24-04-2010

the graduation

as i fell into bed at 4am that night before.

after ironing my jubah and this ridiculously frilly shirt mom wanted me to wear for graduation.

my mind wondered as i looked back into the experience which started March 2006.

college; not form6.

advertising ; not law.

so many choices made.

so many decisions taken.

friends; life.

assignments; hanging out.

from the eddy(s), betty, allie and calvin.

for some reason i cant recall this adorable indian girl's name we met in sem1.

she left after sem1.

eddy(s) & calvin too soon after sem 3.

and then it was only A, B & C.

Alicia, Betty & Caryn. :)

chilling at 1st floor cafe (now the exam halls) =.=

rotting at the printing shop in summit.

catching RM5 bucks movies in summit.

Temaning each other (mostly betty's) shopping trips in summit.

breakfast with allie,

lunch with the duo.

dinner with betty.

the malay shop with RM3.90 nasi lemak + coffee/tea set.

point B! shopping for the "C cup bra" O.o

McDonalds; allie always picks out her pickle in her beef burger.

Mady's; she'd pick out the mushrooms in the mushroom rice set!

KFC; betty loved KFC.

drinking soup for lunch sometimes too!

how we'd chill in the 3rd floor's mac room with Mr Lim n Mr Nizam.

how we blindly yelled and giggled in the darkroom doing silkscreen.

spraying the frames in the toilet.

"panning" at the bus stop with god knows how many mamats staring at us wondering wtf we're doing.

the malay boys during videography class were awesome.

fiqs (she's a chick btw), wan, amir and so many more.

alif, zul complaining about their sore asses after riding to shah alam for a shoot.

so many memories.

running everywhere.

DUREX! what a topic it was.

the subject of preference. i dunno why?

copywriting finals Use a Condom.

Videography finals about STDs

Presentation skills finals about Durex too.

it was fun tho.

running everywhere chasing down glass bottle coke!

lugging 345 bottles in my car and everywhere.

miniature museum, gawd how i wanted to cry.

thank god for april n henry for their expertise.

the coke shoot, filix n lydia drinking hot coke in the hot sun;

posing for my shoots at 2pm in the afternoon.

:P

Prison of Art.

the previous grad showcase.

chenny, alex, sunsun, yy, soosoo, tarquin, aya ; Mr Jye!

the bunch of ppl which i met much later yet bonded so strongly too.

bunch so people so sincere and true.

we'd giggle the nights thru playing with leftover ice, going on trips to camerons.

as we talked about love, bonds, trust, friends, ex-s, sex and gawd i cant rmb any more.

after graduation, i started another chapter at LB.

tho graduation came late, 1 yr late.

seeing old friends. yumi, serene, joyce, cyndi, kylie, natalie, zhanhong, ANDRY!, hendy.

:)

it was still nice.

as everyone all dressed up, with their mortar boards positioned nicely.

checking buttons, "how do i look?" :)

checking in the mirror, checking each others hair and look.

smile! you walk up to shake hand n get the fake scroll.

pose for the camera. as proud parents grinned from ear to ear.

i saw this auntie super gungho.

sneaked infront with her digital camera, zooming 10x with the kuchirat screen.

hands shaking as she aims at her son walking up the stage.

she smiled at the grainy, blurred out shot. Proud! :)

when his daughter walked up,

proud dad with this adorable bow tie, stood up.

smiled as he clapped so loudly.

bobbing heads as you see the lines on graduate waited beside the stage.

waving at their parents. checking if everyone's there.

as we moved on to other chapters of our life.

the experience (to me at least) was indeed memorable.

yea, i gt 11As for spm.

but advertising was my choice, i'm pretty proud of that!

advertising design, the whole package of experience. I'm nt regretting a bit.

ok la... mayb a lil (the part where i din get to go on for a degree)

but everything happens for a reason.

what din kill u, will only make u stronger.

or else, i wouldnt be in LB now would i?

but thats a diff chapter of my life now.

another chapter i'll conquer and elaborate another time. :)

for now, YES I've Graduated!

woots!

when they annouced this year's top student.

3.99 cgpa?

ok la i was being rather kiasu.

ahhahaha. buthen c'mon 0.01 from full 4.0 flat!!

impossible! impossibleee!!

hehhehhe.

as Doraemon Mr. Lim said, "arts too subjective" :)

will update with photos if i get any la!

DAN the MAN

hahhah.
make sure you watch till the every end!

weeeee~ donnie yen!

i have a...
humongous HUGE crush on...
Donnie Yen!

ever since highschool!
or primary school...
O.o

weeeeee... excited!
Ip Man 2!

*drools*
Hou Yao Yenggggg aaaa!!

:)

aaaa...
macho nye~

--- lalalalalalal---

Surreal

everything seems so surreal.
i wonder if its a good thing or a bad thing.

productivity has been superduper max.
however mentality has been down low.
I'm TIRED!!!

:(


*on a separate note Mooky's introduced my otaks to LMFAO's music.
which has been thumping in my ear ever since.
I LIKE~~~

(i shake, i move, and the girls get hot... )

25 for Haiti

great song. Love the new twist.

loving the new rap.

Rapping - LL Cool J, Will-I-Am, Snoop Dogg, Busta Rhymes, Swizz Beatz]

We all need somebody that we can lean on
when you wake up look around and see that your dreams gone
when the earth quakes we’ll help you make it through the storm
when the floor breaks a magic carpet to stand on
we are the World united by love so strong
when the radio isn’t on you can hear the songs
a guided light on the dark road your walking on
a sign post to find the dreams you thought was gone
someone to help you move the obstacles you stumbled on
someone to help you rebuild after the rubble’s gone
we are the World connected by a common bond
Love the whole planet sing it along

art

At the End of Day Break

a promise is a promise.
I'll never let you down.

i watched it. with all pride n joy, i manage to catch the very last show of "At the End of DayBreak" on the very last day.

As the credits rolled out, i smiled when i saw his name.
I smiled as i shared a tiny piece of this joy & pride.
I smiled as i saw him justifying the choices that he made.

这条路走来不容易。每一个选择，每一步，都会是跌跌又撞撞。
看着你的用心，看着你往自己的梦想努力。
不晓得为什么，我笑了。
心里很开心，那么点点的骄傲。
好好加油。

Title: At The End Of Daybreak
Writer/Director: Ho Yuhang
Starring: Chui Tien Yau, Wai Ying Hung, Jane Ng
Malaysia/Hong Kong/South Korea 2009

Tuck Chai (Chui Tien You), is a 23 yr old guy, someone who’s still looking for something in life even a simple direction, Ying (Ng Meng Hui), in contrast, is still in high school, having all the care in the world of a girl of 16yr old.

This is despite of the lower-class existence that Tuck Chai and his mother (Wai Ying-hung) - my favourite! leads. Whom the father left mother for her younger sister. Depressed, she often turns to the bottle, seeking for solace in alcohol.

The details of the story, i find interesting. With so much attention to the details, it brings back a sense of tenderness. As the story unveils on the relationship between Tuck Chai and his mom, how they need each other to actually maintain the dynamics of this relationship, how his mom grooms him, cuts his hair. Witness the relationship between Tuck Chai and his mother; at times, it seems as if that relationship is reversed, with the son coming to the rescue of his mother time and again after she gets drunk. There's the tenderness and lingers when you see how these 2 characters interact.

What we have here, a cycle. A trend that's seemingly never ending, it goes round and round and round and round. The lack of morality in a way sometimes become the driving force for the story.

Two relatively innocent characters, not necessarily perfect, who paid the price for a mistake, a mishap that led to alot of unexpected grave consequences. Most synopses describe the film that way. When in the movie, you'd feel that theres really a feel of things and tension building up. all leading up to a certain point where you'd ask yourself "How now???"

I find myself being so much amused & attracted to the combination & marriages of several different elements. For example, shots of Tuck Chai on his motorbike, with the light from the inside of the tunnel reflected against his visor, as he raced into the tunnel, as the prayer call roared around him. What a powerful moment, a stunning combination of visual and sound…

Another part which i loved was how the film looks at greed and desire, and simply let these 2 elements work themselves within the show at so many levels. With all her angry and troubles with her ex husband, Tuck Chai's mom turn to him when she needed help. Though they still hold a sense of civility for each other, it is money that brings them together. It is also money that would lead to the film’s tragic end, not because it is needed but because of the greed for it which cause the incidents to happen.

However, I am confused at a few things. Perhaps the director's dicision between having a piece of human drama, or a genre crime film. Some people liked it this way, some however found it rather odd. Ying (the leading female character)'s lack of emotions troubles me sometimes, i spend quite alot of moment wondering "why she stones a?", macam no response saje. Maybe it was her character, maybe I couldn't understand the movie well enough. but yea... "why a?"

Pete Teo’s music adds to the overall feeling of the film incredibly well. Haunting, at times chilling, but always beautiful.

I write this, then, not as a review in a way, but more of an exposition of what I feel and think as I watch this film.

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When Yasmin came up, even for the brief minutes. I was stunned.
I didn't know that she cameo in it.
The sudden overwhelming of emotions came when she laughed.
I'd never imagine or thought that I'd ever hear them again.
I saw her smile today. I heard her laugh.
Gawd, she is terribly missed.

love. 1 , 2 or 3?

人的一生中要遇见很多人，
In our life, we meet numerous types of people.
茫茫人海中，
amongst all of them
你总要遇见这三个人。
you'd meet these 3 person.

第一个是你最爱的人，
the 1st one, the person you love most.
第二个是最爱你的人，
the 2nd one, the person who'd love you most.
第三个是和你共度一生的人。
and the 3rd, the person that you'd spend the rest of your life with.

首先会遇到最爱的人，
when you meet the one you love most,
然后体会到爱的感觉。
you'd truly know and feel how it is to be in love.
因为了解被爱的感觉，
after you understood how it feels to be loved,
所以才能发现最爱你的人。
that's how you'd find the person who adores & love you most.
当你经历过爱与被爱，
when you've loved & felt loved in return,
学会了爱才知道什么是你最需要的。
you'd learn & understand what is it that you truly needs.
也才会找到最适合你，
then finally you'd find the one person most suitable,
能够和你相处一辈子的人。
to spend the rest of your life.

但是很无奈，
but its quite unfortunate,
在事实生活中，
tat in real life,
这三个人往往不是同一个人。
these 3 person might never be the same person.

最爱你的，
the one who loves you most,
往往不是你最爱的。
might not be the one you's love most.
你最爱的，
the one you love,
往往没有选择你。
for some reason might not have chosen you.
而最长久的，
the longest relationship,
偏偏不是你最爱的，
may not be with the one you love most,
也不是最爱你的。
might not even be the one who'd love you most.
只是在最适合的时间出现的那个人。
just the person who appeared in your life, just at the right timing.

你会是在别人生命中的第几个呢？
what about you? ever wondered if you're number what?

没有人是故意要变心的。
no one would purposely change their heart and leave.
他爱你的时候是真的爱你，
when he loved you, he really did.
可是他不爱你的时候，也是真的不爱你了。
but when he stopped loving you, he really did.
他爱你的时候，没有办法假装不爱你，
when he love you, there was no way he could deny loving you.
同样的，他不爱你的时候，也没有办法假装爱你。
but when he stopped loving you, there was no way that he could pretend to continue loving you.

当一个人不爱你，要离开你。。。
when he says he's leaving you,
你要问自己还爱不爱他？
ask yourself, do you still love him?
如果你也不爱了，
if you don't,
千万不要为了可怜的自尊，而不要离开。
then don't just linger on for the sake of self pity and dignity.
如果你还爱他，
if you still love him,
你应该会希望他过的幸福快乐。
the you'd wish him to find his happiness & bliss.
希望他跟真正爱的人在一起，
hope that he'll find he one for him,
决不阻止。
not to stop him or hold anything against him.

你要阻止他得到真正的幸福，
if you want to stop him from finding his happiness
就表示你已经不爱他了。
perhaps, you dont love him anymore
如果你不爱他，
if you dont
又有什么资格指责他变心呢？
who are you to be angry over the fact that he left? whats the point?

爱不是占有。
to love is never to own.
你喜欢月亮，
if you like the moon,
不可能把月亮拿下来，
you can't just pluck it from the sky
放在面盆里。
and place it i your room.
但月亮的光芒依然会照进你房间。
but the moonlight will still shine into your room every night if you leave the window open.

换句话说，
in other words,
你爱一个人，
if you love a person,
也可以用另一种方式占有。
theres other ways of loving that person.
让爱人成为生命中永恒的回忆。
by having him as a chapter in your life you'd never forget.

如果你真爱一个人，
if you love him,
就要爱他原来的样子。
you'd love him for who he is.
爱他的好，也爱他的坏。
the good and the bad.
爱他的优点，也爱他的缺点。
his good values and his bad habits.
决不能因为爱他，就想让他变成自己希望的样子。
you cant change him to someone else just because you love him.
万一变不成就不爱他了。
and if he cant change you'd love him lesser?

真正爱一个人，是无法说出原因的。
there's no reason actually, if you really love a person.
你只知道，无论何时何地，都希望这个人陪着你。
you just know that, no matter when or where, you'd want to have him by your side.

你呢,找到了第几个？
What about you? How many have you found?

茫茫人海中，
你遇见了你，你又遇见了谁？
amongst all these people,
who have you found? and who has found you?