Tuesday, October 31

empty

tday was the launch of RANDOM magazine... created by the non-squares SEGi ppl... ehehe...
as i flipped thru the mag...
"hmmm.... nt bad a...." my nose was burried in it till lunchtime...
wahahhaha....
suppose to arrive at 9 to college...
but my lil' kancil bergetar getar tday la...dunno y... i think she's sick... boohoo...
aM3 was there... bz preparing sum last minit stuff...
ngeh ngeh... so cute la that gurl... 3/4 pants eh? hmmmm....
wahahah...
BT came late... after we whacked our FREE food... *repeat* FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE food...
we when to summit....for more lunch...ngeh ngeh ngeh...
den it started to rain n summit so many shop tak de elektric lerrr!!!
*cough* cheapo *cough*
wahahahha...
n its halloween... summit so dark dark sumore...>!!!
it rained like "ribut taufan" sumore...quote aM3's mom...
wahhaha...
so we were stuck in summit till 4 smthg i tink...or 5...
dunno la...
suppose to meet L2 tday..
hiah... guess we'll jus have to cancel..i came back so late..dadee scolding lio...
aiks....


::enigma::


sometimes its hard...
to keep a straight face when ur crumbling inside...
its even harder...
to muster a smile when ppl ask if ur okay....
its one of those days....

dun expect me to be strong...
because i'm nt...
dun expect me to understand...
because i dun...
dun expect me to cheer up...
because i cant...
dun expect me to hurry...
because its hard....

being surrounded by ppl...
millions n millions of em...
but still feel alone inside....
i can see ppl talking...
but i cant hear anything...

tday is one of those days that u jus wanna cuddle in bed n watch the world pass by....
tday is one of those days that even the stronger ones cry...

even the best fall down sometimes...
thats from dotsandstripes...

i guess it true...
who would've knew...
that we feel too...
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:: cam whore ::

a fren told me b4 that my left side is my better side coz i hav a bigger left eye n my accidental toilet bowl... ngeh ngeh ngeh... that was 4-5 years ago...
ever wonder y izzit that some ppl can take "artistic photos of smthg" while others jus that the photo like it is?
i am one of those person.. if i were to take a picture of a person, the WHOLE face would b inside the frame...

a fren came over tday... he was one of the type of guys that can draw a picasso in jus 5 mins... his view of sum stuff... r from angles we never even pictured b4...
i envied his work for ages...
n tday... i became one of his work...
i kinda like the way he took the pic.... but i'll never ever learn to do it tat way....
*be warned that i aint photogenic okay...*



apparently he likes my left side too...since its all from that angle...



i like this pix... the thing is... he jus snapped this witout me knowing it...
i love eyes... i think the eyes comunicate better den words...



this  is pretty disturbing... ppl say its "alluring"...i say its " i was talking half way la...he pulak go n snap!!!"



there!!! my 5 mins of photo session...by the ever multi talented ****....
missing the days....










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Monday, October 30

:: lalalalala ::

hmm.... saw this pix at Y's blog...
it was a fun day... 20 bucks n u get to hang wit the siao-est peeps around the block...
but i like... kinda nice hanging around...especially since so much shit happens around me lately...being emofied aint fun...akakak....
din have time to tie my hair...bad hair day..so i jus simply clipped it wit a pin...din noe messy hair kinda looks gud..akakkaka


*hugs tight tight...


 
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Saturday, October 28

: meltz :

have u ever walked on air? ever felt like u were dreaming? 
when u never thought i could but i really feels that gud... 
-celine dion-have u ever been in love?-

smiling jus to see...the smile upon ur face...
these r the moments i thank god that i'm alive...
these r the moments i'll rmb all my life...
i found all i'm waiting for...
n i could nt ask for more...
-edwin mccain-i could nt ask for more-

can we go bac to the days when love was strong..
can u tell me how a perfect love goes wrong?
can some body tell me how to get things back the way they use to be...
oh gos give me a reason..
i'm down on bended knees...
I'll never walk again,
Until you come back to me,
I'm down on bended knee.
-boyz2men-on bended knees-

look into my eyes, u will see wat u mean to me...
search ur heart, search ur soul, when u find me there u'll search no more..
dun tell me its nt worth trying for, u cant tell me its nt worth dying for...
u noe its true...
everything i do...i do it for u...
-brian adams- everything i do-

baby...
mayb i dun say it as often as i shud...
but i really wanted tobe heard..
when i say i love u that for gud...
u have my word that day after day after all i will always be true...
thats a promise i make to u...
-dakota moon-a promise i make-

we go to a party, everyone turns to see...
this beautiful lady that walking around with me...
n then she ask me... do u feel alright...?
n i said...yes i feel wonderful tnite...
i feel wonderful bcoz i see the love right in ur eyes..
n the wonder i belong that u jus dun realize how much i love u...
-eric clapton-i look wonderful tnite-

look at this face, i noe the years r showing,..
look at this life, i still dunno where its goin...
i dunno much... but i know i love u...
n that mayb all i need to noe...
so many question stil left unanswered..
so much i've never broken thru..
the only truth i ever known is me & you...
-aaron neville,linda ronstadt-i dunno much-

Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
Rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival, you're my living proof
-edwin mccain-i'll be-

and the finale..... the emo-est song ever!!! the song that melts me thru n thru....
the song!!! *aM3.... u knoe this wan...*

Every time our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams

I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I want to spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you

The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me
Baby you surround me
You touch every place in my heart
Oh, it feels like the first time, every time
I want to spend the whole night in your eyes

Every little thing that you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I want to spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you
-lonestar-amazed-

told cha i'm emo....
but it does gets me wondering....
true love? does it really exist?
to me... i seriously doubt it...
its nt that i dun believe in love anymore...
but i guess i grew out of the "fairytale love"...
i dun believe that watever it is...i could'nt live witout it...
sure it makes life better...sweeter... but i wun die with out it...
please tell me that i'm true....

i once told a fren a story. A story of a little brave  gurl that when camping. she wasnt afraid of anything n she tried every route there is. till one day, she fell down n gt hurt. it was bad,  she was severely injured. in fact she's been limping since... 
n she never ever step foot on that route ever again... evertime she passed the same junction...
she would choose a detour... eventho the other road was full of snakes n thorns... 
she still refused to go back to the same road...
shud she had tried?
she would be hurt again...
the injuries she carries now are a burden already....
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: 3 is the number :

stewpid connection prob...haven been online often...so checked lYd's blog...
OOOOOOOO ...i gt tagged.... hmmmmmm......
lets see....

3 Hobbies
- hunk-gazing.... *personal fav*
- eating....* du~uh...jus look at me! ppl tink i'm bigger size den TZ!!*
- movies!!!...* allah...but nt very much recently...oh well...*

3 Things on my to-do list
- finish n survive Mr L's massive workload of assignments!!!....*chinapek betul!!! wahahha..no la..he's nice*
- lose meat...not weight...* i'm light enuff...i'm 46kg k? goin down sumore...but still so round!!*
- try to bond wit frens...*shyte...the not-belonging-anywhere feeling reeks!!*

3 Unique traits
- loud!!!! i meant like NOISY-LOUD...*heck..ppl still love me for it!!*
- miss negativity  *putting me down is easy...but cheering me up..tat takes skills!!*
- emo freak!!!!  *uh huh...aM3... u get me.... HuGs...emo pal*

3 Favourite drinks
- COKE!!! woot!!!! wahahahhah... ccUUUUUpppPpP!!! coca cola!!!
- wat else...hmm.... coffee??
- ngeh ngeh ngeh...cant think... *caffein high!!!! waHAHAHAHHAhahahha*

3 Passions
- HUNKssssSsSSsSsSsS......   *yea....loads of em...droolz...*
- music...*nt talented in em...but i like em...lourveeeee live bands!!*
- hmmmm...... friends?? *hopefully... yet to be confirmed....*

3 Awesome movies
- The Italian Job *props to lYD!!!! jinx!! love that show!!!*
- While You Were Sleeping *emo old show...meltz....*
- Joy Luck Club   *call me old fashion...i like that show...awwww...bUcKeTsSSSSssss!!!*

3 Good Bands
- Good Charlotte
- Nickleback
- i like...... boys2men....!!! since ages....!!! actually..i like theirs songs.... *emo*

3 Things I am anal about
- liars!!
- backstabbers!!!
- ppl taking me stuff!!! at least ask... *pout!*

3 Random men
- Edwin McCain   *loves!!! love his rough husky voice....been on a emo-country-love song loop!!*
- BENjy!! urgh!!! he jus called me.....*potong steam*
- c'mon....random men....any men...c'mon... think..think!!! think!!! URGH!!!! *blank!!* benjy killed all my inspirations!!! *blank* *blank*

3 Bad habits
- scanning any dark guy tat walks pass!!!! *ask BT n aM3!!* its sick...
- eating n urging for anything FORBIDEN!!! *sugar!!! ice cream!!! COKE!!!! chocolate*
- my legs shake.... *like NOW...stop!!! stop!!! i'm warning ya!!!! stop shaking!!!*

3 Painful experiences
- realising that frens may nt always last....
- caught u n her in a towel... *bustED!*
- wisdom tooth removal.... *mild when compared to the other two...but nevertheless painfull!*

3 Treasured memories
- cArToOnZ sleepover at my place after SPM....
- camp 013 *unforgettable*
- oh shyte..... *blank* again... *blink....stare...blink*....still blank... hmmm..... TO BE FILLED IN THE FUTURE

3 Goals before 30
- financially independant
- goin on a trip sumwhere away on my own budget atleast 3 times!!
- been finally happy.... *with some one i hope...nt sure who yet*

3 Favourite desserts
- chocolates!!! *ferrero roche*  *blink blink* *meltz*
- chocolate ice cream!!!
- anything CHOCOLATE!!!!

3 People I tag
- allie!!!!
- mandy!!!
- betty!!! *hahahah...newcomer!!!*

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Wednesday, October 25

tee hee!!


i have no idea wats this about... but its cute!!! so wat the heck!!!

 
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sulking away

yeah...deepavali...hari raya... holidays.... free time....woohoo!!!

wats missing?
frens i guess... 

since the gruesome murder of my beloved moto E398... i'm cut out from the outside world... definite...
it kinda sad...as i kinda found out tat my LIFE...n my WORLD revovles around a very very very limited small circle... theres the :cartoonfrenz:...a little small froup of 5 girls whom were very close frens... theres the dharma class buddies.... grew apart since i left the temple in form 4... theres family...which is like 95% of my life...n theres TZ... pathetic huh? i think so too...

every year chinese new year... my parents would ask the same question... "y ur frens never come visit u wan a??" yunno wat? i wonder too...mayb its perhaps my family is nt the psyco type...their strict n solemm..thus mayb = no fun....and also... i have loads of frens in skool...but the close wans? there was only me... sk... mp... sometimes ws.... n... ... recently kc...after that? no more...

when we were in high school... i had a clique which i most probably spend 99% of school time with... we were close n we were to last "4eva"... of course there was the myths that "friends 4eva" was bogus...it'll split no matter what...so we came up wit a little idea... on 0909 every year..we would meet up... no matter wat shit there is...we would leave that day empty... jus to meet up...  but every time when its that time already....
          "i'm bz la"
          "i have smthg on la"
          "goin out la"
          "..... ... ....."
n frankly..i'm getting sick of this....
at 1st i jus let it slide...den in coll...i happen to hav a fren tat organise a get together dinner party EVERY MONTH! n theres like 10 of em...  now this i feel pathetic... wtf?
ppl meet up every month...dinner on their own effort...
i jus wanna see u guys once a year!! sumore i n mp must plan... brain juice habis tension... den ppl say.."gt smthg on"...b4 tat ask... "anything la...up to u..."


*urgh!!!
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Monday, October 23

the death of yet another fellow companion...

:: moto E398 ::

yesterday.... was the death of two very loyal, distinctive, ever dependable, ever so trustworthy companions.... namely my moto E398 n mp's sony ericsson (which unfortunately i forgot his FULL name)...

so ppl...if u wanna call me or find me...
no use calling the cell...try the hse...
*sowee CZ for making u worry...my dad said u called...*hugs


*sigh*
mourning....
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Thursday, October 19

sejauh mana cintu kau?


i had a very hard time reading this...
its because its in broken sms malay...
but...heck its real nice...n i like it...

:: courtesy of Farouk's blog ::

Valentine hari tu ayang tanya tang mane kite
sayang kat ayang. Time tu kite tak dapat nak
jawab. Semalam ayang merajuk ngan kite, kite
dah penat nak layan. Ayang call kat kite kite
malas nak jawab. Tang mane erk kite sayang kat
ayang?
Semalaman kite duk pikir soalan tu. Pernah ke?
Maybe tak sedalam cinta Titanic atau Taj Mahal.
Sayang kite kat ayang sangatla kerdil. Sebab tu la
ayang selalu merajuk erk? Tak tahula, setahu kite:

1. Sebelum kite kenal kat ayang, setiap semester
kite dapat Anugerah Dekan. Bile dah kenal ngan
ayang, setiap semester kite ulang paper. Sebelum
kenal ngan ayang kite belajar pakai duit biasiswa,
lepas kenal ngan ayang, keluar makan lagi nak
mintak duit ngan emak kite.

2. Kalau ade 1 buah epal, kite bagi je kat ayang.
Kalau ade 2 buah epal,kita bagi yang besar kat
ayang. Kalau kite makan ikan, ayang makan tang
badan ikan tu, kite pula makan tang kepala ikan tu
je.

3. Ayang ni tak la cun sangat, tapi kite tak pernah
kutuk ayang tak cun.Tapi kite yang hensem ni
ayang lagi nak kutuk ngan member depan kite,
kata kite tak hensem langsung. Eera Fazira
berlalu depan mata, kite diam je. Takut kalau puji
kang ayang marah. Mat Indon duk depan Sogo
ayang gi ngorat time kite gi tandas. Siap mintak
nombor tepon depan kite lagi. Kalau keluar ngan
ayang, ayang slambe nak makan Starbucks, kite
tipu kite dah kenyang, padahal bile dah sampai kat
umah kite makan mee maggi.

4. Sebelum kenal ngan ayang., kite tak pernah
ade girlfriend. Selepas ayang kenal ngan kite,
genaplah koleksi ayang ada 20 boyfriend
kesemuanya. Kite tak pernah marah ayang plagirl,
dah tu ayang kata kite cam sami buddha. Kalau
ayang rasa nak cium kite, ayang cium terus tak
pernah tanya pun. Tapi bile kite rasa nak cium
ayang, lepas tanye lagi kene reject. Ayang selalu
pukul dada kite, tampar muka kite, cubit peha kite,
kite tak pernah tengking sekali pun, apatah lagi
nak cubit, nak tampar, nak pukul?

5. Pernah ayang tanya kalau ayang jatuh cinta
ngan laki lain, kite nak buat ape. Kite kate kite nak
bunuh laki tu. Tapi bile kite tanya kalau kite jatuh
cinta kat pompuan lain, ayang nak buat ape,
ayang kata nak bunuh kite, emak kite, ayah kite
ngan nenek kite. Kite beli mask Clinique ngan
ayang harga RM300 kite kate harga RM30 Ayang
beli jam tangan kat kite harga RM30 ayang kate
harga RM300. Setiap kali berjumpe kite bagi
hadiah kat ayang,tapi setiap tahun birthday kite
ayang kate dah lupe.

6. Aritu ayang peluk kite kate nak sangat romen
ngan kite, kite kata tak boleh, dosa. Ayang kate
kite tak sayang ayang. Pastu semalam ayang
pakse kite romen ngan ayang. Kalau tak ayang
nak break ngan kite. Ok pukul 2 pagi kite sanggup
bawak motor sampai Jalan Pahang nak beli
kondom. Ayang kate saje je nak test kite, pastu
marah kite keji. Kite diam je duk tepi akuarium
tengok ikan emas tengah romen.

7. Kite rosakkan headphone walkmen ayang, kite
ganti satu discman baru.Ayang rosakkan kerete
kite, ayang buat derk je. Sekali ayang demam,
kite kene diet 2kg nak jaga ayang. Sekali kite
demam, ayang tambah berat 2kg sebab abiskan
makanan kite. Kite tak pernah kata ayang pendek,
ayang marah kite tinggi sangat,member ayang
ketawakan ayang. Ayang datang umah kite, kite
tido sofa, kite datang umah ayang, kite gak yang
tido kat sofa. Mak kite belikan rantai Tiffany ngan
ayang. Mak ayang tak pernah ajak kite makan kat
umah ayang walau sekalipun.

8. Kucing umah kite bersalin, kite bagi anak
kucing yang paling cute kat ayang, 2 hari je ayang
bela, kucing tu dah mati.Ayang tak kate pa pe
pun.Ayang bagi ikan emas yang dah dekat mati
kat kite, 2 hari kite bela dah mati. Ayang kata nak
bunuh semua anak kucing kite. Ayang kalau nak
pakai duit kite, terus ambil takyah bagitau. 30 ke
80 ke seratus ke selagi wallet kite ade duit. Aritu
kite nak pinjam 10 ringgit sebab terlupe bawa
wallet, ayang kate kite kedekut. Birthday ayang
kite tak pernah terlupe. Birthday kite arini ayang
tak pernah ingat..
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Sunday, October 15

this may b the end...

yunno wat...i kind understand wats Jason is feeling now...
blogging...
n yunno wat...i come to find tat my so-called circle of friends aint tat big at all...
call me jealouse n sour...
but...... friendly n supportove friends? i'd wish i have more...
i know i have em...jus that most of them dun read blogs...
so... wats the point?

so...yea...
this MAY b the end...
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Monday, October 9

:start afresh:

ok...enuff wit the emo emo... a new face lift for bloggie...n a more cheerfull, siao me!! new sem wish? maintain the siao-ness n it'll all be alright! i will survive this...

::cookie monster loves elmo!!::


this is for u babe!! u brighten up my life!!
u noe who u r!!
::rainbow::

::cartoonfrenz::


i contacted sk tday...she's still having her finals...mayb nex weekend...we could go for a movie...haven seen the gurls in ages... we'll see if mp n ws are free... *yipeee!!
::new sem::

a new sem... loving it! best of all...aM3 n BT is bac...the siao-ness!!!
so wat if m'sian studies was a bore? so wat if there's gonna be two drawing sub this sem? so wat if its gonna be more stressed out?
i'm here... i'm happy... i have my besties... its all i need! its gonna be a rocking sem!!


a brand new start...a brand new sem...
it was raining abit tday... n aM3 gav me a lift to the bus stop...
i told her..."yunno wat, its gonna be a clear tml.."
its kinda weird but it gave me a sense of hope...
a hope that it really could be better...
::smiles:: 
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Friday, October 6

::missing you::

tday is the mid autumm fest...15th of the 8th lunar month...it was your favourite festivalwhere the whole family will gather outside uncleK's hse... sitting at the round stone table...while the kids play their lanterns...you would yell at us when we play too near your plants..as we tend to burn dem till they shrivel up...
its been 9 months since u've gone...how r u? we all missed u so.... do u miss us? ppl use to say that when our loved one passed... they would still be watching over us... r u up there amah? do u see us? can u really hear us? i saw daddy talking to you last night...he sat there in front of the praying place where u sat... he lovingly pour oil into your cup eventhough it was already full... amah...did u see that? did u see that tear that streamed down daddy's cheeks last night?we all missed u so much...i drove out to buy you orchids tday...did u see them? i know u love orchids... i placed them at your table... i hope you liked dem...remember during the starting of the year? went i was too timid to learn driving... u told me that u wanted to be my 1st passenger... "ah yen a... bien kia e... aa bai kho tio lisen liao...chua amah ke buey goreng pisang la! amah bo kia zhe le ey chia ey!!" (ah yen a...doneed to be afraid wan...nex time when u got ur license, bring amah out to buy pisang goreng la...i'm not afraid to sit your car wan...) but it was too late... when i took my P...u've already left... if it means anything amah, i drove the bunch of orchid i've bought for u around my school area jus now...
amah, cYn is pregnant now... n she said she dreamt about u... she said u told her that u knew...n u r very happy... is that true? if it is, y izzit that i've never dreamnt of u after your death?how could u b so cruel that u would'ne even let me have a glimsp of u?i'm crying my self to sleep everynite... n theres nthg i can do... amah...the momories are coming back...but i dowan dem to..it hurts too much...i remember how u use to teach us how to fold origamy balls n boats...n how we use to light candles in the boats n let it sail down the drain... i remember that u use to do crossstitch bac in muar n i would sit beside you to help you with the needle....

amah...i noe it would be selfish of me to say that i dont want u to go... but during this festive season...its jus too difficult... everytime i think of u....tears will flow down beyond my control n blurr my vision... i miss you soooo much... i missed your voice when u use to call my name...i missed your smile...that little polite small smile...filled with gratitude... i missed your eggshell jelly... n i miss your yams... amah... y did u have to go? i noe its wrong...i noe that u were suffering during the last few months.... but its jus too hard...i cant do it..the fact is...i'm breaking down... i miss you so... i even have a set of your old pajamas neatly folded in a plastic bag..its the only thing i have in my room that smells like YOU... i miss you...so badly....
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Thursday, October 5

:why:

sometimes it jus sucks being the youngest...
theres no one to play wit...
u can only listen when the 2 elders sis were up all night "sharing problems"...
i've never been apart of the "sisterhood"...
wats my role in this family...?
i'm the wan that takes out the rubbish at night, picks up the dogs poop, sweep the floor n occasionally wash the dishes...
i'm the sister who gets yelled at for not cleaning up my room...
i'm the sister who gets interogated when i come home after dinner time...
i'm the sister who gets good results n occasionally get sum gifts from dem..
i'm the sister who gets F&N freebies n maxis t-shirts...
yea...
n i'm the one who always get picked on n teased for being "daddy's little girl"...
one more thing...i'm the one with NO LIFE...

my cousin use to say that she wans sisters...coz she grew up with two brothers... k2 always wanted sisters that will share her ribbons...n go shopping with...someone to share their guy problems n do "sisterly stuff"...ekekek...guess what? i want one too... be coz i dun do that stuff... i never did... if i took my sis's hairbands...i would normally be the one being yelled at later coz she wanted to use em...

back to the NO LIFE part...gawd! even my 55year old mom has more life den me...
let me show u my family's schedule for the week...
mom has dinner with her frens on tnite, sat, sun
cYn has dinner on tnite, tml nite, sat, sun
cIn also has dinner on tnite, tml
see?? how wonderfull...

the fact that i'm the youngest and that i'm always ignored in the family, makes me closer to my dad...
my sis always says that i'm always gonna be "daddy's little gurl"...n whenever theres a argument...dad will back me up...
the thing is... what do they expect? if they spend as much time as i did with dad...they would've been daddy's gurl too...

i use to surf the net for information on Volvo cars n BMW engines n motor sports...jus to share it with my dad...i use to look up on books about sound systems coz my dad likes em... my dad is my fren... n thats a fact... he's into cars n sounds n electronics...n i'll go read up on em jus to make sure that i can share that little conversation with him... n as time goes by...i soon grew to love cars too...why is it that dad n i we have so much in common? its because i actually went n look em up stewpid!! 
and as time goes by, we grew really close...we have a bond... n i love it!

but i also grew to noe a side of my dad that my sisters will never ever know.... i grew to know thw sodter side of him... the side of him that he always covers up coz he's afraid to be a burden... i'll noe it when he's not feeling well...i can sense it when he's upset...
but we (the daughters) are growing older now...n frankly, dad isnt happy with tat..... why is it that dad will wake up 5am to make breakfast for his 18,27,29year old daughter? its not that we r incompetent...no... it has became the one n only way for him to show us that he loves us... he's getting older now....n weaker too...constant heartburns n headche but yet he still keeps it from us... he wans to feel usefull... to be able to do smthg for us, but bz bz bz daughter r always bz with the gym, dinner n freinds...the only thing he can do is jus to make sure that we dun go to school/work on an empty stomach...

tnite...when my mom was out dinner, cYn n cIn too went dinner..it struck me...if i have other plans... dad would've been alone... n it hurts me so to think of him jus sitting there alone... he doesnt have alot of friends nearby...more of his "friends" are from work...he gave up his LIFE long long time ago for his kids n wife... n now...he's alone...
when cYn gt married, dad gt drunk...happy? no...he was crushed... he realised that he's getting older... n soon...cIn will get married too...what nex? mom's outing with HER friends isnt helpinh him cope much either... he's...alone... n that fact jus sliced my heart into two.... he's unhappy, he's alone, he's worried...n since amah passed, he talked even less...

i ditched my plans wit tz during the weekends to accompany him...
i think i'll be doin that quite often soon...
but will i be doing it forever?
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Tuesday, October 3

:random:




jus sum random posts...since i'm officially free n enjoying my holidays...wahahahah....

::rambot=macho?::

ahahahah... this is one very odd n disturbing thought...but it all came from lYd's blog...
quote from her blog:
"he must have underarm hair. not a damn bush, not two pathetic strands either
(ahem... anyone recalling anyone? lolz). just enough to show he's got the macho factor
(omfg i sound so corny.... ).

it has to be hidden beneath his clothes. don't show me... gawd i'll be grossed out.
i need to know it's there, and that it's kept away from my sight.

just BE THERE."

akakak...at FIRST, it grossed me out!!!! so the !@#!@# disturbing...judge a dude from the amount of hair he has under his arm!!! wahahahah...THEN, the stewpid disturbing tot haunted me for the nex whole day!!!! AFTER TAT,  it got me thinking.... yea...actually.. it kinda make sense!! *i noe...  -_-"...swt...* buuuuttt....it true...coz i jus dun get hairless guys!!! its down right weird for a guy to be witout hair!!! yikes...kinda feel like a snake!!! weird!!! *shiveres*....so yea... a disturbing thought to haunt your day!! wahahahah....

::the new love of my life::

wahahah...dun be fooled....it aint a WHO.... its a WHAT...
the new love of my life? SPA...
i'm serious...and i have one at home... my mom bought one... the tub...the motor...the bubles...
the aroma therapy thingy...EVERYTHING....*gawd...heavenly*




::HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL::

wat can i say.... its guuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuudddddddd!!!!!!
wahahahha.... though corny.... its sweet! nice storyline... nice songs...*i love musicals!!!* ...awesome moves....*getcha head in the game*(melts)*peeps tat can dance r coooool!!*.... and...cute dudes!!! although alot of ppl like troy....i however would go "ga-ga" over CHAD!!!


:: hot guys::

this...ladies n gentlemansss...is my passion.... its my hobby... n i'm loving every single part of it!!!!
GUYS!!! that are hottttttttt...n guuuudddd!!!

theres no placing wat so ever...its jus a few guys that pops up in my mind....that i happen to think tat they are hottttttt!!!!!

wahahahah...
andy lau      (this dude will never grow old!!)
    micheal buble (he looks gud in a tux n he can sing!)


 andy hui  (ahhh...the old boyish charm)                        brad pitt (*drools)
                            wonbin (korean...*sizzle*)
  leehom(hottie hot hot!!)   
                       james denton (badboy plumber...ooooooo...i like!!)
chad miacheal murray (*awwwwww*)
                                 simon webbe (ahem! *wipes sweat!)
                       utt (cutie!!)
tom cruise (old timer..short...but still hot!)


wat do they have in common...nthg much....except the fact tat they r HOT!! wahahahah....

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