true?

it strikes me sometimes how ppl define this world as a "dog eat dog world".
what amuses me more is how i'm always so naive to believe the opposite.

the truth is.
its true ppl like that do exist.
and now i know 1st hand that they come in all sizes.
some ppl tend to use ppl.
some just love to use the "pity me" advantage.
some are just plain lazy and evil.
some are simply mean.

but losing her ironically struck me as a good thing.
it reminds me to appreciate you.
it reminded me to look thru our photos and msged you all.
it reminded me to go back to the very core of my life.

her selfishness showed me that you cared.
more than how much sleep you lost and how you could've spend more time doing your assignments.
her selfishness reminded me that no matter how screwed up my group is,
i always have a back up group mate/ driver / homework tutor / everything i need!
jus a call away.
and confirm arriving within the hour.

losing her reminded me of how we use to be.
the high school era.
i cant deny we use to fight.
but till the very end. we always stood by each other.
the cartoons.
i looked back into our botanic photos that day...
and the playground ones too...
tears came rolling down as it started to rain outside too...
to be frank, i missed you guys so much.
the last time i saw all 4 of you all was last year dec.
the last time i saw 3/4 of you all was in may.
the last time i went out with the 2 of you was in august.
the last mail i read that has updates from you guys was on the 20th of september.
maybe we are too busy.
but mayb just mayb its time for us to slow down our paces just abit.
before we forgot what meant the most after all these times.

she made me realised smthg.
that everyone somehow has their own agenda.
that after everything said and done.
there's bound to be a catch.
i went back to dharmma class last week.
and the truth is, i felt relaxed there.
there's no need to always watch my back.
or to worry so much if anyone there is gonna hurt you.
during that 2 hours, everything was at peace.
mayb it is time to stop running.

---sometimes, life catches you at the wrong moment. the memories fade away.
---it doesnt seem to matter anymore, and the worst part is that you get so caught up
with your own life that you often leave ppl behind. you tend to forget that these
people is your life are waiting for you, they just keep quiet, waiting for you to pause.
---but most of the time, you dont. you continue running forward, pushing yourself further
while shutting the others out of your life, over and over again.
---life is race, that wat you keep telling yourself. but thats not what life is about.
you dont leave those who care about you. they will always be there for you.
however you just forget about em, leaving them at the corner by themselves.
---i know i need to pause right now.
---dotsandstripes

so now you know who your true friends are.
---the other halveSSS

update

sorry for the lack of updates....

haiyoh...

i feel like my blog wanna mati liao...

if everytime i blog, i feed him..

den gone case la...

my bloggie die of starvation liao....

reason for neglecting my blog and my friends....

DARN *#!**##!#!*##! freaking busy....

starting of my darn busy phase was as usual my homework la....

the usual la...

corporate identity system...consumer behavior... packaging homework.... videography shooting preparation...

why the rush???

becoz a have a jammed pack week ahead during the holidays...
holidays konon... blergh!!!!

1st stop...

Trolak-Felda-Ipoh-Gua Tempurung trip....

with?!

my family laaaaa....

when?!

13 Oct-15 Oct

the journey to Trolak

Trolak wey!!!! we got bangalow!!!Trolak is in the Felda area...

my aunt actually brought her mahjong set there...!!!

Seafood dinner!!!

The usual night drink-beer-eat nuts-chill- and chat session...

The HotSprings Resort...

nice weather....

my macho macho cousin bro...

the new happy family...lunch....

the whole gang...

Ipoh... makan!!! makan sumore....yummm..prawns.....

pao ppl's whole restoran n MAKAN lagi...

dumb & dumberer...

our hotel....

gigantic koi fish!!!

i love ipoh's view...

Gua Tempurung....

in a nut shell...

Trolak Country Resort---OK la...nice to see the greens tho..but nthg much other than that...

Hot Springs----FUN~

Ipoh----FOOD!!!! all the way...Bidoh too...

Gua Tempurung---- BooYAH!! SYOK!

after that...

gruling videography shooting...

when?

17 Oct - 18 Oct

the shooting...the props....the make up....the costumes....

the after math.....the packing...the driving...the tired-ness...

shooting was ridiculusly busy and tiring...

thank soo & ansif for helping...

arigato banyak banyak....

thank sis for letting us crash in her hse furing our breaks...

it was an experience nonetheless...

imeadiately after that...

Faculty of Creative Arts and Design Boot-Camp

when?

19 Oct - 21 Oct

it was surprisingly Awesome...

the camp site...

the surrounding....

the company....allie!!!

swts...my singa looking hair....
senaman pagi.... baliking...

tired-ness....

the scary results....

gosh...the muscles....

i become macho macho liao...

i went there thinking that i would be bored to shits...

but i ended up rock climbing two storey high... scrambling up the 12 feet berlin wall... climing up a 30+ feet pole and jumping off it...building rafts from drums and poles and ropes... sailing it 100 metres out into the sea and u-turning back... flying fox!!

i've done things i didnt expect i can do...

the abang abang yang macho macho in our groups were simply nice and funny...
the kakak kakak all were all amazing...

they crack us all up...

despite the fact that i'm now black like arang...

and my legs and arms hurt like shits...

i K.O.ed and slept the whole day after that....

i'm truly, utterly happy....

missing in action.

ok....
i assumed i need to update..
but so much has passed.
so i'll just do a little recap.....

i'm sorry peeps!!!

as some should know, kancil was pretty banged up a few months ago.
it was fixed nontheless.
yet the after effects of the blow was enevitable.

the car was leaking.
the whole car was slanted.
the "rangka" was off...
it started to shake when i go pass 80km/j....

all in all...
kancil suffered his last few months...
i still loved him...
but mom couldnt stand him...
after contant bickering... mom said that she's gonna send him away....

for the last few weeks, i drove kancil everyday still...
but fearing that one day, my phone would ring.... he'll be gone....

and that day did come...
on 7th of september, my phone rang...

i cried like shit that day....













good bye my dear...
i sent him off myself...

that night itself....
IT came along....


ppl just dun get it....
that it doesnt matter that i have a new car...
ppl sun get it that kancil was my first...

yea....i'm weird...i have a bond with my car....
kenot izzit??!!!!

cis!!!!

pppffffftttt.....


anyways, i've been reluntant to name the saga for a few weeks...
but guess ppl have to move on..
allie says that it's serving me as well now...
its safer too...
as much as i hate to accept it...
i'll have to either way....

last week...
WE...(me, tzer, allie) finally named HIM....
hmmmm...
actually tzer came out wit the name, and allie sokong him kao kao!
ish...
so.... HE...is my new friend now... hong chai!!!


i didnt watch hogh school musical2 in the end...
after waiting and anticipating like a dumb idiot....
sad case....
emo~


i went to hong kong& macau...
the months of stress and planning arent worth it i tell u...
haih...



i got yelled at....
rushed around...
haih...
for some reason, since i was the one that "planned the trip"...
i should know EVERYTHING about hk & macau la....
which i do not...
i havent been there... they think i'm suppose to know the roads and all...
it was stressed like crap!!!!

even worst that group assignments man....
the upside of the trip...
i manage to watch the anual fireworks competition in macau...





i guess it was fun... haiyah...
i bought something for weiloong tho...if ur reading...get it from me la!!!!

right after i tounchdown/landed in m'sia....
udara asia SUCKED!
i drove up to college immeadiately for LEO urgent matters...
the installation date was brough ahead to the following sat.,...
everything that was so properly and closely planned was ruined...
everything became sooooo last minute......
we pulled to gether and settled everything oso la....
altho there were some internal dispute... *shall not mention*


after that....
i was busier than ever....
group assignment sucked....
evil lazy "trust me la" group mates sucked balls la!
i ended up not sleeping for a whole week...
walked around like some zombie.....
den betty & me had to spend 2 more sleepless nights redoing the shit....
find location and all....

urgh!!!!!

i wanna puke!!!!

pre-production proposal. storyboard. re print. location. reki. props. wardrobe. green cloth. blue screen. CGI. animation. budget!!!. lighting. gapher missing!. rich idiots. admendments. changes. last minute. scary........

i shall stop here la....
pengsans...
headache d...
*hugs....