:: was it meant to be? :: part ix ::

callie quit sunday classes. she stopped mingling wit tat group of frens.
she did everything possible to avoid remembering him. she avoided the
outings. she avoided the gatherings. she avoided the parties. everything.
i dun wanna see him. i dun wanna talk to him. i dun wanna have
anything to do with him. i wan him to be forgotten.

callie wished tat she had the ability to wipe her mind clean of scott.
everything he ever did. every single heartfelt moment wit him. she
just wished tat she could turn back time n change everything. she
wished she never knew him.

she stared her new life. a scott-less life. a new year, a new start, a
new environment, a new aim, a new guy, a new purpose, a new life.
she moved on...

could this be real? had she really done so well for herself? if it is, den
y does her mind still creeps around at night? if she really did moved on,
y is she still thinking of him occasionally? how is he? where is he? if
she did moved on, den y is she stil so tempted to send him a msg once
in a while? -hey, how r ya?- -i noe life's been tough on u.- -hang on
okay?- she hesitated. in the end, some weren't sent to him. but sum did.
and if callie did moved on as she claimed she did, she wouldnt be waiting
by her phone everytime she sent a msg, she wouldnt be mad if he din
reply. he's forgotten. well, at least sumone is moving on. how could he?
and she wouldnt squirm n twist in delight if he did. he replied! mayb he
did rmb....

but as time goes by, callie grew along. and very slowly...very very
slowly... scott wasnt so important anymore. yes, she would still grin
foolishly if she were to have heard any news from him. but very
slowly, it din matter if he din either. days passed, weeks went, months
flew.... soon its been years since the last time callie met scott. she
was happy. happy? erm.... how bout "contented"? yes... she was
contented wit her life.

life was well. exams were okay, school was fine, she did put on abit
weight (hehehe), but it aint all tat bad, jude was being well...
jude.. he's sweet, he's nice, he's smart. in case ur wondering... yea...
jude's the new guy. he's sweet n he's nice. he's well mannered and he's
polite. he's sensible and he's rational. he's patient and he's all around
great. but he's not him.

but y think of him still? y in the world is scott still an issue? i havent
talked to him in ages. he doesnt matter anymore. he shudnt matter
anymore. but he feels like the right one! but how long am i suppose to
wait? waiting for him is impossible. its disappointing and hurtful. so is
he worth the torment? is he worth waiting? how can u still find the
courage to love each other when the love u have is already dying?
mayb it's fate. mayb its destiny. or mayb....he's just not worth it...?



the finale is up nex...
:part x:
so.... was it really meant to be?

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