official.

its official...
i'm in Damansara d....
went to my brother's hse around 1pm...

holy moly my brother is one really dirty messy bugger!
we sweep sweep floor...mop mop...wipe this wipe that... wash toilet (yucks!!!)... cleaned EVERYTHING!!!!

AFTER 5 GRUELLING HOURS...
i'm officially shifted in.
i'm currently staying in Crimson Damansara... opposite NiuZeXui....


my room look like this now...
:)

i sleep on that green tilam on the right...
my clothes are in the transparent plastic boxes..
and my ironed work clothes are hanging from the window!

so yea...

i'm in damansara 5 days a week now...

and i'm on a very tight budget! (pokai liao)

so if anyone wans to belanja me dinner...

do call me!!

*bout the wonderful bday celebration, ooo.... i thanks you all for a wonderful bday!!

i'll upload the pix nex week,

coz this week too busy with the internship and moving out stuff*

my be-early bday

my be-early 2oth birthday

coz mandy is goin to start work on 2nd june...

realised i am a pretty huge dumbo,

coz i din suspect anything when they ask me go yumcha!

gosh..."gammdong nye~"

anyhoo...

the pix...

as below~~~

me! cake blowing!
and grinning from ear to ear... =.="
my cake!!!!!

my buddds~ missing 2 more~

*them*
love her to bits!!!
*sayangs*

(dun ask me wat i'm doin)

i have no idea...

darn dumdum tho~

my pressieeee...

me likey~

::more pix::

http://carynyeo4.multiply.com/photos/album/19/my_20th_bday

:)

mandy's 20th bday!

Mandy's Bday Party

The surprise-steamboat-balloon themed birthday party

after weeks of on-and-off planning.

countless times of discussing while driving that i'll forget to send siewkuan home.

weeks of budgeting and who was suppose to do what.

oh...and coordinating with the family...

whoa...and night before...

i have developed a hate towards balloons!!!!

its a head spinner.

april went to pick mandy up for her bday shopping spree at 5.

*which we conviniently couldn't go last minute*

siewkuan and me went to mandy'se hse at 5.15.
branon-mandy's bro let us in...

siewkuan n me started with the food.

cut this.wash that. boil that.

holey moley.

after that siewkuan and branon went to the hall to clear up and arrange the furnitures.

*siewkuan pointed and ordered while branon pushed and carry*

wahahhahaha...

by 6.30 mandy's parents are all at home.

it was so nice coz mandy's dad(who is also the burfday boi too!) went out and bought satay and drinks.

and pinjamed table from the neighbours.

ooo...fun....

the party was suppose to start at 7.

but no sign of wishan!!!!

she was rushing from her class...

gt stuck in the jammed.

she arrived at 7.10.

with the cake...

*YUMMY cake!!!*

den i msged april to balik rumah la...

mana tao they will oso be stuck in the jamm.

alamak..

we were waiting and whining and curi-makaning the satays..

hungry la...

7.30....7.45....8....8.30...

mana dia?!

mandy finally arrived slighty after 8.30...

and the rest...

the photos will talk....

....

...

..

.

: the cake:
:the birthday gurl:
- april:siewkuan-
-mandy:wishan-
-me!-
:mandy's papa mama and bro:

:the birthday pair!:
:the cartoonz:

: we call this the peacock!:

------------the sleepover------------

3/5 of us stayed for a sleepover...

coz me abit free oso la...nt like other ppl gt class all...

:siewkuan:

:mandy: me:

failed attempt

there we go!!!

more pix:

http://carynyeo4.multiply.com/photos/album/10

sexy horoscopes! :)

on personal requestssss...
i'll post up the whole series la...
so that everyone can pat kua~
:)

ARIES - The Liar
Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny. Excellent kisser EXTREMELY adorable. Loves relationships, Addictive. Loud.

TAURUS - The Tramp
Aggressive. Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Good kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person. One of a kind. Not one to mess with. Are the most attractive people on earth!

GEMINI - Irresistible
Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners Very Good in the you know where... Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE.

CANCER - The Cutie
MOST AMAZING KISSER. Very high appeal. Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak. Spontaneous. Great telling stories. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to.

LEO - The Lion
Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to have fun. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found.

VIRGO - The One that Waits
Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Loud. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. The one and only.

LIBRA - The Lame One
Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! However, not the kind of person you want to mess with... you might end up crying...

SCORPIO - The Addict
EXTREMELY adorable. Intelligent. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Energetic. Predict future. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want. Attractive. Easy going. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Romantic. Caring.

SAGITTARIUS - The Promiscuous One
Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in the you know where..!!! Not the kind of person you want to mess with- you might end up crying.

CAPRICORN - The Passionate Lover
Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Predict future. Irresistible. Loves being in long relationships. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Cool. Loves to own Gemini's in sports. Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Smart.

AQUARIUS - Does It In The Water Trustworthy. Attractive. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being in long-term relationships. Extremely energetic. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out.

PISCES - The Partner for Life
Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. High appeal. Has the last word. Good to find, hard to keep. Fun to be around. Extremely weird but in a good way. Good Sense of Humor!!! Thoughtful. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet.

mama's day!

happy mother's day!!!

@ centro klang

the mamasss and the daughters!

oooo....

received this email from ang bout all the horoscope and their REAL personalities...

GEMINI - Irresistible Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners.
Very Good in the you know where... *hoho...*Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE.


see??
I'm IRRESISTABLE!!
wahahahhahah...
interesting...

conggrrrraaatttsss!!

to mandy:

after all the hard work, i guess you can finally say.
I've finished it.

all the effing effort and hard work...
all the sweats and tears...
the good times, the not-so-good times and the stewpid really bad times...

you went thru it all...

love u gurl...
you've graduated!!!

best wishes...
from..yen...

counting down...

counting down the last of my days of agony...
the last part of my semester5....

Monday- Media Law & Ethics Exam *edited 28/4 at3.15pm*
one heck of a weird headache-ey exam man!
Tuesday- Advertising Photography Presentation *edited 29/4 at 5.45pm*
i would tink it went pretty well~*winks!*
Wednesday- Advertising Creativity Presentation *edited 30/4 at 4.45pm*
hmmmm...headache~aihs... i hate long presentations when i'm the 2nd last to go~
Friday- Research Methodology Presentation (am) *edited 2/5 at 6.45pm*
dang! kena bang for some tiny winy mistake...haih...
- Public Relations Exam (pm) *edited 2/5 at 6.45pm*
haihhh....bad...sticky sticky...narin nt functioning...dunno how to do la!!! luckily mid term and assignment got do...

after this...
internships....

-3niGma-

选择

有时自己一个人，
望着四道墙，
对着天花板发呆时…
在想……

有时真的怀疑，
自己当初硬要闯入私立学院、硬要拿广告设计…
是不是选错了呢？
还有半年就毕业了，下学期就开始实习了。
真的行吗？

这个圈子里的人都好现实啊！
我还能撑多久啊？
没日没夜的…什么都看关系、网络…看外表…看“好处”！
我真的不想要做“坏人”啊～
每次都要带着面具做人。
真的好累。
真的。


真的有“行行出状元”吗？


眼看身边同学朋友一个个出来了，出国了…
什么chemical engineering, industrial engineering, mechanical engineering, pharmacist, science的。。。
自己文凭以前11A,1B，跟人家说我读设计，给人家笑到脸都红。
被人家当面骂我傻，骂我笨，看不起。
好难受。
人家说做广告这个圈，根本不需要读什么书。
我成绩酱，去读个engineering或pharmacy麻好罗！

看见朋友们个个过得那么好，
个个读到那么耿。
心里有点酸酸的…
感觉到自己好象一无所有的。

当初选择追自己的梦，是好事吗？
放弃做人家的扯线娃娃，对吗？
假如那时乖乖听话，好好读家人要得科系。
现在会不会更好呢？


假如当初是选对了，
为何现在要走完了感觉还是好象没方向的？

难道真的走错路了？

semester 5

wat allie said struck me at point blank jus now.
yea...we are at sem5 already, i've been in college for 2 years already.
gosh. in a month time i'll be in my internship.
and in another 3 months would be my final semester for this grueling diploma for ad design.

its been a colourful journey
really has been.
being a science student, adjusting, striving...
stressing...mampusing... everything...
oh the cursing and ranting and wailing and complaining.
wasnt tat bad was it?
wasnt at all.
:)

this is one of those time when i say
no regrets.

mampus-ing

whoa....headache..massive...

last few weeks of sem 5....
mampus...

stressing~~

rushing asses..... also pening pasal internship...

ish...
did i mention my menses are here too?!
oh the horror....
tummy cramps....
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~~!!!!

*runs and bang wall!*

不是男朋友的男朋友 the boyfriend that isn't your boyfriend

i found this in a friend's blog.
after reading it. i realised it does make sense.
it really does!
:)

for those of my banana friends, i'll translate 4 u la...

每一个女孩的身边都有一个不是男朋友的男朋友
beside every girl, there's always a boyfriend who isn't the boyfriend.

但是，为了什么原因你们没能在一起？
but then, why is it that both of you aren't together?!

也许他为了朋友之间的义气，不能追你。
maybe it was because of another friend, he had to let you go.

也许为了顾及家人的意见 ，你们没有在一起。
maybe it was because his family didn't agree, you all had to separate.

也许为了出国深造，他没有要你等他。
maybe he went overseas, and he didn't want you to wait.

也许你们相遇太早，还不懂得珍惜对方。
maybe you all met each other too early, both of you didn't know how to appreciate each other.

也许你们相遇太晚，你们身边已经有了另一个人。
or maybe you all met too late, they already have someone.

也许你回头太迟，对方已不再等待
maybe it was because you turned back too late, and he gave up on waiting.

也许你们彼此在捉摸对方的心，而迟迟无法跨出界线。
maybe you guys just spent all your time guessing, no one took the step forward.

不过即使你们没在一起，你们还是保持了朋友的关系。
no matter wat was the reason , you all still remained friends.

但是你们心底清楚，对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心。
deep down both of you knew, that you cared more than just friends, just a little bit more.

即使不能跟他名正言顺的牵着手逛街，你们还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。
eventho you all didn't succeed as a couple, you all are still as close as ever.

他有喜欢的人，你口头上会帮他追，心里却不是很清楚你是不是真的希望他追到。
if he likes someone, you'll help him and giv him advice, eventho deep down ur nt sure if you're doin the right thing or not.

他遇到困难时，你会尽你所能的帮他，不会计较谁又欠了谁。
when any of you had troubles, the other will jump straight in. it doesnt matter who in whose debt.

男女朋友吃醋了，你会安抚他们说你和他只是朋友，但你心中会有那么一丝的不确定。
when your boyfriend gets jealous, you'll always defend him, saying that ur just friends, eventho there is always a sense of doubt.

每个人这辈子，心中都有过这幺一个特别的朋友，很矛盾的行为。
in your whole lifetime, theres always this friend who is really speacial, its really confusing.

一开始你不甘心只做朋友的，但久了，突然发现这样最好。
at first, you'll think its nt fair just to be friends, but after a while, you'll learn that being friends is the best solution.

你宁愿这样关心他，总好过你们在一起而有天会分手。
you rather care for him jus like this everyday, den to risk breaking up.

你宁愿做他的朋友，彼此不会吃醋，才可以真的无所不谈。
you rather jus being friends, where there isnt a need to be jealous at each other at talk about anything.

特别是这样，你还是知道，他永远会关心你的。
only like that, you'll be cartain that he will always care for u. forever.

做不成男女朋友，当他那个特别的朋友，有什么不好呢？
you now you're special in each other's heart, wheres the problem in that?

很多的感情，都因为一厢情愿，最后连朋友都当不成了
in alot of cases, you lose your best friend when it doesnt work out.

常常觉得惋惜，可惜一些本来很好的友情
feeling that its really a pity, coz u were originally best friends.

最后却因为对方的一句喜欢你，如果你没有反应，
jus because of a dumb confession, and you couldn't accept it

这一段友情似乎也难以维持下去，这也难怪有些人会因此不肯踏出这一步。
thats seemed like the end of your friendship, its hard to blame ppl who decide to stick to just being friends.

因为这就像是一场赌注，表白了之后不是成了男女朋友，要不就连朋友都当不成了。
its like a gamble, when u fail to move on, you lose everything.

有些事不是你能预料的，或许对方不在意，你们还可以是朋友，但却已经不如从前的好.
sometimes u jus cant anticipate everything, maybe you all can still be friends, but things will never be the same.

its really common.
risk ruining a friendship.
special friends that u'll noe will never be ur partner.
you'll realise in a lot of times, we'll choose the safer choice.
we'll rather jus watch the other one from afar.
watching over them, guarding them.
coz that all you can ever be.
jus a friend.

sad la...
but it makes sense...
of at least i tink it does la..
wat bout u?

friends~

friends.

i thought of ...... tday.

henry
its been so long since u left. really miss talking to u.one of my best friends. hope ur doin well over there. winter's comin... dun catch cold. take care.

siewkuan
in 15 years time, will u still be there to be my kid's aunt?time flies so many has changed. but wat about us?

mandy
haven't heard from u in a long time. how u coping? hang on k? i know ur stressed. i'm here ya?

lydia
haven't seen or heard from u in ages!! miss ur hugs. dowanna be strangers the nex time we meet.

i saw ......... tday.

siewkuan
missed talking to u. but it does feel like we're drifting away. haih. 3 kingdoms was good. sad show tho. haihs.

syed
god i haven't seen u in ages. scary. wats with the massive amount of bulu's?! i like the handsome clean looking syed! now too much hair d,dunno where to look at.... =.="

ang
u've changed too. thanks for the hugs! ur hugs are the best. take care k? everytime wake up so early...

goh
funny as usual la... damn sarcastic tho. thanks for ur help. love the yumchas sessions. ur the best la. fella cant answer my question without "bombing" ppl wan. "wat u busy wit now?" "business la" "wat business?" "sell chiccken! u wanna advertise for us a?" swt....O.O"

karthik
thanks for jumping in when i needed help k?*hugs!* haven't seen u for so long, i forgot wat a great person u actually are.


today was...satisfying...
:)

caryn

transparent

we need to clear things up.

we really do.

i dun get it.

aimless.

pointless.

hypocritical.

is it worth it?

i really dun know.

is this how its gonna be after 2 years of friendship?

ouch

It hurts.It really does.Ppl can be really selfish sometimes huh?Guess it’ll always be that way.Mayb I’m jus too naïve.And u said that I’m the realistic wan.How ironic is tat?Y must ppl lie?I simply dun get it.Is it that they feel intimidated?or is it that they’re jus too selfish?Y the hell must ppl lie?I tot u were different.I thought we were different.Mayb I’m jus too gullible.To tink that we were on leveled planes.To actually think tat “yunno wat, it aint a competition”.Guess I was wrong.Cant blame u.ppl are selfish. Its always a dog eat dog world. It always have been.I’m jus dumb.Who am I kidding?You have no idea how mad I was.I blasted the radio and I went back at 130 km/hour .Even if u knew how mad I was,That is nthg compared to how hurt I felt.I never hold anything back from u.And yet tday I find myself being mislead, in fact betrayed.I was happy that u found ur place in a reputable company.I was abit jealous too coz I wasn’t doin as well.But in the end, I was glad things worked out for u.I dun get whats goin on in ur mind right now. Or y do u tink u have to hide it from me.why must you go around me then?I jus dun get. Frankly, it hurts to much. I dun tink I’ve taken advantage on ur situation before. I dun think I’ve done a anything to u to have deserved this.

I treat u with respect. I treat u with dignity. I treat u like a companion. Dare I say it I treated u as one of my best friends. Come to tink of it, I dun tink u’ve ever trusted me. Dun do stuff to ppl which u dun wan ppl to do to u.

it’s the basic.

The very core.

It hurts.

It really does.


Deep down inside, I suddenly feel broken. Alone.
I use to count my lucky stars coz having u around was wat kept me sane in coll.
*ironic aint it?*

maybe u jus dun need me around anymore.

Leaving

2/4/2008

we celebrate your bday.

we celebrate your new beginning.

a new start.

a new life.

goin to college.

it is hard...accepting the fact that we're all grown up now..

and that we're goin separate ways.

remeber when we 1st met?

your were jus form2.

its amazing how time flies.

gosh...

you came with such spunk and faith.
you have optimism in everything!
evrytime whenever you're around...
we end up laughing non stop.
having you around was like sunshine it self.
you light up every situation.

its been so long simce the last time we gathered in the same room.

i realised our group is getting smaller too.

missing kelly, caiqin, cai ning,henry...

this post is for all of you.

wishing u all the best no matter where u all are.

do take care.

you know we'll always be with u no matter wat ok?

*hugs!*

-yuan zi jia-

*a family we are, tied together by fate*

yen

no brainer~

i'm bored beyond my brains man~
help~

i cant sleep...
yet my work are piling..

its a mystery aint it?
lols~

i went for an interview tday..
*leaping around in joy*
finally...
it was pretty ok...
far tho...
kelana jaya..
if i were to work there...
sei jor...
my petrol..
ka-chiiing!


see 1st la...
haih...

*hugs!

balance

i realised after high school life maining a balance is really really really really hard.
i mean its difficult to maintain a mental balance between work, studies, family, friends and above all some "me-time"...

c'mon... tell me i'm not the only one.
i wake up, do my work... eat... drive to class...have lunch...more class... come home... do more work... and my "body battery" is sure to be empty by midnight.
i hardly *scratch that* rarely see my friends...
talking to my family is even harder...
dont even wanna start on the "quality me time"...

i always start off maintaining the balance...
and slowly edging off the scale a few months down the road.
yikes....
den i go all stressed out... lack of sleep... and go whacko!
wahahahha...

yeaa... it happens every few months.

recently, after realising "ITS GONNA HAPPEN AGAIN!!!"...
i started goin back to temple...dharma classes.
involve in camp stuff...
so... yea..
i may be tired (physically) coz theres more to do...
but it does keep my perspective right...
being with the bunch of dharma friends help keep my brain working properly and mentally SANE...
:)

i guess its time like tis you turn to find the very essence of life itself.
living for myself.
guess i'll always be happier tat way.
*grins*

i may nt be a know it all when it comes to buddhism or the theory of it...
but i'm glad to know... i know the direction of it and the "main points"...
winks.

regards,
caryn

life.

i seriously hate it when i'm alone with my dhamma teacher.
like ALONE.
she's a counsellor u see.
for troubled teens and troubled everything.
and when i'm with her.
she'll always "so, how u've been?"
then she'll psycho analyse me and everything.
after like a while,
you'll tend to blurt out everything.
IN THE END, you always end up crying buckets la...
-.-"

issues.
self values.
life itself.

yeaa... i'm starting to feel like my life is sooooo messed up right now.
doin things i shouldnt be doin...
like watching csi.
not doin things i should be doin...
HOME WORK!!!

staring at 4 walls...
emo-ing...
busying...
but nt wit homework!
wtf?!
ish...

quote
its time you cared more of urself then others.
how can other people love u.
when u cant even appreciate and love urself?
its never a sin to give yourself a pat on the back once in a while.
espeacially when u deserve it.
unquote

i realised I cant be selfish.
i'm a nice person.
a little bit too nice.
almost seem fake.
naive or stupid.
i dunno.
but i seem to be bumping into too many walls recently.
it hurts...
badly.

listening to this new addition to my playlist recently...
other than simple plan and sum41.
i'm a huge fan btw.
wounded
by good charlotte.
its a good song.
not a new song.
but timeless la.
good charlottes song.

anyHOOOoo...
it seems like everytime i feel lost..
or starting to feel lost..
i'll always turn back to the temple.
start goin back for classes.
doin more dhamma work.
i dunno.
adds in the workload. :/
but..
it does give me some balance.
"life" wise...

soo...
CAMP 015.
its from24th may to 28thmay...
for TEENS from 15-20years old...mind u.
and you gotta tao bahasa cina ya sayang.
i'll post up the poster soon.

it'll be fun.
too bad i cant join.
coz i'll be having my internship.
WHICH i belum dapat cari...
mati looooo...

yehyeh nt feeling well after goin to singapore to see my cousins and his great grandson.
haih.
should be fine.
will see him soon.


pretty random tday.
realised my life is pretty packed.
of work and work and more work.
hmm..
i see less of my friends and everyone else.
:(

so...
if ur feeling exxxtra generous and feel like cheering someone up.
CALL ME!!!!

wahahah..
tooodles.

desperate!!!

haisyoooo~
i'm still looking for my job for internship la....
pengsan~

susah la..no body wanna hire me!
swts!

anyway, recently very busy!
temple prefects having their camp on may24-may28.
i'm suppose to be working liao then...
but i see they so busy.
so ma try to help when i can lo...

i tolong they all design t-shirt.
pengsan...
my work sendiri oso belum do.
(kick my own buntut shj)

MEDIA LAW aaaaaaaaaaa....
i tao tia a!!!!

must do...
do dod do...
doin la!!!!!!!!!!
half way ma~~~

-3niGma-

friends....

have not been really productive this weekend.
(work wise)
sent out a gazillion CV's / resumes for internship...
haven't had any returns yet tho~
only saatchi n saatchi replied. nt a confirmed reply too...
i'm worried.

but that aside.
i had a blast with my high school group during the weekends!!!
:)
i have nt seen them in ages!!!!
our self named bunch of whackos called "cartoonz"!!

since my dear "lui lui"/daughter/siew kuan so geng,
she got 2A and 2A- for stpm.
so we, the cartoonz (5-1) coz wishan couldn't make it, belanja-ed her for ktv session at red box on sunday.
the suppose to be 2-5pm ktv session became a 2pm-7pm 5HOUR session because no one actually shooo-ed us out!
*blushed*
so we jus went on and on and on and on...
teehee...

after that...
we jalan jalan abit...
and siew kuan belanja-ed us back for dinner...
we makan-ed at TGI Fridays...
wahahahhahahahah...

it was awesome la...
miss hanging out with em...
we makan-ed and drank...
munpui went pink!!
wahahah...
after that...we all went back...

siew kuan and munpui follow-ed me back...
and we watched "Perfume" together gether with a HUGE pot of chinese tea...
the whole fiasco finished at around 1am...

the very nex day,
i picked up siew kuan for dinner.
coz mama promised to bring her makan big big.
hmmm...
where to bring her ler???
in the end,
brought her to Rick's Cafe at One Bangsar.

it was a great place la..
love the place.

phew!
tiring night..
shit! media law belum buat!
nitez!!!

-3niGma-

think think

so many things running in my brain yet i cant seem to be able to resolve it.

quote

it feels like everyone in the world is trying to trample me.

and it's like i'm supoose to *battle* it out....

i have to keep telling my self.

I AM CHAMPION! I AM THE CHAMPION!!!

unquote

tat about explains everything la...

anyhoo...

congrats siewkuan for her 2A 2A- in her stpm...

my darling sayang lui lui memang so geng...

hor...???

akakak...

but besides tat.

i have my public relations exam tml.

and i have media law on thurs...

a defamation (fitnah) case to analyse and report about.

i have a final proposal for research methodology due thurs too.

hw fun~

and me obligation to the college (scholarship work) isnt done yet.

hmmmm...

i still have nt written my resume...

i have not found an intern company.

jior...

lagging nye...

updates on some work.

last 2 weeks advertising photography (watches)

tday's advertising photography (jewelery)

too much to handle

t.m.t.h

too.much.to.handle.

sorry. nt a fan of danny from american idol but... tat phrase is catchy.

sometimes i dun wan u to agree simply to satisfy me...

dun u see my point of view?

stop trying to control... YOU try being me for 1 day~

y cant u jus try to understand?

saw tat from a friend's situation tday.

sometimes.

coping is hard.

espeacially when everything is upside down at this moment.

work lagging.

people...frustrating.

irresponsible people..... simple mind boggling... nt to mention annoying.

sometimes, it works trying to be neutral.

jus chill.

clear ur mind.

take a step back n try to see the bigger pic.

i know....easier said than done.

but that's how it should be...

IDEALLY....

ish...

the problem with you is....

you care too much...

y must everything be your prob?

y must every other thing be so important?

sometimes, you should jus LEARN TO LET GO...

screw "consequences"...

no more "but......"

i realised i'm jus too good of a person for my own good.

people step on me again and again and again.

and the stupid thing is... I LET THEM BE!!

and I NEVER LEARNT...

people are selfish.

thats a fact i'll never learn to accept.

quote mandy.

they care about nothing else except for themsleves.

then...? wat bout me?

where do i come in?

i'm sick of being manipulated and used.

i'm sick of being cheated and conned.

i'm sick of being the-ever ready-standby-girl.

i'm always the sick pathetic loser that ends up doing last minute unfinished business..

and they arent even MY business...!!!

i was never an optimistic person.

i'm never the one wearing the yellow hat.

i'm more of a black or red hat person...

black as in i'll always be troubleshooting EVERYTHING... i worry too much.

red as in i'll get really emotional and then i wouldn't be rational or sane anymore.

i dun tink ...

smoking or drinking or clubbing or shisha-ing will help keep me in line...

so the question is:

how can you continue hoping for the better when every other people are jus plain evil, manipulative and mean?

how can you keep being optimistic when all u can see is darkness?

how can you continue believing that mayb someday...things will change?

will it?

or will u turn to be as sour, as selfish as the world is now?

simply because "they forced you into it"?

where do u find your direction....

i refuse to be the evil people.

yet this world....

its excruciating to bear with.

i feel like drilling through their thick skulls and peek into their brain...

wondering...

how in the world do they operate?!!!

how am i to keep myself sane?

insanity mayb the best choice...

-3niGma-

multiply meeeeeeeeeeee

i've recently started using multiply to store my photos...
so...
its www.carynyeo4.multiply.com
wishan...the cny photos are theren too...

:: innocence ::

remember those days when the world was much more simpler?

how we use to run n play...

under the sun...

we dun worry bout losing anything..

at that time..

it seems like the sky is the limit...

why is it that as we grow older...

we seem to get more lonelier?