Wednesday, June 23

damansara


staying with bro for the moment.
coz klang's bridge is killing me.

at times, rare times... i do still enjoy my bro's company.
:)
watching TV at night.
going for breakfast with him or dinner if i balik awal.

i jus realized on the sunday that I've moved in.
I do have some canggih manggih undeveloped packing & cleaning skills.
:P
skills which i have ignored most of my life.
but i tink i did a pretty OK job for the room la... :)
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but all the cleaning and everything.
my sinus came back.
urgh!
every morning and night.
*sniff sniff*

:(
i'll sneeze until i can feel my double bunk bed shaking~
scared later runtuh.
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everything's pretty calm now...
its comfortable.

not extremely good.
yet... no drama so far.

I jus need to absorb myself in work and the PRESENT.
it'll all be fine.

its gonna be.
the world's not gonna stop or explode simply because of a person.
right?

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i am trying to move on.
staying in damansara has been a good thing thus far.
being away has been therapeutic.
Tina being in Singapore has given me awesome perspective.
Sometimes we just need to be brave and walk away.
even if it hurts sometimes... a little bit....or more...
but the world is still revolving.

why pause and stuck?
in the past?
what about the future...?
what about the present.

it is true that we should be living in the present. doing everything we have for today. :)
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eagerly awaiting the day...
when all these will be over.
when the sun will shine.

"what u saying?"
OF COZ THE SUN WILL COME OUT LA!

:)
correct or not?

Monday, June 14

结束,也是一个开始吗?

我把自己关起来只留下一个阳台
每当天黑推开窗我对着夜幕发呆
看着往事
一幕一幕
再次演出你我的爱

我把电视机打开听着听着别人的对白
也许那些故事可以给我一个交代
你要的爱
我学不来
眼睁睁看情变坏
人怔怔看情感慨

不能给你未来
我还你现在
安静结束也是另一种对待
当眼泪留下来
伤已超载
分开也是另一种明白

我给你
最后的疼爱是手放开
不要一张双人床中间隔着一片海
感情的污点就留给时间慢慢漂白
把爱收进胸前左边口袋
最后的疼爱是手放开
不想用言语拉扯所以选择不责怪
感情就像候车月台
有人走就有人来
我的心是一个站牌
写着等待

我把收音机打开听着别人的失败
哽咽的声音仿佛诉说着相同悲哀
你的依赖
还在胸怀
我无法轻易推开
我无法随便走开
感情中专心的人容易被伤害

just me

Saturday, June 12

onwards and upwards!

Tell me...

how do you pick something up...
grew so attached to it, love it, live with it...
and only to find 1 day... it's never suppose to be yours at all?

how to do live with that?
how to you move on?
can time really heal it all?
will it ever pass?


ok.
stop.
too much.

*rewind*

people say we'll meet alot of people as we grow up.
people that come and go.
people that came and left.
its better to have them in our lives.
then to have never gotten the chance to meet them at all.

he taught me how to be myself.
he taught me to appreciate art.
he taught me how to compromise.
and he taught me how to love.

not a single person per say.
a combination of "passerby" i might say.
people that came and left a mark.

some still hurts now.
some have already been part of some awesome memories.

i'm a little lost in the sense of what i want now.
everything is suppose to be NOT as complicated as we think they seem remember?
life's suppose to be simple.
even if it gets tough,
just remember not to lose yourself in the midst of finding your way.
the journey is the main part of the adventure anyways.

right??

yea...

i tink so.

:)
*finger crossed*


Friday, June 4

Tale as old as time

Disney's movies were my childhood memories.
I wasn't watching anything else. O.o
I remember the 2 pc CDs of Mulan, Prince of Egypt, Toy Story...
and of course the big black VHS tapes of Pinocchio, Sleeping Beauty, The Little Mermaid, Lion King and finally Beauty & The Beast.

I can't remember from when i stopped watching these Disney movies.
Probably when i stopped believing in Fairy Tales, Happily Ever Afters and Dream Come Trues.
When u start to get frustrated of how the real world is NOT a disney world, I guess that was when i started to not believe. Simply because they won't happen anyway.

Beauty and the Beast was not my fav. Haha.
Maybe coz i was only 3 yrs old when it came out.
and the visualization of the movie scared me a little when I was younger.
But mostly, I din like Beauty and the Beast (last time) because I did not want The Beast to change into the HANDSCOME man. I was like " why la always become pretty boi again de??!!!" (somemore he was BLONDEEE!!!)
hehe... sorry. I kinda like the beast more, fur, passion, BIGness of him and how awkward he was (yet how gentle he was) with Belle.

So yea... sejak dulu dulu aku boycott Beauty & the Beast! :P

BUT DISNEY SOUNDTRACKS!!! thats a whole new story.
I love them! every single one of them!

Maybe because I boycotted Beauty & The Beast when i was a kid, the soundtrack Tale as Old as Time didn't had any significant impact on me. I listened to it alot still, just never took noticed of it enough.

Unexpected encounter with this song again recently. :)
As the melody flowed seamlessly into my head, i can't help but realized the lyrics of the song.
something unexpected. taking a risk, taking a chance, embracing change.
:) nothing is as plain as how its seem, yet it's not as complicated that you'd think it is.


Tale as old as time
true as it can be
barely even friends
then some body bends
unexpectedly

Just a little change
small to say the least
both a little scared
neither one prepared
beauty and the beast

Ever just the same
ever a surprise
ever as before
ever just as sure
as the sun will rise

Tale as old as time
tune as old as song
bitter sweet and strange
finding you can change
learning you were wrong
certain as the sun
rising in the east

Tale as old as time
song as old as rhyme
Beauty and the beast x2
off to the cupboardwith you chip its past your bed time

Sunday, May 23

slowly

slowly, it hurts less.
slowly, u learn to get use to it.
slowly, u learn to let go.
slowly, u learn to not hold on that much.
slowly, work and friends comforts you.
slowly, work fills in the void.
slowly, work aint that bad.
slowly, u'd need new people.
slowly, u'll try new experiences.
slowly... slowly... it'll all be ok.

but when will "SLOWLY" really come?

Monday, May 17

Henry *wahahahaha*

it's amazing how u keep me company during rainy days.
:)


remember JUNE 2011!!!!

Sunday, May 16

forward pleaseeee

Thinking all you need is there.
Building faith on love is worst.
Empty promises will wear.
I know.
And know when all is gone.
There is nothing to say.
Tell them all I know now.
Shout it from the roof top.
Write it on the sky line.
All we had is gone now.
Tell them I was happy.
And my heart is broken.
All my scars are open.
Tell them what I hoped would be....
Impossible, impossible.


ending something. is it really about letting go? or moving on?
what about the happy days? they're all gone now?
what about the unhappy days? they're forgiven now?
how do we clear the air?
how do we move forward from here?

i dun admit it.
it still hurts.
interesting enough.
i tot i've grown up.
but sometimes... in the middle of a cold quiet night.
you'd wake up feeling as empty as i do.
wat do u do then?

Monday, May 10

stoneeeeee...


yes aku stoneeeeee...
macamana?

obviously nthg to entertain me tnite.

i tink deep down.
i still wished it was.
deep deep down,
i stil hoped it would've.
deep deep down,
i'm sorry

Sunday, May 9

Swing!

I love Jazz.
I love Swing even more.

Sometimes I opt for Alternative rock.
But nothing puts a smile on my face other than Swing!

Dream a Little Dream of Me.

Stars shining bright above you
Night breezes seem to whisper "i love you"
Birds singing in the sycamore trees
Dream a little dream of me

Say nighty-night and kiss me
Just hold me tight and tell me you'll miss me
While I'm alone and blue as can be
Dream a little dream of me

Stars fading but I linger on dear
Still craving your kiss
I'm longin' to linger till dawn dear
Just saying this

Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you
Sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you
But in your dreams whatever they be
Dream a little dream of me

(instrumental break)

Stars shining up above you
Night breezes seem to whisper "i love you"
Birds singin' in the sycamore trees
Dream a little dream of me

Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you
Sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you
But in your dreams whatever they be
Dream a little dream of me

Yes, dream a little dream of me


happy mama's day Angie!

dear mama,

for the days when i din clean my room,
and had my stuff left everywhere.
for the days when i promised to help,
but end up upstairs snoozing the next min.
for the days when i yelled back,
for the days when i gave your the cold shoulders.
for the odd ball boyfriends,
for the days when I wake up from crying and refuse to talk to you...

You and I, we're not the best pair.
You and I, we're never the closest kind.
You and I, we have so much more to work on.
I promise you I will.
I promise you I will try.
I know you love me.
Please remember that deep down, deep deep deep deep deep down,
I love you too.

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today...
was interesting.
:P to say the least.
Chris, the oldest son decided to come over and play masak masak.
we had...
Chilli (all sizes & shapes), onions, garlic, long beans, prawns, fish and tomato.
aiming to cook, LOVE-ing sambal prawn for mama's day.

So yea,
mom n dad went out.
me n bro started messing around in mom's kitchen.
He started chopping onions, shallots, garlic, tomato.
Ended up "suggesting" to use the blender. =.=

FUUU~UH!!! in action wehhh!!!!!

I chopped long beans, and started washing the prawns.

If you do not know yet,
I suck in the kitchen.
I stared at the bowl of clear greyish prawns, wondering "how to wash a?"
den we both started to peel the prawns....
EEEEeeeee..... geli.
coz lembik. =.=



hehe. den we waited for mom to baliks.
but she din... for the longest time.
=.=
her "15 mins" became like 1.5 hours.
We got damned hungry.
so i started to open the fridge.
found cabbage and "frosted" carrot.
obviously we havent cooked alot.
so kor n i started chopping the veges,
curi-ing mom's minced pork.
and cooked up vege!!
:)
Den I cooked rice. :)
Called up sis (the mamas) to balik and join the fun too!!

the Outcome... was not bad.
Eventho our lunch was only ready at 3 smthg pm.
LOL.
dad gt so hungry he ate goreng pisang. O.o
mommy came back!
I'm nt sure if she was mad at us messing up the kitchen or jus too happy laughing at us screaming at each other.
"not like tat laaa!!"
"not cut like that laaaa!"
"like thisssss..."
"no laaaa!!!"

mom thought it was only 4 of us (kor , me , pa, ma)
den cynthia came back. Woots!!!
after abit cindy came back too!! with evaine n alan.

can see mom like spying at the door...
"whose that???"
"she gt come meh???"
ahahhahaha (laughing away)

while sisters teased us and mocked our cooking.
NOT BAD WERT!
finish oso ma!
den we had some rum & raisin chocolate...
Kit Kat Chocolate Ice Cream!!!
and lastly...
some awesome German beer.
:)
It was Fawesome!!! (Fucking Awesome!)
Dinner was yummy fat, meaty bacon with eggs and toasted bread at cynthia's hse.
with cheese and coffee and lettuce
and more chocolates and ending up with fruit juice.

*burp!

it was an eventful day.
I'm tired.
it was fun tho. :)






Friday, May 7

him

she once met a boy,
who loved her with all his heart.
he'd give her everything and anything,
as long as he can, he will provide, care and protect her.
he really did loved her.
he really did love her alot.

and they grew up,
they grew apart.
its not that they didn't care, they did.
but what to do?
they'd argue anyway.

it hurts.
it really did.
they stayed on anyways.
for love? for memories? for happy times?
no one knows.
i doubt they knew too.

then one day, he finally decided to not be hurt anymore.
she decided that perhaps there are other priorities they both should attend to.
as hard as it was,
i guess.
they just were not meant for each other huh?

he grew up, he manned up.
he took his responsibilities and promised to work on his career and life.
she stopped whining and crying, we all need to grow up some day.

Tuesday, May 4

Malaysian Artistes For Unity Here In My Home

i believe I've posted it before.
But i'll do it again.

simply coz this song cheers me up. :)

btw, i had this HUGEEEE crush on bad boy malay singer awie when i was in high school. :)
wahahahahaha. dunno y tho. yea... the dude with the rough voice and long hair, almost rempit like. :P

sobs

fuck weh i wanna watch IP MAN2 oh so badly.

Monday, April 26

Sunday, April 25

the graduation

as i fell into bed at 4am that night before.
after ironing my jubah and this ridiculously frilly shirt mom wanted me to wear for graduation.
my mind wondered as i looked back into the experience which started March 2006.

college; not form6.
advertising ; not law.
so many choices made.
so many decisions taken.

friends; life.
assignments; hanging out.
from the eddy(s), betty, allie and calvin.
for some reason i cant recall this adorable indian girl's name we met in sem1.
she left after sem1.
eddy(s) & calvin too soon after sem 3.
and then it was only A, B & C.
Alicia, Betty & Caryn. :)

chilling at 1st floor cafe (now the exam halls) =.=
rotting at the printing shop in summit.
catching RM5 bucks movies in summit.
Temaning each other (mostly betty's) shopping trips in summit.
breakfast with allie,
lunch with the duo.
dinner with betty.
the malay shop with RM3.90 nasi lemak + coffee/tea set.
point B! shopping for the "C cup bra" O.o
McDonalds; allie always picks out her pickle in her beef burger.
Mady's; she'd pick out the mushrooms in the mushroom rice set!
KFC; betty loved KFC.
drinking soup for lunch sometimes too!

how we'd chill in the 3rd floor's mac room with Mr Lim n Mr Nizam.
how we blindly yelled and giggled in the darkroom doing silkscreen.
spraying the frames in the toilet.
"panning" at the bus stop with god knows how many mamats staring at us wondering wtf we're doing.

the malay boys during videography class were awesome.
fiqs (she's a chick btw), wan, amir and so many more.
alif, zul complaining about their sore asses after riding to shah alam for a shoot.
so many memories.
running everywhere.

DUREX! what a topic it was.
the subject of preference. i dunno why?
copywriting finals Use a Condom.
Videography finals about STDs
Presentation skills finals about Durex too.
it was fun tho.

running everywhere chasing down glass bottle coke!
lugging 345 bottles in my car and everywhere.
miniature museum, gawd how i wanted to cry.
thank god for april n henry for their expertise.
the coke shoot, filix n lydia drinking hot coke in the hot sun;
posing for my shoots at 2pm in the afternoon.
:P

Prison of Art.
the previous grad showcase.
chenny, alex, sunsun, yy, soosoo, tarquin, aya ; Mr Jye!
the bunch of ppl which i met much later yet bonded so strongly too.
bunch so people so sincere and true.
we'd giggle the nights thru playing with leftover ice, going on trips to camerons.
as we talked about love, bonds, trust, friends, ex-s, sex and gawd i cant rmb any more.

after graduation, i started another chapter at LB.
tho graduation came late, 1 yr late.
seeing old friends. yumi, serene, joyce, cyndi, kylie, natalie, zhanhong, ANDRY!, hendy.
:)
it was still nice.

as everyone all dressed up, with their mortar boards positioned nicely.
checking buttons, "how do i look?" :)
checking in the mirror, checking each others hair and look.
smile! you walk up to shake hand n get the fake scroll.
pose for the camera. as proud parents grinned from ear to ear.
i saw this auntie super gungho.
sneaked infront with her digital camera, zooming 10x with the kuchirat screen.
hands shaking as she aims at her son walking up the stage.
she smiled at the grainy, blurred out shot. Proud! :)
when his daughter walked up,
proud dad with this adorable bow tie, stood up.
smiled as he clapped so loudly.
bobbing heads as you see the lines on graduate waited beside the stage.
waving at their parents. checking if everyone's there.

as we moved on to other chapters of our life.
the experience (to me at least) was indeed memorable.
yea, i gt 11As for spm.
but advertising was my choice, i'm pretty proud of that!
advertising design, the whole package of experience. I'm nt regretting a bit.
ok la... mayb a lil (the part where i din get to go on for a degree)
but everything happens for a reason.
what din kill u, will only make u stronger.
or else, i wouldnt be in LB now would i?

but thats a diff chapter of my life now.
another chapter i'll conquer and elaborate another time. :)

for now, YES I've Graduated!
woots!
when they annouced this year's top student.
3.99 cgpa?
ok la i was being rather kiasu.
ahhahaha. buthen c'mon 0.01 from full 4.0 flat!!
impossible! impossibleee!!

hehhehhe.
as Doraemon Mr. Lim said, "arts too subjective" :)

will update with photos if i get any la!

Friday, April 23

DAN the MAN

hahhah.
make sure you watch till the every end!

weeeee~ donnie yen!

i have a...
humongous HUGE crush on...
Donnie Yen!

ever since highschool!
or primary school...
O.o

weeeeee... excited!
Ip Man 2!


*drools*
Hou Yao Yenggggg aaaa!!


:)

aaaa...
macho nye~


--- lalalalalalal---

Wednesday, April 21

Surreal

everything seems so surreal.
i wonder if its a good thing or a bad thing.

productivity has been superduper max.
however mentality has been down low.
I'm TIRED!!!

:(


*on a separate note Mooky's introduced my otaks to LMFAO's music.
which has been thumping in my ear ever since.
I LIKE~~~

(i shake, i move, and the girls get hot... )

Wednesday, April 14

25 for Haiti

great song. Love the new twist.
loving the new rap.

Rapping - LL Cool J, Will-I-Am, Snoop Dogg, Busta Rhymes, Swizz Beatz]
We all need somebody that we can lean on
when you wake up look around and see that your dreams gone
when the earth quakes we’ll help you make it through the storm
when the floor breaks a magic carpet to stand on
we are the World united by love so strong
when the radio isn’t on you can hear the songs
a guided light on the dark road your walking on
a sign post to find the dreams you thought was gone
someone to help you move the obstacles you stumbled on
someone to help you rebuild after the rubble’s gone
we are the World connected by a common bond
Love the whole planet sing it along


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