i have no idea sometimes.

sometimes. i seriously have no idea wat i wan.
i like being alone sometimes.
gives me time n space to ponder and think alittle.
about wat i've done and wat i have not done.
what i've done good and wat i could've done better.
at the same time, i hate being alone.
i hate being left out.
i'm afarid that i might be forgetten.
i hate being reminded how little i am actualy.

its compli.
有时真的很生气，
我到底要什么？
很多事情都怪自己“不应该”。
有时就说“控制不了”。
是真的吗？
发觉到自己很矛盾。
到底“要”还是“不要”？
有时很喜欢那种快感。
心里深处却一直很难过。。。
我知道是错的。
有时真的对自己很失望。