slowly

slowly, it hurts less.

slowly, u learn to get use to it.

slowly, u learn to let go.

slowly, u learn to not hold on that much.

slowly, work and friends comforts you.

slowly, work fills in the void.

slowly, work aint that bad.

slowly, u'd need new people.

slowly, u'll try new experiences.

slowly... slowly... it'll all be ok.

but when will "SLOWLY" really come?

Henry *wahahahaha*

it's amazing how u keep me company during rainy days.

:)

remember JUNE 2011!!!!

forward pleaseeee

Thinking all you need is there.
Building faith on love is worst.
Empty promises will wear.
I know.
And know when all is gone.
There is nothing to say.
Tell them all I know now.
Shout it from the roof top.
Write it on the sky line.
All we had is gone now.
Tell them I was happy.
And my heart is broken.
All my scars are open.
Tell them what I hoped would be....
Impossible, impossible.

ending something. is it really about letting go? or moving on?

what about the happy days? they're all gone now?

what about the unhappy days? they're forgiven now?

how do we clear the air?

how do we move forward from here?

i dun admit it.

it still hurts.

interesting enough.

i tot i've grown up.

but sometimes... in the middle of a cold quiet night.

you'd wake up feeling as empty as i do.

wat do u do then?

stoneeeeee...

yes aku stoneeeeee...
macamana?

obviously nthg to entertain me tnite.

i tink deep down.
i still wished it was.
deep deep down,
i stil hoped it would've.
deep deep down,
i'm sorry

Swing!

I love Jazz.

I love Swing even more.

Sometimes I opt for Alternative rock.

But nothing puts a smile on my face other than Swing!

Dream a Little Dream of Me.

Stars shining bright above you
Night breezes seem to whisper "i love you"
Birds singing in the sycamore trees
Dream a little dream of me

Say nighty-night and kiss me
Just hold me tight and tell me you'll miss me
While I'm alone and blue as can be
Dream a little dream of me

Stars fading but I linger on dear
Still craving your kiss
I'm longin' to linger till dawn dear
Just saying this

Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you
Sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you
But in your dreams whatever they be
Dream a little dream of me

(instrumental break)

Stars shining up above you
Night breezes seem to whisper "i love you"
Birds singin' in the sycamore trees
Dream a little dream of me

Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you
Sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you
But in your dreams whatever they be
Dream a little dream of me

Yes, dream a little dream of me

happy mama's day Angie!

dear mama,

for the days when i din clean my room,

and had my stuff left everywhere.

for the days when i promised to help,

but end up upstairs snoozing the next min.

for the days when i yelled back,

for the days when i gave your the cold shoulders.

for the odd ball boyfriends,

for the days when I wake up from crying and refuse to talk to you...

You and I, we're not the best pair.

You and I, we're never the closest kind.

You and I, we have so much more to work on.

I promise you I will.

I promise you I will try.

I know you love me.

Please remember that deep down, deep deep deep deep deep down,

I love you too.

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today...

was interesting.

:P to say the least.

Chris, the oldest son decided to come over and play masak masak.

we had...

Chilli (all sizes & shapes), onions, garlic, long beans, prawns, fish and tomato.

aiming to cook, LOVE-ing sambal prawn for mama's day.

So yea,

mom n dad went out.

me n bro started messing around in mom's kitchen.

He started chopping onions, shallots, garlic, tomato.
Ended up "suggesting" to use the blender. =.=

FUUU~UH!!! in action wehhh!!!!!

I chopped long beans, and started washing the prawns.

If you do not know yet,

I suck in the kitchen.

I stared at the bowl of clear greyish prawns, wondering "how to wash a?"

den we both started to peel the prawns....

EEEEeeeee..... geli.

coz lembik. =.=

hehe. den we waited for mom to baliks.

but she din... for the longest time.

=.=

her "15 mins" became like 1.5 hours.

We got damned hungry.

so i started to open the fridge.

found cabbage and "frosted" carrot.

obviously we havent cooked alot.

so kor n i started chopping the veges,

curi-ing mom's minced pork.

and cooked up vege!!

:)

Den I cooked rice. :)

Called up sis (the mamas) to balik and join the fun too!!

the Outcome... was not bad.
Eventho our lunch was only ready at 3 smthg pm.

LOL.

dad gt so hungry he ate goreng pisang. O.o

mommy came back!

I'm nt sure if she was mad at us messing up the kitchen or jus too happy laughing at us screaming at each other.

"not like tat laaa!!"

"not cut like that laaaa!"
"like thisssss..."

"no laaaa!!!"

mom thought it was only 4 of us (kor , me , pa, ma)

den cynthia came back. Woots!!!

after abit cindy came back too!! with evaine n alan.

can see mom like spying at the door...

"whose that???"

"she gt come meh???"

ahahhahaha (laughing away)

while sisters teased us and mocked our cooking.

NOT BAD WERT!

finish oso ma!

den we had some rum & raisin chocolate...

Kit Kat Chocolate Ice Cream!!!

and lastly...

some awesome German beer.

:)

It was Fawesome!!! (Fucking Awesome!)

Dinner was yummy fat, meaty bacon with eggs and toasted bread at cynthia's hse.

with cheese and coffee and lettuce

and more chocolates and ending up with fruit juice.

*burp!

it was an eventful day.

I'm tired.

it was fun tho. :)

him

she once met a boy,
who loved her with all his heart.
he'd give her everything and anything,
as long as he can, he will provide, care and protect her.
he really did loved her.
he really did love her alot.

and they grew up,
they grew apart.
its not that they didn't care, they did.
but what to do?
they'd argue anyway.

it hurts.
it really did.
they stayed on anyways.
for love? for memories? for happy times?
no one knows.
i doubt they knew too.

then one day, he finally decided to not be hurt anymore.
she decided that perhaps there are other priorities they both should attend to.
as hard as it was,
i guess.
they just were not meant for each other huh?

he grew up, he manned up.
he took his responsibilities and promised to work on his career and life.
she stopped whining and crying, we all need to grow up some day.

Malaysian Artistes For Unity Here In My Home

i believe I've posted it before.
But i'll do it again.

simply coz this song cheers me up. :)

btw, i had this HUGEEEE crush on bad boy malay singer awie when i was in high school. :)
wahahahahaha. dunno y tho. yea... the dude with the rough voice and long hair, almost rempit like. :P

sobs

fuck weh i wanna watch IP MAN2 oh so badly.