Screw it.

Shit I’m blardy emo now.

*sigh

I always feel so low and left out when ever I hear other people going to catch a movie.
Or that they’ve seen transformers or ice age or whatever new shows that coming out.

I’m always been a movie junkie.
I loved chasing trailers for shows; I knew The Curious Case of Benjamin Button was going to come out 1 year before, same goes with The Fast and Furious, The Dark Knight, Spiderman, Wolverine, Transformers, Ice Age and all. And I’ll anticipate EVERY SINGLE one until they’re out on the silver screen.

I wouldn’t even mind watching them alone.

A part of me blamed time and Mother Nature for it, I really do.

I use to watch movies with my friends, den we graduated; they had their cliques and their own friends. And it’s so goddamn frustrating when I ask, “Hey you wanna watch a movie?” And they’d go. “I watched that one jor wo…wit XXX & XXX”. And the worst thing? It happens all the time. EVERY SINGLE TIME. We’ll always end up watching some old out of season crappy movie then what was intended. BUMMER.

Now why is it that they’ve watch every single blockbuster out there while CARYN have not? I wonder why CARYN didn’t watch Transformers or why CARYN missed Wolverine or why CARYN didn’t watch The Dark Knight?

Right….? Caryn dun have that bunch of friends to constantly go out and watch the movies. Even mamak sessions have to be planned 1 month before! Even then, half the people couldn’t come.

It seriously hurts. To feel kinda… alone.