hurts.

it hurts knowing that they'll nvr understand.
it hurts knowing that they support you but its nvr the same.
it hurts when eventho u wished they might be proud of u, but it turns out to be just nt enough.

it hurts. knowing that i'm like second class compared to the rest.

i brought my parents today to the graduation showcase i was working on day and night for the past week.
mom went in.... and came out before i can count to 15.
dad tried... at least... but mom was rushing him out already.

:(

all week... all i heard was yelling and nagging.
i wasnt out partying. i wasnt out messing around.
i was dwelling on the works of this showcase.
it might be a waste of time to everyone else.
but i learnt alot. i met alot of seniors.
i had fun.

doesnt that matters at all?

i actually thought i did pretty well.
y dun i feel good about it any more?

doubts.