sometimes i wake up at night when its raining, frightened and cold...i dunno wat woke me up... mayb its d rain, mayb its d cold, mayb its d thunder...or mayb...its the sheer loneliness alongside wit everything else...
i hate it when i wake up in the middle of the night, i always prefer and prayed that i'll sleep all the way thru... den, i wouldn't have to sit alone in the dark, staring into an empty space... wondering wats wrong wit the world...wats wrong wit ppl...and wats wrong wit me??
being a typical emofying gal...i always think too much... when will my journey alone end? when will god send me some1 to accompany me thru this crap? will i survive this crap? does god knows tat i'm here? mayb he missed me when he was checking...ish..he shud learn from santa...gotta check twice ma!!! i dunno... sometimes i doubt the beautiful stories and movies..does true love really exist?? is there really that perfect someone for everyone? is there really a guy tat will make u smile even if the sky falls down on u? is there really a guy tat will hold u thru the night to kepp u warm and to keep u company? the guy tat will do anything jus so tat ur dreams will come true...whether it is to fly to paris for d eiffel tower or sunset by the beach?some one tat understands and tolerate your weird temper and tantrums... some one tat will wash away your sadness and share your happiness, being wit u thru ur triumph and despair...someone to help u and hold u...pamper you and love you? is there really such a person? or have we been brainwashed by too many disney movies of cinderella and snow white? to many "u jump i jump", "i will love you until the end of time" movies??
dun get me wrong..i appreciate the ppl around me... i appreciate ppl like aM3*hugz*, J*muacks!*, P*hugs*, M*huggies*...loads of ppl... but being a typical emofying gal in the mist of a cold lonely rainy night...haihz...
i'm clueless...u tell me....
:enigma:
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