bad day...

tday was sucky... mom decided to literally take a ride early in the morn...i do mean EARLY!!! like 6.30am early... reached coll a bit late...*thanks to whining mommie dearest!* she gets on my nerves sometimes.... grumpy auntie!! ish!! reached college...photo was a drag tday... turns out the photo was messed up...the whole time i was jus trying to keep a clear head n NOT go "kaboom!!"... i jus dun get it.... i was in charge of sticking the freaking photos... turns out some was wrong..swear to god i jus followed the order!! we arranged it... it was passed to me... i even double checked the numbers!! i find it abit cacat...so i double checked wit my fren... they said "jus follow"... so i did... the numbers were in the usual order....seems okay to me... wtf!? URGH!!! u shud've seen their faces... it was like the "its your fault la!" "did u messed it up?" "arrange d lio lo!" ..... fuck off! and i'm nt being hostile... please....

i've been using mizunderstood as my nick since i was primary... coz i've alweays felt that way... ppl dun get me... some try...some jus act as tho they do... n it sucks... they jump into assumptions n conclutions waaaaaaaay b4 they get the picture.... dun judge a book by its cover.... some read the 1st few chapters n think they know the whole story... well... *newsflash!* YOU DONT KNOW A SINGLE BIT!! so...either continue reading... or jus give up n go write ur own book!! stewpid !@$%!@#$ *donkey*!!! after that i changed into using enigmatic...trying to stop ppl from even trying to read the book! i was talking to BT, ET and aM3 during GD class that day...its usual when we r chatting wit ET...its normally dirty talk... typical of ET...i have no idea why... but then pops a topic bout guys penis... BT jus shrugged coz ET was teasing her for being wit her guy for 1 year n 8 months...i think... we were chuckling away...den ET asked me the same question... i stared at him wide eyed...n i replied... "i dunno...haven seen one.." ...* truth!!! cross my heart!!!* n aM3 replied... "sure or not"....in a very very sarcastic way...
watthecrap?! akakak...toldcha ppl misunderstand me....haihs....

ppl are usually shocked at how inexperience i am... and i dun get it! do i look like sum chick thats "been around the block"? mayb i do... mayb its because i act openly to alot of stuff... mayb its because i'm always boy crazy... i check out any guy thats walking pass!... mayb its my attire... mayb its the breast *wtf? ahahha... JL n ET told me that...* how true? i have no idea....but i have my limits...i really do...  i have trust issues... n i dun just let ppl in... i built a tall, thick wall to protect me from harm... n in the end... makes me look cold n cruel... but i like it that way... sometimes feeling strongly for someone would only end up hurting urself... so i rather feel nthg... a fling shall stay a fling.... unless i think otherwise.... theres a truth behind this cold face...there is stil a heart beating behind this mask i wear everyday... 
ppl think i'm cold, fact is i'm actually a hopeless romantic... 
the whole cliche: i pledge my love, destiny, flowers, melting moments... i'm a sucker for those....
ppl think i'm shallow, fact is as long as it feels right...i wouldn't mind...
i've never wanted a cute boyfren... infact i rather the boyfren not be so cute... my motto is "cute r only lookers, not keepers"...
ppl think i'm strong, fact is i wasnt born like this...
there was a time i was dependent n needy n whiny...
n those were the times are i was hurt, n let down n dissappointed... so i grew out of it...

so there u have it... me...
unmasked....
hurt... 
broken...

on the  bright side...watched happy feet tday wit aM3 n BT...!!! ooooooooooooooooooo... i like the show!!! so the cute!! gud show!! gud choice aM3!! *hugs!! when home tapping all the way in the rain..!!!