my 20th bday (part2)

i noe its abit lagging la...
so long d ma...
but recenty only i free ma....
:)
enjoy!

My 20th day!!!
02/06/2008
*yay!
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~with my family at bandar botanic!~

*my future-bro-in-law making funny faces*

*my nephew ethan!*

*look!!!!*

*ahahahah...he noticed we were watching him!*

*me!*

*the huge amount of food we ate*

*the cake!*

*my elder sis and babies*

*blow!*

*alan-ethan-cindy*

*yesyes! eat cake!!*

*strawberry!*

*my mom&dad*

*me again*

*misbehaving*

*the dutiful photographer*
*US!*
DADEEEEE!!!!! *at AEON bukit tinggi*

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~with KCBA peeps! at teacher's hse~

*i have the same bday with one of my teachers*

*ohmygosh so many ppl!*
*they made our cakes!*

*it took them the whole day!!*
our oreo cheesecakes...
:)

*happy faces*

*me!*


*the juniors*

*SUMONE got so excited the ripped down the door!*

*nicole came!*

*talking to hui huan on the phone, she's at kajang*

*gosh i missed her!*

*nicole-ryn-vivian*

*the present*

*kelly came back from penang*

*vivian-nicole-ryn-chaishing-kelly*

*got slideshow movie oso*

*the flash killed me*

*them*

*wakakka...dancing*

*among other goofy things that we do*

*yuan zhi jia*

*feels so warm inside*

*god knows wat i was doin*
=.="

*the guy that came out with the cheesecake recipe!*
~ping an~

*the gurl that bluff me to the party*

this year was a bang!
i was so touched.
20!
TWENTY already.
i'll be leaving for my internship in a week.
feels like i need to grow up.
but i dowan to!!!!

i want to still go classes.
and fool around on sundays.
run around the temple.
laugh out loud.

and dun give a hoot bout the world...

not possible aint it?!
i know i can always be goofy and idiotic when i'm with my family n frenz...
sumhow its still pretty nostalgic.
i dunno y...

oh well...
this is for 2008.
a better year.
and a better me!

-3niGma-

down and up again...

i went to monash tday...
in case you all din noe, i'm finishing my diploma in 5 months time...
and i was planning to go to monash to finish up my degree...

so i prepared everything...my results..my slips....my study syllabus.
EVERYTHING...
and i went to monash...

monash told me that they may not be able to accept me into their programme.
because my diploma is "design" base...
and i was shocked.
coz i was told from the very start that IT IS ACCEPTABLE!!!

my college said i can switch...
the monash ppl during the education fair said so too.
same wit the kdu ppl n inti...
i was told tat i can switch over.

and now i'm slammed in the face with this piece of crap!
if my diploma isnt accepted.
i do not have any other choice but to start all over from foundation...
FOUNDATION!!!
after 2&half years!!

TWO and HALF!!

suddenly feels like shit! wasted.
haih...
i tot choose this course was the right thing..
as in like i had everything planned...
the whole way thru.
now it jus feels so messed up.
i may end up with nthg!
like starting all over again...
goin back to foundation.....

its sucks.

so balik rumah...cried my eyeballs out...
literally flooded the whole hse...

den stared at the four walls + ceiling in my room....

i'm jus sooooo angry...
i'm angry coz WHY DOES THIS HAPPEN!!
i'm angry coz i'm not a bad student!
I'm not lazy or stupid when it comes to my work.
i never got anything less than a B+...
my cgpa is 3.8...
and i'm stuck here...with these options...
!$%^!!!!!!!@#$%!!!!!
if i'm stupid, or dumb or i have screw up bad results...
and u dowan to accept me...
fineee~

after sum time out...thinking of the not-so-bad things...
den ok.... i'm gonna go kdu to ask again nex sat...personally....to comfirm...
and i'm gonna ask inti personally also...mayb the nex week....
i need to know the right facts...
accepted or not...from the counsellors/lecturers themselves.

if they couldn't give me a comfirmed answer, like 100%.
i'll still apply to them after i finish...*cross fingers for last hope*
if it doesnt work out...
fineeeee...i'll start over....

i guess it alright...
not that i regreted taking advertising design...
i learnt alot during this period of time...
done alot of stuff and met alot of ppl...
so i cant say that taking this diploma is entirely WASTED.
even if i had to start over fresh from the bottom....
i'll be a grad with a communication degree + a design diploma...

doesnt seem that bad now when its in that perspective...

truly.
caryn

Week 2....

hoho...
as u can see....
i'm getting lazyyyyyy...

from daily reports they have transform into weeklies...
wahahah...
well...
tat is becoz i realise its pretty repetitive, wat i do day in day out...
sides...
i K.O.ed nearly every night when i balik rumah nowdays...
like ZZZzzzZZZZzzzzzZZZZzz....

this week had been not bad...
i didn't get to go out much tho... :(
coz we have this competitive review we had to compile and analyze...
so this whole week was nearly full of ad-watch, analisis, tvc review, analysis, researches....
and of course theres the never-missing ad amendments!
:)

it was busy busy busy...
:)

but i do hope i'll get to go out more...
my buntut starting to grow bigger liao...
wakakak

yen

Day 10 - Wed, 180608

kor went to malacca d...
so i went to work alone tday...
it was real sweet of him...coz he had to chao around 6...
i normally wake up around 6.30...

so before he leaves, he attempted in waking me up and tell me where he place the key, parking tag n stuff... but i was too blurr to bangun...
so he went n put all his stuff on the table...
n msg-ed me before he left...

sumore when i went to work, he called...
"wake up d bo?" "reach d bo?" "gt parking bo?" "eat breakfast bo?"
dunno, mayb coz i wasnt very close wit my bro all these years....
i'm glad i shifted to damansara.
:)

least i makan breakfast wit him every morn.
sumtimes carpool n stuff....

tday i was sent to do research.
it was like coll all over again.
compile all the ads, target audience, key msg, usp, direction....yadda yadda yadda...
wat i din expect was...
OMG the ads BERLAMBAK!!! so much!!!!!
tak habis habis i buat!!!

competitive analysis...
seriously felt like coll's research assignment....
or the pre-strat planning research we had to do last time before we do any campaign...
and it took my whole day....
still tak habis...

i so takut tak habis ma...
den L say i can do tml... *phew*...
luckily....

:)
signing off.
caryn

Day 9 - Tues, 170608

OHMYGOSH!!!!
tday was the slowest day EVERRRR!!!

the whole morning i had nthg to do...
like 0 SERO...nthg to do...
zzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...
i wish i can...
evening had discussion & brain storm for PM's new campaign.
den continue to rot....
den went for UB TVC discussion...
and tadaa!! 5.30pm...
balik rumah...


ZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZzzzzzzZZZZZzzzz....

balik rumah so early so i pergi swimming...
hoho...
syok jugak...

:)

-3niGma-

Day 8 - Mon, 160608

whoa...tday was busy busy busy busy busy busy busy...
i like being at bozell... coz they let me join in everything..
like being really involved.
:)

plus L&J are really nice, they'll explain the stuff that they do...
they talk to me bout their experience...
the good clients.... and the not-so-good ones who will be harsh and mean.
but thats the works of client servicing.

its rather inspiring in a way...like wat L says.

"its hard, and you gotta be tough to take on client servicing. its really challenging as in u meet diff ppl. and you have to work with them, observe how they are as a person. even the really mean & difficult clients. you'll resent them and hate them, but by the end of the day when everything is over, the sense of accomplishment is so high."

this morning the 1st thing we did was sit in a meeting, it was like an overview of all the new ads that came out during the last week. our VA pro, Pz. he's really funny..and really nice too... after that we had a meeting for our "work-in-progress"...that was exhausting!!! like every acc reports on the status of their jobs...whats new, whats on the way, which wan need editing...which one redo... stuff like that...

after that i did a job req for UB leaftlet, sent them out...straight after that we ran to the UB's TVC discussion with our creative director, CS. he's real nice. he reminds me of one of our funky lecs last time...he has wonderful sensitivity to art, sense, visual, copy ...everything... i use to rmb when our lec had to mark this ad for us, he jus look at it... if he likes it...he likes it! if he doesnt, theres nthg you can do to change his mind... and he's always right!!!

meetin with the radio operator rep was intersting. basically they presented to us a radio survey that they did la... which states which station, their target audience and how are they doin lo...and which segments are open for advertisers and all....

THENNNN...ada lagi...kita brain storm....brain storm byk byk...brain storm until brain oso no juice...continuos 2 campigns...2 sessions... O.O...loads of yelling n screaming,,,jus to de-stress... omg the cursings too...
wahahaha...

*grins*

balik rumah...and i K.O.ed..


caryn

Day 5 - Fri 130608

ITS FRIDAAAY!!!

wahahahha... wahaha...
dun get me wrong...i love working... i just syok coz i can balik rumah makan!!!!
hoho.... *drools*

early morning adalah..."rush" sikit...coz PM called to do sum major but urgent amendments...
mao tukar nama for the ad... =.="
ppl cant make up their minds...

after that...OMG tday was such a slow day....
morning rush till my breakfast oso gonna come back up...
afternoon was slow...i nearly feel asleep...!!

did a job req for another new campaign for PM....
den there was sum revision for some PB's ad...
den the whole afternoon i jus bugged the artist for the work to be done...
i swear he's gonna hate me reaaaaaal bad....
:(

balik rumah...wahahahahahha...got nice food....yumssss for soup!
nice comfy bed.... AAAaaaaAaAaAaaaaaaaHHHHhhhhHHH~~~~
suddely i realised! NO BOLSTER!!!!

allah....potong steam.... i syok wanna tidur den i realise i brought my bolster to damansara liao....haih....

:'(

bo bian lo...
zzzzZZZZzzzzZZZz like a pig oso la....
tired ma....

caryn

Day 4

tday was pretty much ayyyokaay la...
nthg much...

morning was kinda a bummer...coz i had nthg to do...
i'm currently handling only PB&PM acc. so......
the whole morning they so good..din kacau me...
i pulak sitting at my desk mengantuk!
sial..
nthg to do!!!

zzzzzzz....

den right before lunch they called in to edit sum stuff!! YAY!
so i quickly did their job revision....
den i went for uber expensive lunch...
den i spent the nex 3 hours chasing ppl for the work...
sial...
follow up sucks la..
i feel like they're so gonna hate me...

evening was pretty exciting.
i went to watch the shooting for another's acc advert.
cool!
took a pretty long time tho... haih....
but after that the creative director bought us XO COFFEE.....
wahahahah...
its actually jus really kao kao coffee la... non alkoholic tho....
:)

finished work pretty late tday...around 8....
balik uncles hse to makan dinner...yummm....so long din drink soup d....

after tat sumore we went makan supper!!!! INDOMIE!!!!!
wahahahahaha....


caryn

Day 3 - wed, 110608

J came tday.
so i finally did met her. she's nice, kesian her coz her son was sick.... :(

she was uber nice tho. after following up on some amendments on PM's ad. J brought me out for the presentation! we went to Sri Damansara. it was interesting for me, as i was able to see how a presentation to the client actually is.

i was introduced as "the intern" ... =.="
and now i'm told that i'll be handling the PM&PB accounts lo...
not as in I'm incharge of the things la... =.=" crazy a?
ahahah...but it means my job scope is for the PB&PM acc lo...
which is a pretty big acc.... :)

PM briefed us on a new ad campaign...
after that, i learnt to do my 1st job requisition, which is like a job brief la...
for whoever that is in my team for this new job lo...
sial..i nvr did before... so i went to this "files corner" and dug out all the past job req.s lo...
hoho....like siao po liddat...

but....usual la... me siao wan... i enjoyed it...
:)
i like learning new things.
and i'm proud to say..i'm adapting to internship life la...
:)

caryn

Day 2

whoa...tday was a busy busy busy day...
but its ok...i like busy...
busy is good...
makes sure that i learn stuff....
and i dun get bored...(coz when i get bored, i get drowsy)
hoho.

woke up and left earlier tday, coz i wanted to get a parking which is nearer.
and i did!!!
eventho i arrived at phileo damansara at 7.40 am....
i parked waaaaaaay nearer compared to yesterday.
:)

den i had breakfast with my bro...had maggie goreng.
and i'm sitting in my office at 8.15am... interesting...

tday was busy busy busy...
stuff learnt today "JOB REVISION"...
this is when we show the client the ad and the client wants us to edit sum stuff...
thus "revising" the ad...

hoho...tday had been a day full of em.
i think we did around 6...
sial...
i type type type until i pengsan...

talking to the client one on one was abit tension coz i couldnt call the shots...
so i basically listen, take note den discuss with the director...
den we do the changes...and i email the client...
and call them again...
and the circle goes on and on until we're finalize.

oh...today i found out my last 2 piece of roti...ADA FUNGUS!!!!
ewww...scary...coz my mom made em...so no preservatives...
scary...the FUNGUS grow soooo fast...
this morning when i made my bread...it was ok...
then lunch i saw 3 spots....
when i reach home...
IT TURN YELLOW & GREEN!!!!



O.O""


came back early tday...
did some chores..
i kept my clothes, folded them...
i washed yesterday's clothes..
sweep the floor...
dust the floor...
mop the floor..
change the air purifier...
and i took out the trash!!!

i need to stay off the instant noodles!!

grins!!!

toodles..
tired..

caryn

1st day of internship

In case you din noe...
I'm currenty doin my internship in Bozell Worldwide, Phileo Damansara 2.

First day was not too shabby. :)

Bro teman me tday... let me tail him to work... :)
den he balanja me makan breakfast..yummy....

reached phileo around 8...but edi no parking...had to walk far far far far far far far far far far far far far far far far far far far far far far far far far far far far far...
around 20 mins walk... haih...

Came in at around 9am, The office manager Ms C brought me to my seat and introduced me to L. I'm technically under the Ms C but I'm attached to L and J.

Due to the fact that the week had just started, and J is on leave today. What I did today was to look through the past documents and files of accounts, clients and campaign. I went through the job requisition, job revisions and finals. I've also look through the past advertisements and campaign in the recent few years.

L briefed me on what to do around 10am. We were rushing some amendments on some clients(basically went in and out of creative dept asking hem to edit this and edit that) and we had to rush to send it off to the press before lunch.

one thing about this advertising agency,
Y NOBODY GO EAT LUNCH WAN!?!?!
its like already 1 smthg 2 o clock but every one still busy wan wo...
luckily i gt bring bread..if nt seijor.....

After that Ms C came and introduced me as well as brought me around the place (acc , creative , finance , traffic, va, the library, the meeting rooms, the pantry, the "process room") oh...and the hidden toilets!!! I couldn't find the toilets. (how was i to know when the "gents" were labeled "heroes" and the "ladies" were labeled "heroin"??)
hohoho.... doors that aren't doors.. toilets with super heroes as labels...
interesting...

When i was back from the introduction, the print was ready and mounted, so I just photocopied them up. Then they brought a lot a lot of books and magazines and archives for me, and that was wat i did for the rest of my day.

bro was uber nice coz i had to work abit late...
he waited for me and drove me to my car coz he say dangerous for me to walk...
awww... :)

tday was fun...


-caryn-

bak zhang!

well...its sunday.. the lunar 5th day of the 5th month...
which means... YUMMY BAK ZHANG!!!


hoho...mummy left 6 bakzhangs with us in Damansara...
which means i'll be having bakzhangs pretty frequently... :)

mmmMMMMmmmmmm...

too bad henry could find any good bak zhangs in aussie...
hoho... i heard he goin crazy coz he cant eat bak zhang!!
wahahahah..

had "white bak kut teh" with bro and parents in the mornin in kelana jaya...
then bro taught the the route to and from work...
after that we picked my up evil-monster-nephew and we balik klang lo...
hoho...
spending most of my day with my family...

i like it...
den around evening we had to balik damansara liao...
haih...

i webcam-ed with henry during dinner...hoho...makan bak zhang in front of him...
wahahahhaha...

*caryn*

official.

its official...
i'm in Damansara d....
went to my brother's hse around 1pm...

holy moly my brother is one really dirty messy bugger!
we sweep sweep floor...mop mop...wipe this wipe that... wash toilet (yucks!!!)... cleaned EVERYTHING!!!!

AFTER 5 GRUELLING HOURS...
i'm officially shifted in.
i'm currently staying in Crimson Damansara... opposite NiuZeXui....


my room look like this now...
:)

i sleep on that green tilam on the right...
my clothes are in the transparent plastic boxes..
and my ironed work clothes are hanging from the window!

so yea...

i'm in damansara 5 days a week now...

and i'm on a very tight budget! (pokai liao)

so if anyone wans to belanja me dinner...

do call me!!

*bout the wonderful bday celebration, ooo.... i thanks you all for a wonderful bday!!

i'll upload the pix nex week,

coz this week too busy with the internship and moving out stuff*

my be-early bday

my be-early 2oth birthday

coz mandy is goin to start work on 2nd june...

realised i am a pretty huge dumbo,

coz i din suspect anything when they ask me go yumcha!

gosh..."gammdong nye~"

anyhoo...

the pix...

as below~~~

me! cake blowing!
and grinning from ear to ear... =.="
my cake!!!!!

my buddds~ missing 2 more~

*them*
love her to bits!!!
*sayangs*

(dun ask me wat i'm doin)

i have no idea...

darn dumdum tho~

my pressieeee...

me likey~

::more pix::

http://carynyeo4.multiply.com/photos/album/19/my_20th_bday

:)

mandy's 20th bday!

Mandy's Bday Party

The surprise-steamboat-balloon themed birthday party

after weeks of on-and-off planning.

countless times of discussing while driving that i'll forget to send siewkuan home.

weeks of budgeting and who was suppose to do what.

oh...and coordinating with the family...

whoa...and night before...

i have developed a hate towards balloons!!!!

its a head spinner.

april went to pick mandy up for her bday shopping spree at 5.

*which we conviniently couldn't go last minute*

siewkuan and me went to mandy'se hse at 5.15.
branon-mandy's bro let us in...

siewkuan n me started with the food.

cut this.wash that. boil that.

holey moley.

after that siewkuan and branon went to the hall to clear up and arrange the furnitures.

*siewkuan pointed and ordered while branon pushed and carry*

wahahhahaha...

by 6.30 mandy's parents are all at home.

it was so nice coz mandy's dad(who is also the burfday boi too!) went out and bought satay and drinks.

and pinjamed table from the neighbours.

ooo...fun....

the party was suppose to start at 7.

but no sign of wishan!!!!

she was rushing from her class...

gt stuck in the jammed.

she arrived at 7.10.

with the cake...

*YUMMY cake!!!*

den i msged april to balik rumah la...

mana tao they will oso be stuck in the jamm.

alamak..

we were waiting and whining and curi-makaning the satays..

hungry la...

7.30....7.45....8....8.30...

mana dia?!

mandy finally arrived slighty after 8.30...

and the rest...

the photos will talk....

....

...

..

.

: the cake:
:the birthday gurl:
- april:siewkuan-
-mandy:wishan-
-me!-
:mandy's papa mama and bro:

:the birthday pair!:
:the cartoonz:

: we call this the peacock!:

------------the sleepover------------

3/5 of us stayed for a sleepover...

coz me abit free oso la...nt like other ppl gt class all...

:siewkuan:

:mandy: me:

failed attempt

there we go!!!

more pix:

http://carynyeo4.multiply.com/photos/album/10

sexy horoscopes! :)

on personal requestssss...
i'll post up the whole series la...
so that everyone can pat kua~
:)

ARIES - The Liar
Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny. Excellent kisser EXTREMELY adorable. Loves relationships, Addictive. Loud.

TAURUS - The Tramp
Aggressive. Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Good kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person. One of a kind. Not one to mess with. Are the most attractive people on earth!

GEMINI - Irresistible
Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners Very Good in the you know where... Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE.

CANCER - The Cutie
MOST AMAZING KISSER. Very high appeal. Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak. Spontaneous. Great telling stories. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to.

LEO - The Lion
Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to have fun. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found.

VIRGO - The One that Waits
Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Loud. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. The one and only.

LIBRA - The Lame One
Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! However, not the kind of person you want to mess with... you might end up crying...

SCORPIO - The Addict
EXTREMELY adorable. Intelligent. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Energetic. Predict future. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want. Attractive. Easy going. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Romantic. Caring.

SAGITTARIUS - The Promiscuous One
Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in the you know where..!!! Not the kind of person you want to mess with- you might end up crying.

CAPRICORN - The Passionate Lover
Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Predict future. Irresistible. Loves being in long relationships. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Cool. Loves to own Gemini's in sports. Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Smart.

AQUARIUS - Does It In The Water Trustworthy. Attractive. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being in long-term relationships. Extremely energetic. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out.

PISCES - The Partner for Life
Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. High appeal. Has the last word. Good to find, hard to keep. Fun to be around. Extremely weird but in a good way. Good Sense of Humor!!! Thoughtful. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet.

mama's day!

happy mother's day!!!

@ centro klang

the mamasss and the daughters!

oooo....

received this email from ang bout all the horoscope and their REAL personalities...

GEMINI - Irresistible Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners.
Very Good in the you know where... *hoho...*Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE.


see??
I'm IRRESISTABLE!!
wahahahhahah...
interesting...

conggrrrraaatttsss!!

to mandy:

after all the hard work, i guess you can finally say.
I've finished it.

all the effing effort and hard work...
all the sweats and tears...
the good times, the not-so-good times and the stewpid really bad times...

you went thru it all...

love u gurl...
you've graduated!!!

best wishes...
from..yen...

counting down...

counting down the last of my days of agony...
the last part of my semester5....

Monday- Media Law & Ethics Exam *edited 28/4 at3.15pm*
one heck of a weird headache-ey exam man!
Tuesday- Advertising Photography Presentation *edited 29/4 at 5.45pm*
i would tink it went pretty well~*winks!*
Wednesday- Advertising Creativity Presentation *edited 30/4 at 4.45pm*
hmmmm...headache~aihs... i hate long presentations when i'm the 2nd last to go~
Friday- Research Methodology Presentation (am) *edited 2/5 at 6.45pm*
dang! kena bang for some tiny winy mistake...haih...
- Public Relations Exam (pm) *edited 2/5 at 6.45pm*
haihhh....bad...sticky sticky...narin nt functioning...dunno how to do la!!! luckily mid term and assignment got do...

after this...
internships....

-3niGma-

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望着四道墙，
对着天花板发呆时…
在想……

有时真的怀疑，
自己当初硬要闯入私立学院、硬要拿广告设计…
是不是选错了呢？
还有半年就毕业了，下学期就开始实习了。
真的行吗？

这个圈子里的人都好现实啊！
我还能撑多久啊？
没日没夜的…什么都看关系、网络…看外表…看“好处”！
我真的不想要做“坏人”啊～
每次都要带着面具做人。
真的好累。
真的。


真的有“行行出状元”吗？


眼看身边同学朋友一个个出来了，出国了…
什么chemical engineering, industrial engineering, mechanical engineering, pharmacist, science的。。。
自己文凭以前11A,1B，跟人家说我读设计，给人家笑到脸都红。
被人家当面骂我傻，骂我笨，看不起。
好难受。
人家说做广告这个圈，根本不需要读什么书。
我成绩酱，去读个engineering或pharmacy麻好罗！

看见朋友们个个过得那么好，
个个读到那么耿。
心里有点酸酸的…
感觉到自己好象一无所有的。

当初选择追自己的梦，是好事吗？
放弃做人家的扯线娃娃，对吗？
假如那时乖乖听话，好好读家人要得科系。
现在会不会更好呢？


假如当初是选对了，
为何现在要走完了感觉还是好象没方向的？

难道真的走错路了？

semester 5

wat allie said struck me at point blank jus now.
yea...we are at sem5 already, i've been in college for 2 years already.
gosh. in a month time i'll be in my internship.
and in another 3 months would be my final semester for this grueling diploma for ad design.

its been a colourful journey
really has been.
being a science student, adjusting, striving...
stressing...mampusing... everything...
oh the cursing and ranting and wailing and complaining.
wasnt tat bad was it?
wasnt at all.
:)

this is one of those time when i say
no regrets.

mampus-ing

whoa....headache..massive...

last few weeks of sem 5....
mampus...

stressing~~

rushing asses..... also pening pasal internship...

ish...
did i mention my menses are here too?!
oh the horror....
tummy cramps....
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~~!!!!

*runs and bang wall!*

不是男朋友的男朋友 the boyfriend that isn't your boyfriend

i found this in a friend's blog.
after reading it. i realised it does make sense.
it really does!
:)

for those of my banana friends, i'll translate 4 u la...

每一个女孩的身边都有一个不是男朋友的男朋友
beside every girl, there's always a boyfriend who isn't the boyfriend.

但是，为了什么原因你们没能在一起？
but then, why is it that both of you aren't together?!

也许他为了朋友之间的义气，不能追你。
maybe it was because of another friend, he had to let you go.

也许为了顾及家人的意见 ，你们没有在一起。
maybe it was because his family didn't agree, you all had to separate.

也许为了出国深造，他没有要你等他。
maybe he went overseas, and he didn't want you to wait.

也许你们相遇太早，还不懂得珍惜对方。
maybe you all met each other too early, both of you didn't know how to appreciate each other.

也许你们相遇太晚，你们身边已经有了另一个人。
or maybe you all met too late, they already have someone.

也许你回头太迟，对方已不再等待
maybe it was because you turned back too late, and he gave up on waiting.

也许你们彼此在捉摸对方的心，而迟迟无法跨出界线。
maybe you guys just spent all your time guessing, no one took the step forward.

不过即使你们没在一起，你们还是保持了朋友的关系。
no matter wat was the reason , you all still remained friends.

但是你们心底清楚，对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心。
deep down both of you knew, that you cared more than just friends, just a little bit more.

即使不能跟他名正言顺的牵着手逛街，你们还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。
eventho you all didn't succeed as a couple, you all are still as close as ever.

他有喜欢的人，你口头上会帮他追，心里却不是很清楚你是不是真的希望他追到。
if he likes someone, you'll help him and giv him advice, eventho deep down ur nt sure if you're doin the right thing or not.

他遇到困难时，你会尽你所能的帮他，不会计较谁又欠了谁。
when any of you had troubles, the other will jump straight in. it doesnt matter who in whose debt.

男女朋友吃醋了，你会安抚他们说你和他只是朋友，但你心中会有那么一丝的不确定。
when your boyfriend gets jealous, you'll always defend him, saying that ur just friends, eventho there is always a sense of doubt.

每个人这辈子，心中都有过这幺一个特别的朋友，很矛盾的行为。
in your whole lifetime, theres always this friend who is really speacial, its really confusing.

一开始你不甘心只做朋友的，但久了，突然发现这样最好。
at first, you'll think its nt fair just to be friends, but after a while, you'll learn that being friends is the best solution.

你宁愿这样关心他，总好过你们在一起而有天会分手。
you rather care for him jus like this everyday, den to risk breaking up.

你宁愿做他的朋友，彼此不会吃醋，才可以真的无所不谈。
you rather jus being friends, where there isnt a need to be jealous at each other at talk about anything.

特别是这样，你还是知道，他永远会关心你的。
only like that, you'll be cartain that he will always care for u. forever.

做不成男女朋友，当他那个特别的朋友，有什么不好呢？
you now you're special in each other's heart, wheres the problem in that?

很多的感情，都因为一厢情愿，最后连朋友都当不成了
in alot of cases, you lose your best friend when it doesnt work out.

常常觉得惋惜，可惜一些本来很好的友情
feeling that its really a pity, coz u were originally best friends.

最后却因为对方的一句喜欢你，如果你没有反应，
jus because of a dumb confession, and you couldn't accept it

这一段友情似乎也难以维持下去，这也难怪有些人会因此不肯踏出这一步。
thats seemed like the end of your friendship, its hard to blame ppl who decide to stick to just being friends.

因为这就像是一场赌注，表白了之后不是成了男女朋友，要不就连朋友都当不成了。
its like a gamble, when u fail to move on, you lose everything.

有些事不是你能预料的，或许对方不在意，你们还可以是朋友，但却已经不如从前的好.
sometimes u jus cant anticipate everything, maybe you all can still be friends, but things will never be the same.

its really common.
risk ruining a friendship.
special friends that u'll noe will never be ur partner.
you'll realise in a lot of times, we'll choose the safer choice.
we'll rather jus watch the other one from afar.
watching over them, guarding them.
coz that all you can ever be.
jus a friend.

sad la...
but it makes sense...
of at least i tink it does la..
wat bout u?

friends~

friends.

i thought of ...... tday.

henry
its been so long since u left. really miss talking to u.one of my best friends. hope ur doin well over there. winter's comin... dun catch cold. take care.

siewkuan
in 15 years time, will u still be there to be my kid's aunt?time flies so many has changed. but wat about us?

mandy
haven't heard from u in a long time. how u coping? hang on k? i know ur stressed. i'm here ya?

lydia
haven't seen or heard from u in ages!! miss ur hugs. dowanna be strangers the nex time we meet.

i saw ......... tday.

siewkuan
missed talking to u. but it does feel like we're drifting away. haih. 3 kingdoms was good. sad show tho. haihs.

syed
god i haven't seen u in ages. scary. wats with the massive amount of bulu's?! i like the handsome clean looking syed! now too much hair d,dunno where to look at.... =.="

ang
u've changed too. thanks for the hugs! ur hugs are the best. take care k? everytime wake up so early...

goh
funny as usual la... damn sarcastic tho. thanks for ur help. love the yumchas sessions. ur the best la. fella cant answer my question without "bombing" ppl wan. "wat u busy wit now?" "business la" "wat business?" "sell chiccken! u wanna advertise for us a?" swt....O.O"

karthik
thanks for jumping in when i needed help k?*hugs!* haven't seen u for so long, i forgot wat a great person u actually are.


today was...satisfying...
:)

caryn

transparent

we need to clear things up.

we really do.

i dun get it.

aimless.

pointless.

hypocritical.

is it worth it?

i really dun know.

is this how its gonna be after 2 years of friendship?

ouch

It hurts.It really does.Ppl can be really selfish sometimes huh?Guess it’ll always be that way.Mayb I’m jus too naïve.And u said that I’m the realistic wan.How ironic is tat?Y must ppl lie?I simply dun get it.Is it that they feel intimidated?or is it that they’re jus too selfish?Y the hell must ppl lie?I tot u were different.I thought we were different.Mayb I’m jus too gullible.To tink that we were on leveled planes.To actually think tat “yunno wat, it aint a competition”.Guess I was wrong.Cant blame u.ppl are selfish. Its always a dog eat dog world. It always have been.I’m jus dumb.Who am I kidding?You have no idea how mad I was.I blasted the radio and I went back at 130 km/hour .Even if u knew how mad I was,That is nthg compared to how hurt I felt.I never hold anything back from u.And yet tday I find myself being mislead, in fact betrayed.I was happy that u found ur place in a reputable company.I was abit jealous too coz I wasn’t doin as well.But in the end, I was glad things worked out for u.I dun get whats goin on in ur mind right now. Or y do u tink u have to hide it from me.why must you go around me then?I jus dun get. Frankly, it hurts to much. I dun tink I’ve taken advantage on ur situation before. I dun think I’ve done a anything to u to have deserved this.

I treat u with respect. I treat u with dignity. I treat u like a companion. Dare I say it I treated u as one of my best friends. Come to tink of it, I dun tink u’ve ever trusted me. Dun do stuff to ppl which u dun wan ppl to do to u.

it’s the basic.

The very core.

It hurts.

It really does.


Deep down inside, I suddenly feel broken. Alone.
I use to count my lucky stars coz having u around was wat kept me sane in coll.
*ironic aint it?*

maybe u jus dun need me around anymore.

Leaving

2/4/2008

we celebrate your bday.

we celebrate your new beginning.

a new start.

a new life.

goin to college.

it is hard...accepting the fact that we're all grown up now..

and that we're goin separate ways.

remeber when we 1st met?

your were jus form2.

its amazing how time flies.

gosh...

you came with such spunk and faith.
you have optimism in everything!
evrytime whenever you're around...
we end up laughing non stop.
having you around was like sunshine it self.
you light up every situation.

its been so long simce the last time we gathered in the same room.

i realised our group is getting smaller too.

missing kelly, caiqin, cai ning,henry...

this post is for all of you.

wishing u all the best no matter where u all are.

do take care.

you know we'll always be with u no matter wat ok?

*hugs!*

-yuan zi jia-

*a family we are, tied together by fate*

yen

no brainer~

i'm bored beyond my brains man~
help~

i cant sleep...
yet my work are piling..

its a mystery aint it?
lols~

i went for an interview tday..
*leaping around in joy*
finally...
it was pretty ok...
far tho...
kelana jaya..
if i were to work there...
sei jor...
my petrol..
ka-chiiing!


see 1st la...
haih...

*hugs!