a twist to a GREAT day...

this was suppose to be yesterday's post... i was so amped up to blog the 1st think i got home...but den the day jus went down hill....

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the day started abit slow as i woke up kinda late...i've been doin tat pretty often lately, especially after i pulled the 100 working non sleeping hours...muahahha....
ANYHOOOOO....
a holiday wit a bestie...its gotta be fun... see the color of this part? its dedicated to u!!
met up wit aM3 at coll at around 12.40pm...ehehe....wanted to go over for lunch...so the gangho...walking in summit...den i suddenly remembered i was on a vegetarian diet tat day!! * soweeeeeee!!!!* but aM3 was sweet enuf to makan wit me at a place she would normally jus smack me on my head!!! *hugs!!... we settled our working hours n we went n meet up wit Mr N... still tinking of changing dept...but...as they say the grass on the other side is greener,  but once we got over to the other side...it turns out to be almost the same... every dept has its issues...and i'm starting to tink mayb sticking to Mr N aint half that bad.... *hmmmphhhh..... scratch head* well..after that, we went for a movie!!!! woohoooo!!! you, me n dupree....erm... kinda let down tho...the show was kinda lame... had to lepak around for almost an hour for that show too.... but that din ruin the day...cuz the company was awesome!! we went to BCC for the sake of jus finding a place to rest our butts... aM3 ordered a scoop of ice cream... finished within half an hour..den we fiddled wit the melted ice cream leftovers later...*gross!! akaka..but still fun!!!* we're a weird bunch..i noe...but i still like it!!


went for dinner after the meeting wit the temple committee... the mid autumn festival event is on this sat... hmmmphhhh...emceeing again...i guess tats wat ppl do when they have  limited sources...they'll reuse u again n again n again n again n AGAIN..ahahha...but i aint whining... feels good to be able to help..tho i might screw it up agin..wahahahha....* oh well...*

when i was in secondary school...there's this mamak place where we use to all hang out... every tom dick and harry from klang noes bout this place...its in the middle of the ever popular street where there's around 5 tuition centres there!! MODERN....oh the memories... *sob sob*

i went over to Modern for dinner yesterday...i havent been there in more den 6 months... tot mayb it would be a pretty okay idea... i went upstairs coz it was pretty jampack below... as i was walking up, i heard a very fimiliar voice... jus as i went up, i saw THEM... 
i saw HIM... we use to have smthg... we use to be an item..i trusted u wit all my heart...actually believed tat it was all meant to be... after such a long time...it wasnt a fling..i really felt for u...
i end up being hurt... thrown away like a used tissue paper.... how was i suppose to bear wit the pain? and i saw HER... its ironic coz we use to be pretty close...not the really close n best frens...but we went pretty way back... she was the one i use to talk to...she was the one that use to gave me advices...
 how ironic was it? to find u wit him... i was quite taken aback when i was at his doorstep... i knocked on the door.. and there u were... wrapped in a towel... i tried to be the better one..i tried to stay strong..i smiled n i left...but the tears started to flow once i turned my back... i'll never forget that smugg expression u gave me... never...
i tried to be the strong gurl... i sat there n acted as tho nthg has ever happen between us... i smiled at dem..n i sat down... den she jus couldnt hide her smug.. she grinned from ear to ear as tho it was a battle n she won... *and she cant stop showing em winninf trophies too!* dun lie..i saw tat..i saw her face when she slipped her hands down his pocket... she was looking at me..taunting me even... *jeesshh!!!! and it really did get to my head!* i saw her eyes when she nibbled at his ear... and of course her ever so popular "dun la!!" giggle.... 
i snapped... but i din do anything..i went downstairs... ppl might tink tat i'm still in love wit him... no..its not jealosy for i'm very sure of that... i dun feel anything for him anymore...even if he jumped of the building... its was her tat i was pissed at... no... it wasnt jealousy, it was ANGER...

i went downstairs smiling...altho still abit pissed...but i was pround tat i din make a scene...so i went n sat downstairs... and there SHE was... i was stunned..its been 2 years since we last spoken... she sat there wit her bf... 
i din noe who... i stood in front of the shop for a pretty long time...mustering the courage to walk up to her...to tell her tat it was a misunderstanding... i wouldnt do anything to hurt her... 
*kinda ironic from the previous situation above huh? she tot i was after her bf coz we were pretty close...all 3 of us... 
but the guy was a jerk to start wit..turns out he was 3 timing her...* 
i walked in...lokking at her...she saw me too... i stared at her...searching for the same fimiliar sparkle in her eyes...yet i see nthg... blank... i stopped 1 table away from her.... hoping tat mayb she could jus smile at me... or even stand up... she did! she stood up... but she turned around n went behind to the washroom... i tot  this was it... after so many years, you'll finallly give me a chance to explain... my heart leaped...but it fell down a bottomless pit when u turned n walked out on me again...my heart ached ad tho it was sliced...6 years we've known each other...6 whole years of tears n laughs, screams n smiles... we would cling on to each other, we would tell each other secrets....6 years...doesnt it mean anything to you?
i sat by at the table near the entrance... no wanting to be too near to her in case i'll agitate her even more... she came out from the washroom furious...and told her bf " lets go...i dowanna eat already..." n she walked off....

and i jus sat there...

there's one thing bad about a ever popular hangout place is tat...u dun go there alone..ur always wit company..either frens n your significant other half... FYI...sitting there alone was excruciating... so i got up n walk back into the car.... once the door was locked n i put the key in..i couldnt even turn the key as tears were flowing down my cheeks... i couldnt stand it any longer...i din do anything wrong... how could my best fren status changed to bitch status in jus a week? all i did was stand by u guys when the times was rough... consoling u... talking to him..telling him to understand ur situation... eventho i knew he was a jerk..but u loved him so much...












wat a day...


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