people.

*ppfffttt*

everyone has their own priorities. and i'm in total respect of that.
but sumhow i realized my priorities differ from others...
and thats when its hard-accepting that ppl do not think as i do.

i once asked tz....y? because i find it so hard to cope with.
the fact that everyone is busy with their stuff.
and when it comes to things that i tink are important. ppl dun give a damn.
everyone is jus too busy with their lives!!!

according to his majesty, guys and gurls are totally different level of beings...=.="
the gurls can have loaaaads of priorities, whereby they can do so many at a time...
chicks are the masters for the Art of Multitasking la~
but then again with so many priorities, wats most important are family, love, (recently) careers and friends. and in these 4 category, family & love stand the biggest share while career& friends, it depends.
where else the guys, they basically only have 3.... family, friends and career. and they are all separated the same. (or so he say la)

so... in the mind of a chick:
family (daddy, mommy, grandpa, sis...), love (bf, hubby), career, friends
or
family (daddy, mommy, grandpa, sis), love (bf, hubby), career, friends

and in the brains of the dude:
family (daddy, mommy, grandpa, grandma, sis, bro and gf/wife), career, friends

and for me...
i'm trying to squezze in everything that makes a man and a women. i adore my friends, even when i have a boyfriend. i wanna spend time with my family. and i wanna be in charge of my work.
@.@

overwhelming.

whenever i whine bout ws not making it for our outings but she goes everywhere with her bf.
he'll say, "she a girl, its how its suppose to be" =.="
whenever i cry about my friends leaving or drifting apart...he'll always say that i have to make the effort... i have to realise that if i wanna maintain it...i gotta make more effort..seeing that its so important to me... the fact that i have to respect others, and the fact that they have other priorities too....
then i'll be like "so i gotta accept the fact that i am not important to other ppl la?!"...
den i'll start crying more la of course.

sumhow i guess thats y i have limited gal-frens and i have more guy friends la...
mayb it because it i wanna meet up with a dude... say johhny tml... he'll be like "sure!", as long as he got nthg important planned la...he'll even take a bus to come!
but if i wanna meet up with lets say selina, she'll be like "i gotta see 1st..." den she'll have to "inform" her bf.... find transport, see if she's busy....is there any assignments...yadda yadda yadda... den i'll have to ask her out like 1 month before!

hoho...
dun get me wrong.
i'm not critising the gurls.
but that is how it works.
when ur the gf, you technically have to be more homely, prioritize your stuff, inform your bf...
stuff like tat.

its odd how things work.

its even worst how sum ppl get their priorities all messed up and they end up doing so many wrong thing without knowing it.
the fact that they din even know that its hurtful, or that its irresponsible or the consequences.
whoa... chunted man these ppl.

but thats how it is.
quote the most overused from tz.
no one ever told u life is fair ok?

=.="

at sum point i geddit la..
you let me denial abit can bo??
i still wanna live in my colourfull fairy tale world a little bit longer.
*pouts*

on random note.
work is the best therapy. from anything. for me at least.

i can just dive into my work and be happy.

mayb coz i know its one of the last few things i can take control of right now.

:)

-3niGma-