached was LAKSA!!! and MUAR CHUI KUEY!! den the last thing we ate b4 we left was MUAR LUNTONG...
wahaha... a few more trips back there n i'll look like a hippo! yummies.....*droolz!!*
3rd ly...
TZ bought me beanies!!! melts!!
yunno wat..i gotta go... bak kut teh!!!
i havent ate yet!!
toodles!!
Thursday, December 7
:: cliche :: or :: fairytales :: or :: lies ::
ever heard of this?
falling in love is just between you n me
wat about this?
you only need 2 person to be in love, the rest of the world isn't involved
heck, how bout this?
right now, all i need is you.. i dun care wat they think, i love you...
cliche aint it? sounds almost real... almost....
everyone whose anyone would've love to believe that they are true.... if only they were....
:: back to reality... ::
ever heard of this?
ohmygosh, she's a famous accountant and she married him?
*with a hint of sarcasm on the last word*
wat about this?
she chosed him? how could it be? surely there must be some mistake...
ring any bells?
oh believe me honey, it wouldn't last... she deserved better...tsk tsk...
hmmmm.....
he's a drop out?! ohmygod... sure she could've done better..... is she pregnant?
lastly... they just have to raise the "racist card"...
they're getting married??!!! but he's...... ... erm... not-chinese... wat will the kids look like?
*c'mon, u actually think she din know he wasnt chinese when she 1st met him?*
i use to argue wit aM3 that it dint matter wat other ppl think when issues were raised in a fren's relationship...
but the fact is... it does matter...
if other ppl's opinion doesnt matter... it wouldn't matter if we choosed to walk around naked!
if the whole wide world isnt an issue... y even bother dressing up for an interview?
if the world isnt an issue... heck... why do we bother to do our hair, tuck in our shirt...
if it isnt an issue or a problem... why do u even care if the bag doesnt go with the shoes, or if the tie doesnt compliment your tux?!
weird huh?
why do we care so much?
:3nigma:
falling in love is just between you n me
wat about this?
you only need 2 person to be in love, the rest of the world isn't involved
heck, how bout this?
right now, all i need is you.. i dun care wat they think, i love you...
cliche aint it? sounds almost real... almost....
everyone whose anyone would've love to believe that they are true.... if only they were....
:: back to reality... ::
ever heard of this?
ohmygosh, she's a famous accountant and she married him?
*with a hint of sarcasm on the last word*
wat about this?
she chosed him? how could it be? surely there must be some mistake...
ring any bells?
oh believe me honey, it wouldn't last... she deserved better...tsk tsk...
hmmmm.....
he's a drop out?! ohmygod... sure she could've done better..... is she pregnant?
lastly... they just have to raise the "racist card"...
they're getting married??!!! but he's...... ... erm... not-chinese... wat will the kids look like?
*c'mon, u actually think she din know he wasnt chinese when she 1st met him?*
i use to argue wit aM3 that it dint matter wat other ppl think when issues were raised in a fren's relationship...
but the fact is... it does matter...
if other ppl's opinion doesnt matter... it wouldn't matter if we choosed to walk around naked!
if the whole wide world isnt an issue... y even bother dressing up for an interview?
if the world isnt an issue... heck... why do we bother to do our hair, tuck in our shirt...
if it isnt an issue or a problem... why do u even care if the bag doesnt go with the shoes, or if the tie doesnt compliment your tux?!
weird huh?
why do we care so much?
:3nigma:
: school sick :
is there even such thing? school sick?!
well... S.T.A.R. is having their prom this fri... B asked me to go wit him... A asked me too...
they're both my buds... so i'm not goin at all...
its kinda hard.... knowing that we're growing up...
no more pure siao chilling wit the gurls...
no more teachers tat spoon feed us jus to ace the exams...
no more pure lepaking wit pals...
no more "worries" bout little miss popular or the cute guy in class...
no more chitter chatter bout the in parties n hanging wit the seniors...
no more psychotic rides on bicycle wit the ex...
no more carefree days of sleep-go school-eat-tuition-eat-sleep again life....
if growing up means drifting away from family...
if growing up means picking up after urself...
if growing up means take your own responsibilty...
if growing up means no more fooling around...
if growinq up means "theres more important things in life den being popular"...
if growing up means giving up in fantasies n childish dreams...
if growing up means smacking ur face into cold hard reality...
wat if i dowanna grow up?
yunno wat... i rather retake spm again n again n again n again if i can...
to be allowed to fail...
to be able to jus chill...without issues...
to be have fun... pure fun...
to be allowed to lose...
to be pampered....
days when the main stress n tension was ace-ing exams....
days when we worry whether the cute class monitor likes you or not...
(yea..my monitor is pretty cute...buffed too)
days when the main goal was only to make girl guides active...
days when the main aim was to be top 3 in the school's marching...
days when the MAIN issue was that hot senior next class....
haha...days like those...
:3nigma:
Tuesday, December 5
hmmmmm... holidays....
woooooooo...... holidays.... waaaaaa... how fun.....
*blueks!*
this proves that i have no life at all...
blergh!!
lazing around the whole freaking day....
yesterdays movie cinta emofy me.... the quotes keep coming back to me... emofied....
adik jangan takut tutup mata, kerana kakak ada di sini berjaga
its worth it if you've found the right one
kalau boleh sehari dengan orang yang kita sayang,
betapa susah pun, lebih baik daripada sepanjang hidup tanpa dia
i'n so getting the ori dvd when it comes out... so...if anyone out there is thinking wat pressie to get me in the future... heres a hint : cinta!!!
jus made plans wit aM3 for pyramid this thurs... finally catching 007... hmmm...
gah!!! nthg much edi... bored to death!!!!
i used to dun care. i used to dun give a damn. i used to be carefree. not the pantyliner. now. its diff. i feel weak. i feel vulnerable. y does it feel so "exposed"? almost naked.its hard. its very hard. to learn to trust. to learn to love. at this point. i dowanna learn anymore. i dowana sink even deeper den i already have. sometimes, you've been hurt so much n so many times that u'll learn to be numb. i rather be numb. i WAS numb. and it worked pretty well for a time. there were flings n flirts. nthg special. until YOU came along. until u came along wit the whole love, faith, hope, comitment shit. loads of crap. i hate em. i dont believe em! i dowan believe em! i am not falling into this crap again. but ironically, if i am so firm n sure of myself, y am i struggling now?
am i really goin thru wit this? i wanna see u. i cant be falling into tis. i wanna be wit you. why me? i love u. wat is love? he said he loves me. how true is tat? i wish i could do more for u. stop sacrificing, u'll get hurt. i miss u. i have a life. ur hugs are so warm. i'm not changing my lifestyle for him. u call that a life? i like my life! flirts n fling aint a life. at
least u dont get hurt. wat if it is him? theres no such thing as "the one". wat if there is? no, never.
jus being there means alot. wat if it doesnt last? warm hands.
he was a player, he was born to be smooth. he isnt now, not anymore. how sure are u? melting eyes. looker dun last! i wish this would be forever. if only it would.
complicated ey?
dun worry if u dun understand...
its ok...
i'm weird..
nvr did say i was normal.
-3niGma-
*blueks!*
this proves that i have no life at all...
blergh!!
lazing around the whole freaking day....
yesterdays movie cinta emofy me.... the quotes keep coming back to me... emofied....
adik jangan takut tutup mata, kerana kakak ada di sini berjaga
its worth it if you've found the right one
kalau boleh sehari dengan orang yang kita sayang,
betapa susah pun, lebih baik daripada sepanjang hidup tanpa dia
i'n so getting the ori dvd when it comes out... so...if anyone out there is thinking wat pressie to get me in the future... heres a hint : cinta!!!
jus made plans wit aM3 for pyramid this thurs... finally catching 007... hmmm...
gah!!! nthg much edi... bored to death!!!!
am i really goin thru wit this? i wanna see u. i cant be falling into tis. i wanna be wit you. why me? i love u. wat is love? he said he loves me. how true is tat? i wish i could do more for u. stop sacrificing, u'll get hurt. i miss u. i have a life. ur hugs are so warm. i'm not changing my lifestyle for him. u call that a life? i like my life! flirts n fling aint a life. at
least u dont get hurt. wat if it is him? theres no such thing as "the one". wat if there is? no, never.
jus being there means alot. wat if it doesnt last? warm hands.
he was a player, he was born to be smooth. he isnt now, not anymore. how sure are u? melting eyes. looker dun last! i wish this would be forever. if only it would.
complicated ey?
dun worry if u dun understand...
its ok...
i'm weird..
nvr did say i was normal.
-3niGma-
:: cinta ::
ppl tell me sepet was good... (i dun deny...it is good)
some say gubra was better.... (hmmm... was abit lost there...nevertheless.yes,another good show..)
but tday... i'm telling u theres another good show in town...
my opinion... its better then sepet....
10 stars, 5 love stories inter-linked in 1 movie.
At first glance, "Cinta" is very much likened to the runaway British hit "Love Actually". But that's where the similarities stop - "Cinta" is very much in the Malaysian mould.
I'm not going to take the fun away from you by telling you what the stories are all about. I think a part of enjoying "Cinta" will be discovering what the stories are, for yourselves. It'll add to your appreciation of the emotional depth of the movie.
i've been working on this post for 4 hours... contemplating n resisting the urge to jus tell u guys all the stories... to me, its smthg new... it aint (yet) another cheesy lovie dovie malaysian made love story... CINTA in this movie comes in alots of terms...
whether if its family bonds, marraige, companion or plain love itself....
unggul
starring the talented Fatimah Abu Bakar makes a welcome comeback to big screen, showing that she's still got the stuff that once made her Malaysia's best actress. Rahim Razali played to his usual strength, though it's not his most memorable performance - but his screen chemistry with Fatimah Abu Bakar, was heartwarming.
when i was at the cinema, i saw a old couple buying tickets for this movie... n they were jus sitting 3 rows behind us(bt, aM3 n me)... firstly, i find it down right emofying that the elderly couple still go to the movies! den when they were in each others arms by the end of his story...
it was simply heartwarming... i of course donated a tear or two in this... (okay, mayb not JUS a tear....)
isteri bukan hakmilik, isteri ialah anugerah
romantis
Eizlan Yusuff to me, has always been one of the more underrated actors in Malaysia - I've always liked him since "Perempuan Melayu Terakhir", even though intelligent movies like that would hardly be a success at the box-office. Fasha Sandha, to me, has always been better in the Penang-type "Anak Mami" genre movies.But in this movie, Fasha's emotional range in every scene shone through far better than she's ever done, in drama-type movies.And yes, she and Eizlan looked good together - it's a believable pair. Quite sweet, although they would have done better, if the script told us why they fell for each other.
dunno much about this part... felt rather detached with it...at times, it felt like one of those typical "melting" love stories in cinema... yunno...rich dude, smart gal... media...
There were moments when the script fell victim to Hollywood and Malaysian cliches - like romantic dinners, as an expression of love. (Or flowers and diamond rings, for that matter) *eck!*
abadi
I've always considered Nanu Baharuddin a strong actress, even in supporting roles like in "Pontianak Harum Sundal Malam".It's fitting that she's been given the lead role in one of the 5 stories and she played the role of a protective big sister and a woman involved in an affair with a married man, to perfection.The most promising actor in this movie has to be Que Haidar, who plays Nanu's character's younger brother.There's a raw and honest intensity to his acting which pulls you in and holds you there
i like this one actually... this is one CINTA that the movie screen always missed... its also the CINTA most homo sapiens like us neglect... storyline was a tat bit korny..nontheless... it got the msg thru...
sepenuh jiwa
I used to think that Rashidi Ishak was quite stiff in his acting in his earlier days - but over time, he's come into his own now, with a very strong performance as a loving, hopeless romantic but heartbroken husband, whose marriage had disintegrated, due to his wife's affair with another man.He displayed the range of emotions very well and some of the scenes with his daughter, were truly touching and will reduce some of you, to tears. Especially for those who understand the pain of divorce and the confusion it causes to both adults and children.Rita Rudaini exceeded herself too, in her role as Rashidi Ishak's character's wife. Her expressions of guilt and conflict, were particularly convincing - although they could have given her a bit more to work on.
i cried buckets in this part!!! buckets!! like the were POURING down from my eyes!!! i was sobbing hyterically in this wan!! this was the story that wet my colar!!! and by the end of the show, aM3 n i...we came into a conclusion that Rashidi Ishak is pretty gud looking at certain angle!!! *woot!!*
because a little girl taught me that love is about letting go
tulus
Story-wise - of the 5 stories, I felt that "Tulus" or the light drama played by Sharifah and Pierre, is the weakest (which is still pretty strong, considering the quality of this movie).Sharifah Amani is a strong young actress - but she needs to be given the right roles to excel. People like Yasmin Ahmad knows perfectly what suits her and what doesn't.She seems too intelligent to play naive - I felt this role was meant for someone whose a bit more raw, "street" and hardened. She also lacked screen chemistry with Pierre Andre - it seemed awkward and not quite believable.Pierre Andre has improved substantially since his days in "Salon", I feel.his strong points are his his emotional depth and wide range of expressions and he's born to play the good guy underdog.
and for your info... I LIKE PIERRE ANDRE!!! the whole silent guy- quietly sacrificing-deep-emo package!!! i likeeee!!!
some say gubra was better.... (hmmm... was abit lost there...nevertheless.yes,another good show..)
but tday... i'm telling u theres another good show in town...
my opinion... its better then sepet....
10 stars, 5 love stories inter-linked in 1 movie.
At first glance, "Cinta" is very much likened to the runaway British hit "Love Actually". But that's where the similarities stop - "Cinta" is very much in the Malaysian mould.
I'm not going to take the fun away from you by telling you what the stories are all about. I think a part of enjoying "Cinta" will be discovering what the stories are, for yourselves. It'll add to your appreciation of the emotional depth of the movie.
i've been working on this post for 4 hours... contemplating n resisting the urge to jus tell u guys all the stories... to me, its smthg new... it aint (yet) another cheesy lovie dovie malaysian made love story... CINTA in this movie comes in alots of terms...
whether if its family bonds, marraige, companion or plain love itself....
unggul
starring the talented Fatimah Abu Bakar makes a welcome comeback to big screen, showing that she's still got the stuff that once made her Malaysia's best actress. Rahim Razali played to his usual strength, though it's not his most memorable performance - but his screen chemistry with Fatimah Abu Bakar, was heartwarming.
when i was at the cinema, i saw a old couple buying tickets for this movie... n they were jus sitting 3 rows behind us(bt, aM3 n me)... firstly, i find it down right emofying that the elderly couple still go to the movies! den when they were in each others arms by the end of his story...
it was simply heartwarming... i of course donated a tear or two in this... (okay, mayb not JUS a tear....)
isteri bukan hakmilik, isteri ialah anugerah
romantis
Eizlan Yusuff to me, has always been one of the more underrated actors in Malaysia - I've always liked him since "Perempuan Melayu Terakhir", even though intelligent movies like that would hardly be a success at the box-office. Fasha Sandha, to me, has always been better in the Penang-type "Anak Mami" genre movies.But in this movie, Fasha's emotional range in every scene shone through far better than she's ever done, in drama-type movies.And yes, she and Eizlan looked good together - it's a believable pair. Quite sweet, although they would have done better, if the script told us why they fell for each other.
dunno much about this part... felt rather detached with it...at times, it felt like one of those typical "melting" love stories in cinema... yunno...rich dude, smart gal... media...
There were moments when the script fell victim to Hollywood and Malaysian cliches - like romantic dinners, as an expression of love. (Or flowers and diamond rings, for that matter) *eck!*
abadi
I've always considered Nanu Baharuddin a strong actress, even in supporting roles like in "Pontianak Harum Sundal Malam".It's fitting that she's been given the lead role in one of the 5 stories and she played the role of a protective big sister and a woman involved in an affair with a married man, to perfection.The most promising actor in this movie has to be Que Haidar, who plays Nanu's character's younger brother.There's a raw and honest intensity to his acting which pulls you in and holds you there
i like this one actually... this is one CINTA that the movie screen always missed... its also the CINTA most homo sapiens like us neglect... storyline was a tat bit korny..nontheless... it got the msg thru...
sepenuh jiwa
I used to think that Rashidi Ishak was quite stiff in his acting in his earlier days - but over time, he's come into his own now, with a very strong performance as a loving, hopeless romantic but heartbroken husband, whose marriage had disintegrated, due to his wife's affair with another man.He displayed the range of emotions very well and some of the scenes with his daughter, were truly touching and will reduce some of you, to tears. Especially for those who understand the pain of divorce and the confusion it causes to both adults and children.Rita Rudaini exceeded herself too, in her role as Rashidi Ishak's character's wife. Her expressions of guilt and conflict, were particularly convincing - although they could have given her a bit more to work on.
i cried buckets in this part!!! buckets!! like the were POURING down from my eyes!!! i was sobbing hyterically in this wan!! this was the story that wet my colar!!! and by the end of the show, aM3 n i...we came into a conclusion that Rashidi Ishak is pretty gud looking at certain angle!!! *woot!!*
because a little girl taught me that love is about letting go
tulus
Story-wise - of the 5 stories, I felt that "Tulus" or the light drama played by Sharifah and Pierre, is the weakest (which is still pretty strong, considering the quality of this movie).Sharifah Amani is a strong young actress - but she needs to be given the right roles to excel. People like Yasmin Ahmad knows perfectly what suits her and what doesn't.She seems too intelligent to play naive - I felt this role was meant for someone whose a bit more raw, "street" and hardened. She also lacked screen chemistry with Pierre Andre - it seemed awkward and not quite believable.Pierre Andre has improved substantially since his days in "Salon", I feel.his strong points are his his emotional depth and wide range of expressions and he's born to play the good guy underdog.
and for your info... I LIKE PIERRE ANDRE!!! the whole silent guy- quietly sacrificing-deep-emo package!!! i likeeee!!!
Sunday, December 3
:: three posts ::
as u all can see... i'm hyper!!!
holidays jus started... n i'm all hyped up...
except one thing...
i'm broke...
wahahha...christmas is one freaking expensive month!!
anyways....its been gud...
: sweet november :
one of the emo-est, hottest show ever!! i watched it when i was in form1!! apparently its still guuuuuuuuddd!!! wahahaha.... she only needs one month to change his whole life!! emo!!
plus... u get to see hot keanu reeves's naked back moving up n down while he's....... *hmm....*
its good la!!!
: gurls night out :
ajak-ed my frens last minit to go out yum cha....
number one station at bukit tinggi aint bad.. live shows... emo songs... windy... dimmed lights...
its relaxing... in an exotic, but calm n disturbing way... so i picked sk n ws up... we met up wit mp at the shop... had sum pretty freaky n expensive drink on that day... example: honey+ warm milk!!!...wahahha... anyhoo... we sat there till 11... we talked crap!!! boys... exams..... new enviroment... new frens.... more boys!!.... n boys!!...yea... i guess tats about it... i havent seen them in ages... miss having the siao-ness around!!!we were giggling the whole way!!
: sleep over :
*woots!* after the yum cha session... i sent ws home... after that, sk n mp were zoomed off to my place...!! we watched flushed away n HEART that night till 3.30am!! dvd courtesy of BT...she watched it the night b4 sumore!! blek!! must ask her for rental fees!!! flushed away was abit draggy... but nevertheless farney!! akaka...
eventho it was the 2nd movie n we were tired...mp ter-sleep lio!! sk n i stillmanaged to watch the movie...HEART however was complicated... mayb we expected too much.... the starting was
typical... the storyline was typical emo movie... the ending was a twist tho... in a way.. but some may have guessed it in the middle... somewhere in the middle it gt draggy... but the show was emo... we were grumbling at the very start of the movie n ended up still in buckets at the end!!
: frens :
oh... the psycho-ness... the hyperness.... the piggy-ness... so wat if we jus ate dinner? n we jus went out to yum cha?? the three of us finished one whole long pasket of chipmores last night... n a few grapes... n water... n we went straight to bed!!! how scary was tat??!!
ok ok...
now the not-so-hyper part...
TZ went to ipoh this weekend on a business trip...
hmmm....
i am so NOT missing him...
and i am so NOT emo-ing now becoz of him...
NOOO.....
*whoa m i kidding?*
blergh!! who would've tot this would happen to me?
:3niGma:
holidays jus started... n i'm all hyped up...
except one thing...
i'm broke...
wahahha...christmas is one freaking expensive month!!
anyways....its been gud...
: sweet november :
one of the emo-est, hottest show ever!! i watched it when i was in form1!! apparently its still guuuuuuuuddd!!! wahahaha.... she only needs one month to change his whole life!! emo!!
plus... u get to see hot keanu reeves's naked back moving up n down while he's....... *hmm....*
its good la!!!
: gurls night out :
ajak-ed my frens last minit to go out yum cha....
number one station at bukit tinggi aint bad.. live shows... emo songs... windy... dimmed lights...
its relaxing... in an exotic, but calm n disturbing way... so i picked sk n ws up... we met up wit mp at the shop... had sum pretty freaky n expensive drink on that day... example: honey+ warm milk!!!...wahahha... anyhoo... we sat there till 11... we talked crap!!! boys... exams..... new enviroment... new frens.... more boys!!.... n boys!!...yea... i guess tats about it... i havent seen them in ages... miss having the siao-ness around!!!we were giggling the whole way!!
: sleep over :
*woots!* after the yum cha session... i sent ws home... after that, sk n mp were zoomed off to my place...!! we watched flushed away n HEART that night till 3.30am!! dvd courtesy of BT...she watched it the night b4 sumore!! blek!! must ask her for rental fees!!! flushed away was abit draggy... but nevertheless farney!! akaka...
eventho it was the 2nd movie n we were tired...mp ter-sleep lio!! sk n i stillmanaged to watch the movie...HEART however was complicated... mayb we expected too much.... the starting was
typical... the storyline was typical emo movie... the ending was a twist tho... in a way.. but some may have guessed it in the middle... somewhere in the middle it gt draggy... but the show was emo... we were grumbling at the very start of the movie n ended up still in buckets at the end!!
: frens :
oh... the psycho-ness... the hyperness.... the piggy-ness... so wat if we jus ate dinner? n we jus went out to yum cha?? the three of us finished one whole long pasket of chipmores last night... n a few grapes... n water... n we went straight to bed!!! how scary was tat??!!
ok ok...
now the not-so-hyper part...
TZ went to ipoh this weekend on a business trip...
hmmm....
i am so NOT missing him...
and i am so NOT emo-ing now becoz of him...
NOOO.....
*whoa m i kidding?*
blergh!! who would've tot this would happen to me?
:3niGma:
NASH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *bluek!!!*
nash tagged me.... so yea... i owe him tis ultra long long long tag!!
Bold the statements that are true to you.
Italise the statements that you WISH are true.
Leave the fibs alone.
Then, "stab" 5 people to do the same test.
I miss somebody right now. (i miss u... wish i was there... *cuddle*)
I dont watch TV these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses. (FYI..there PINK!! blurgh!!)
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I've been in a threesome. (a gurl has the rights for a fantasy right?!)
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. (u know who u r)
I believe that honesty is usually the best policy. (unfortunately i really do... n it always ends up biting me in my arse!)
I curse. (trying to stop...trying real hard... really!!)
I have changed mentally over the last year. ( i wish i could've said this as an accomplishment for 2006...)
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. (i still do... i feel secure)
I'm TOTALLY smart. (if this was true i'd be dangerous)
I've broken someone's bones. (shall not discuss it here... gruesome...)
I'm paranoid sometimes. (ya think??!)
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe , free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now. (december is expensive!!)
I love sushi. (fish meat? i'll pass )
I talk really, really fast. (and i make poor ppl blurrrr!!)
I have long hair. (to cut or not to cut?)
I have lost money in Las Vegas. (never!!!)
I have at least one sibling. (a lil too many to my liking!! akaka...)
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I like the way I look. (110%.... of course!!! ABSOLUTELY...yes...right)
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings. (akakak... ask the bf...)
I have a hidden talent. (i can be unsually annoying anytime i want!!!)
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have. (always?? hmmm mayb jus 80%)
I have a lot of friends.
I'm currently single. (if only its true... akakka... but heck..i pampered, sayanged..i can live with this jus fine...)
I have pecked someone of the same sex. (............)
I enjoy talking on the phone. (i'm a walking talking box!!)
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop. (stock me up wit unlimited cash n i'll surprise u!)
Enjoy window shopping. (enjoy.... i wish... its a craving...a desire... argh!!!!!!!!)
I would rather shop than eat. (i live to EAT!!!!!!!!!!!! )
I don't hate anyone. (unfortunately i aint no angel...)
I'm a pretty good dancer. (yeah!! my mirror in my room is like totally impressed wit my skills!)
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God. (somewhere...somehow...its all there..)
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I want to have children in the future. (no comment...)
I have changed a diaper before. (babby sitting...wat??! i'm broke!! remember?!)
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything. (dust!!!)
I have a lot to learn. (i'm a pure breed jakun!)
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger. (its complicated.. dun ask...)
I am shy around the opposite sex. (i wish!!)
I have tried alcohol before. (dun see wats the big deal... as long as i have myself on a leash...)
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza. (hell ya!!!)
I have used my sexuality to advance my career. (in ur dreams!! nthg sexy bout me!!)
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all. (i dont even care)
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it. (unfortunately i'm hooked to it... its psycho... but entertaining!!)
I'm happy at this moment! ( wish it was true aih....)
I'm obsessed with guys. (how can i not be??!!!)
I study for tests most of the time. (ekekek....last minute count as studying a?)
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met. ( i wish i was that different)
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge. (haha...if only i had the guts...)
I love sea turtles. (love em... beautiful creatures!!)
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream. (who doesnt?)
I'm proficient in a musical instrument. (i wish... i'm into that can play tho...*winks*)
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.(love? like la....aint obsesse)
I think water rules. (hell yea!!! beach, lakes, rivers, waterfall... anything wet.. its a turn on!)
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses. (isnt it the best part? call me vague.. but i tink it is)
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colors. (i'm a black person)
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I somehow enjoyed this thing!!! (so the !@#$%^!@#$%!@#$ long!!!)
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle. ( i cant whistle in tune)
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither. *wtf?? ewww!*
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.(whoa...the boxes)
I can't stick to a diet. (jus look at me...wat do u think?!)
I talk in my sleep. (creepy)
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions. (it works... itink)
Climbing trees is a brilliant past time.
I have jazz in my blood. (i'm a jazz freak!!)
I wear a toe ring.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie. (cofeeeeeeeeeee.....cokeeeeeeee........woot!!!)
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
I'm an artist. (that would be good!!)
I only clean my room when necessary. (ehehe....pig sty)
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie. (like du~~UH!!!)
I stab:
mandy (please do this wan!! forget the rest!!)
shan??!!
stephy!!!!!
henry!!!
chee sin!!!
Bold the statements that are true to you.
Italise the statements that you WISH are true.
Leave the fibs alone.
Then, "stab" 5 people to do the same test.
I miss somebody right now. (i miss u... wish i was there... *cuddle*)
I dont watch TV these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses. (FYI..there PINK!! blurgh!!)
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I've been in a threesome. (a gurl has the rights for a fantasy right?!)
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. (u know who u r)
I believe that honesty is usually the best policy. (unfortunately i really do... n it always ends up biting me in my arse!)
I curse. (trying to stop...trying real hard... really!!)
I have changed mentally over the last year. ( i wish i could've said this as an accomplishment for 2006...)
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. (i still do... i feel secure)
I'm TOTALLY smart. (if this was true i'd be dangerous)
I've broken someone's bones. (shall not discuss it here... gruesome...)
I'm paranoid sometimes. (ya think??!)
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe , free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now. (december is expensive!!)
I love sushi. (fish meat? i'll pass )
I talk really, really fast. (and i make poor ppl blurrrr!!)
I have long hair. (to cut or not to cut?)
I have lost money in Las Vegas. (never!!!)
I have at least one sibling. (a lil too many to my liking!! akaka...)
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I like the way I look. (110%.... of course!!! ABSOLUTELY...yes...right)
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings. (akakak... ask the bf...)
I have a hidden talent. (i can be unsually annoying anytime i want!!!)
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have. (always?? hmmm mayb jus 80%)
I have a lot of friends.
I'm currently single. (if only its true... akakka... but heck..i pampered, sayanged..i can live with this jus fine...)
I have pecked someone of the same sex. (............)
I enjoy talking on the phone. (i'm a walking talking box!!)
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop. (stock me up wit unlimited cash n i'll surprise u!)
Enjoy window shopping. (enjoy.... i wish... its a craving...a desire... argh!!!!!!!!)
I would rather shop than eat. (i live to EAT!!!!!!!!!!!! )
I don't hate anyone. (unfortunately i aint no angel...)
I'm a pretty good dancer. (yeah!! my mirror in my room is like totally impressed wit my skills!)
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God. (somewhere...somehow...its all there..)
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I want to have children in the future. (no comment...)
I have changed a diaper before. (babby sitting...wat??! i'm broke!! remember?!)
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything. (dust!!!)
I have a lot to learn. (i'm a pure breed jakun!)
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger. (its complicated.. dun ask...)
I am shy around the opposite sex. (i wish!!)
I have tried alcohol before. (dun see wats the big deal... as long as i have myself on a leash...)
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza. (hell ya!!!)
I have used my sexuality to advance my career. (in ur dreams!! nthg sexy bout me!!)
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all. (i dont even care)
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it. (unfortunately i'm hooked to it... its psycho... but entertaining!!)
I'm happy at this moment! ( wish it was true aih....)
I'm obsessed with guys. (how can i not be??!!!)
I study for tests most of the time. (ekekek....last minute count as studying a?)
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met. ( i wish i was that different)
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge. (haha...if only i had the guts...)
I love sea turtles. (love em... beautiful creatures!!)
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream. (who doesnt?)
I'm proficient in a musical instrument. (i wish... i'm into that can play tho...*winks*)
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.(love? like la....aint obsesse)
I think water rules. (hell yea!!! beach, lakes, rivers, waterfall... anything wet.. its a turn on!)
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses. (isnt it the best part? call me vague.. but i tink it is)
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colors. (i'm a black person)
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I somehow enjoyed this thing!!! (so the !@#$%^!@#$%!@#$ long!!!)
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle. ( i cant whistle in tune)
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither. *wtf?? ewww!*
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.(whoa...the boxes)
I can't stick to a diet. (jus look at me...wat do u think?!)
I talk in my sleep. (creepy)
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions. (it works... itink)
Climbing trees is a brilliant past time.
I have jazz in my blood. (i'm a jazz freak!!)
I wear a toe ring.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie. (cofeeeeeeeeeee.....cokeeeeeeee........woot!!!)
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
I'm an artist. (that would be good!!)
I only clean my room when necessary. (ehehe....pig sty)
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie. (like du~~UH!!!)
I stab:
mandy (please do this wan!! forget the rest!!)
shan??!!
stephy!!!!!
henry!!!
chee sin!!!
*hugs* lYd *hugs* + *squeze tight tight!!*
4 things many don't know
i cant ride a bicycle
i lourveeeeeeeeeeeee cars
i'm in love with the retro world!
i AM in love... *mayb not look like it... but it is!!*
4 movies I could watch over and over again
while u were sleeping
high school musical
sweet november
ladder 49
4 places I've lived
kuantan, pahang (born there)
muar, johor (childhood there)
my current house in klang
and.... hmmmm... haven't been around much.. would like to live sumwhere cold tho...
4 TV shows I love
simpsons!!! *doink!! but i still love em!!*
house
grey's anatomy *drama*
*new fever* desire: table for three...!! *drools!!*
4 places I've been on vacation
australia
singapore
china
thai..??!
4 of my favourite food
pasta!!! *zabbieee!!*
anything with chocolate!!! *fat!! but wat the heck?*
chicken!! *any chicken!!!*
junk food... prefer lollisssss!!
4 places I would rather be
now? i wanna be in ipoh!! *dun ask!*]
anywhere cold.... or at least cool... *its christmas!*
ironically, i wanna go to the beach n swim in the sea!!
shopping please.... sales up!! *load me up with cash too k?*
4 favourite songs
amazed - lonestar* i noe... OLD... *
i could not ask for more - edwin mccain *actually i like anything by edwin mccain!!*
summer of'69 - bryan adams * aahhh... the macho-ness... the husky voice!*
lips of an angel-hinder has been ringing in my head!! n i'm liking it!! *woot!!*
4 others I wanna tag
i shant torture u guys...
who wanna do den jus do la!!
shout out!!!
HUGS LYDIA!!!!!!
i cant ride a bicycle
i lourveeeeeeeeeeeee cars
i'm in love with the retro world!
i AM in love... *mayb not look like it... but it is!!*
4 movies I could watch over and over again
while u were sleeping
high school musical
sweet november
ladder 49
4 places I've lived
kuantan, pahang (born there)
muar, johor (childhood there)
my current house in klang
and.... hmmmm... haven't been around much.. would like to live sumwhere cold tho...
4 TV shows I love
simpsons!!! *doink!! but i still love em!!*
house
grey's anatomy *drama*
*new fever* desire: table for three...!! *drools!!*
4 places I've been on vacation
australia
singapore
china
thai..??!
4 of my favourite food
pasta!!! *zabbieee!!*
anything with chocolate!!! *fat!! but wat the heck?*
chicken!! *any chicken!!!*
junk food... prefer lollisssss!!
4 places I would rather be
now? i wanna be in ipoh!! *dun ask!*]
anywhere cold.... or at least cool... *its christmas!*
ironically, i wanna go to the beach n swim in the sea!!
shopping please.... sales up!! *load me up with cash too k?*
4 favourite songs
amazed - lonestar* i noe... OLD... *
i could not ask for more - edwin mccain *actually i like anything by edwin mccain!!*
summer of'69 - bryan adams * aahhh... the macho-ness... the husky voice!*
lips of an angel-hinder has been ringing in my head!! n i'm liking it!! *woot!!*
4 others I wanna tag
i shant torture u guys...
who wanna do den jus do la!!
shout out!!!
HUGS LYDIA!!!!!!
Wednesday, November 29
i wanna puke
:: home work ::
i wanna throw up...had been rushing asses like nobody's business... i finally finished my perspective assignment...n i have another half of my liquor bottle to render... i hate marker rendering!!
alkohol markers making me sick!! after days of inhaling the markers, i'm starting to tink mayb
the alkohol i inhaled is making me tipsy!!
:: fluuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu ::
i hate being sick... temperature goin up n down... getting whoooo~sy! mayb i am tipsy! my nose is dripping like crap... momie say i remind her of christmas becoz i freaking look like
rudolph!!
:: PMS-ing :: still?::
mayb its the stress... mayb its the fatigue... but this month's pms is a killer!! i'm sweeling up like a water ballloon...AND!!! i not only look big...it hurts too!!!! *pouts!!* i wanna be a guy!! other normal syptoms include headache, cramps n fatigue!!!
:: emo ::
i dunno wat happen to me... i did the silliest thing!! i bumped into this mtv in the tv tday...
mivheal wong guang liang - [yue ding] promise
by the end of the mtv, i was tearing n sobbing like a baby.. swear to god! i freak myself out!! y the hell was i crying over a 7mins mtv??!
actually, i do get the mtv... it relates to me.. in a weird, freaky, emo way....
a promise, an agreement, a pledge...
sometimes, we get so caught up with our own web, searching n striving for our dreams... we neglect the very essence of our existance... we neglect the ppl right in front of us...
sometimes, we're so absorbed into climbing higher than we forgot to look below at the ppl who are pushing n supporting us... all the way...
be it frens or family... we do that sometimes... we tend to tink...we are the whole world...
but if a single phrase, a single call, a single promise can pull u back to reality...
remind u wats the real truth...
thats wat its about...
:: us :: :bond: :trust: :frens?: :lovers?: :companion: :warmth: :hugs: :a place: :home: :faith:
:: melts!:: :patience: :hugs: :hoodie: :waiting: :acceptance: :shoes: :late night: :eyes: :arms:
:: sorry:: :busy: :neglect: :homework: :ignore: :100days: :grades: :pressure: :TERsleep:
:you: :me: :circle: :never ending: :promise: :hold: :ring: :never alone: ::love::
i wanna throw up...had been rushing asses like nobody's business... i finally finished my perspective assignment...n i have another half of my liquor bottle to render... i hate marker rendering!!
alkohol markers making me sick!! after days of inhaling the markers, i'm starting to tink mayb
the alkohol i inhaled is making me tipsy!!
:: fluuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu ::
i hate being sick... temperature goin up n down... getting whoooo~sy! mayb i am tipsy! my nose is dripping like crap... momie say i remind her of christmas becoz i freaking look like
rudolph!!
:: PMS-ing :: still?::
mayb its the stress... mayb its the fatigue... but this month's pms is a killer!! i'm sweeling up like a water ballloon...AND!!! i not only look big...it hurts too!!!! *pouts!!* i wanna be a guy!! other normal syptoms include headache, cramps n fatigue!!!
:: emo ::
i dunno wat happen to me... i did the silliest thing!! i bumped into this mtv in the tv tday...
mivheal wong guang liang - [yue ding] promise
by the end of the mtv, i was tearing n sobbing like a baby.. swear to god! i freak myself out!! y the hell was i crying over a 7mins mtv??!
a promise, an agreement, a pledge...
sometimes, we get so caught up with our own web, searching n striving for our dreams... we neglect the very essence of our existance... we neglect the ppl right in front of us...
sometimes, we're so absorbed into climbing higher than we forgot to look below at the ppl who are pushing n supporting us... all the way...
be it frens or family... we do that sometimes... we tend to tink...we are the whole world...
but if a single phrase, a single call, a single promise can pull u back to reality...
remind u wats the real truth...
thats wat its about...
:: us :: :bond: :trust: :frens?: :lovers?: :companion: :warmth: :hugs: :a place: :home: :faith:
:: melts!:: :patience: :hugs: :hoodie: :waiting: :acceptance: :shoes: :late night: :eyes: :arms:
:: sorry:: :busy: :neglect: :homework: :ignore: :100days: :grades: :pressure: :TERsleep:
:you: :me: :circle: :never ending: :promise: :hold: :ring: :never alone: ::love::
Tuesday, November 21
:: blergh!! ::
lYd tagged me.... but cant do now coz my brain is full of shyte... i promise i'll do it rite after my assignment period k?? promise!!! honest!! *big puppy eyes* *blink blink*
i hate drawing... n i'm starting to hate lines... try filling out 2 a4 size drawing wit jus 0.1 thickness pen!!
*bonkers*... i wanna die!! kill me now!! please... begging u!! anyone!! aM3 was rite...i wanna throw up... serious... *blergh!*... at this point... EVERYTHING is fugly!! i repeat ... EVERYTHING!!!
i'm starting to form a serious marker phobia... *urgh~~!!* marker rendering sucks!! big time... my eyes are swelled up...n my nose is stuffy! the smell of alkohol in my messy room is jus as bad... if nt worst...
i hate PMS-ing!! ish... not now...not during assignment time...!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! my suffer from a not-so-common PMS syptoms... namely "swelling"... *ahem* my breast ....
and i hate it!!! it hurts...~! boohoo!!! i dun like... they look big... which is not gud... NOT gud at all... *bluek!* ....
::pouts!::
====== whoa======
okays... chilled....
aaaaaaAAAAaaaaaa~~~~~~hhhh...
tat feels better... jus me n my broggie...
its raining...
i can hear it loud n clear from my room....
every raindrop...every soft thunder...
i like it when it rains...
it comforts me....
i took kancil out for a drive jus now...
it feels nice... n relaxed....
i enjoy driving alone.... jus me n my space... no mommie yelling "BRAAAKEEEE!!!"... no daddie reminding me "dun so fast a..."... n best of all... wit all the sounds of the rain... no tension on honking rude drivers... everything is.... serene... cool...
i came home wet of course coz kancil doesnt have a place in my porch... btw..i like being wet too... frankly, theres nthg related to water that i dun like.... i went upstairs n filled the bathtub wit hot water... HOT...quote mommie's definition "u wanna cook soup oso doneed so hot la" unquote... i took of my wet clothes... put them in the laundry basket... went n get a warm, dry towel n dipped myself in the tub... at times, i'll put my whole head in the water... completely submerged in the water... i like that feeling... its like a sound barrier... whenever it feels suffocating n my heads turning... i'll take a shower...b4 the tub...i jus use the basin... but the tubs waaaaaay better.... when i'm in there, i can hear nthg... no thunder, so cars, no yelling moms, no barking dogs... its my own world... a time for me to clear my thoughts... a time for me to rearrange my thoughts... a time for me to acknowledge my day...
:: a time for me to sayang me ::
in around 15 mins... i'm done... pulled the plug, got out og the tub... dried myself n wrap myself in my dry towel... its 4.30pm... once out of the steamy, warm bathroom, i step right into my airconded room... ppl use to tell me that i'll fall sick like this... but the chills are exhilarating... still in my towel, i locked the door n crept into my bed...under the warm covers... n i jus lay there for another 15 mins... holding his hoodie... i tot of him... i smiled... i msged him... i closed my eyes...n i dosed off....
::: 15 mins later :::
the phone rings... TZ called to wake me up...
n i'm back to work....
...
.....
......
........
........
......
....
...
stil working...
: 3niGma :
i hate drawing... n i'm starting to hate lines... try filling out 2 a4 size drawing wit jus 0.1 thickness pen!!
*bonkers*... i wanna die!! kill me now!! please... begging u!! anyone!! aM3 was rite...i wanna throw up... serious... *blergh!*... at this point... EVERYTHING is fugly!! i repeat ... EVERYTHING!!!
i'm starting to form a serious marker phobia... *urgh~~!!* marker rendering sucks!! big time... my eyes are swelled up...n my nose is stuffy! the smell of alkohol in my messy room is jus as bad... if nt worst...
i hate PMS-ing!! ish... not now...not during assignment time...!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! my suffer from a not-so-common PMS syptoms... namely "swelling"... *ahem* my breast ....
and i hate it!!! it hurts...~! boohoo!!! i dun like... they look big... which is not gud... NOT gud at all... *bluek!* ....
::pouts!::
====== whoa======
okays... chilled....
aaaaaaAAAAaaaaaa~~~~~~hhhh...
tat feels better... jus me n my broggie...
its raining...
i can hear it loud n clear from my room....
every raindrop...every soft thunder...
i like it when it rains...
it comforts me....
i took kancil out for a drive jus now...
it feels nice... n relaxed....
i enjoy driving alone.... jus me n my space... no mommie yelling "BRAAAKEEEE!!!"... no daddie reminding me "dun so fast a..."... n best of all... wit all the sounds of the rain... no tension on honking rude drivers... everything is.... serene... cool...
i came home wet of course coz kancil doesnt have a place in my porch... btw..i like being wet too... frankly, theres nthg related to water that i dun like.... i went upstairs n filled the bathtub wit hot water... HOT...quote mommie's definition "u wanna cook soup oso doneed so hot la" unquote... i took of my wet clothes... put them in the laundry basket... went n get a warm, dry towel n dipped myself in the tub... at times, i'll put my whole head in the water... completely submerged in the water... i like that feeling... its like a sound barrier... whenever it feels suffocating n my heads turning... i'll take a shower...b4 the tub...i jus use the basin... but the tubs waaaaaay better.... when i'm in there, i can hear nthg... no thunder, so cars, no yelling moms, no barking dogs... its my own world... a time for me to clear my thoughts... a time for me to rearrange my thoughts... a time for me to acknowledge my day...
:: a time for me to sayang me ::
in around 15 mins... i'm done... pulled the plug, got out og the tub... dried myself n wrap myself in my dry towel... its 4.30pm... once out of the steamy, warm bathroom, i step right into my airconded room... ppl use to tell me that i'll fall sick like this... but the chills are exhilarating... still in my towel, i locked the door n crept into my bed...under the warm covers... n i jus lay there for another 15 mins... holding his hoodie... i tot of him... i smiled... i msged him... i closed my eyes...n i dosed off....
::: 15 mins later :::
the phone rings... TZ called to wake me up...
n i'm back to work....
...
.....
......
........
........
......
....
...
stil working...
: 3niGma :
Saturday, November 18
: finding myself :
i was walking tday... had nthg to do... FYI..i'm one of the psycho peeps that like to walk in the rain...
i noe... weird... but i like...with umbrella of course!
i walked passed this kindergarden... i saw this little chinese gurl fell down right on the pavement...
but b4 i could go to get her...this little indian boy came running her...(btw the rain was HEAVY! there wasnt any raindrops..its more like BUCKETS n BUCKETS of water pouring down...!!) the little indian boy was dry under the porch n he jus dashed out... apparently the little chinese gurl punya shoelace tertanggal... den the little indian boy stayed under the rain to tie her shoelace!! so the comel!! kesian oso la... i went there with my umbrella n helped dem la...
i went to pick up my fren's younger sis that day from hinhua...i use to do that everyday when i was in highschool...i would walk up to her school i wait at her front gate...den i'll walk her to the opposite busstop where we would take the same bus home... when i saw her i was surprised at how fluent her chinese was! she's malay btw... but surprisingly, her frens were theminority in schools...yunno...the malay n indian that enrolled in the chinese prinary school... and ALL of them comunicate in chinese!
when i was in secondary school... i mix wit the chinese... not only JUS chinese... i only mix wit my kind... CHINESE... science stream... shit like that...even tho i use to play wit the indian boys in my neighbourhood... even tho i use tobe pretty close to malays during form3... till the end... its jus chinese...
that day my dad was driving n this lunatic driver cut my dad's path with merely 1inch left in between them... my mom immeadiatly said... "must be indian driver la! siao wan!" i jus stared blankly at em... why must be indian? i doubt there any difference between em n us chinese despide the color la...recently some houses in my neighbourhood got robbed... n when asked wat happen... the aunties will start the " raya lio ma!! sure the malays la!"....
i seriously dun understand why...when we were young we din care wat color u were...or wat language u spoke... my dad use to play basketball wit malays when he was a lad... my indian neighbour use to be able to speak hokkien coz she mix wit chinese when she was schooling... but when we are out in the society, we tend to categories ppl... n we tend to be biased... we only see wat we choose to see n believe wat we choose to believe... some say its better this way..i tink not... ppl say that as we grow up...we'll learn to see more.. i tink as we grow up, we choose to see less.... last time it was "the boy seems nice, he laughs alot, mayb we can be frens"...now its "that man, wow...look at his car... ew! bad hair la!...but he's rich wert! n he's popular too..." ... somtimes jus looking at children..it does make me ponder: whose teaching n whose shud be learning? mayb we shud learn from toddlers like them...their innocence n naive is overwhelming... they help ppl because the want to...we help ppl its always the "wats the catch?" dilemma.... y is it so hard? y must we make things so complicated? isnt it time for us to look back into ourself? to find who we truly are? back to the very basic...the very core...
during my sleepless nights... i took a journey myself... boxes... tapes... photos... everything..
i went thru my past... times when i din care wat other ppl think... i like wat i liked...even tho ppl thinks its weird.. n nt my age....
my top three fav shows?
woman on top...
this isnt a porn k? as horny n pornographic the title may seem..its a absolutely normal show...
its a show about love... even better its a show about TRUE love... the ones that isnt controlled by spells n curses... love that isnt defined by status and race...
sex and the city...
this is a show bout frenship... nsex... different lives... different partners... different situations... different personality... n yet they stood by each other...
so what if its also revovling about sex? its nt the core of the story...
the finale season was emofying.... but it doesnt proves the the storyline...
tat frens stick to each other... mayb shows like this was poissoning my mind...
mayb thats why i put so much pressure in my own highschool clique... i wanted that...
mayb its jus bogus!
ally mcbeal...
this is the ultimate... flame to dust... lovers to frens... why must all good things come to an end?
ally mcbeal is gooooood... love, lost, frens, lovers, faith, hope.... the whole emo package!
::3niGma::
i noe... weird... but i like...with umbrella of course!
i walked passed this kindergarden... i saw this little chinese gurl fell down right on the pavement...
but b4 i could go to get her...this little indian boy came running her...(btw the rain was HEAVY! there wasnt any raindrops..its more like BUCKETS n BUCKETS of water pouring down...!!) the little indian boy was dry under the porch n he jus dashed out... apparently the little chinese gurl punya shoelace tertanggal... den the little indian boy stayed under the rain to tie her shoelace!! so the comel!! kesian oso la... i went there with my umbrella n helped dem la...
i went to pick up my fren's younger sis that day from hinhua...i use to do that everyday when i was in highschool...i would walk up to her school i wait at her front gate...den i'll walk her to the opposite busstop where we would take the same bus home... when i saw her i was surprised at how fluent her chinese was! she's malay btw... but surprisingly, her frens were theminority in schools...yunno...the malay n indian that enrolled in the chinese prinary school... and ALL of them comunicate in chinese!
when i was in secondary school... i mix wit the chinese... not only JUS chinese... i only mix wit my kind... CHINESE... science stream... shit like that...even tho i use to play wit the indian boys in my neighbourhood... even tho i use tobe pretty close to malays during form3... till the end... its jus chinese...
that day my dad was driving n this lunatic driver cut my dad's path with merely 1inch left in between them... my mom immeadiatly said... "must be indian driver la! siao wan!" i jus stared blankly at em... why must be indian? i doubt there any difference between em n us chinese despide the color la...recently some houses in my neighbourhood got robbed... n when asked wat happen... the aunties will start the " raya lio ma!! sure the malays la!"....
i seriously dun understand why...when we were young we din care wat color u were...or wat language u spoke... my dad use to play basketball wit malays when he was a lad... my indian neighbour use to be able to speak hokkien coz she mix wit chinese when she was schooling... but when we are out in the society, we tend to categories ppl... n we tend to be biased... we only see wat we choose to see n believe wat we choose to believe... some say its better this way..i tink not... ppl say that as we grow up...we'll learn to see more.. i tink as we grow up, we choose to see less.... last time it was "the boy seems nice, he laughs alot, mayb we can be frens"...now its "that man, wow...look at his car... ew! bad hair la!...but he's rich wert! n he's popular too..." ... somtimes jus looking at children..it does make me ponder: whose teaching n whose shud be learning? mayb we shud learn from toddlers like them...their innocence n naive is overwhelming... they help ppl because the want to...we help ppl its always the "wats the catch?" dilemma.... y is it so hard? y must we make things so complicated? isnt it time for us to look back into ourself? to find who we truly are? back to the very basic...the very core...
during my sleepless nights... i took a journey myself... boxes... tapes... photos... everything..
i went thru my past... times when i din care wat other ppl think... i like wat i liked...even tho ppl thinks its weird.. n nt my age....
my top three fav shows?
woman on top...
this isnt a porn k? as horny n pornographic the title may seem..its a absolutely normal show...
its a show about love... even better its a show about TRUE love... the ones that isnt controlled by spells n curses... love that isnt defined by status and race...
sex and the city...
this is a show bout frenship... n
so what if its also revovling about sex? its nt the core of the story...
the finale season was emofying.... but it doesnt proves the the storyline...
tat frens stick to each other... mayb shows like this was poissoning my mind...
mayb thats why i put so much pressure in my own highschool clique... i wanted that...
mayb its jus bogus!
ally mcbeal...
this is the ultimate... flame to dust... lovers to frens... why must all good things come to an end?
ally mcbeal is gooooood... love, lost, frens, lovers, faith, hope.... the whole emo package!
::3niGma::
Friday, November 17
bad day...
tday was sucky... mom decided to literally take a ride early in the morn...i do mean EARLY!!! like 6.30am early... reached coll a bit late...*thanks to whining mommie dearest!* she gets on my nerves sometimes.... grumpy auntie!! ish!! reached college...photo was a drag tday... turns out the photo was messed up...the whole time i was jus trying to keep a clear head n NOT go "kaboom!!"... i jus dun get it.... i was in charge of sticking the freaking photos... turns out some was wrong..swear to god i jus followed the order!! we arranged it... it was passed to me... i even double checked the numbers!! i find it abit cacat...so i double checked wit my fren... they said "jus follow"... so i did... the numbers were in the usual order....seems okay to me... wtf!? URGH!!! u shud've seen their faces... it was like the "its your fault la!" "did u messed it up?" "arrange d lio lo!" ..... fuck off! and i'm nt being hostile... please....
i've been usingmizunderstood as my nick since i was primary... coz i've alweays felt that way... ppl dun get me... some try...some jus act as tho they do... n it sucks... they jump into assumptions n conclutions waaaaaaaay b4 they get the picture.... dun judge a book by its cover.... some read the 1st few chapters n think they know the whole story... well... *newsflash!* YOU DONT KNOW A SINGLE BIT!! so...either continue reading... or jus give up n go write ur own book!! stewpid !@$%!@#$ *donkey*!!! after that i changed into using enigmatic...trying to stop ppl from even trying to read the book! i was talking to BT, ET and aM3 during GD class that day...its usual when we r chatting wit ET...its normally dirty talk... typical of ET...i have no idea why... but then pops a topic bout guys penis... BT jus shrugged coz ET was teasing her for being wit her guy for 1 year n 8 months...i think... we were chuckling away...den ET asked me the same question... i stared at him wide eyed...n i replied... "i dunno...haven seen one.." ...* truth!!! cross my heart!!!* n aM3 replied... "sure or not"....in a very very sarcastic way...
watthecrap?! akakak...toldcha ppl misunderstand me....haihs....
ppl are usually shocked at how inexperience i am... and i dun get it! do i look like sum chick thats "been around the block"? mayb i do... mayb its because i act openly to alot of stuff... mayb its because i'm always boy crazy... i check out any guy thats walking pass!... mayb its my attire... mayb its the breast *wtf? ahahha... JL n ET told me that...* how true? i have no idea....but i have my limits...i really do... i have trust issues... n i dun just let ppl in... i built a tall, thick wall to protect me from harm... n in the end... makes me look cold n cruel... but i like it that way... sometimes feeling strongly for someone would only end up hurting urself... so i rather feel nthg... a fling shall stay a fling.... unless i think otherwise.... theres a truth behind this cold face...there is stil a heart beating behind this mask i wear everyday...
ppl think i'm cold, fact is i'm actually ahopeless romantic...
the whole cliche: i pledge my love, destiny, flowers, melting moments... i'm a sucker for those....
ppl think i'm shallow, fact is as long as it feels right...i wouldn't mind...
i've never wanted a cute boyfren... infact i rather the boyfren not be so cute... my motto is "cute r only lookers, not keepers"...
ppl think i'm strong, fact is i wasnt born like this...
there was a time i was dependent n needy n whiny...
n those were the times are i was hurt, n let down n dissappointed... so i grew out of it...
so there u have it... me...
unmasked....
hurt...
broken...
on the bright side...watched happy feet tday wit aM3 n BT...!!! ooooooooooooooooooo... i like the show!!! so the cute!! gud show!! gud choice aM3!! *hugs!! when home tapping all the way in the rain..!!!
i've been using
watthecrap?! akakak...toldcha ppl misunderstand me....haihs....
ppl are usually shocked at how inexperience i am... and i dun get it! do i look like sum chick thats "been around the block"? mayb i do... mayb its because i act openly to alot of stuff... mayb its because i'm always boy crazy... i check out any guy thats walking pass!... mayb its my attire... mayb its the breast *wtf? ahahha... JL n ET told me that...* how true? i have no idea....but i have my limits...i really do... i have trust issues... n i dun just let ppl in... i built a tall, thick wall to protect me from harm... n in the end... makes me look cold n cruel... but i like it that way... sometimes feeling strongly for someone would only end up hurting urself... so i rather feel nthg... a fling shall stay a fling.... unless i think otherwise.... theres a truth behind this cold face...there is stil a heart beating behind this mask i wear everyday...
ppl think i'm cold, fact is i'm actually a
the whole cliche: i pledge my love, destiny, flowers, melting moments... i'm a sucker for those....
ppl think i'm shallow, fact is as long as it feels right...
i've never wanted a cute boyfren... infact i rather the boyfren not be so cute... my motto is "cute r only lookers, not keepers"...
ppl think i'm strong, fact is i wasnt born like this...
there was a time i was dependent n needy n whiny...
n those were the times are i was hurt, n let down n dissappointed... so i grew out of it...
so there u have it... me...
unmasked....
hurt...
broken...
on the bright side...watched happy feet tday wit aM3 n BT...!!! ooooooooooooooooooo... i like the show!!! so the cute!! gud show!! gud choice aM3!! *hugs!! when home tapping all the way in the rain..!!!
Tuesday, November 14
:: love :: death ::
its kinda weird how life can be?
things jus seem to turn when u least expected it....
the fact that i cant sleep....*i've been being a pig all my life!*
got me thinking of loads of emo stuff....
here's smthg to thing about... its from a show ally mcbeal... i loved this show...
cried buckets during this epi... emo~~
things jus seem to turn when u least expected it....
the fact that i cant sleep....*i've been being a pig all my life!*
got me thinking of loads of emo stuff....
here's smthg to thing about... its from a show ally mcbeal... i loved this show...
cried buckets during this epi... emo~~
Saturday, November 11
:: you :: me :: love :: lost :: hope :: faith ::
who can say for certain... maybe you r still here...
i feel u all around me...
your memories so clear...
deep in the stilness i can hear u speak...
you are still an inspiration...
you are mine, forever loved...
your are watching over me from up above...
i went to JL's dad funeral tday... TZ went wit me... i picked sk n mp up on the way too...
no...TZ din noe JL...but he came wit me anyways... i wasnt prepared for this..not yet...not now...
i stepped into the funeral parlour... everything was so familiar... the casket... the ppl...every whole thing... the faces... the sadness... the lost... the hurt...
JL was typical of him...being the strong, carefree, ever smiling johnny boi... he's always tough...he's always been... he's been smiling n chatting wit us as tho nthg jus happened... but deep in his eyes... smthg is missing..he's lost the little twinkle in his eyes... u can see the hurt in his eyes...how hard it is for him to continue like this...we were introduced to his mom... jus looking at her makes my heart whithered n broken... she looked so pale...
having frens around really helps... it felt alright at the start... nthg was wrong...JL was cheerful..we were chatting along... den it was time to send dem home...we dropped sk 1st...she has exams tml.... den we dropped mp.. after that... it started... the memories...the tears...almost instantly... i was clentching my hands to get a grip of my own crumbling emotions... gawd i missed her so much! i couldn't stand it... if TZ wasnt driving...i would've drove up the curb coz my eyes were blurred....
he held my hand n he told me softly... " now do u noe why i insisted on following?" "sometimes, u may think that the wound is healed... yet fresh blood is still flowing inside... dun deny it... it doesnt mean that if u ignored it, choose not to think about it... it will heal itself... becoz it wouldn't..." "it hurting... i noe it... but no matter what u still need to face it... i'm nt asking u to forget her... neither am i asking u to wipe everything away..." "what i am asking is for u to accept the truth... n let yourself live again... stop hurting yourself out of guilt... you're jus causing more pain to yourself..." "you noe i'm here... you're not alone..."
i feel u all around me...
your memories so clear...
deep in the stilness i can hear u speak...
you are still an inspiration...
you are mine, forever loved...
your are watching over me from up above...
i went to JL's dad funeral tday... TZ went wit me... i picked sk n mp up on the way too...
no...TZ din noe JL...but he came wit me anyways... i wasnt prepared for this..not yet...not now...
i stepped into the funeral parlour... everything was so familiar... the casket... the ppl...every whole thing... the faces... the sadness... the lost... the hurt...
JL was typical of him...being the strong, carefree, ever smiling johnny boi... he's always tough...he's always been... he's been smiling n chatting wit us as tho nthg jus happened... but deep in his eyes... smthg is missing..he's lost the little twinkle in his eyes... u can see the hurt in his eyes...how hard it is for him to continue like this...we were introduced to his mom... jus looking at her makes my heart whithered n broken... she looked so pale...
having frens around really helps... it felt alright at the start... nthg was wrong...JL was cheerful..we were chatting along... den it was time to send dem home...we dropped sk 1st...she has exams tml.... den we dropped mp.. after that... it started... the memories...the tears...almost instantly... i was clentching my hands to get a grip of my own crumbling emotions... gawd i missed her so much! i couldn't stand it... if TZ wasnt driving...i would've drove up the curb coz my eyes were blurred....
he held my hand n he told me softly... " now do u noe why i insisted on following?" "sometimes, u may think that the wound is healed... yet fresh blood is still flowing inside... dun deny it... it doesnt mean that if u ignored it, choose not to think about it... it will heal itself... becoz it wouldn't..." "it hurting... i noe it... but no matter what u still need to face it... i'm nt asking u to forget her... neither am i asking u to wipe everything away..." "what i am asking is for u to accept the truth... n let yourself live again... stop hurting yourself out of guilt... you're jus causing more pain to yourself..." "you noe i'm here... you're not alone..."
Thursday, November 9
: johnny :
nt feeling well tday... after class i went straight back home... luckily aM3 cut me loose from donuts duty... reached home... n i went straight to bed...i tried to sleep...as hard as i could.... i shut my eyes tight.... but i can still feel the loud thumping inside my head...i jus couldnt sleep...
weeping n sobbing hysterically due to frustration....i crept down my bed n pulled a small tin box from under my bed... it was an old mooncake box... i opened it...
n there it was...folded neatly in a plastic bag was the last set of my amah's pyjamas... i opened the the bag...n took the clothes out...lay them on my bed... n i started to cry...i've always had problems sleeping when i was young... hyper kids always suffered from nightmares...
n i would crawl into amah's bed...gawd i missed her so much...
suddenly the phone rang.... i woke up... i picked up the phone n it was kx on the line... for the 1st 5 secs, i jus realised that i finally slept!! for an hour plus... den after that.... i heard... "john's dad jus passed away... we're going to see him tnite...u wanna follow?"
my heart dropped.... i totally blanked out... how could it be? no... not to john... y john? he was the most cheerful n fun guys i've ever known... alwasy the life of the party... he's on the the "egg shell guys" we use to call em... hard on the outside...soft in the inside....
as i lie in bed... thinking...whether to go tnite or tml night... the whole vision of a funeral came into my mind... it was no random funeral... i saw amah's funeral... n i started to weep again..as i did on the three day ceremony early this year... i weeped till my eyes were puffy n i stil cant stop... i clentched on to amah's pyjamas n i cried... the whole scene... the coffin.... the orchids photo frame which held my amah's photo... the flowers... everything.... amah too...
n it struck me...i may nt be strong enuff to go to a funeral yet.... even the tot of the funeral made me cry bickets..i dowan john to see me like this...he's having a hard time already... n a weeping, puffy eyed, sobbing me would nt help.... i asked XL wat time they r goin... A,XL,KT,JS...they'll all be goin tml....after school...n i have afternoon class.... *there goes the plans to goin wit company*...
i'll see what i can do...
i noe ur goin thru a hard time now...jus now on the phone... u sounded ok..i noe what ur trying to do... trying to be all strong n macho for mom n ur bro... i noe that saying "i understand" would be a serious understatement...n believe me..i really dun understand... i noe losing a family member is hard...but losing a dad is worst... he was a great guy... theres no doubt to it... he had always been an idol, a role model... n a great teacher... he was brave n he fought hard... the long journey has been tiring..but at least he's nt suffering anymore....
babe...i'll always be here...
:3niGma:
weeping n sobbing hysterically due to frustration....i crept down my bed n pulled a small tin box from under my bed... it was an old mooncake box... i opened it...
n there it was...folded neatly in a plastic bag was the last set of my amah's pyjamas... i opened the the bag...n took the clothes out...lay them on my bed... n i started to cry...i've always had problems sleeping when i was young... hyper kids always suffered from nightmares...
n i would crawl into amah's bed...gawd i missed her so much...
suddenly the phone rang.... i woke up... i picked up the phone n it was kx on the line... for the 1st 5 secs, i jus realised that i finally slept!! for an hour plus... den after that.... i heard... "john's dad jus passed away... we're going to see him tnite...u wanna follow?"
my heart dropped.... i totally blanked out... how could it be? no... not to john... y john? he was the most cheerful n fun guys i've ever known... alwasy the life of the party... he's on the the "egg shell guys" we use to call em... hard on the outside...soft in the inside....
as i lie in bed... thinking...whether to go tnite or tml night... the whole vision of a funeral came into my mind... it was no random funeral... i saw amah's funeral... n i started to weep again..as i did on the three day ceremony early this year... i weeped till my eyes were puffy n i stil cant stop... i clentched on to amah's pyjamas n i cried... the whole scene... the coffin.... the orchids photo frame which held my amah's photo... the flowers... everything.... amah too...
n it struck me...i may nt be strong enuff to go to a funeral yet.... even the tot of the funeral made me cry bickets..i dowan john to see me like this...he's having a hard time already... n a weeping, puffy eyed, sobbing me would nt help.... i asked XL wat time they r goin... A,XL,KT,JS...they'll all be goin tml....after school...n i have afternoon class.... *there goes the plans to goin wit company*...
i'll see what i can do...
i noe ur goin thru a hard time now...jus now on the phone... u sounded ok..i noe what ur trying to do... trying to be all strong n macho for mom n ur bro... i noe that saying "i understand" would be a serious understatement...n believe me..i really dun understand... i noe losing a family member is hard...but losing a dad is worst... he was a great guy... theres no doubt to it... he had always been an idol, a role model... n a great teacher... he was brave n he fought hard... the long journey has been tiring..but at least he's nt suffering anymore....
babe...i'll always be here...
:3niGma:
Tuesday, November 7
: sexy :
so...u wanted sexy, sir?
i'll giv ya sexy....
check this out....
look at her bum....hot ey? whoa....
aint she a beauty? lying on my sofa... jus look at her.... *sweats!*
check out this looker... nice proportions... gud structure...beautiful ribs...whoa...
akakka...sexy enuff for ya'll?
ehehhe...not bad for an amateur wert!!!
wahahaha....i like...
akakak...din know dadee had such a hot sexy collection...
wahahha...
*obviously i'm goin bonkers*
: enigma :
i'll giv ya sexy....
check this out....
look at her bum....hot ey? whoa....
aint she a beauty? lying on my sofa... jus look at her.... *sweats!*
check out this looker... nice proportions... gud structure...beautiful ribs...whoa...
akakka...sexy enuff for ya'll?
ehehhe...not bad for an amateur wert!!!
wahahaha....i like...
akakak...din know dadee had such a hot sexy collection...
wahahha...
*obviously i'm goin bonkers*
: enigma :
Monday, November 6
urgh!!!
gawd help me....!!! my sand man disappeared!!! i cant sleep....!!!
its been three nights!!!! i cant sleep!!! i lie in bed...tired...*tired is an understatement k?*....every muscle in my body aching...but I CANT SLEEP!!!!!
ish!!! i'm falling sick..migrains coming back... fever....dizzy...shyte!! nt gud!! matiiiii-loh!!!
::goin bongkers::
i dyed my hair yesterday...but the color nt obvious!! luckily...i tot i was gonna look like a freaking red traffic light!!! wahahahah...soweee.... haihz...work overloaded...but fatigue is getting to me... hands shaking like crap!! cant do markers oso!!! dizzy...its a killer!!! *HELP*
i find ppl in the creative line confusing... Mr L told me that day that he wanted a pic of a sexy bottle...eh? i was like ...."......".....speechless....wha~at?! i know sexy ladies...sexy butt...sexy dress... sexy hunks....nt sexy BOTTLES!!!how sexy can a bottle be anyway?! ish...confusing!! i looked up online... din find my so-called sexy bottle...none of em looked SEXY!!! ish!!!mati lo!! haih... so i pulled out my dad's liquor collection n took a few shots....*photo la* akakakak.... hope it will do...
:3niGma:
i need to sleep!!! why the crap is wrong wit my system?!
its been three nights!!!! i cant sleep!!! i lie in bed...tired...*tired is an understatement k?*....every muscle in my body aching...but I CANT SLEEP!!!!!
ish!!! i'm falling sick..migrains coming back... fever....dizzy...shyte!! nt gud!! matiiiii-loh!!!
::goin bongkers::
i dyed my hair yesterday...but the color nt obvious!! luckily...i tot i was gonna look like a freaking red traffic light!!! wahahahah...soweee.... haihz...work overloaded...but fatigue is getting to me... hands shaking like crap!! cant do markers oso!!! dizzy...its a killer!!! *HELP*
i find ppl in the creative line confusing... Mr L told me that day that he wanted a pic of a sexy bottle...eh? i was like ...."......".....speechless....wha~at?! i know sexy ladies...sexy butt...sexy dress... sexy hunks....nt sexy BOTTLES!!!how sexy can a bottle be anyway?! ish...confusing!! i looked up online... din find my so-called sexy bottle...none of em looked SEXY!!! ish!!!mati lo!! haih... so i pulled out my dad's liquor collection n took a few shots....*photo la* akakakak.... hope it will do...
:3niGma:
i need to sleep!!! why the crap is wrong wit my system?!
cant sleep...sick
i'm sick...fever...n i still cant sleep...!!
J tagged me...hmmm...do it now la...
When was the first time you......
Had your first real kissreal?
wats real? erm... 16...i guess....
Fell in love
love..aiyohhh..subjective-nye~!hmmm... yea.... 15 la...
Lost someone close to you?
this year...january...
Tried alcohol
ehehehhe...TRIED ey? erm... shandy counts a? if its counted den 10 or 11 i tink... if nt...den 14 lo...
Got your heart broken?
2005
Got arrested by a teacher for bringing phone to school ?
never....aint that dumb!!!
Smoked a cigarette
......!!!
????!!!
!!!
wtf?
Broken a bone
whoa....mau kira ke? tak tau la!!!
Got cheated on
17
Rode the bus
eheheh..i sit bus go school la....kindergarden too!!ermmm...6 years old lo!
Went to a concert
wat type of concerts?? i doubt i've been to any..."kachiiiing!!" wakakak.... rally gt la...
Dyed your hair
jus now!!! 7.45pm!!!
Got a car
guess kancil is considered mine rite? eheheh..18 lerrr...
Got your own cell phone
erm..phone....14 i tink..or 13...some where there la...
Snuck out of the house
tempted to...but i din.... couldn't la!!! *angel*
First time u got drunk?
proud to say... i never got TISPY!!! NEVEER!!!
first time u slap a person?
i don't slap ppl la..
first time u get a guy/girl number?
oooooo...i like this wan!! eheheh...but i cant remember la... 1st number a scored a? erm... 14?!
wahahaha....
shyte..i dun even wanna tag ppl la...u feel like doin den u do la...
:goin bonkers:
J tagged me...hmmm...do it now la...
When was the first time you......
Had your first real kissreal?
wats real? erm... 16...i guess....
Fell in love
love..aiyohhh..subjective-nye~!hmmm... yea.... 15 la...
Lost someone close to you?
this year...january...
Tried alcohol
ehehehhe...TRIED ey? erm... shandy counts a? if its counted den 10 or 11 i tink... if nt...den 14 lo...
Got your heart broken?
2005
Got arrested by a teacher for bringing phone to school ?
never....aint that dumb!!!
Smoked a cigarette
......!!!
????!!!
!!!
wtf?
Broken a bone
whoa....mau kira ke? tak tau la!!!
Got cheated on
17
Rode the bus
eheheh..i sit bus go school la....kindergarden too!!ermmm...6 years old lo!
Went to a concert
wat type of concerts?? i doubt i've been to any..."kachiiiing!!" wakakak.... rally gt la...
Dyed your hair
jus now!!! 7.45pm!!!
Got a car
guess kancil is considered mine rite? eheheh..18 lerrr...
Got your own cell phone
erm..phone....14 i tink..or 13...some where there la...
Snuck out of the house
tempted to...but i din.... couldn't la!!! *angel*
First time u got drunk?
proud to say... i never got TISPY!!! NEVEER!!!
first time u slap a person?
i don't slap ppl la..
first time u get a guy/girl number?
oooooo...i like this wan!! eheheh...but i cant remember la... 1st number a scored a? erm... 14?!
wahahaha....
shyte..i dun even wanna tag ppl la...u feel like doin den u do la...
:goin bonkers:
updates!
updates...!!! havent done that in ages!!! ehehehhe....
wed. leo meeting canceled...so i went to class after lunch... hmmm... mp&s is sooooooo dead.... altho Mr N is alrite... but the class!!! *urgh!!! ekonomi graphs interest rate increase growth rate business trade cycle depression recovery properity reccesion...oh!! pening!!! tday had pop quiz... ehehe...did pretty alright... 16/16...objective wert!!! wahahhahah.... came out of class all drained out n blurr... tday's lecture wan confusing enuff... so the technical!! got tutoring from TZ... apparently he's gud!! hmm... din noe he actually excel in a school sub...
thurs. ooooo...i packed my tripod n off i went for OF's photography!!! stewpid tripod in my bag keep cucuk-ing my back la!!! sakit!!! balik rumah all bengkak lio!!!! i dunno whether is it the class or the fact that we only hav 1group in the whole class thus we hav all OF's attention..n we get to use everything!! but studio&lighting class was uber fuuuuunflash! flash! flash! F8! F5.6!flash again! flash!wanted to go home early coz it was gonna rain... akakak..but BT was home alone...n she ask if i wanna teman her or not...haiyaaaah!! ma stay lo...akaka....went back around 4 smthg... but it was fun...we watched take the lead together!!
take the lead!!watched the show at TZ's comfy tv room.... nice...but one thing missing... WHY NO SOFA OR CHAIR wan?? so the cacat...kena guna tilam!! akakka...but the show was gud!! watched it twice!!! once wit BT..that wan abit cacat la..coz she keep asking me WHY? HOW? den the sound gt prob...so we share the earphones... den wit TZ... that wan the music was BOOMING is the room la..literally BOOMING!!! wahahah... the show was gud la... antonio banderes is hot la..in a macho spanish crusader way... *woot..he acted in deperado! that was HOT!!* AND he has a hot butt!!! serious!!! nice arse!! wahahah... slow slow quick quickslow slow quick quick after all...takde tiga...dua aje!! paiseh!!* i like..
wed. leo meeting canceled...so i went to class after lunch... hmmm... mp&s is sooooooo dead.... altho Mr N is alrite... but the class!!! *urgh!!! ekonomi graphs interest rate increase growth rate business trade cycle depression recovery properity reccesion...oh!! pening!!! tday had pop quiz... ehehe...did pretty alright... 16/16...objective wert!!! wahahhahah.... came out of class all drained out n blurr... tday's lecture wan confusing enuff... so the technical!! got tutoring from TZ... apparently he's gud!! hmm... din noe he actually excel in a school sub...
thurs. ooooo...i packed my tripod n off i went for OF's photography!!! stewpid tripod in my bag keep cucuk-ing my back la!!! sakit!!! balik rumah all bengkak lio!!!! i dunno whether is it the class or the fact that we only hav 1group in the whole class thus we hav all OF's attention..n we get to use everything!! but studio&lighting class was uber fuuuuunflash! flash! flash! F8! F5.6!flash again! flash!
take the lead!!watched the show at TZ's comfy tv room.... nice...but one thing missing... WHY NO SOFA OR CHAIR wan?? so the cacat...kena guna tilam!! akakka...but the show was gud!! watched it twice!!! once wit BT..that wan abit cacat la..coz she keep asking me WHY? HOW? den the sound gt prob...so we share the earphones... den wit TZ... that wan the music was BOOMING is the room la..literally BOOMING!!! wahahah... the show was gud la... antonio banderes is hot la..in a macho spanish crusader way... *woot..he acted in deperado! that was HOT!!* AND he has a hot butt!!! serious!!! nice arse!! wahahah... slow slow quick quickslow slow quick quick after all...takde tiga...dua aje!! paiseh!!* i like..
Thursday, November 2
:: wuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu ::
attention all ladies...
allan wu is HOT!!
california borned american chinese ...
host for the amazing race asia....
his a hot sizzling hunk!!
::meltz:: hot hunky asian...
allan wu is HOT!!
california borned american chinese ...
host for the amazing race asia....
his a hot sizzling hunk!!
::meltz:: hot hunky asian...
Tuesday, October 31
empty
tday was the launch of RANDOM magazine... created by the non-squares SEGi ppl... ehehe...
as i flipped thru the mag...
"hmmm.... nt bad a...." my nose was burried in it till lunchtime...
wahahhaha....
suppose to arrive at 9 to college...
but my lil' kancil bergetar getar tday la...dunno y... i think she's sick... boohoo...
aM3 was there... bz preparing sum last minit stuff...
ngeh ngeh... so cute la that gurl... 3/4 pants eh? hmmmm....
wahahah...
BT came late... after we whacked our FREE food... *repeat* FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE food...
we when to summit....for more lunch...ngeh ngeh ngeh...
den it started to rain n summit so many shop tak de elektric lerrr!!!
*cough* cheapo *cough*
wahahahha...
n its halloween... summit so dark dark sumore...>!!!
it rained like "ribut taufan" sumore...quote aM3's mom...
wahhaha...
so we were stuck in summit till 4 smthg i tink...or 5...
dunno la...
suppose to meet L2 tday..
hiah... guess we'll jus have to cancel..i came back so late..dadee scolding lio...
aiks....
::enigma::
sometimes its hard...
to keep a straight face when ur crumbling inside...
its even harder...
to muster a smile when ppl ask if ur okay....
its one of those days....
dun expect me to be strong...
because i'm nt...
dun expect me to understand...
because i dun...
dun expect me to cheer up...
because i cant...
dun expect me to hurry...
because its hard....
being surrounded by ppl...
millions n millions of em...
but still feel alone inside....
i can see ppl talking...
but i cant hear anything...
tday is one of those days that u jus wanna cuddle in bed n watch the world pass by....
tday is one of those days that even the stronger ones cry...
even the best fall down sometimes...
thats from dotsandstripes...
i guess it true...
who would've knew...
that we feel too...
as i flipped thru the mag...
"hmmm.... nt bad a...." my nose was burried in it till lunchtime...
wahahhaha....
suppose to arrive at 9 to college...
but my lil' kancil bergetar getar tday la...dunno y... i think she's sick... boohoo...
aM3 was there... bz preparing sum last minit stuff...
ngeh ngeh... so cute la that gurl... 3/4 pants eh? hmmmm....
wahahah...
BT came late... after we whacked our FREE food... *repeat* FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE food...
we when to summit....for more lunch...ngeh ngeh ngeh...
den it started to rain n summit so many shop tak de elektric lerrr!!!
*cough* cheapo *cough*
wahahahha...
n its halloween... summit so dark dark sumore...>!!!
it rained like "ribut taufan" sumore...quote aM3's mom...
wahhaha...
so we were stuck in summit till 4 smthg i tink...or 5...
dunno la...
suppose to meet L2 tday..
hiah... guess we'll jus have to cancel..i came back so late..dadee scolding lio...
aiks....
::enigma::
sometimes its hard...
to keep a straight face when ur crumbling inside...
its even harder...
to muster a smile when ppl ask if ur okay....
its one of those days....
dun expect me to be strong...
because i'm nt...
dun expect me to understand...
because i dun...
dun expect me to cheer up...
because i cant...
dun expect me to hurry...
because its hard....
being surrounded by ppl...
millions n millions of em...
but still feel alone inside....
i can see ppl talking...
but i cant hear anything...
tday is one of those days that u jus wanna cuddle in bed n watch the world pass by....
tday is one of those days that even the stronger ones cry...
even the best fall down sometimes...
thats from dotsandstripes...
i guess it true...
who would've knew...
:: cam whore ::
a fren told me b4 that my left side is my better side coz i hav a bigger left eye n my accidental toilet bowl... ngeh ngeh ngeh... that was 4-5 years ago...
ever wonder y izzit that some ppl can take "artistic photos of smthg" while others jus that the photo like it is?
i am one of those person.. if i were to take a picture of a person, the WHOLE face would b inside the frame...
a fren came over tday... he was one of the type of guys that can draw a picasso in jus 5 mins... his view of sum stuff... r from angles we never even pictured b4...
i envied his work for ages...
n tday... i became one of his work...
i kinda like the way he took the pic.... but i'll never ever learn to do it tat way....
*be warned that i aint photogenic okay...*
apparently he likes my left side too...since its all from that angle...
i like this pix... the thing is... he jus snapped this witout me knowing it...
i love eyes... i think the eyes comunicate better den words...
this is pretty disturbing... ppl say its "alluring"...i say its " i was talking half way la...he pulak go n snap!!!"
there!!! my 5 mins of photo session...by the ever multi talented ****....
missing the days....
ever wonder y izzit that some ppl can take "artistic photos of smthg" while others jus that the photo like it is?
i am one of those person.. if i were to take a picture of a person, the WHOLE face would b inside the frame...
a fren came over tday... he was one of the type of guys that can draw a picasso in jus 5 mins... his view of sum stuff... r from angles we never even pictured b4...
i envied his work for ages...
n tday... i became one of his work...
i kinda like the way he took the pic.... but i'll never ever learn to do it tat way....
*be warned that i aint photogenic okay...*
apparently he likes my left side too...since its all from that angle...
i like this pix... the thing is... he jus snapped this witout me knowing it...
i love eyes... i think the eyes comunicate better den words...
this is pretty disturbing... ppl say its "alluring"...i say its " i was talking half way la...he pulak go n snap!!!"
there!!! my 5 mins of photo session...by the ever multi talented ****....
missing the days....
Monday, October 30
:: lalalalala ::
hmm.... saw this pix at Y's blog...
it was a fun day... 20 bucks n u get to hang wit the siao-est peeps around the block...
but i like... kinda nice hanging around...especially since so much shit happens around me lately...being emofied aint fun...akakak....
din have time to tie my hair...bad hair day..so i jus simply clipped it wit a pin...din noe messy hair kinda looks gud..akakkaka
*hugs tight tight...
it was a fun day... 20 bucks n u get to hang wit the siao-est peeps around the block...
but i like... kinda nice hanging around...especially since so much shit happens around me lately...being emofied aint fun...akakak....
din have time to tie my hair...bad hair day..so i jus simply clipped it wit a pin...din noe messy hair kinda looks gud..akakkaka
*hugs tight tight...
Saturday, October 28
: meltz :
have u ever walked on air? ever felt like u were dreaming?
when u never thought i could but i really feels that gud...
-celine dion-have u ever been in love?-
smiling jus to see...the smile upon ur face...
these r the moments i thank god that i'm alive...
these r the moments i'll rmb all my life...
i found all i'm waiting for...
n i could nt ask for more...
-edwin mccain-i could nt ask for more-
can we go bac to the days when love was strong..
can u tell me how a perfect love goes wrong?
can some body tell me how to get things back the way they use to be...
oh gos give me a reason..
i'm down on bended knees...
I'll never walk again,
Until you come back to me,
I'm down on bended knee.
-boyz2men-on bended knees-
look into my eyes, u will see wat u mean to me...
search ur heart, search ur soul, when u find me there u'll search no more..
dun tell me its nt worth trying for, u cant tell me its nt worth dying for...
u noe its true...
everything i do...i do it for u...
-brian adams- everything i do-
baby...
mayb i dun say it as often as i shud...
but i really wanted tobe heard..
when i say i love u that for gud...
u have my word that day after day after all i will always be true...
thats a promise i make to u...
-dakota moon-a promise i make-
we go to a party, everyone turns to see...
this beautiful lady that walking around with me...
n then she ask me... do u feel alright...?
n i said...yes i feel wonderful tnite...
i feel wonderful bcoz i see the love right in ur eyes..
n the wonder i belong that u jus dun realize how much i love u...
-eric clapton-i look wonderful tnite-
look at this face, i noe the years r showing,..
look at this life, i still dunno where its goin...
i dunno much... but i know i love u...
n that mayb all i need to noe...
so many question stil left unanswered..
so much i've never broken thru..
the only truth i ever known is me & you...
-aaron neville,linda ronstadt-i dunno much-
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
Rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival, you're my living proof
-edwin mccain-i'll be-
and the finale..... the emo-est song ever!!! the song that melts me thru n thru....
the song!!! *aM3.... u knoe this wan...*
Every time our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams
I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I want to spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you
The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me
Baby you surround me
You touch every place in my heart
Oh, it feels like the first time, every time
I want to spend the whole night in your eyes
Every little thing that you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I want to spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you
-lonestar-amazed-
told cha i'm emo....
but it does gets me wondering....
true love? does it really exist?
to me... i seriously doubt it...
its nt that i dun believe in love anymore...
but i guess i grew out of the "fairytale love"...
i dun believe that watever it is...i could'nt live witout it...
sure it makes life better...sweeter... but i wun die with out it...
please tell me that i'm true....
i once told a fren a story. A story of a little brave gurl that when camping. she wasnt afraid of anything n she tried every route there is. till one day, she fell down n gt hurt. it was bad, she was severely injured. in fact she's been limping since...
n she never ever step foot on that route ever again... evertime she passed the same junction...
she would choose a detour... eventho the other road was full of snakes n thorns...
she still refused to go back to the same road...
shud she had tried?
she would be hurt again...
the injuries she carries now are a burden already....
when u never thought i could but i really feels that gud...
-celine dion-have u ever been in love?-
smiling jus to see...the smile upon ur face...
these r the moments i thank god that i'm alive...
these r the moments i'll rmb all my life...
i found all i'm waiting for...
n i could nt ask for more...
-edwin mccain-i could nt ask for more-
can we go bac to the days when love was strong..
can u tell me how a perfect love goes wrong?
can some body tell me how to get things back the way they use to be...
oh gos give me a reason..
i'm down on bended knees...
I'll never walk again,
Until you come back to me,
I'm down on bended knee.
-boyz2men-on bended knees-
look into my eyes, u will see wat u mean to me...
search ur heart, search ur soul, when u find me there u'll search no more..
dun tell me its nt worth trying for, u cant tell me its nt worth dying for...
u noe its true...
everything i do...i do it for u...
-brian adams- everything i do-
baby...
mayb i dun say it as often as i shud...
but i really wanted tobe heard..
when i say i love u that for gud...
u have my word that day after day after all i will always be true...
thats a promise i make to u...
-dakota moon-a promise i make-
we go to a party, everyone turns to see...
this beautiful lady that walking around with me...
n then she ask me... do u feel alright...?
n i said...yes i feel wonderful tnite...
i feel wonderful bcoz i see the love right in ur eyes..
n the wonder i belong that u jus dun realize how much i love u...
-eric clapton-i look wonderful tnite-
look at this face, i noe the years r showing,..
look at this life, i still dunno where its goin...
i dunno much... but i know i love u...
n that mayb all i need to noe...
so many question stil left unanswered..
so much i've never broken thru..
the only truth i ever known is me & you...
-aaron neville,linda ronstadt-i dunno much-
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
Rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival, you're my living proof
-edwin mccain-i'll be-
and the finale..... the emo-est song ever!!! the song that melts me thru n thru....
the song!!! *aM3.... u knoe this wan...*
Every time our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams
I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I want to spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you
The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me
Baby you surround me
You touch every place in my heart
Oh, it feels like the first time, every time
I want to spend the whole night in your eyes
Every little thing that you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I want to spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you
-lonestar-amazed-
told cha i'm emo....
but it does gets me wondering....
true love? does it really exist?
to me... i seriously doubt it...
its nt that i dun believe in love anymore...
but i guess i grew out of the "fairytale love"...
i dun believe that watever it is...i could'nt live witout it...
sure it makes life better...sweeter... but i wun die with out it...
please tell me that i'm true....
n she never ever step foot on that route ever again... evertime she passed the same junction...
she would choose a detour... eventho the other road was full of snakes n thorns...
she still refused to go back to the same road...
shud she had tried?
she would be hurt again...
the injuries she carries now are a burden already....
: 3 is the number :
stewpid connection prob...haven been online often...so checked lYd's blog...
OOOOOOOO ...i gt tagged.... hmmmmmm......
lets see....
3 Hobbies
- hunk-gazing.... *personal fav*
- eating....* du~uh...jus look at me! ppl tink i'm bigger size den TZ!!*
- movies!!!...* allah...but nt very much recently...oh well...*
3 Things on my to-do list
- finish n survive Mr L's massive workload of assignments!!!....*chinapek betul!!! wahahha..no la..he's nice*
- lose meat...not weight...* i'm light enuff...i'm 46kg k? goin down sumore...but still so round!!*
- try to bond wit frens...*shyte...the not-belonging-anywhere feeling reeks!!*
3 Unique traits
- loud!!!! i meant like NOISY-LOUD...*heck..ppl still love me for it!!*
- miss negativity *putting me down is easy...but cheering me up..tat takes skills!!*
- emo freak!!!! *uh huh...aM3... u get me.... HuGs...emo pal*
3 Favourite drinks
- COKE!!! woot!!!! wahahahhah... ccUUUUUpppPpP!!! coca cola!!!
- wat else...hmm.... coffee??
- ngeh ngeh ngeh...cant think... *caffein high!!!! waHAHAHAHHAhahahha*
3 Passions
- HUNKssssSsSSsSsSsS...... *yea....loads of em...droolz...*
- music...*nt talented in em...but i like em...lourveeeee live bands!!*
- hmmmm...... friends?? *hopefully... yet to be confirmed....*
3 Awesome movies
- The Italian Job *props to lYD!!!! jinx!! love that show!!!*
- While You Were Sleeping *emo old show...meltz....*
- Joy Luck Club *call me old fashion...i like that show...awwww...bUcKeTsSSSSssss!!!*
3 Good Bands
- Good Charlotte
- Nickleback
- i like...... boys2men....!!! since ages....!!! actually..i like theirs songs.... *emo*
3 Things I am anal about
- liars!!
- backstabbers!!!
- ppl taking me stuff!!! at least ask... *pout!*
3 Random men
- Edwin McCain *loves!!! love his rough husky voice....been on a emo-country-love song loop!!*
- BENjy!! urgh!!! he jus called me.....*potong steam*
- c'mon....random men....any men...c'mon... think..think!!! think!!! URGH!!!! *blank!!* benjy killed all my inspirations!!! *blank* *blank*
3 Bad habits
- scanning any dark guy tat walks pass!!!! *ask BT n aM3!!* its sick...
- eating n urging for anything FORBIDEN!!! *sugar!!! ice cream!!! COKE!!!! chocolate*
- my legs shake.... *like NOW...stop!!! stop!!! i'm warning ya!!!! stop shaking!!!*
3 Painful experiences
- realising that frens may nt always last....
- caught u n her in a towel... *bustED!*
- wisdom tooth removal.... *mild when compared to the other two...but nevertheless painfull!*
3 Treasured memories
- cArToOnZ sleepover at my place after SPM....
- camp 013 *unforgettable*
- oh shyte..... *blank* again... *blink....stare...blink*....still blank... hmmm..... TO BE FILLED IN THE FUTURE
3 Goals before 30
- financially independant
- goin on a trip sumwhere away on my own budget atleast 3 times!!
- been finally happy.... *with some one i hope...nt sure who yet*
3 Favourite desserts
- chocolates!!! *ferrero roche* *blink blink* *meltz*
- chocolate ice cream!!!
- anything CHOCOLATE!!!!
3 People I tag
- allie!!!!
- mandy!!!
- betty!!! *hahahah...newcomer!!!*
OOOOOOOO ...i gt tagged.... hmmmmmm......
lets see....
3 Hobbies
- hunk-gazing.... *personal fav*
- eating....* du~uh...jus look at me! ppl tink i'm bigger size den TZ!!*
- movies!!!...* allah...but nt very much recently...oh well...*
3 Things on my to-do list
- finish n survive Mr L's massive workload of assignments!!!....*chinapek betul!!! wahahha..no la..he's nice*
- lose meat...not weight...* i'm light enuff...i'm 46kg k? goin down sumore...but still so round!!*
- try to bond wit frens...*shyte...the not-belonging-anywhere feeling reeks!!*
3 Unique traits
- loud!!!! i meant like NOISY-LOUD...*heck..ppl still love me for it!!*
- miss negativity *putting me down is easy...but cheering me up..tat takes skills!!*
- emo freak!!!! *uh huh...aM3... u get me.... HuGs...emo pal*
3 Favourite drinks
- COKE!!! woot!!!! wahahahhah... ccUUUUUpppPpP!!! coca cola!!!
- wat else...hmm.... coffee??
- ngeh ngeh ngeh...cant think... *caffein high!!!! waHAHAHAHHAhahahha*
3 Passions
- HUNKssssSsSSsSsSsS...... *yea....loads of em...droolz...*
- music...*nt talented in em...but i like em...lourveeeee live bands!!*
- hmmmm...... friends?? *hopefully... yet to be confirmed....*
3 Awesome movies
- The Italian Job *props to lYD!!!! jinx!! love that show!!!*
- While You Were Sleeping *emo old show...meltz....*
- Joy Luck Club *call me old fashion...i like that show...awwww...bUcKeTsSSSSssss!!!*
3 Good Bands
- Good Charlotte
- Nickleback
- i like...... boys2men....!!! since ages....!!! actually..i like theirs songs.... *emo*
3 Things I am anal about
- liars!!
- backstabbers!!!
- ppl taking me stuff!!! at least ask... *pout!*
3 Random men
- Edwin McCain *loves!!! love his rough husky voice....been on a emo-country-love song loop!!*
- BENjy!! urgh!!! he jus called me.....*potong steam*
- c'mon....random men....any men...c'mon... think..think!!! think!!! URGH!!!! *blank!!* benjy killed all my inspirations!!! *blank* *blank*
3 Bad habits
- scanning any dark guy tat walks pass!!!! *ask BT n aM3!!* its sick...
- eating n urging for anything FORBIDEN!!! *sugar!!! ice cream!!! COKE!!!! chocolate*
- my legs shake.... *like NOW...stop!!! stop!!! i'm warning ya!!!! stop shaking!!!*
3 Painful experiences
- realising that frens may nt always last....
- caught u n her in a towel... *bustED!*
- wisdom tooth removal.... *mild when compared to the other two...but nevertheless painfull!*
3 Treasured memories
- cArToOnZ sleepover at my place after SPM....
- camp 013 *unforgettable*
- oh shyte..... *blank* again... *blink....stare...blink*....still blank... hmmm..... TO BE FILLED IN THE FUTURE
3 Goals before 30
- financially independant
- goin on a trip sumwhere away on my own budget atleast 3 times!!
- been finally happy.... *with some one i hope...nt sure who yet*
3 Favourite desserts
- chocolates!!! *ferrero roche* *blink blink* *meltz*
- chocolate ice cream!!!
- anything CHOCOLATE!!!!
3 People I tag
- allie!!!!
- mandy!!!
- betty!!! *hahahah...newcomer!!!*
Wednesday, October 25
sulking away
yeah...deepavali...hari raya... holidays.... free time....woohoo!!!
wats missing?
frens i guess...
since the gruesome murder of my beloved moto E398... i'm cut out from the outside world... definite...
it kinda sad...as i kinda found out tat my LIFE...n my WORLD revovles around a very very very limited small circle... theres the :cartoonfrenz:...a little small froup of 5 girls whom were very close frens... theres the dharma class buddies.... grew apart since i left the temple in form 4... theres family...which is like 95% of my life...n theres TZ... pathetic huh? i think so too...
every year chinese new year... my parents would ask the same question... "y ur frens never come visit u wan a??" yunno wat? i wonder too...mayb its perhaps my family is nt the psyco type...their strict n solemm..thus mayb = no fun....and also... i have loads of frens in skool...but the close wans? there was only me... sk... mp... sometimes ws.... n... ... recently kc...after that? no more...
when we were in high school... i had a clique which i most probably spend 99% of school time with... we were close n we were to last "4eva"... of course there was the myths that"friends 4eva" was bogus...it'll split no matter what...so we came up wit a little idea... on 0909 every year..we would meet up... no matter wat shit there is...we would leave that day empty... jus to meet up... but every time when its that time already....
"i'm bz la"
"i have smthg on la"
"goin out la"
"..... ... ....."
n frankly..i'm getting sick of this....
at 1st i jus let it slide...den in coll...i happen to hav a fren tat organise a get together dinner party EVERY MONTH! n theres like 10 of em... now this i feel pathetic... wtf?
ppl meet up every month...dinner on their own effort...
i jus wanna see u guys once a year!! sumore i n mp must plan... brain juice habis tension... den ppl say.."gt smthg on"...b4 tat ask... "anything la...up to u..."
*urgh!!!
wats missing?
frens i guess...
since the gruesome murder of my beloved moto E398... i'm cut out from the outside world... definite...
it kinda sad...as i kinda found out tat my LIFE...n my WORLD revovles around a very very very limited small circle... theres the :cartoonfrenz:...a little small froup of 5 girls whom were very close frens... theres the dharma class buddies.... grew apart since i left the temple in form 4... theres family...which is like 95% of my life...n theres TZ... pathetic huh? i think so too...
every year chinese new year... my parents would ask the same question... "y ur frens never come visit u wan a??" yunno wat? i wonder too...mayb its perhaps my family is nt the psyco type...their strict n solemm..thus mayb = no fun....and also... i have loads of frens in skool...but the close wans? there was only me... sk... mp... sometimes ws.... n... ... recently kc...after that? no more...
when we were in high school... i had a clique which i most probably spend 99% of school time with... we were close n we were to last "4eva"... of course there was the myths that
"i'm bz la"
"i have smthg on la"
"goin out la"
"..... ... ....."
n frankly..i'm getting sick of this....
at 1st i jus let it slide...den in coll...i happen to hav a fren tat organise a get together dinner party EVERY MONTH! n theres like 10 of em... now this i feel pathetic... wtf?
ppl meet up every month...dinner on their own effort...
i jus wanna see u guys once a year!! sumore i n mp must plan... brain juice habis tension... den ppl say.."gt smthg on"...b4 tat ask... "anything la...up to u..."
*urgh!!!
Monday, October 23
the death of yet another fellow companion...
:: moto E398 ::
yesterday.... was the death of two very loyal, distinctive, ever dependable, ever so trustworthy companions.... namely my moto E398 n mp's sony ericsson (which unfortunately i forgot his FULL name)...
so ppl...if u wanna call me or find me...
no use calling the cell...try the hse...
*sowee CZ for making u worry...my dad said u called...*hugs
*sigh*
mourning....
yesterday.... was the death of two very loyal, distinctive, ever dependable, ever so trustworthy companions.... namely my moto E398 n mp's sony ericsson (which unfortunately i forgot his FULL name)...
so ppl...if u wanna call me or find me...
no use calling the cell...try the hse...
*sowee CZ for making u worry...my dad said u called...*hugs
*sigh*
mourning....
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