accepting it...

sometimes...
things dont go the way i wnated it to be...
sometimes...
theres some miscalculation when it comes to the planning...
sometimes...
i dont know what in the world i've been doing...
sometimes...
i have no idea y am i lagging behind...
sometimes...
i am angry at why things like these happen to me....
sometimes....
i am mad at how unfair this world could be...
sometimes....
i dun understand y the sun just would shine...
sometimes...
i jus hate it when it rains on me...
sometimes...
i hate seeing those mistakes in my work...
sometimes...
i am dissappointed at myself...

mayb because...
i just could bring myself to accept...
the fact that there will always be ppl better than me...
there will always be ppl smiling when they're done with their work...
jus because i couldn't finish em...
doesnt mean i need to bring down the dark cloud for them too...
its my incompetence...
its my wrong doing...
guess i'll jus have to accept it...
and learn the lesson well...

i cant say i didnt learnt anything...
i did learnt alot...
i learnt that i should manage my time better...
i learnt that i shouldnt let my emotions over take my rational...
i learnt that i must confirm the details before printing my final assignment...
i learnt that super glue is in a clear form when its wet do i should be more carefull where i put my stuff...
i learnt that the cover of a book should always be at least 0.5cm bigger...
i learnt that i shouldnt rely on ppl that much...jus because they promised to come and help..mayb they'll have something to do last minute..and that i'm alone...
i learnt that i should anticipate a rainy day even if i need to shoot on that day...
i learnt that the government hospital have very irresponsible staffs and that i shoudl never rely on them solely...
its complicated....

baskin robbins

the hospital.

my yehyeh's in the hosp.
...
i hate hospitals.
espeacially sjmc....

yehyeh hardly even fell sick.
now pulak in the hospital.
blood sugar kenot control.
must take insulin jab.

then doc say he got prostate problem..
maklumla my atok tersayang edi 84...
den... ok liao...

discharded d...
the night itself admitted into emergency...
his blood pressure suddenly went so low...
from 140/80 to 90/80...!!!

haih...
worried...

yehyeh lost weight too...
looking at him.
my heart hurts.
and i missed amah even more...

worried...