a story...

she was standing at the corner, eyes fixed upon him... staring down at him as he leaned upon the side of the balcony... his big eyes, his brows, his nose... anyone can see tat he was nervous, his hands cant stop moving against the side of the wall, he's breathing thru his mouth... his angular jawline, his features... all so tensed up... she's never seened him so frustrated b4... but she made up her mind... its worth a try... why nt? go for it...

hey, erm.. tat day...the question u asked me... did u really mean it?
her mind was racing was racing... wat if it was jus a lie? tat everything was jus so superficial... it happened to be jus bogus?
of course i meant wat i said. i've tot about it since years ago. i din jus wake up one mornin n decided tat i wanna be wit u.
it sounded real enuf...
jus looking at him, as he stares down into the night... he's afraid... so is she.... could this be it?
standing at the corner of the building where they 1st met.... it was years ago... n yet the memories seemed as though it was jus yesterday...
but... wat if it doesnt work out? we've been friends since we were kids... things will get ugly... it will be awkward....
suddenly all her courage jus fled... she started to hesitate... theres too much at risk... he was her best friend... her best pal... he stuck to her when things gt rough... having a fren like him was a blessing... losing a friend like him wouldve crushed her...
i dowanna ruin wat we had... we had smthg...it was gud... i dowanna lose it... i dowanna ruin it... we've known each other for years...y now?
she's hesitating.... he can sense tat.... she feels insecure, unsafe....
still looking at him, hoping tat he would give her the explaination she needed...hoping tat he could say smthg to tell her tat it will work out..no matter wat..this is it... but he din say anything...
he's thinking... he's pondering... she could see the veins at his temple pulsing... his jaw tight...
i use to be a loser. i use to be nthg. everyone gave up on me. u din. i feel for u... both u n i know it. i din have the guts to tell u this b4 bcoz i wasnt ready... i wasnt gud enuf...
i din say tat... we all stood by u...none of us ever pushed u away...
i wasnt gud enuf... i was never gud enuf... not for u...
have i ever told u or showed u tat i mind?
no...but u would've been the laughing stock in town... when we were young, i was flunking from classes while u were topping em... when we were in high school, i was being bashed by gangsters n bashing ppl while u were the school prefect wit the perfect record... after tat, u scored in ur exams... me? i dropped out.
you had ur own probs...we all knew tat, i know tat...
but now it diff. u dun have to worry anymore. i've turn over a new leaf. i'm working now... i'm earning now. 3to4ks... i'll work real hard n the numbers will increase... i'm nt playing a fool... believe me when i tell u tat.
he put his hands on her shoulder n turned her towards him...
she was staring right at his eyes... tears compiling at the edge of his eyes, threatening to flow...
i never doubted u... but... this isnt gonna be easy... nt wit my parents... nor my family... its jus too much to risk.
her heart was aching as she said those words... she could feel her whole world came crumpling down as she uttered those cruel, cold words...
u remembered this corner? we used to meet here so often its almost like "our place". do u remembered when i started smoking in form2? u called me up here n u asked for my fag. i half thought u wanted to throw it away...or burn it..it so like u. instead, u took one out, n u put it into ur mouth... i pulled it immediately away from u... u asked me y. i told u tat its dangerous n it hurts me to see u like this. u looked at me, n u smiled. u hugged me n u said "wat to u tink i feel when i see u like this?"....hehehe...i went home tat night. n i nvr touched a cigarrete since.
she jus stood there awed... he remembered it so clearly... looking at him as he speaks, he smiles abit...its almost like he's envisioning the whole scene once again....
do u remember when u broke up wit x? we were up here the whole night. u were so sad... u were crying the whole night thru... u have no idea how much it hurts me inside.. seeing u cry... as i stood there helpless... i held u in my arms tat night, i held u so tight... wishing tat i could sumhow ease ur pain... i wanted to tell u tat i'm here for u...i wanted to tell u tat i'll always be here for u... i wanted to tell u tat i love u... ... ... ...
but i din...
tears were running down her cheeks...she couldn't hold it in any longer... her fingers trembling... her knees quaking....she could bear it anymore....
wat about tat time i was thinking of dropping out... how the teachers scolded me.. how dad scolded me... telling me tat its wrong...telling me tat its a stupid decision... i half expected u to do so too.... but when we were up here, u came behind me... put ur arms around me, n gave me a big, long hug... u din say a word... u put ur arms on my shoulders n u started to slowly rub em... very slowly, u whispered in my ears... "frustrated huh? dun worry, i'm here"...n tats all i needed to hear...
he turned around n looked at her.... she was crying... her body was shaking... slowly he gathered her into his arms, hugged her n cradled her against his chest... waiting silently for her sobs to ease...
please...dun cry...i din mean to force u... i totally understand watever it is tat u say... u have ur choice n i'll respect u for it...
very slowly, she raised up her hands tat were swinging beside her body. she wrapped herself around him...
u have no idea how much i love to have u in my arms... u have no idea how badly i wanted to hold u tight n tell u i love u...
he tilted her head upwards to check on her as she was so quiet... she was staring into his eyes, his dazzling eyes.... he was searchin, searching for a sign...any sign....
she smiled.... n she burried her face back into his chest...
he chuckled...held her even more tightly in his arms...
i love you...
mmm hmm... u noe i do too...

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