ape jadi weh???

alot of people has been asking.
EH!!! APE JADI WEH~~~ MANA PERGI??

it felt that I've been detached and missing for so long.
i felt so too.

it seems at time we get to absorb in what we're doing we lost touch of whats goin on around us.
or whats more important for that matter.

dun get me wrong, work has still been good.
i whine occasionally, but i can still say i love what i do thus far.
there's a lot more to learn, and i reckon it'll only be better.
down side?
yea... i spent a few more late nights in the office.
*slave drivers!!* ppl around me would say.
the thing is, thing could have been a whole lot more worst and yet ppl just sum times dun realize it!
I meet more people (not sure if i can interact well with all tho :S) but i'm trying
i try to do more stuff
i'm learning, and to me. it matters.
not how other people perceive my job to be. but how i perceive my own life.
:)

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but being pretty overwhelmed with work.
it's getting harder n harder to spend time doing other stuff.
hence LIFE gets so freaking tiring sumtimes...
:(

i miss friends.
i miss family.
i miss laughter.
i miss nature.
i miss outings.
i miss life!!

So here's what i manage to squeeze in :P

Hiking up Broga Hill Semenyih!
*out of your mind!/bonkers!* people would say.
seeing that i'm already tired n so worn out LOLz.
the plan went great.
the hike up was challenging and rather upsetting actually.
cause i was so out of shape, sleep deprived (no sleep at all) and probably not getting enough oxygen. ahahahhaha

Broga was suppose to be the "moderate climb" yet it took so long (and so many stops) for me to finish the 1st peak. The peaks after that was easier... did not manage up the 4th one tho.
I SWEAR I'M SO GONNA FINISH ALL 4 PEAKS AND WATCH THE BLARDY SUNRISE 1 FINE DAY!!

i went up with a bunch of sampat old school mates. funny we werent initially very close.
but heck, its a fun mix. :)
guess its never too late to ber-bonding.

the view was awesome.

even with the cloudy skies and NO SUNRISE. but it was still quite awesome.

me, mandy, seow yen, mei yen, poh leong, chin pey, ting yi, peiling, sue ee, OH we even has sue ee's monash friends! :)
family
spending somemore time with the kids and family.
brought nephew n niece to swimming sessions at bro's hse during the weekends.
its amazing how time flies.
ethan is already 3, elyssa is 2. gosh!


*inside joke: uncle at the pool thought they were MY kids. O.o
ELLO! i look so old meh???
shit~~~ my sis was laughing the whole way back.
=.=

Evaine Tan
Evaine Tan Lin Ying, born on 3rd March 2010, at 17:13, weight 2.74kg.
Everyone's doing great!
:)

She's such a tiny bundle of joy!
so kecik n fragile i dun even dare to be too rough on her LOLz.

adorable kan?
looks like my fb & photos are soon gonna be filled with pictures on ethan, elyssa & evaine!
berlambak.
right now, sis is rotting at mom with nothing else to do but blackberry the whole wide world.
*evil laugh*


icity!
jamjamjamjamjam
on chap goh meh we went!
so the !@#$%^&*!!! jam.
ggrr.

yehyeh oso followed.
fireworks & beautiful lights!!
the only thing i x suka.
berlambak byk org. OMG! i need air!!
it was fun la. jam packed but fun.
ethan suka sgt!
the lights n the toys!!
he was so excited.
running everywhere!!

lastly....
CNY
ahahhahaha.
visiting with the gurls.
how i miss them so.


as we went from months n months.
its amazing how we have grown n changed.
i still have some of our earliest photos. O.o
remind me to keep them locked up in a hidden secured SAFE!
ahahahah

from buddhist camps, to girls guides... to messing with them scouts & KRS people.
softball. :(
from marching and (ponteng-ing) classes.
from climbing trees and running amok on padangs.
from fights and arguments.
from boys and high school drama

gosh.

how far we have came.

it amazing how all of these cant stop but remind me how tiny weenie i am.
i feel so overwhelmed and humbled at the "MUCH-ness/BESAR-ness" of everything else.
:p

move on baby...

Top 12 Signs It’s Time To Move On From A Relationship

#1. When you live in past memories more than the present.
#2. When the relationship brings you more pain than joy.
#3. When he/she expects you to change.
#4. When you stay on, expecting he/she will change.
#5. When you keep justifying his/her actions to yourself.
#6. When he/she is causing you emotional/physical/verbal hurt.
#7. When the same situation/issue recurs even though you tried addressing it.
#8. When he/she puts little to no effort in the relationship.
#9. When your fundamental values and beliefs are different.
#10. When the relationship is preventing either of you from growing as individuals.
#11.When you stay on, expecting things to get better.
#12. When either of you no longer feels the same way about each other.

she's pretty good. she is. *sigh
http://celestinechua.com/blog/2010/03/top-12-signs-its-time-to-move-on-from-a-relationship/
*click*

Dave Navarro :)

I'm not a fan of Peta honestly.

But heck, Dave Navarro... i like.

:)

The guitarist who plays for Jane's Addiction and Camp Freddy.

His appearances with Red Hot Chili Peppers, Nine Inch Nails, Guns N' Roses & The Panic Channel.

Woots!!!

[parental guidance needed]

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咖啡 coffee

太浓了吧否则怎会苦的说不出话 is it too thick? so bitter until u can't say a word.
每次都一个人在自问自答 every time i'd keep asking myself,
我们的爱到底还在吗 is there still love, the one we had between us?

已经淡了吧多放些糖也很难有变化 is it too thin? even after adding sugar, there seem to be no difference?
不如喝完这杯就各自回家

maybe we shud just finish this cup and go home, u go ur way and i'll go mine.
别坐在对面欣赏我的挣扎 dun just sit there watching me struggle.

一场失败的爱情像个笑话 when love has failed, it feels like a joke.
热得时候心乱如麻 when its hot, theres so many emotions going thru our hearts.
冷了以后看见自己够傻 when its cooled down, u'd realized what a fool we've been all this while.
人怎么会如此容易无法自拔 how can it be so hard to self control and let go?

一场无味的爱情像个谎话 when love has become dry, it feels like a lie.
甜的时候只相信它 when its sweet, you'd believe everything it says.
苦了以后每一句都可怕 when its bitter, every single sentence seems so scary.
人怎么会如此难以了无牵挂

how can we finally let go and be free of all these?

过客？

难道真的只不过是个过客？

Love

i saw this in Ying's blog.

thought i'd repost it here.

at first sight, i love it.

i found it so adorable. especially the 1st n 2nd photo, top right is my fav!

if u enlarge it, there's tiny descriptions on each photo.

awwwww....

i dunno if i wanna laugh or cry right now.

complicated nye.

i just went through a whole bunch of fren's blogs.

most of them have a bf/gf LOLz.

reading thru the blogs, sometimes just made me raise my eyebrows abit.

how emotions run wild when the other half isnt there.

how depressed they'd get being alone.

hoe everything they did reminded them of someone dear.

is it really that BIG of an effect?

hmmm...

i remember being in love, all i felt was happiness.

yea u do miss someone, but HEY THERES SOMEONE THERE FOR U TO MISS!

y so depressed? :(

or am i getting to rational & analytical again?

yeeesh i dunno.

i strongly disagreed that a couple should be AN ITEM.

since long long time ago, doesnt matter if i have a bf or not.

i'm truly honestly believe, a couple should be 2 person being together; NOT that being a couple means everything has to be done together, we're just together; not physically glued together.

and i hate it whenever a person has become "Filix's girlfren" or "John's gal" or "Mandy's Guy".

ahahahha. Why?

when separate individuals become 1 single item? how is that so?

technically to me, it feels as tho, u've lost yourself. You've stopped being YOU.

you'd be ur boyfriend accessory, and he has become smthg like ur handbag!

buthen again, maybe i am just a very bitter single person.

(i dun tink so) but maybe...

maybe i'm jus jealous that everyone has a boyfren and i dont.

haha, that wat Mich told me the other that when i commented on this couple OOGLING over each other at the mall.

teehee... being loving, showing affection i'd understand. Heck, I'd even understand kissing in public just a display of affection. BUT... BUT that couple were practically grabbing each other in the mall! someone please re-affirm me that i'm not insane to think that they are being a LITTLE bit toooooo open regarding their display of affection.

get a room ppl.

damned cheap.

i'd buy ur condoms.

just dont make my eyeballs melt.

beh tahan~

最近。。。

情绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢?
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了

时间过了, 走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了, 倦了, 我哭了
离开时的不快乐
你用卡片手写着有些爱只给到这儿

真的痛了
怎么了, 你累了
说好的幸福呢？

我懂了, 不说了, 爱淡了, 梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着
你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得
你不等了

说好的幸福呢?
我错了, 泪干了, 放手了, 后悔了?
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢

life goes on

my gastric has gotten better.

my portions have been cut down like 50%.

i dun eat alot now. *sadness i miss food*

i take my meds.

hopefully it'll all be over soon.

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life working has started to sinking in.

it becomes overwhelming sometimes.

yet sometimes it'd be rather mundane & routine.

Z says he's thinking of doing an internship or try to get a job in creative.

i'm excited. he finally came back. i hope he does gets it.

Life back to crafting. Thats the juice of it all, where the excitement is.

*secretly laughs* i guess life at samsung is getting rather boring huh?

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henry has gone back to Melbourne.

:(

idiot refuse to let me know what time he'll be flying.

so that i cant go send him off.

sigh.

there goes a few more months/yrs of not seeing him.

he damn jaga me, sumtimes almost like my brother.

eventho i lecture him more.

after so many years, we've been goin round n round n round in circles.

and finally here.

after so many yrs, we'd look back and say "wow, thats alot".

thank god u were there.

all the best in Melb brrraaaddeeerrr....

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jack, gosh... its been so long.

when i heard the news i was concern.

i know how much she meant to you.

i honestly did not want u to go thru 2005 again.

perhaps, it really does take heartache to find ur frends.

if we didn't broke up, neither of us could have been the person we are now.

i dare say we learn smthg from each other, least i've learnt to be a better person becoz of u.

and eventho we're no longer together it doesnt mean that we no longer care.

i've witnessed u changed.

i've witnessed u grow.

from the bottom of my heart.

i'm proud of where u are now and wat u have achieved.

stay strong over there.

it's her lost for not appreciating.

trust me.

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speaking of heartaches...

sigh.

i'm in a mess right now when it comes to relationships.

gosh. *smacks!!*

i wish i can smack myself awake.

sometimes i do feel like i'm a selfish person.

i need closure, i need assurance and i need confirmation.

i always want to know, if its gonna work.

if its not gonna work or i'm nt sure if its gonna work, i'd rather not start anything at all.

why go thru so much when ur not even sure if it'll be smthg u want?

isis says that love should not need that much of rationalizing.

i dunno. maybe i do think so much.

i'm quite comfortable at where i am now.

so how?

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as i've told myself and so many other people.

relationships should be the least of my worries.

i'm 22. wheres the rush? if it comes it will. if not, i'm doing fine as well.

as promised, i need to spend this time mapping my life.

doing what i need to do now.

my family, my work & *new addition* my health. yikes!

at certain points of life...

it gets lonely.

i miss having someone around.

i miss getting hugs.

i miss roadtrips and makan trips with the cartoonz.

i miss singing and chit chatting with temple frens.

i need to re-organize.

god u make me depressed.

please forgive my rantings, i'm in one of those pathetic "why meee??" mode.

no worries, being me i'm gonna bounce back into shape very soon.

ever wondered how unfair the world is?

some people can hav everything they want, yet nvr learn to appreciate them?

some people can work their arse off and still get nthg in return?

people say everything happens for a reason?is it really so?

of course, i've come to terms and accepted that nthg is fair, that we'll jus hav to work our way through it all. today is jus one of those days where it bugs me a little bit more than usual.

I'm not blessed with the healthiest condition.

I'd be the 1st to admit, i've done alot of damage to my body during my highschool/college times with those extreme hours and sleepless-foodless-stress.

i've learnt my lesson.

i really did.

i never skipped meals. i always munch when i know i'll be busy. at least a cup of oats.

i really am making an effort to nurse my stomach back into shape.

its been 2 yrs already. i thought everything would be okay.

on monday, i had this mild discomfort & pain in my abdomen area.

"must be some wind or mild gastric." i thought. drank some milo. drank loads of water and it was okay.

on tuesday, it started again. the pain. it got worse and worse. i started getting dizzy and this massive thumping headache. GGGAAAAWWWDDD!!! felt like there's this fat chicken dancing in my head! my abdomen pain got ffrom bad to worst. i drank oats, had my lunch... continue to drink sumore water... it got better.

tuesday dinner was the bomb, client flew in from HongKong. There's this whole "meet-and-greet-dinner" with the team. i sat down... had my soup.. everything was fine. then the main course, the pain started again. my stomach was like grinding like a washing machine. my face turn pale and i started to have cold sweat. SHIT. i didn't finish my main course, merely giving the reason that the fish was a bit "fishy". The last dish came, i went thru my dessert. trying to distract my thought from my churning agony. talked and chit chat with the people the table. it went okay.

Drove back, halfway passed federal, near the Carlsberg factory. Couldn't take it anymore, I pulled over, puke my guts out. i had to vomit them out. Drank more water to refresh and clear my head.

Last night was one of those nights, i couldn't sleep. sweat keep dripping off my forehead in an aircond room. my legs keep having these mysterious cramps (probably was the most tense sleep i ever had). woke up at 3am, ran to the toilet puked (i can literally see whole mushrooms from my dinner - undigested) =.=. drank more water.

woke up this morn, ate breakfast... the pain started again. I'm almost sure i know whats the problem already! den i puked again... =.= tahu dah...~

i went to the doc, told him what happen. being the family doc, doc J gav me a lecture (again) on "u have to take care of ur body! dont skip meals. u need to eat. u know u gt gastric problems".

sigh. macamlah aku x tahu. :(

i messed up the toilet so bad, mom yelled at me this morning.

until she realised i was having a gastric attack and NOT puking drunk ( i didnt even drink!)

hello my old friends..... :(

i am jealous. of those people who can choose "to eat or not to eat".

i am jealous. of those people who can do whatever they want, eat whatever they want.

i am angry. of those people who are in perfect health and goes on whining how FAT they are.

i am angry. of those people who put themselves through ridiculous diets every day.

i am angry. of those people who still do not appreciate what they have. because i've ruined mine and there's nthg i can do about it.

选择。

要我怎么做选择？

真的不想再重复当时的痛苦和伤害。

曾经，我还记得。哭哭啼啼的要求。

当天，我还记得。你给我的答案。

现在，说要改就可以改？要变就可以变？

我要怎么相信。。。

是我已经接受了，而放弃了这个希望？

还是我已经不敢要在相信我们会有这个希望？

现在我的心里，不只是“要”还是“不要”而已。

因为，这世界里并没有这么简单的事情。

不可能会有这么简单的事情。

是你教我的。

video games

i suck at video games.

ahahhah

especially the ones that need hand - eye coordination

exp:

mario , i'm always falling into longkangs, hot volcanos, memang gt sungai oso i'll fall in and mati lemas!!!

racing games, i'm always the one langgar dinding la... stuck in sand la... go terbalik la!! O.O

memalukan betul.

:P

only thing i'm good at would be guitar hero. LOLs

*proud*

ahahhaha.

it was fun!! dinner with family.... drinking coffee... abit of whisky... good food... wii games (eventho i suck at it)... lousang for the dunno how many times.... eating kerepek.. :P

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ever seen tommy playing his toy?

after some time, he jus got bored.

and he never played with the toy anymore.

he jus left the toy there.

until one day, john saw the toy all by itself.

he likes the old toy.

he wants to play with the toy.

all of the sudden, tommy wants to play with the toy again.

jus because someone else likes it.

just because it was originally tommy's toy.

he owned it, and no one else can have it.

how unfair is that?

Chinese New Year @ Muar

Keong Hee Huat Chai!!

ethan learn a new phrase this year:

"Gongxi Gongxi. HHUUAATTTTT AAAAAA!!!"

:P

yehyeh is gonna love him so much more.

My CNY dress!

it's been a tradition, since before amah passed away.

to always wear dress/skirt on CNY1.

:)

i like mine!

i like it coz its brown. (not ANG ANG RED)

i like it coz its comfy. (not tight n itchy!)

i like it laaaa.... kenot meh??

I'll always look at it and smile... and rmb mandy coz without her i wun have this dress!!

*hearts* mandy!

drove down to muar

(coz daddy sick liao)

2 and half hours later

(coz byk speed trap!!)

we reach uncle#7's hse!!

cheeewaaah~~ berlambaks the cars in the house.

all the aunties n uncles balik d...

luckily the next few houses oso uncles...

i still find it weird, my uncle #8,#6,#4 & #7 stay same row.
(coz same piece of land from ah gong la.)
uncle #5 oso coming d, his hse building next door.

=.=

The 1st sight i remember of muar?

The super duper tinggi antenna!!!

kononnye to curi singapore channel.

(really can de wo!)

we went back to popo's old hse.

:)

i really miss it.

eventho we do not spend alot time here...

but alot of kiddo memories still cant stop making me smile.

:)

in the evening.

i love the evening sunlight in muar.

(got difference meh?? KL x same??)

i dunno.... its different to me...

very strong rays... warm but not burning...

still feel "clean"... not sticky n dusty.

:P

call me an ulu-kampung-girl.

i dun care!

the garden... :)

we use to chase our cousins... curi popo's flowers and cook "masak-masak".

almost curi till botak!!

seee... i hilang so many years d...

the bunga so berlambak and subur!!

the swing we use to play "choo choo train"

damn noisy the swing..

"yyiiiiiiii oooooooo yyyiiiiiii oooooooo"

we'll pretend its a train and while our cousins jump in and jump.

kiddo betul!

tapi suka jugak~

*love grass*

daddy say its call love grass coz it sticks to our socks.

so love is sticky too? :P

i remember telling my friends last time.

"my popo's hse has this big padang behind, very big one!"

that day when i saw it, "OMG what happen to the padang!!"

i realized how much we all grown up.

the BIG padang, right now.... seems so small.

its amazing how we see things when we're younger.

everything seems bigger and so much more magical.

these hoops were used to hang our clothes.

our clothes will all hang on these looooong poles.

and popo will cucuk them through these loops.

if raining, we'll keep them in!

there's more loops also in the garage area where its covered.

:)

Chinese New Year.

to me...

its all about family.

its all about being there with them.

give them ur best wishes and blessing.

for them to have a great year ahead.

for them to have great health and happiness.

its just that simple.

:家:

new years.

everytime when new year comes.

theres always this sense of anticipation.

when we start to buy carton & cartons of beer *thx to mandy's vouchers, so much more beers this yr...

when we start cleaning the house and fight over "wanna throw this? or dont wanna throw this?"

when we start calling all our siblings to balik rumah and deco the hse, hanging lights... red clothes... oranges.

i remember when amah was around, we'd sit down and start cutting the angpao packets.

into little little lanterns, fishes, all sorts.

amah would teach us new ones every few yrs, those that she learn from others and the newspapers cut outs, some even her own invention i think.

i remember days when we use to sit beside the glass window in the afternoon, and she'll tear out papers from her old school exercise books. We'll spend the whole afternoon making boats, paper balls, paper cranes... Come to think of it, amah was the one to sparked my interest in DIY arts & crafts since i was a kid. she was the reason why i loved making cards & handicrafts. :)

When new year came, amah always makes these huge angpao lanterns. and every year there'd be some new inventions & addition, some flowers, some gold decors, tails, different shapes, different designs. Amah's angpao lanterns were always something we'd look forward to. :)

and being amah, she'll make 4 different pairs of angpao lanterns, eventho 1 is already so hard to do. She'll make 8, and give them to every single house. so we all have smthg to hang on CNY.

i never did learn up those huge lanterns, probably i was too young, or too busy or jus *regretfully* too lazy.

When she started falling ill, we rarely did these crafts anymore. Until when she passed away, we kept the last pair that amah made, and we used it for a few more yrs. Like treasures they were to us. We tried to preserve it so much. Somehow it felt different, to have her touch in the house.

Today, (4 yrs after amah passed on)... we had our prayers in the morning, on the day before CNY. more like a family reunion, we gathered for lunch & dinner. On the table was all of amah's fav dish, even down to DURIANS! amah loved durians!

Indeed there was that sense of anticipation for the CNY, but sumhow, there's also this strong sense of emptiness, that she's not here. Her lanterns had also withstand the test of time, falling apart already. So today, after lunch... i sat down and started to make the huge angpao balls.

its a frustrating process, serious! all the details... I'm so ashamed of the details which i did not noticed at first. :(

But here's the outcome. *amah i love u

LB has this really cute thing this CNY where they give out stickers and you can deco ur own Mandarin Oranges! dress them up and they'll be your Lucky Tigers!!

:)

Gave them to my cousins today, they loved it! so adorable!!

charmaine's Mr Wonderful!
Chadric's nose-less tiger.
Charlene's I-want-everything-on-it tiger!

Happy Chinese New Year People!

:)

wondering and thinking.

saw this from keith.
couldnt seem to control my tears when i was reading it through.
*sigh*

某一天，你拨我的电话号码，语音告诉你我已经停机。你会不会难过？
某一天，你的手机不再频繁的响起，你会不会不停的等待？
某一天，你的邮箱收件箱里，不再有人可怜兮兮的说你好吗？你有没有好好吃饭，有没有好好照顾自己。你会不会不停的期盼？
某一天，不再有人无论是深夜还是白天都坐在电脑旁等待着你上线，等待着可以打电话给你，你会不会失落？

如果真的到了那样的一天，我还是希望你有一点点的难过，一点点的失落，一点点的想我，只要有一点点关于我的记忆就好，真的只要一点点就好。

某一天，你打开电脑，我的头像变成了永远的灰色，不要说我不守承诺，那是我感觉到累了，倦了，也真的受伤了。
某一天，你的生活中没有了我，请记住我对你的好；我的宽容。你要记得，我们虽然在地球的不同角落，但是我们头上顶着同一片蓝天。
某一天，你的记忆中没有了我，不要忘记我们在一起的每一分每一秒，不要忘记我喜欢什么，讨厌什么。而我无论如何都不会忘记任何一个关于你记忆的片断，你习惯什么，反感什么。

感情世界里，没有“公平”两个字，我不会计较这些，我们在一起的时间，会是我这辈子里最美丽的回忆。
我还要你记得答应过我什么，许诺过我什么。
如果有一天，你叹气的时候我不再去安慰你，你难过的时候不再陪你一起难过，心碎的时候不再去陪你一起心碎。
那是我真的绝望了，真的心碎了，真的疲倦了。

因为有太多太多的时候，我都是装，总是装作无所谓，可是我真的不在乎吗？而你呢？会在乎我的一切吗？

you!

it amazes me how much u can understand.

the fact that you dun say much but u absorb so much more.

it amazes me how patient you can be.

the fact that you can do sooooo much and wait silently.

it amazes me how giving you are.

the fact that you dun mind going the extra mile to get smthg done.

it amazes me.

it really does.

when from a simple call u can pick up the urgency and wat i needed.

gosh i'm star struck.

when every gesture triggers an action and emotion.

this is a very subtle gesture which triggered smthg huge.

O.O

as i sit here. i find myself even torn.

should i go or should i stay?

as my heart and my head tells me different things.

what should i do?

daddy's little girl

to the man

whose dark hair turned white, yet his specs & “misai" remains.

to the man

whose belly has grown and still smiles oh so lovingly.

to the man

who follows CSI loyally every weekend till midnight.

to the man

who sleeps at the sofa with the TV on.

to the man

who makes me breakfast every morning.

to the man

who always ask if i wanna tahpao lunch.

to the man

whose always worried about me

to the man

who waits for me to go home in the living room

to the man

who knows what i really want.

to the man

who has given me strength when i was down

to the man

who has silently watched me teared.

to the man

to always picks me up.

to the man

who has always been there.

to the man of my life.

to my teacher.

to my mentor.

to my guide.

to my protector.

to my friend.

happy birthday daddy dearest.

i love u !

i dreamt of u

i dreamt of u.

its been a while.

as the dream repeated itself.

again n again n again.

i realized.... my worst fear wasn't u leaving...

my biggest fear was...

me being alone.

as i walked down the road.

my biggest fear was that ... no one will ever be there.

no matter wat happen... its only me.

anniversary

i miss u.

2006 u left.

its been 4 yrs already.

how can it be?

i really missed u.

i miss how u smell

i miss how u sound like.

i miss how u are.

i miss how it feels to have u around me.

i'm afraid.

that one day, u'll slowly fade away.

i'm afraid that one day I'll close my eyes and i can no longer rmb how u look like.

i miss u so much.

i wished i had more memories with you.

i wished i had more time.

i wished i had more chances.

but i guess now all i can say is....

its better to have and cherish all that i have... then to have nvr known how a wonderful person u were.

its 4am now.

but yet i dun feel like going to sleep.

not now...

not alone.

:(

genting!!!

family planned a last min trip up genting.
mom n dad went to watch a concert (with sum special help! )
:)
the family wit kids, the pregnant lady all came along.

left sat evening. reach genting oso dinner time jor.
it was fun nonetheless.

mom n dad after the concert.

cyn n elyssa

pengkiat korkor n meimei

alan n cindy.

merajuk sial. :P

cynthia n pengkiat korkor

ethan!

meimei!
dinner.

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of course...
pictures that no one understood
WHY THIS GIRL SQUATTING ON THE FLOOR TAKING PICTURE OF THE PLANT A?
i jus couldnt resist!

in the hotel itself

bye bye genting.

more photos on my facebook.
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=137289&id=518792761&ref=mf

tiredzzzzz....



tml got work.
:(
potong stim betul.

hoho Genting

i jus came back from genting!
Woots!!
*dance around*

tired sial... T.T
buthen.... hyper as well....
ahahahhahaha

it's been ages since i had a break.
yea... this one is pretty short. but its fun nonetheless.
nope.... i did not do much at the themeparks. *swts
i chased my nephew n niece around.
watch as they wobble everywhere.
brought along cyn's dslr.... (like finally)
snap snap snap away....

:)
i'm happy.


yikes! besok kena kerja weh!~

Zee Avi - Kantoi

waahahahahhahahaha.
found this song in bro in law's iphone.
laugh like shit.

Timbaland fr Justin rocks!

Carry Out

(Timbaland)
Baby, you're lookin' fire hot
I'll have you open all night like an IHOP
I'll take you home baby, let you keep me company
You give me some of you, I give you some of me
(You look good)
Baby must taste heavenly, I'm pretty sure that you got your own recipe
So pick it up, pick it up, yeah I like you
I just can't get enough I gotta drive through


Cause it's me, you, you, me, me, you, all night
Have it your way, fore play before I feed your appetite
Let me get my ticket baby let me get in line
I can tell the way you like it baby supersized
Hold on, you got yours, let me get mine
I ain’t leavin’ till they turn over the closed sign

(Chorus)
Take my order cause your body like a carryout
Let me walk into your body till you hear me out
Turn me on my baby don't you cut me out
Turn me on my baby don't you cut me out

Take my order cause your body like a carryout
Let me walk into your body till it's lights out
Turn me on my baby don't you cut me out
Turn me on my baby don't you cut me out


(Justin Timberlake)
Number one, I take two number three's
That's a whole lotta you, and a side of me
Now is it full of myself to want you full of me?
And if there's room for dessert, then I want a piece
Baby, get my order right no errors,
Imma touch you in all the right areas
I could feed you, you could feed me
Girl, deliver that to me, come see me
Cause it’s me, you, you, me, me, you all night
Have it your way, fore play, before I feed your appetite
Do you like it well done cause I do it well,
Cause I'm well seasoned if you couldn't tell
Now, let me walk into your body till you hear me out
Turn me on my baby don't you cut me out


(Chorus)
Take my order cause your body like a carryout
Let me walk into your body till you hear me out
Turn me on my baby don't you cut me out
Turn me on my baby don't you cut me out

Take my order cause your body like a carryout
Let me walk into your body till it's lights out
Turn me on my baby don't you cut me out
Turn me on my baby don't you cut me out



What's your name?
What’s your number?
I'm glad I came,
Can you take my order?

What's your name?
Girl what's your number?
I'm glad I came,
Can you take my order?


Come over here,
What's your name?
Come closer,
What's your number?

Over here,
I'm glad I came
A little closer
Can you take my order?

Come over here,
What's your name?
Come closer,
What's your number?


Over here,
I'm glad I came
A little closer,
Can you take my order?


(Chorus x2)
Take my order cause your body like a carryout
Let me walk into your body till you hear me out
Turn me on my baby don't you cut me out
Turn me on my baby don't you cut me out

Take my order cause your body like a carryout
Let me walk into your body till it's lights out
Turn me on my baby don't you cut me out
Turn me on my baby don't you cut me out.

*sigh

every wondered how nice the world would be...

if some people are nicer.
if some people are more polite.
if some people just arent that stuck up.
if some people just arent so demanding.
if some people can just shut up for a bit.
if some people can stop being such a pain in the arse.
if some people can please NOT have their panties all bunched up.
if some people can stop underminding people.
if some people can just try to be more understanding.

today is just one of those days.

merry christmas

i wished u were here.
i even drove by.
*smacks*

sigh.
oh well.

i guess it is...
Good Bye

disappointed

sheer disappointment.

at 2.30am. i really wanted someone to talk to.
:S

having him around for that week was awesome.
i miss our evening walks. breakfast. dinners....
chatting over some fruits while watching the news.

gah! i miss having him around.

小帅哥

小帅哥
帅帅的,酷酷的. 眼睛咪咪的,胸膛阔阔的.
话不多说,羞答答的.整天骑着他摩多车.

小帅哥
挺害羞的,问多几句就脸红了!
但有时说起话来却挺窝心的.

小帅哥
你好吗?

小帅哥
你的出现,好唐突,让我不知所措了.但却也很欣慰.
当他让我难过,他让我伤心时,有你逗逗我,陪陪我的.

小帅哥
我现在很乱,矛盾着我是否应该放弃曾经的他.
这个疤痕真的好深,好痛着呢.

小帅哥
很抱歉,我的心里还没有有空位.
很惭愧,我还没把曾经的他赶出去.

小帅哥
我的心很乱.也许他真的就是那么的无可取代吧?
我对他的死心塌地,也许是痴情,更也许是白痴.怎么我好像还是在等着他浪子回头呢?

小帅哥
你怎么啦?你不开心啦?
真的对不起,我这儿现在容纳不了你,

people, politics and their egos

susah la.

why are people to territorial sometimes?

to the extend that they'd be upset over minor details of something so beautiful like a family gathering up together and spending christmas together. Must things really be so rigid and is it necessary to actually fight over who came 1st?

I thought all we wanted was jus a meal and the family jus being there? to catch up, drink n laugh?

i dun geddit.
why?

call me plain, but i'll be happy either way its done. as long as its done with everyone there.

snores

Sleepless nights bothering me.
I wonder why.

Thoughts go buzzing in and out.
Urgh
I need a turn off switch.

reflection

when things fall out.

and they dont work out.

i tend to wonder.

was it something i did?

was it something i said?

was it something that i should do?

:S

i dont feel so good anymore.

LeoBurnett 2009

Leo Burnett won Agency of the Year this year at Kancils.

Now at DMAM, LB won the most awards!

Leo Burnett wins 4 Golds

sometimes i wonder

sometimes i wonder

what is on your mind

sometimes i wonder

if i may still be blind

sometimes i wonder

if its me u miss

sometimes i wonder

if i'm jus a "has-been" on the list

sometimes i wonder

when u will bring down those walls.

sometimes i wonder

if they'll ever come down at all

sometimes i wonder

from the sincerity from your eyes

sometimes i wonder

if its with me your true heart lies.

i wonder if you'll ever muster the courage

to tell me what i need to hear

to hold me and shw me

that all u need is to have me near.

wahahahahahahah

how fun.

:P

Twi-Twi

well... twilight is out!
*teenage girls screams & swoons*

:P
Everyone seems to love Edward. :S
I find his character very indecisive and a bit too fickle minded for my liking. He wants Bella, he doesn't want Bella, then he wants her again and dowan again, yada yada yada. MAN FRIGGIN MAKE UP YOUR MING ALREADY! =.="

It is Jacob's undying & unrelenting love for Bella that I find most admirable. Of course it helps that he takes off his shirt (EYES WIDE OPEN) revealing his rippling muscles from the very start la! *cheeky* And as the story goes, Jacob decides to cut his hair short and, ahem, couldn't even be bothered to wear a shirt, come rain or shine. oh the rain!
:) oooo.....

Edward or Jacob, you guys battle it out la! But hor...I don't like Bella. She is getting more annoying with each passing scene and shot. I mean, can the girl make up her mind? ish ish.

april's birthday

april's 21st birthday

20/11/09

so we-the leftovers at M'sia decided to celebrate together gether

Kuala Lumpur 12am 21/11/09

Scotland 4pm 20/11/09

everyone headed to my hse.

we tahpao-ed McD for supper at the drive thru.

wishan slept.....

i bathed....

sk n mp using the lappys...

and all 4 of us snoozed on a queen size bed.

dad said it was AMAZING that we still can.

*bangga*

of course i did not tell him...

how we rebut blankets...

and squished each other during the whole sleeping process la!

:)

Kuala Lumpur 6am 21/11/09

Scotland 10 pm 20/11/09

April texted and said she'll be late as she's still outside....

Kuala Lumpur 6.30am 21/11/09

Scotland 10.30pm 20/11/09

we slowly wake up and waited....

and waited...

and waited...

started to "test drive" skype abit with each other.

LOL.

Kuala Lumpur 7.45am 21/11/09

Scotland 11.45 pm 20/11/09

April still nt home yet.

wishan had to go 1st coz she has an event later at 1 Utama.

Kuala Lumpur 8am 21/11/09

Scotland 12am 21/11/09

she's back!

HAPPY (belated) BIRTHDAY APRIL!

oh boy she looked so tired.

:P

*shhhhhh*
she's gonna kill me.
but i don't care!

i love that she's so wacky!!


apple n banana juice.

i wonder how they taste like.

her brand new boots!

oh how we missed her so. :)

boobie talk, hokkien lingo, leanring to curse in hokkien!

her toilet, our McD supper, her place,

work, how-r-u?, i miss u, i love u! kisses n hugs!

:)

happy 21st love...

dad says its almost like we're having a Long Distance Relationship with you!

except, this doesnt include "i wonder what she's doing;is she sleeping around behind my back?;is she meeting other guys behind my back?;is she cheating on me??!!" drama.

it's all good. :)

KTM moments

How I missed taking the train to work.

The standing pregnant lady; the cute toddler chewing on mom’s wallet; the indifferent mom reading her magazine; the snoozing dad sleeping at the side; the uptight OL (Office Lady) screening through her copy of The Sun; the cute Architecture student with his tubes & rulers & BAGS of equipments; the (lala) UBER METROSEXUAL dude stroking his arm; the smooching couple in love; the hawt plastic college Ms Popular & her posse (Ms Popular has a nice rack and sexy long legs); the protective bf guarding his gal; the old man who talks to anyone in the train; the wailing baby; the studious student with her brick-like books; the flirtatious “couple to be” (not couple yet la, not holding hand or anthing but flirting bahz… touch arm, light punch, giggles)…

Lastly, Korean couple walking into the train and started argue & fighting from Subang Station to KL Central. Haha. Hot girlfriend with nice body, sexy outfit and HOT temper; not-so-good-looking boyfriend with GREAT temper and ENORMOUS patience. Interesting. I don’t understand what they were arguing about but she was mad, is REALLY PISSED MAD.

Heehee. Very interesting.

SC bank killed me with their very slow service & crappy system mixed up. URGH!