this last few weeks.

talking in the car as usual.

i hate mascara eyes...*pain~*
found amah's handkerchief.

allie scratched her face. *i tell everyone i whacked her* wahahahha... abuse victim.

saw a pretty sunset while goin home.

went to the movies for a horror movie "the messenger"... ate a HUGE strawberry lollipop!

jap photo shoot for assignment. i pulak syok sendiri!
after the jap shoot there was the most beautiful sight!
8tv reality show audition.
staying up late doin posters for Art Direction.

:: enigma ::

tagged!!

LAYER 1 : ON THE OUTSIDE
Name : Caryn
Birth Date : 2nd June 1988.
Current Status : erm.... "taken"?
Eye Colour : dark brown
Right of lefty : rightttyyyy!!!

LAYER 2 : ON THE INSIDE
My Heritage : Cina Moiiiii
My Fears : being alone
My Weaknesses : urrm... broad shouldered, big, macho dudes? woot! akakka... *ahem* erm... DOGS would be my worst weakness.
My Perfect Pizza : no pineapples pls... more meat, more mushrooms! POUR the CHEEEESE!!!!

LAYER 3 : YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW
My thoughts first waking up : din sleep last night... shit! wat time now?!
My bedtime : generally... i sleep ALL THE TIME if i can.
My most missed memory : highschool days.. ponteng to the form 6 blocks... water fights!!!

LAYER 4 : MY PICK
Pepsi or Coke : COKE laaaaaaaaaaaaa....
McDonald's or Burger King : McD
Single or grouped dates : Single... i prefer alone time unless the other groupies are special peeps then ok lo!
Adidas or Nike : Nike... definitely
Tea or Nestea : Tea
Chocolate or Vanilla : Choco latttteee
Cappuccino or Coffee : Coffee

LAYER 5 : DO YOU...
Smoke : no.
Curse : erm.... abit.. quitting... quiiiitttingggggg!!!
Take a shower : du~uh!!!
Have a crush : eh? LOLX!
Think you've been in love : haha...do the math!
Go to school : in college la...
Want to get married : urm.. guess so...
Believe in yourself : teehee... i keep trying to tell myself that.. aint working babeh!

LAYER 6 : IN THE PAST
Drank alcohol : yep!
Gone to the mall : of course!! swt!!
Been on stage : yes
Eaten sushi : oooo... yummm... yessss!!!
Dyed your hair : yaaaa....

LAYER 7 : HAVE YOU EVER
Played a stripping game :erm... yea... but i was on a lucky streak!!!
Changed who you were to fit in : hell noooo!

LAYER 8 : AGE YOU'RE HOPING
To be married : err.... 28? 29?

LAYER 9 : IN A GUY...
Best eye colour : hmmm... black or brown? dun care, as long as nt sleepy eyes! i like big eyes!
Best hair colour : the natural one... dark brown i presume...
Short hair or long hair : short please...

DLAYER 10 : WHAT WERE YOU DOING...
A minute ago : copying the tag from lydia!!!
Hour ago : jus gt back home... errr... taking off my clothes? kicking off my shoes?!
4.5 hours ago : baru habis art direction... in a mood to bitch bout CERTAIN sumone!!!
1 month ago : tak ingat la!!!!!! 26th march... what the crap was i doin?
Year ago : erm..... getting to know new frens in coll??!! akakakak

LAYER 11 : FINISH THE SENTENCES...
I love : bloody RED!!!
I feel : HOT!!!! y klang so freak arse hot?
I hate : lazy ppl tat can put up hell of a great act!
I hide : eh? errm..... my lacy pink thongs?
I miss : cartoonz hang out time!!
I need : to bath right noooowww!!! daddy!! come out!! i wanna bath!!!

LAYER 12 : TAG 5 PEOPLE
mandy
stephy
nash
chee shin
ke xin

middle of the night

in the middle of the night.
staring at the screen with my tear washed eyes.
hopeless.
speechless.
i jus wanted to type it all out.
i can hear u crying on the other side.
u r as lost as i am.
feeling deserted and abandoned.

u tell me tat i look happier with him....
u tell me tat u can nvr give me wat i need....
u tell me tat mayb he's a better fit?
u tell me tat he comes from the same world i did...
so does it mean tat he'll make me any happier?

all of the sudden...
these few months were...
full of insecurities...
full of instabilities...
when will it end?
anytime...
feels like it...
theres not closure...

mayb u tink too much...
mayb it'll pass...
mayb its jus jealousy...
mayb its just a phase...
i dunno....

it'll nvr be the same again...
for the better? or the worst?

shit.

people are diff...
i get that..
but why so different?
i just dun understand...

at 1st i thought we were alike...
in so many ways...
why now?

its hard...
i cant seem to accept it...
it feels like i'm losing u...
to what i dun noe...

as cliche as it seems "people change"...
really?
mayb u did?
maybe.... u were always like tat... i jus hadnt noticed...

why must u be so selfish?
saving urself isnt always in the context.

tough week...
huge workload.
weird mates.
worst cooperation.
tired of driving.
sick of the computer screen.
pissed at my lagging cpu.
hate the pressure.
afraid of the consequences.
i still wan my 4.0 gpa!
lask of sleep.
too many.....arguements with... everyone...
i miss my high school frens.
i hate being alone.

back to the whole pms-emo-depressed-stressed-tension mode....

:: enigma ::

ipoh photos.

the place

the morning of the wedding

the mountains the innocence

the beauty

the colours

the wedding

the anxious groomthe beautiful bridethe sweetest moment... the happy couple! the temple buddhist wedding the wedding dinner

the people

li ching and me! ironing our outfits! unpacking in ipoh!

chatting late at night...
the wedding day, early in the mornin... our dutiful driver! kept us laughing the whole journey! girlies unite!!! one of em aint a gurl tho! *winks!* at teacher's house
the wedding dinner n crew!
vivian's hair so freaking cute!

the journey

:: faith ::

::3niGma:

i hate the hosp...

nthg to say.. the title says it all...
i despise the smell, the look, the surrounddings of the freak house tat is the hospital..


:: 3niGma ::

the wedding

hectic weekend....

friday....

had the auditions/shooting thingy for 8tv in the morn... lame~

it was just tat they needed free labour to become "kelefeh" for sum reality show.....

so as scholars, we're "obliged" to be (quote allie) EXPLOITED!!!

haih... so and so... it was bad la. boring too!

haiiiih... had lunch wit allie den we went to walk walk while waiting for betty coz her shoot was later....

went to walk in this thai fair thingy and soon found ourselves buying triple small pouch!! orange for allie, green for betty amd red for me...

so yea.. we had our own fun la....

LAUGH OF THE DAY? the lingerie shop... wit allie!! some auntie wouldn't let me buy c cup bra!!! ish!! *smacks head* i had to flash the auntie to convince her tat i freaking need a c cup bra la!!!

rushed back home after boring Moral Studies... whoa... sudah lambat... changed! ate! run to the car! and we're off to ipoh!!!!! reached ipoh at around 11pm-12am.... ate there... teacher rented the hse nex door to accomodate the 8gurls, 4 guys, and our ever ready driver!!!

Saturday...

woke up early morn, after breakfast we, the gurls went to the bride's hse!

and of course the whole process starts all over... the groom trying to get in, the gurls making life really hard and compli for them... haih.....

but it was nevertheless, still awesome...

after the hse wedding we went to the temple coz our teachers decided tat they wanted an authentic buddhist wedding...

did i mention how beautiful our bride was?

we couldnt help but smile... and say cheese!!

after that we rested for afew hours... then it was the night dinner.... whoa!! the tiredness.... we rested for 3-4 hours... den the whole crew is up on its feet again..runnign around...pa system... rehearsal... whoa.... pening~~~K.O.-ed before i even reached the hse... tiredzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..........

sunday...

dimsum for breakfast!!!! then we went to the temple for some "cultural exchange"... visit visit la...

after that we went for lunch at some desert hse....

this is how we look like... tired... chan liao~... eye bags and blurto......

after that we went to "kek lok cave" which btw was beautifull...shall upload more photos soon... camera not wit me...

IPOH

not many word can be used to describe ipoh as i see it...

everywhere we went, as long as we were on the road... there would be the mountains beside us... it was beautiful and breath taking....it was quiet... it was clear... it was soothing...a few words t describe ipoh:

... tranquil...

...peace...

...innocence...

~beauty~

more pictures to be uploaded soon...

all the above from the courtesy of my w710i....