:: was it meant to be? :: part iv

     "oiiii!!! siao kia!!! wake up lo!!! wat u staring at la?!"
     "huh?! wha...?" scott's been day dreaming again... sitting on his chair staring
into blank space while an image of her passed by right in front of his face...
could this be it? for some strange reason, i couldn't get her out of my mind...
scott was obsessed about callie. he even had 12 pages of his history note book
filled with callie's name... every line..  and he has the note book now to prove
it too!

    "RRRIIINNNGGGGG!!!!!!" thats the bell, for the pupils of the private school,
its their 2nd recess. but for scott,its the time where the public school behind
theirs just finished their classes. and he would dash to the fences n try to look
for that fimiliar face. waiting n waiting... there she is... her hair looks longer....
she looks kinda cute with her hair at that lenght... she's wearing her baju
kurung tday...hope it doesnt rain...some times she would have extra classes...
den scott will jus go back into class looking like he was hit by a bus or smthg.

     should i jus go and ask her? i cant get her out of my mind... not since
camp... i miss her...  i really feel for her... worst thing is, i tink she feels it
too...

     every since camp, scott n callie where closer den ever! right after camp,
when scott was on the way home. the phone rang. he half thought and wished
that it was callie. but when the caller id flashed "debbie", he jus stared at it
thinking SHIT!!. he's been avoiding her calls for ages. she annoying... debbie
was the gurl that would call in the middle of the night to "just say hi".. and
the gurl who would call for no reason watsoever and ask "soooo...wat u
doin?"

     but this time, scott picked up the call.
     "wat u wan?"  dear god, please make it quick.
     "scottie, must u be so hostile?"  urgh, i hate it when she calls me scottie.
     "am not bein hostile gurl. wat u wan?"
     "i missed you. i saw u in camp. but u were too bz flirting wit sum other
chick to care bout me huh?"  whoa, she saw? shit! she's a blabber mouth!
     "uh.. really? uhm.. naaah... i treat every  gurl the same..."
     "riite. so u make everyones supper too huh? r u trying to make me
jealouse here?" u and ur ultra super ego.
     "naah.. of course not. wat make s u thinks such funny things?"
silently, scott wipes off his sweat.
     "scottie... dun lie to me.. i know her. her name is callie. and she's from
mattherson high school, which is right behind urs." deep shit!
     "really?! ehehe... urm... i din noe tat u guys close?"
     "close enuff to knoe that u dun stand a chance by her. she's a straight a
student. top of her class. she's a prefect with a sparkling clean disciplin
record. while you, my dear scottie, u hav nvr passed basic engliah to save
your life. u spend more time in the principles office den class. u whack ppl
like u need to do that to  stay alive." okay, tats harsh... but... mayb she's
right... she wouldn't....
     "hey, must to drop me tat hard? I AM NOT crushing on tat gurl okay?
carrie or callie watever her name is!" scott was raising his voice. he did not
wanna admit tat he was hurt and that it sucks! he doesnt wanna noe how
gud callie is because he already knows tat. tats y i love her. neither does he
need to be reminded once again wat a jackass he is. tats it. its over.
no chance.
     "c'mon scottie. u and i both know where u belong." debbie was pushing it...
but she knows she's pressing on the right buttons. because scott said...
    "hey, yunno i dun like her like her... c'mon.. she's a nerd. jus look at her.
pink frameless... looks like she's from mars..." the heated argument turned
into a heated conversation and den it became a "mating ritual".and it all
ended with......
    "so....who do u like?"
    "hehhe... you? "

     shit! wat the hell was i getting my self into?!

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      days passed and scott called callie lesser n lesser... callie was starting to
ignore scott. and scott knew exactly y. he din even bother to explain. it better
this way.... she could go better den me.

     and for a while, callie wasnt an issue. altho scott never seen her wit other
guys. nor rumours about a boyfriend or not. she jus wasnt that close anymore.
and it was better for scott that way. it makes it easier to forget about her. her
smile. her rough frizzy hair tat always smelled like apples. the ticking of her
red swatch, den her blue white striped one, later it was her green n blue
swatch. how she always tie her shoelace left to right. and how she always
tuck both side of her hair behind her ear but right side always falls out...
shit! who m i kidding!!??

    but debbie made it a point to make sure that callie wasnt an issue. she was
glued to scott 24 hours a day 7days a week. any dickhead could see that their
relationship was mainly staying over and a whole lot of rough-housing in
between the bed sheets.  but she din mind. so scott din too.

     but after 97 days, they broke up. debbie was since den m.i.a. and scott din
care. he had enuf. hell yea i had enuff! its is crap!

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     scott was back n everyone could see that callie was happy. but nothing
happened. there was SOMETHING there between dem. but none of dem
could ever explain it. they were there for each other. if callie was in trouble,
jus one call and scott would rush there. if scott needed someone, he knows
tat callie was jus a call away. they comforted each other thru the years. the
rivalries, the tensions, the outside pressure, none of them could get to callie
n scott. for they know that they have each other. and they wont judge each
other...
but then again... if this wasnt love, wat is it? could this jus be pure friendship?
or is it something more?

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       nights n nights, scott stayed awake in his bed. screening thru the
pictures n the memories. wondering wat is it tat they have between dem...
love? friends? pity? admiration? wat was it?after 6 sleepless nights and
8 restless nights... on 25/11/2004, scott drive his friends car to find callie.
illegally, yes... so sue me! he drove passed a tuition centre, and  scott felt it
again.. he turned he's head to the left and he saw callie. she was wearing a
pair of green board shorts, witha black v-neck t-shirt. holding her blue winnie
the pooh file. her hair is long now, she tied it up. she looks abit chubbier tho..
cuter... and ... she was in the arms of another guy...

     suddenly scott changed his mind. he drove straight instead of turning. he
jus drove. she's with another guy now. his eyes were burning up. i'm not
gonna cry!! this is wat was meant to be. she shudn't settle wit a dipstick
like me... he din notice tat the car was goin faster n faster... callie...
mayb i shud giv up... we're not meant to be... we were never meant to be...
the car was speeding faster n faster... scott closed his eyes to stop the tears...
den there was this lorry, he couldn't find the brakes...mayb he din wanna find
the brakes. the stearing was shaking. and the car rammed into a lorry and
later ended upsidedown at the roundabout....

    he woke up on a hosp bed. i'm not gonna call callie. he was numb. he couldn't
feel the pain. mayb it was the painkillers or the morphine... watever it is,
it wasnt strong enuff... he couldn't find the pieces of his broken heart.



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