uh huh

feel like crap sumtimes...its like u tink u noe sumone, but u dun...
sum ppl look happy outside, but their cracking n falling apart inside... u wouldn't noe, i envy ppl like those... everything can be bottled up without the whole wide world noeing bout it...
some ppl seem to be really close to u...the so-called "laugh together, cry together" type... but turns out to be jus ur own imagination...it wasnt tat much... mear frens i guess...personal? hmmm...
i wanna be strong too... i wanna be the strong wan...i wanna stand up n stand tall...but i find my knees shaking n my face turning pale...i'm tired, i'm feeling sick...before u noe it..i'm back down on the floor... lying there, lifeless... waiting..waiting... i can see ppl around me...the shame...the embarassment..it feels as though i'm lying naked on the floor... everyone is pointing n staring..i jus wanna run...run away from this place...run as far as my legs could carry me... but i cant hide, no matter how badly i wanted to.... i couldn't....
tears streaming down my cheeks, it feels so empty...inside... theres nthg but a sudden numbness.. perhaps it hurts too much tat it turned numb...perhaps, i'm liberated...perhaps... or mayb its gone worst, i've gone from feeling bad to feeling nthg... sheer emptiness...


on a lighter note...


according to the month tat i was born...
You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have an a very attractive partner. a wicked hottie. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection.
*wheres my wicked hottie den??*

ppl say i need a guy... why? why do u tink i NEED a guy? its never a NEED, why is it tat no one understands tat?