Wednesday, June 23

damansara


staying with bro for the moment.
coz klang's bridge is killing me.

at times, rare times... i do still enjoy my bro's company.
:)
watching TV at night.
going for breakfast with him or dinner if i balik awal.

i jus realized on the sunday that I've moved in.
I do have some canggih manggih undeveloped packing & cleaning skills.
:P
skills which i have ignored most of my life.
but i tink i did a pretty OK job for the room la... :)
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but all the cleaning and everything.
my sinus came back.
urgh!
every morning and night.
*sniff sniff*

:(
i'll sneeze until i can feel my double bunk bed shaking~
scared later runtuh.
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everything's pretty calm now...
its comfortable.

not extremely good.
yet... no drama so far.

I jus need to absorb myself in work and the PRESENT.
it'll all be fine.

its gonna be.
the world's not gonna stop or explode simply because of a person.
right?

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i am trying to move on.
staying in damansara has been a good thing thus far.
being away has been therapeutic.
Tina being in Singapore has given me awesome perspective.
Sometimes we just need to be brave and walk away.
even if it hurts sometimes... a little bit....or more...
but the world is still revolving.

why pause and stuck?
in the past?
what about the future...?
what about the present.

it is true that we should be living in the present. doing everything we have for today. :)
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eagerly awaiting the day...
when all these will be over.
when the sun will shine.

"what u saying?"
OF COZ THE SUN WILL COME OUT LA!

:)
correct or not?

Monday, June 14

结束,也是一个开始吗?

我把自己关起来只留下一个阳台
每当天黑推开窗我对着夜幕发呆
看着往事
一幕一幕
再次演出你我的爱

我把电视机打开听着听着别人的对白
也许那些故事可以给我一个交代
你要的爱
我学不来
眼睁睁看情变坏
人怔怔看情感慨

不能给你未来
我还你现在
安静结束也是另一种对待
当眼泪留下来
伤已超载
分开也是另一种明白

我给你
最后的疼爱是手放开
不要一张双人床中间隔着一片海
感情的污点就留给时间慢慢漂白
把爱收进胸前左边口袋
最后的疼爱是手放开
不想用言语拉扯所以选择不责怪
感情就像候车月台
有人走就有人来
我的心是一个站牌
写着等待

我把收音机打开听着别人的失败
哽咽的声音仿佛诉说着相同悲哀
你的依赖
还在胸怀
我无法轻易推开
我无法随便走开
感情中专心的人容易被伤害

just me

Saturday, June 12

onwards and upwards!

Tell me...

how do you pick something up...
grew so attached to it, love it, live with it...
and only to find 1 day... it's never suppose to be yours at all?

how to do live with that?
how to you move on?
can time really heal it all?
will it ever pass?


ok.
stop.
too much.

*rewind*

people say we'll meet alot of people as we grow up.
people that come and go.
people that came and left.
its better to have them in our lives.
then to have never gotten the chance to meet them at all.

he taught me how to be myself.
he taught me to appreciate art.
he taught me how to compromise.
and he taught me how to love.

not a single person per say.
a combination of "passerby" i might say.
people that came and left a mark.

some still hurts now.
some have already been part of some awesome memories.

i'm a little lost in the sense of what i want now.
everything is suppose to be NOT as complicated as we think they seem remember?
life's suppose to be simple.
even if it gets tough,
just remember not to lose yourself in the midst of finding your way.
the journey is the main part of the adventure anyways.

right??

yea...

i tink so.

:)
*finger crossed*


Friday, June 4

Tale as old as time

Disney's movies were my childhood memories.
I wasn't watching anything else. O.o
I remember the 2 pc CDs of Mulan, Prince of Egypt, Toy Story...
and of course the big black VHS tapes of Pinocchio, Sleeping Beauty, The Little Mermaid, Lion King and finally Beauty & The Beast.

I can't remember from when i stopped watching these Disney movies.
Probably when i stopped believing in Fairy Tales, Happily Ever Afters and Dream Come Trues.
When u start to get frustrated of how the real world is NOT a disney world, I guess that was when i started to not believe. Simply because they won't happen anyway.

Beauty and the Beast was not my fav. Haha.
Maybe coz i was only 3 yrs old when it came out.
and the visualization of the movie scared me a little when I was younger.
But mostly, I din like Beauty and the Beast (last time) because I did not want The Beast to change into the HANDSCOME man. I was like " why la always become pretty boi again de??!!!" (somemore he was BLONDEEE!!!)
hehe... sorry. I kinda like the beast more, fur, passion, BIGness of him and how awkward he was (yet how gentle he was) with Belle.

So yea... sejak dulu dulu aku boycott Beauty & the Beast! :P

BUT DISNEY SOUNDTRACKS!!! thats a whole new story.
I love them! every single one of them!

Maybe because I boycotted Beauty & The Beast when i was a kid, the soundtrack Tale as Old as Time didn't had any significant impact on me. I listened to it alot still, just never took noticed of it enough.

Unexpected encounter with this song again recently. :)
As the melody flowed seamlessly into my head, i can't help but realized the lyrics of the song.
something unexpected. taking a risk, taking a chance, embracing change.
:) nothing is as plain as how its seem, yet it's not as complicated that you'd think it is.


Tale as old as time
true as it can be
barely even friends
then some body bends
unexpectedly

Just a little change
small to say the least
both a little scared
neither one prepared
beauty and the beast

Ever just the same
ever a surprise
ever as before
ever just as sure
as the sun will rise

Tale as old as time
tune as old as song
bitter sweet and strange
finding you can change
learning you were wrong
certain as the sun
rising in the east

Tale as old as time
song as old as rhyme
Beauty and the beast x2
off to the cupboardwith you chip its past your bed time

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